‘Let me ring him anyway. Let me ask him. He’s a friend of yours, is he?’
‘Well … he has a garden centre. I used to go there a bit. He’d have my address – he delivered plants to me. He knows where I live.’
A garden centre. The only person he could come up with was someone with a garden centre a bus ride away.
‘I’ll ring him,’ Sarah promised. If the man had a heart she’d get around him: he’d surely oblige an old customer in need. She’d give him the number of St Sebastian’s, ask him to call if he saw any sign of the cat. What would happen after that, she had no idea. Let them find the cat first, if it was to be found. Maybe this George would take it in, look after it until Charlie was ready to go home. If all came to all she’d send Neil to get it and bring it back, and she’d look after it herself. There was always a way, if you wanted something badly enough.
She got a description of the cat from Charlie and found the garden centre in the Golden Pages. She rang it first thing in the morning from Matron’s office. She asked for George, and was told he was out doing a delivery. ‘I’m his partner,’ the man on the other end told her. ‘Maybe I can help you.’
It was a long shot – he might never even have met Charlie. But she’d made the call, she might as well try, and he sounded nice. ‘It’s a bit of a long story,’ she said. ‘Allow me to explain.’
Helen
‘You got a cat?’
From the look on her mother’s face, Helen might as well have told her she had the plague. They sat in her parents’ spacious drawing room, the September sun a red ball slipping behind the roofs of the houses across the road, red and purple sky reflected in the giant gilt-framed mirror that hung above the fireplace.
Her father’s eightieth birthday, Black Forest Gateau and sherry all around, except for Alice who was drinking Fanta. Helen had given him a copy of Frank Delaney’s Silver Apples, Golden Apples: Best Loved Irish Verse. Alice had sketched Malone’s cat and put it into a frame that she’d found selling for thirty pence in a charity shop. No doubt her grandparents would find a suitable spot for it; the downstairs toilet maybe.
‘It’s not our cat,’ Helen told her mother. ‘It belongs to our neighbour. Alice looks after it mostly, don’t you?’
‘Mm.’
‘So what are you doing with it?’
‘The neighbour’s in hospital. We’re just looking after it until he gets home.’
Three months, maybe more, since Malone had been last sighted, she’d lost track. The chances of him ever returning to his house becoming slimmer, surely, with each day that passed. His cat making himself at home next door, Alice sneaking him into the kitchen whenever Helen wasn’t around, feeding it leftover meat from the fridge last week that Helen had been planning to turn into a curry, a suggestion from Sarah some time ago.
She’d seen a man from her bedroom window a couple of days earlier getting out of a van that had F&G Garden Centre on the side. She’d watched him pushing open next door’s gate and decided she’d better ask him about Malone, but by the time she’d finished dressing and gone downstairs, both man and van had disappeared.
She ate cake and listened to Alice telling them about her Inter Cert results. A relief that she’d scraped through: on to the next two years. Still talking about art college, but Helen wondered if an accomplished portfolio, which she’d already begun assembling, would be enough to secure her a place.
‘She’ll have to work hard across all subjects,’ her art teacher had told Helen. ‘She has the artistic talent, and definitely the drive, but there’s stiff competition for art college, and she should pull up in the other areas too, to give her a fighting chance.’
She studied her father, still an air of authority about him at eighty, well honed from years of putting criminals in their places. Her mother in a duck-egg blue twinset and grey tweed skirt, cutting more cake, pressing another slice on Alice, who would eat Black Forest Gateau for breakfast, lunch and dinner if she was allowed. Shame Helen had never baked a cake in her life.
Sarah probably made her own Black Forest. Helen could imagine her piping on the cream, dotting the swirls with plump black cherries. More on her mind these days than cakes, according to her last letter.
I’m still terribly anxious, even though I’m past the three-month danger period. The doctor keeps reassuring me, and Neil is over the moon, and convinced that this time everything will be all right. We’ve told the adoption agency to take us off the waiting list – it didn’t seem right to stay on it, just in case things didn’t work out.
We’ve said nothing to Martha yet – anyway, she’s too young for it to mean much. Christine is convinced I’m having a girl. She just has a feeling! I couldn’t care less what I have … Please keep your fingers tightly crossed for us. A first baby at thirty-seven, with my history – I’m trying to relax and enjoy being pregnant, and I am happy, of course, I’m so terribly happy that it might be happening at last, but I’m also very frightened. I’m due mid-December, and I know I won’t relax till I hold him or her in my arms.
Helen, after some thought, had sent her a tapestry kit.
Take it out after Martha has been put to bed. It might stop you worrying for a while – and if you stick with it, you’ll have a thing that says ‘Home Sweet Home’ that you can hang in the hall, or wherever. It seemed like the sort of thing that would suit the kind of home I imagine you to have (which is not in the least, as you’ve probably gathered, like the kind of home I have).
My fingers are tightly crossed. Let’s hope for the best here. I’ve told Alice – presume that was OK – and she sends her good-luck wishes.
‘She’s having a baby?’ Alice’s face had been full of disbelief. ‘Isn’t she as old as you?’ Ah, the tact of a teenage daughter.
‘Actually, she’s eight years younger than me. Not quite an old hag yet.’
Helen wondered sometimes, lying alone in bed, if she would ever meet another man, ever have another relationship. Forty-five wasn’t old, far from it. She had years ahead of her, thirty or forty if she lived a natural life. Was she to spend it all alone once Alice had moved out, as she inevitably would? Was Helen destined to live out her days with just a second-hand cat for company?
No, not even the cat: they didn’t live that long. On her own, then, unless someone came along who liked the look of her – and how likely was that, with no social outlets, no friends to go hunting with, no opportunities at all to meet people, apart from the various Christmas parties thrown by the publications she wrote for, which she still avoided?
‘You’ll have another drop,’ her mother said.
‘Better not, thanks.’
The other dire possibility, of course, was that her parents would become dependent on her. She might be forced to have one or both of them living with her – and since she couldn’t see either of them moving willingly into her neighbourhood, she would probably be expected to return to their house: unthinkable prospect.
Maybe Sarah would take them into her nursing home. Or maybe her parents would totter on together without her help, dying conveniently in their sleep, preferably simultaneously, one fine night.
‘I hope that cat doesn’t have fleas,’ her mother said. ‘Especially if Alice is handling it.’
Helen was tempted then to tell the story of Alice’s head lice, and the phone call from the school principal. So long ago that was now – Alice had been, what, five or six?
‘Remember the fine-tooth comb?’ she asked.
Her mother frowned. ‘What?’
‘You used it to make sure I had no head lice. I remember how it dug into my scalp.’
‘You did it to me,’ Alice put in. ‘I hated it.’
‘Why on earth would you bring that up now?’ Helen’s mother asked.
‘No reason. I just remembered it. Must have been the talk of fleas.’
She’d say nothing. Whatever Gorbachev might believe, openness wasn’t always the best policy.
Sarah
From the sitting room there came a sudden shriek. Christine carried on tossing clothes from the top shelf of the hotpress onto the little heap that was growing on the landing.
‘Should we investigate?’ Sarah asked, looking anxiously downstairs.
‘Why? Oh, look,’ pulling out a little orange jumper, ‘Mam knitted this, remember? I must admit I always thought the colour was a bit sissy on Aidan, but everyone admired it.’
‘Well, I love it,’ Sarah said. ‘I’d put that colour on girls or boys. I’d have put it on Martha if I’d known you still had it.’
‘Would you? Sorry … Oh, here, these are sweet.’
Sarah took a miniature pair of blue and white checked trousers from her. Doll’s clothes they looked like, all the tiny garments Christine was pulling out. Had Martha ever been that small?
‘Oh God, look what I just found.’ Christine held up a little mustard and green striped cardigan. ‘I thought I’d thrown it out. Isn’t it vile? Gráinne made it for Paddy. The only times I put it on him was when we were visiting them. I’ll drop it into the next charity shop I pass.’
The relationship between Christine and her mother-in-law had been strained for years, largely because Christine had refused to name any of her sons after their paternal grandfather. ‘I can’t stand the name Victor,’ she’d declared – and even though the remark had not, of course, been addressed directly to Gráinne, the message had been received.
No further sounds came from the sitting room. Presumably nobody was dead or badly injured. Sarah bent with difficulty and began gathering the clothes into her arms.
‘Stop, I’ll do that.’ Christine closed the hotpress doors and scooped up the pile. ‘I think that’s everything – if I find any more I’ll drop them over to you. You can go through them in the kitchen: it’s warmer.’
Sarah followed her downstairs, holding tightly to the banisters. Feeling her way past each stair edge, unable to see her feet when she walked. An elephant, that’s what she’d become. A big fat happy elephant, or maybe a deliriously joyful hippopotamus. Giant breasts, huge bottom, enormous balloon of a stomach. A mother-in-waiting, twenty-seven days to go till her son or daughter was born.
Blooming, she felt.
As Christine passed the sitting-room door, she called: ‘Everything all right in there?’
‘Yeah.’ A ragged chorus.
In the kitchen she tumbled her armload onto the table. ‘Right, have a look while I put the kettle on.’
‘No tea for me,’ Sarah told her, beginning to pick her way through the clothes. ‘I’ll be going to the loo all night as it is.’
‘I remember that – it was awful. I was up every five minutes.’
‘I don’t mind.’
‘I know you don’t – you’re the most uncomplaining pregnant woman I’ve ever met.’ Christine rummaged under the sink and pulled out a couple of plastic bags. ‘Here, you can put the ones you want into those. By the way, ye must be thrilled that Neil was taken on at the golf course.’
‘We are. It’s great news. They’re opening in the New Year.’ Sarah smiled at a little lilac T-shirt with a cartoon penguin on the front. ‘This is so cute. The only thing is, he won’t be able to take mornings off any more, so we’ll have to find someone to look after Martha and the baby when I go back to work.’
‘Have you anyone in mind?’
‘Not yet, but we’re saying it to everyone we know, so hopefully we’ll get a recommendation.’
Christine took a blue cardigan from her and added it to the basket. ‘Brian has a cousin, Noreen. She’s a widow. Her husband died in a boating accident a few years back. You might remember.’
‘Can’t say I do.’
‘Well, anyway, the reason I mentioned her was that Brian was telling me lately that the crèche where she worked closed down, so she might be interested if she hasn’t found another job.’
In the act of folding a pair of pyjama bottoms, Sarah stopped. ‘She worked in a crèche? Has she children of her own?’
‘No, no children. She’s a bit older than us, mid-forties, I think. I haven’t met her all that much but she seems nice.’
‘Where does she live?’
‘Well, that’s the only thing. She’s on the other side of Naas, about twenty miles away, but I’m pretty sure she drives, so that mightn’t be a problem.’
‘Sounds promising. I’ll mention her to Neil, see what he thinks … Right, that’s it, thanks so much. And sorry that you have to run me home. I really must learn how to drive sometime.’
‘No problem. I’ll get the car keys.’
She disappeared as Sarah manoeuvred herself into her coat. One more week at the nursing home, then her maternity leave started. Five more lunches to cook, five more mornings of lumbering around the kitchen, her apron needing a pin for the past two months to keep it fastened at the back.
She regarded the basket of tiny clothes and imagined the little creature she’d be pulling them onto in just a few weeks. Never mind that it was a fortnight after her thirty-seventh birthday: she was fit and strong, and everything would be fine this time.
Her baby, her own flesh and blood, at long last. Was anyone as blessed as her?
Helen
Sarah
The countdown is on, won’t feel it now to your big day. Any urge yet to clean the house from top to bottom? Not that that happened to me with Alice, surprise surprise, but I believe it’s a common enough phenomenon. Nesting, they call it. Maybe that’s why my little fledgling and I are always at loggerheads – I didn’t spring-clean the nest before she hatched.
You must be high as a kite. I wish you all the blessings in the world – if anyone deserves them you do, lady. Just don’t forget to wait till they tell you to push, and squeeze Neil’s hand to death – that’s what it’s there for. Good for him getting involved in the whole business: not many men have the guts. When Alice was born in ’71 my husband wasn’t allowed in, although he wanted to. I kicked up the king of all fusses, but got nowhere. At least that’s changing now.
I’m sending my favourite bath oil. Put Neil on bedtime-story duty, fill the bath, add a generous slosh and wallow in all your enormous glory. It will make you feel sexy and sleepy and deliciously scented, a glorious combination. (And yes, in case you’re wondering, Mrs Ripe-as-a-Peach, gentle sex is not only allowed but recommended at this stage, to encourage Baby to think about putting in an appearance. As regards positions, I’m sure you’ll figure it out. Oh, stop blushing: you’re a married woman.)
On to more mundane matters. The house next door is for sale. A sign went up the other day, which I presume means cranky neighbour must have died. I feel a bit guilty now for all the times I wished him a million miles away. Wonder who’ll move in. Wouldn’t say no to a rich widower, or maybe another toyboy. At this stage I’m not fussy.
Brace yourself – Breen is retiring. I know, I was devastated too. Actually he’s not the worst of them. I may even find myself missing the withering sarcasm now and again. I can gather from his PA that the home front isn’t the happiest – you’d wonder why they don’t just split up if they’re not getting on. Maybe she’s loaded, and he can’t bring himself to leave all that cash. Anyway, he’s clearing his desk next week, end of an era. He’s taking early retirement, can’t be more than sixty. Must have made a pile.
There’s a big farewell do at the newspaper office, so I’m leaving Alice with my parents for the night – much to her disgust – and putting on my glad rags. I figure at forty-five my days of catching anyone’s eye are numbered, and I fancy a last fling before hanging up my lacy bra.
Alice continues to cause me sleepless nights. She’s sulking at the moment – what’s new? – because I wouldn’t let her go to an all-night party last Saturday at someone’s friend’s house. An all-night party at sixteen. And I’m sure I caught booze on her breath the other evening, when she was supposed to have been in the library with Karen. Plus ça change. Maybe you can send her a photo of the new baby when it comes – mig
ht keep her on an even keel for a while.
Right, time for my lonesome double-bed-for-one. I’ll be thinking of you over the next while. Let me know the minute there’s news – get Neil to send me a postcard or a telegram or something.
H xx
Sarah
‘You’re doing it all wrong,’ Martina said crossly from her garden seat. ‘You’re cutting it back far too much. There’ll be nothing left.’
Charlie snipped off another twiggy stalk. ‘You don’t know what you’re talking about. It’s been neglected for years, it needs a hard pruning.’
‘Well, the way you’re going at it, it hasn’t a hope of flowering next spring.’
‘Maybe not, but in the long term it’ll be healthier.’ He continued working his slow, shaky way around the bush, Martina glaring at him.
‘What’s the matter?’ he asked, after several seconds of silence. ‘Cat got your tongue?’
‘I still say you’re taking off far too much,’ she snapped.
‘You’ve made that perfectly clear, thank you. Now, unless you have anything more constructive to say, I suggest you keep your mouth shut.’
From the other side of the open kitchen window, as she chopped carrots for the lamb casserole, Sarah could hear their conversation quite clearly. If someone didn’t intervene soon they’d kill each other. Martina would stab him with the pruning shears, or Charlie would goad her to death.
Or maybe they secretly enjoyed the encounters. Martina had certainly never spent as much time outdoors as she did since she’d appointed herself guardian of the shrubs – and if nothing else, she was company for Charlie as he set about putting a shape on the much-neglected nursing-home grounds. He seemed well able for her.
Sarah tipped the carrots into the casserole dishes, marvelling at the difference a few months had made. Charlie would never be robust – the pneumonia he’d been suffering from when they’d found him had weakened his heart – but as the weeks had passed he’d recovered enough strength to approach Matron, about a month after his arrival at St Sebastian’s, and offer to do a little light gardening.
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