by John Burdett
Just as I thought, the boss was on the other side of a door, listening. Now he appears, doing up the buttons on his sergeant's uniform, wiping his lips. He's in his midforties and looking at me with drunken belligerence.
"Are you holding a farang in this station, a farang named Baker?"
He is at the point of shaking his head, so I intervene with a narrowing of the eyes and a concentration of the sixth chakra. When that doesn't get his attention, I say, "Colonel Vikorn, Chief of District Eight, Bangkok, is going to be very angry with you if you took his money and then double-crossed him. Did you let Baker bribe you last night?"
The sergeant was not expecting to be put on the spot in this lifetime. His survival strategy in this body has been to take money and then kick the can a little farther down the road for someone else to pick up-or kick. His police station is ten miles from the smallest, most obscure, least used, and technologically most backward immigration post in all Thailand, so he's had plenty of opportunity to develop this MO into an art form. Now he's having trouble with the sudden delivery of the karmic bill about two hundred years before he expected it.
"You never heard of Colonel Vikorn before yesterday?" He shakes his head. "And you thought he was just some fancy-pants city slicker who would throw money at you, then let you resell Baker back to Baker, or Immigration, or whoever, and come up with some flimsy excuse like he broke out of his cell last night and managed somehow to cross the border, and isn't it terrible how insecure these rickety little country holding cells can be. Right?"
The idiot blinks and nods: Isn't that what everyone does? I also nod thoughtfully. There is really nothing for it but to call Vikorn and confess that I'm not masterminding his pornography venture right now but rather moonlighting on police business. The sergeant watches with slow, frightened eyes while I fish out my cell phone.
To Vikorn, I gloss over my dereliction of duty and come to the main point: the local cops are making a fool out of my Colonel. They've taken his money and then allowed Baker to bribe them to let him go, probably in cahoots with Immigration, whom Baker would also have had to bribe. I figure the pressure on the line has reached about a thousand pounds per square inch when I hand the phone over to the sergeant. I watch with interest while his face turns red, then white, then gray. He is blubbering Yes, yes, yes, and the hand holding the cell is shaking violently when he gives it back to me. Now he grabs the desk telephone and dials a number that seems to consist of three digits. He starts yammering down the line in Khmer and very quickly ratchets himself up to a full-throated scream. I have no Khmer at all, but I'm willing to bet Fort Knox against a jackfruit he's saying, "Fucking get him fucking back or we're all fucking finished." Or words to that effect. Now he's beckoning me to follow him with an impatient gesture, as if I'm the cause of delay. I follow him out the back of the police station to a carport, where a four-by-four is parked. It's not a battered old police Toyota, though, such as we have to put up with in Krung Thep; no sir, this is a Range Rover Sport TDV6 4WD in metallic russet. Five minutes later I can see why he might need a real off-road four-by-four. The brand-new, metaled road leading to the border post is for wimps, obviously; this guy charges down a well-worn set of ruts that cut through dense jungle. In less than five minutes we have passed through a broken razor-wire fence and ignored a skull-and-crossbones warning about illegal border crossing, and we seem to be heading toward the border post on the Khmer side. Just as we draw up, an officer of the Thai Immigration service arrives in his Range Rover Sport (in metallic gray). He immediately identifies me as the source of his problem and scowls. On the other hand, he dashes into the Khmer border post. When the sergeant and I arrive inside the small building, we see the Immigration officer leaning over a desk and yelling in Khmer at one of the Cambodian officers. Once again I am reliant on intuition to interpret.
Thai Immigration official: Give him back immediately. We have a problem.
Cambodian Immigration official: Go fuck yourself. We've been paid, and we've stamped his passport.
Thai: It's a false passport.
Cambodian: Well, I know that. Why else would he have bribed us?
Thai: Do you realize this could sink the whole scam?
Cambodian: Only for you, bud. Your successors aren't going to be any more honest than you are.
Thai: Please.
The Cambodian looks out the window at the two Range Rovers.
Thai: Which one do you want?
Cambodian: Both of them.
Thai: How are we going to get back?
The Cambodian nods at two mopeds parked near the four-by-fours and smiles.
Thai: Can the farang walk?
Cambodian, mulling the question for a moment, then: We'll give you a lift.
Outside the Cambodian Immigration post, I watch while the two rather worn mopeds are stashed in the back of one of the four-by-fours; then they bring Baker out from some dank place under the building. It takes two of them to hold Baker up, and even then his head lolls and rolls dangerously. There is a large angry bruise on the left side of his face, under the eye. "Fucking Cambodians," the Thai Immigration officer says to me in standard Thai. But the Cambodian also speaks Thai. "They did this," he says, pointing at the Thais.
"We didn't do that," the Thai says, pointing at the bruise. "We use telephone books — no signs of bruising. Only you barbarians do stuff like that."
"So why couldn't he walk last night when you brought him over?
You knew who he was. The only point of beating him up was to get more money out of him."
When they have laid Baker in the front seat of the four-by-four, I check his pulse, which seems surprisingly robust. Other vital signs show promise, and now I'm wondering if he, also, is not engaged in some kind of strategic pantomime. Maybe his health is not as bad as he is making out? "Just lie doggo until we're out of here," I tell him in a whisper.
We take the same route back through the jungle and arrive at the rear of the Thai police station in five minutes. I watch while they drag Baker out and prop him up against a wall while they unload the mopeds. The Thais are looking pretty sour when the Cambodians take their remaining four-by-four back over the border. Suddenly the sergeant has got his balls back. "Get him out of here," he says. "You'll have to pay for a taxi — we don't have any transport." He looks dolefully at the mopeds.
Now I'm looking at Baker and wondering if he's up to a twelve-hour journey back to Krung Thep. "I need some painkiller," I say. When the sergeant merely scowls, I threaten to call Vikorn again.
"What about opium? It's all we've got out here."
I shrug. The sergeant pops back into the station and returns a few minutes later with a long pipe with tiny brass bowl, a wedge of black opium between two transparent plastic squares, and a few pills. The pills are paracetamol, which he grinds up with the opium to make the drug less viscous; then he places a tiny drop on the side of the bowl, heats it with a butane lighter until it fizzes and bubbles, takes one toke himself, then hands the pipe to Baker, who sucks on it with unexpected enthusiasm. Baker keeps up the malingering for fifteen pipes until he can no longer disguise the feeling of supreme well-being that has overwhelmed him. "I guess he's ready to travel," I tell the cop, who helps me slide him into the back of the taxi.
Baker is deeply into his opium dream by the time we reach the country station, and I have to pay the driver to help me drag him to the train and dump him on a bench in the first-class compartment. It's a relief when the train starts and I pull the blinds over the door. A few hours later Baker shows no sign of forsaking paradise for this sterile promontory, so I insert the name Damrong into his dream by whispering it slowly and clearly over and over again in his ear. Suddenly his eyes open full of that light which has not been much seen in farang since the sixties, and says:
Age cannot wither her, nor custom stale Her infinite variety. Other women cloy The appetites they feed, but she makes hungry Where most she satisfies; for vilest things Become themselves in her, that the
holy priests Bless her when she is riggish.
"School play," he adds with a smug smile. "I was Enobarbus." And closes his eyes again.
It is not until we are on the outskirts of Krung Thep that the drug's high tide begins to recede. He starts to rub the angry bruise under his eye and other parts of his body where they beat him. His mind seems to be working on a more powerful distraction than pain, though, when he begins to narrate his inner journey:
"Monochrome, shades of gray, white floor with gigantic tiles, maybe ten feet square, with black between them, like a giant chessboard. On each square a gray spiral staircase leading to a gray platform. She is color: gold and green mostly, dazzling, with dark purple, crimson, orange, a blaze of colored light in some kind of silk robe, stepping off the platform into the void. Go to the next tile. Again, spiral staircase, this time taller than the last; same thing, she is the only colored object, stepping off the platform into the void. And so on, for infinity, staircase after staircase, each one taller than the last, Damrong after Damrong- a different robe every time, do you see? Always about to step off into the void." He grasps my forearm. "She comes to me every night, glowing gold-green. She controls my dick, my orgasm, everything. She can make it last for hours, literally all night, or make me come in five seconds flat. Every night, every night!" Digging his nails into my flesh: "I want to jump off into the void with her, but I just don't have the guts."
I have called ahead, so Vikorn has arranged for a police van to meet us at Hualamphong railway terminal.
14
We are tiny figurines hanging from the charm bracelet of infinity. When these bodies wear out, we will migrate to others. What will I be next, tinker, tailor, tiger, fly? Demon, Buddha, mountain, louse-all things are equal in their essential emptiness. But will there be a planet worth living on in fifty years' time? Chart na means "next life," and if you're Buddhist you worry about it. Not only yours, but the earth's too, for it, also, is a living being with its own karma with which our own is inextricably entwined.
Well, it's getting hotter year by year-that's finally official. Even scientists employed by the United States government now agree: we will be the only species in cosmic history deliberately to fry itself to extinction. I happened to be watching the BBC on our cable link this morning and half expected the newscaster to adopt an urgent tone, but he used the same smooth voice as for births, deaths, and football results. It's not his fault, of course; he knows better than most how retro normality can be, but what is the appropriate reaction when the mind relies on denial to balance itself? Carry on as normal, I guess: just keep burning carbon. Environmental fascism will come eventually. When the Himalayas are melting, leaders of English-speaking countries will threaten to nuke to a crisp those third-world nations still relying on fossil fuels. That'll help global warming.
So now the FBI and I are in a cab on our way at last to a warehouse in Chinatown by the Chao Phraya River, which Vikorn has rented and is in process of buying for the purpose of developing the arts side of his empire. It was, clearly, a blunder on my part to mention to Kimberley this amendment to my job description, for I happen to loathe this new role of mine and need a couple of beers before I can steel myself to enter Yammy's atelier.
I order a Kloster at a riverside cafe, and to my surprise Kimberley joins me. We both spare a moment to take in the river, which as usual is roaring with human life. In the midstream brightly painted tugs tow barges with big eyes on the bows, while longtails with gigantic former bus engines mounted on davits with outboard propeller shafts about fifteen feet long roar up and down, packed with tourists. The river is still the only jam-free thoroughfare for a lot of people commuting to work and back, so the long, thin passenger ferries are packed; they arrive and depart the floating docks amid a frenzy of hysterical whistles from the pilots at the stern, who like to give the impression of catastrophe narrowly averted.
The FBI almost never drinks alcohol, but I know from various telephone conversations that she's been in a strange state ever since she arrived. Why is she here, exactly? Sure, she's interested in the case, and from what she has disclosed so far, it really does tie in with her work in Virginia. But even razor-sharp FBI agents don't just jump on a plane overnight on the basis of a call from a friend. Delighted though I am to have her around, I've been wondering about her. As a matter of fact, our friendship went on hold for more than a year, before it restarted with one of those telephone calls farang make out of the blue: "Hey, Sonchai, how's it going?" as if she were just around the corner and we'd been constantly in touch. It was the middle of the night, my time, and it took me a while to wake up. I had to take the cell phone out into the yard so as not to awaken Chanya and the Lump. (No, I did not say, "Kimberley, do you realize it's two a.m. over here?" Thai courtesy.) My attitude changed when I started to realize how unhappy she was. As her voice slowed and drooped, compassion kicked in. When she tried out a few amorous gambits, I had to tell her about Chanya and the baby; that gave her pause for a while. She didn't quite admit that she'd been fantasizing about living happily ever after in Bangkok with that weirdo half-caste cop she'd sort of bonded with on the python case. (A transsexual Thai — M2F-murdered a black American marine with drug-crazed cobras and a giant python. We refrained from potting her/him for reasons of compassion.) Not quite, and anyway it started to emerge that her need was extrahormonal: "I'm hitting a wall over here, Sonchai. I don't have a lot of friends outside the U.S.-only you, really. Just because America is a big country doesn't mean the walls don't close in on you from time to time." We carried on like that, with middle-of-the-night chats, until the Damrong case gave us something practical to talk about. I really didn't expect even a supercop like Kimberley to jump on a plane, though. So, the case aside, I've been waiting for signals that she's ready for the deep and meaningful. It's taken me a whole week-there are parts of the farang psyche with which even I am unfamiliar-to realize that under the tough, relentlessly extrovert, take-no-prisoners carapace, there lives quite a shy girl who doesn't have a lot of practice in sharing her heart.
The conversation, at this minute, however, is not about her mood but mine.
"It's kind of funny how much you dislike pornography-you know, considering," the FBI says.
"That I've been involved in the Game all my life and run a brothel? It's just not the same thing."
"What's the big moral difference?"
I search for words. Actually, moral difference is the right way of putting it. "Spontaneity. A girl arrives in Krung Thep from Isaan feeling lonely, terrified, inadequate, poor. A middle-aged man arrives from the West feeling lonely, terrified, inadequate, rich. They're like two halves of a coin. All my mother's bar does is facilitate their inevitable congress, supply the beer and the music, the short-term accommodation, and rake off a little profit. The whole thing is driven by a good healthy primeval human need for animal warmth and comfort. In all my years with the Game I've only come across half a dozen serious cases of abuse of one party by another, and I figure that's because the whole thing works perfectly as an expression of natural morality and grassroots capitalism. The way I see it, we're like a real estate agency that deals in flesh instead of earth. Setting it all up artificially, though, in a film set, choreographing the whole thing so flabby overweights in Sussex and Bavaria, Minnesota and Normandy, can jerk off without having to tax their imaginations-that strikes me as downright immoral, a crime against life almost. I guess the real difference is that in the bar people actually do it. There's a reality input."
She smiles and shakes her head. "You're just too much, Sonchai. Some people would say you were slightly insane. But when you come out with that kind of stuff, it makes sense, at least for the moment that you're saying it. How did your mind get so free? What happened to you? Are all Thai pimps like you?"
"No," I say. "I'm strange, I guess."
She has drunk a bottle of Kloster rather quickly and seems to be sinking into depression. She orders another, though, and drinks it rapidly, strai
ght from the bottle. "Actually doing it," she says in a musing voice. "I guess that's exactly what we're not good at. Maybe that's why we love war so much: reality starvation."
Now she's giving me one of her most puzzling looks. "You've changed," I say. "Big time. What happened?"
Another gulp from the bottle. "I hit thirty-five. The midway point. It finally dawned on me that my whole description of reality was secondhand. My generation of women never rebelled-we felt we didn't need to. We inherited a message of hate and simply elaborated it a bit. I never saw much of my father-my mother made sure of that. I think I went into the only important relationship of my life in order to be a bitch. In order to express hate. Isn't that sick?"
How to answer that? By changing the subject. "Why did you come to Bangkok, really?"
A sigh. "I think I came for this conversation. We don't have them at home anymore, you know? Maybe it's modernism: we trade tribal sound bites so we can feel we belong to something. I came for your mind, Sonchai. Chanya can have your body-she deserves it. That is one very smart woman. I can hardly stand to see the two of you together. The cozy, unspoken, genuine love makes me want to have you both arrested. I don't think it exists stateside. There's a very powerful taboo against it. Think of all the hours you spend loving when you could be making money."
I say, "Let's go."
"I want another beer."
"No."
In the cab we enjoy silence for a while, then: "I did marry. I lied to you." A pause. "And divorced, of course."
"Any kids?"
"One. A boy. I let his father keep him. His father said if the baby stayed with me, I would destroy him. I was like a smart bomb programmed to destroy anything male. I was afraid he may have been right." Another long pause, then: "It was a hell of a long time ago. I was barely out of my teens. When it all fell apart, I joined the Bureau. I figured if I was a natural-born man-killer, I might as well get a license."