The other bedroom was occupied by Agnes’ mother, Connie, who at that moment was sitting in an identical pose to the one Agnes had just abandoned, upright in bed. She had not woken at 5 a.m., for she had not slept since returning to bed earlier. Instead she had sat in her pose and stayed awake. Thinking! As you do on such auspicious days as wedding days. However, where the daughter Agnes was thinking about the future, the mother’s thoughts were firmly rooted in the past, along with her mind. Although she was only fifty-seven years old, Agnes’ mother, Connie, looked more in her seventies. Her early dementia and illnesses had taken their toll, and in a role reversal Agnes had long ago become her mother’s mother. The dementia would come and go. On some occasions Agnes’ mother became quite clear and rational, allowing Agnes to revisit the intelligent woman that her mother once was. Mostly, though, Connie was in a different place, a little closer to God than the rest of us. Yet she would slip in and out, and so rapidly sometimes only Agnes would see the flashes. Agnes has always believed that this had been mostly caused by the trauma of the death of Agnes’ father. For, despite his faults, and there were many, Bosco Reddin had been so deeply loved by his wife, Connie.
As Agnes passed her mother’s bedroom door, she stopped and listened. Her mother was singing. Very quietly, but singing. Agnes recognized the song. “I could show the world how to smile, make it seem happy, just for a while, I could turn the gray skies to blue, if I had you.” It was her father’s song. He would sing it when he burst through the door, late home and drunk. When he knew he was in trouble. It was not very often her father got drunk. But when he did he would sing this song to his “three lovely lassies.” Agnes and her younger sister, Dolly, little girls then, would blush and titter with laughter. Mammy would call him a drunken fool and pretend to be angry. She probably was at first, but he would just keep singing the song until she smiled.
Agnes felt the teardrop on the back of her hand. She moved on to the living room. Although it was July and sunny outside, the sitting room was chilly, so Agnes decided to light a fire, just to warm the room a bit. She put on her dressing gown and left the flat with the scuttle bucket to fetch coal from the coal hole in the basement.
Soon the fire was lighting and the room was warm. Agnes ran the tap and dragged out the three large pots she would use to boil the water for her bath. As the first one was filling slowly, Agnes went back to the bedroom.
“Marion,” she called gently as she woke her maid of honor. “Move it, come on, we have a lot to do today.”
“I’m up, I’m up!” answered Marion.
“You’re not up, now come on, Marion.” Agnes was at the bottom of the bed and tickled Marion’s foot as she said this. Marion jumped.
“Fuck off or I’ll kill you, Agnes.”
“Get up, then, come on!” Agnes was getting annoyed, just a little.
“I am. Go on, put the kettle on or something.” Marion sat up. She looked like the wreck of the Hesperus.
Agnes heaved the last of the three large pots of water up onto the gas stove. She wiped her hands in the tea towel and lit a match. Turning the gas knobs in turn, she poked a lighted match beneath each pot, and as she did the jets popped into life.
“What the fuck are you cooking at this hour of the morning?” asked a groggy Marion. Agnes jumped.
“Jesus, Marion, you frightened the life out of me.”
“What time is it?” Marion asked, as she sat and began pulling on a canvas slipper.
“Half past eight,” Agnes answered as she carried on with her business.
“What? Half past eight, I didn’t get up this early for me own fucking wedding!” Marion was dismayed, realizing she’d not been to bed until 3:45 a.m. Agnes laughed.
“Shut up, you, and mind your language. Me mammy’s awake,” Agnes scolded.
“Like your mammy’d know? She’s probably in there raping Napoleon.” Marion pulled on the other slipper.
“Ah, Marion, shush, that’s not nice,” Agnes admonished Marion, but she giggled as she did so. As Agnes took a sip from her tea, Marion called out toward the mammy’s bedroom door.
“Go on, Mrs. Reddin, pull the knob off’a him!” They roared with laughter.
Agnes began to choke with the laughter. She put the tea mug down awkwardly and was spluttering and laughing so much that tea was dripping from her nostrils. Marion began to laugh even harder now and threw herself on the floor and began writhing and moaning.
“Come on, Boneypart, ya good thing—show me your cannon-balls.”
Agnes was bent double laughing. She flung herself on top of Marion, trying to cover Marion’s mouth with her hand. In a repeat of the previous night’s playing, the two girls wrestled around on the floor for a full three minutes. When they stopped, they again lay on the floor beside each other, breathless and exhausted. They lay on their backs. Agnes held on to Marion’s hand.
“Jesus, I’m getting married,” Agnes softly said.
“Yeh,” her friend answered.
Both their heads turned to the wedding dress hanging there.
“Do you remember the last time you wore a white dress?” Marion asked. They both smiled a knowing smile and spoke simultaneously.
“Holy Communion class.” Now they cried with laughter again.
“Do you remember?” Marion asked.
“Will I ever forget . . .”
It was the day they had become friends, forever friends.
CHAPTER ONE
Blessed Heart Girls National School The Jarro, February 1940
It is the line that all Catholics get to say just once in their lifetime. Conducted in their rhythm by Sister Concepta Pius, the forty-four young little girls in the Communion class sang out the line in unison, like a tiny girls’ choir.
“Bless me, Father, for I have sinned. This is my first confession,” they sang. Although the little girls were still three years from having to say this in a real confessional, in the Blessed Heart School, the nuns believed it was never too early to prepare for communion with God.
“Well done, my little angels.” Sister Concepta Pius smiled. “Now, is everybody clear on that?” The nun’s squinting eyes scanned the room.
As usual there was just one hand in the air, and as usual it was the hand of Marion Delany. Sister Concepta raised her eyes slowly to heaven and asked, “Yes, Marion?”
Marion Delany stood, but you could hardly notice. Marion Delany was the tiniest girl in the class, and yet at seven years of age she was two years older than the rest of the girls. It was not that Marion had been held back a couple of years in school because of any learning difficulty. The fact was that, until she was seven years of age, Marion Delany had never attended school. The reason for this is simple, yet complicated, as Marion’s mother tried to explain to the officer from the Department of Education who called to her home. The officer had been sent there when the department realized that a child from the Birth Register seven years previously had yet to come on to the School Register, two years after she should have. It was all to do with public transport, Marion’s mother tried to explain. You see, in Dublin, no child four years or younger had to pay any fare to travel on public transport. Now, the Delany family was made up of two boys and eight girls. The girls ranged in age from four years of age to fourteen years of age, and the truth is that between the four-year-old and the fourteen-year-old the height difference was barely noticeable. When traveling with their mother on public transport, the Delany children were always schooled that if a bus conductor should ask them what age they were they should say “four.” With so many daughters and after so many trips, Mrs. Delany simply forgot what age each of her children was. If anybody asked any Delany girl what age she was, the immediate answer would be “four.” And, truthfully, as Marion stood in the aisle of the classroom that morning with her hand in the air, she really looked like she could just be little more than four.
“You have a question, Marion Delany?” the nun asked for the twentieth time that day, for Marion always
had a question. Marion took a deep breath and asked her question.
“Sister, do cats and dogs have souls?” she asked.
“No, Marion. Sit down,” Sister Concepta answered. Marion didn’t sit.
“Not even teensy-weensy little souls, like just this size?” And she held her two fingers just slightly apart.
“Marion, shut up and sit down,” Sister Concepta simply answered, and Marion sat down. Sister Concepta now continued with the lesson.
“Once you have spoken these words—‘Bless me, Father, for I have sinned. This is my first confession’—God will open His heart and carry the weight of your sins for you for the rest of your life.” She smiled.
Marion Delany’s hand went up. Marion didn’t stand this time or wait to be asked, she simply blurted out the question.
“Is a sin heavy, Sister?”
“Shut up, Marion.”
“Yes, Sister.”
Sister Concepta carried on to a hushed classroom: “This is God’s lesson in forgiveness. He opens His heart and forgives you all your sins, as you must forgive others theirs. God tells you in the Bible that, if someone slaps you on the cheek, what do you do?”
“Kick him in the balls.” The answer from the tiny voice was perfectly timed.
“Who said that?” Sister Concepta nearly screamed.
Every other girl in the class knew it was Marion Delany, but they were from the Jarro, and even at five years of age you knew that nobody likes a snitch. Yet the honor among the girls was wasted.
“I did,” came Marion’s tiny voice. She stood with her hand in the air. “That’s what my dad said you do if somebody slaps you, you kick him in the balls.”
Sister Concepta took two long strides and was standing in front of Marion, towering over the little girl. Marion had a round, chubby body with a round head and an ever-present smile. Marion’s beaming smile slowly disappeared as the great dark figure of the nun scowled down at her.
“Marion Delany, if I ever hear such language in this class again I’ll . . . I’ll . . .” She dragged Marion to the front of the class. She shoved her hand beneath her tunic, and when her hand reappeared it held a leather strap.
“Hold out your hand!” Sister Concepta screamed at the terrified little girl.
Marion knew what was coming. Slowly she stretched out her right arm and opened her palm. She stood there looking like a tiny pink snowman with one arm. In her seat Agnes closed her eyes. She couldn’t look. Marion received four slaps, one for each word. Sister Concepta spoke:
“Turn . . . slap . . . the . . . slap . . . other . . . slap . . . cheek . . . slap.”
Following the fourth slap, Sister Concepta put her hands on her hips and screamed at Marion, “Do you understand that, girl?”
The little girl was biting her bottom lip. Two rivulets ran down her cheeks, but she managed to nod her head furiously. Just at that moment the school bell sounded for the mid-morning break, bringing to a close for now Marion Delany’s lesson in forgiveness.
At the “little break,” Agnes went looking for Marion in the schoolyard. Agnes was fascinated by this tiny girl. The schoolyard was not a big one, and Agnes soon saw Marion standing alone at the railings that surrounded the yard. They were old Victorian rails painted black, with each upward bar topped with an arrowhead, giving the impression of a prison yard more than a schoolyard. This impression was reinforced when Agnes found Marion, for she was standing with each of her pudgy little hands holding a bar and her face wedged streetward between two more bars. Agnes approached her cautiously. After the beating she had seen the girl take in class, Agnes expected that Marion was having a weep. When Agnes spoke she spoke to Marion’s back.
“Are you all right?” Agnes said softly. Marion turned to her with an unexpected beaming smile. “Yeh, didn’t hurt,” but Agnes knew it did, and she knew Marion was using the cold metal bars to cool her thrashed hands. Without any bother, Marion flew straight into conversation with Agnes, and as Agnes was to learn, this was Marion’s way.
“You’re the prettiest girl in the class,” Marion said simply to Agnes.
“What?”
“You. The prettiest. Everybody says so, and I’m the ugliest.”
“No, you’re not,” Agnes said.
“Who’s uglier, then? Come on, who’s uglier than me?” Marion asked. She spoke only in a matter-of-fact tone—no self-pity, just the facts. Agnes was stuck for a reply. “See, I told you. It doesn’t matter, ’cause I have a job and I’m going to marry a man that sells insurance. My mother says that they’d go with anyone. Who are you going to marry?” Agnes was breathless just trying to listen to this conversation.
“What? I don’t know who I’m going to marry,” Agnes stammered out.
“You should marry, eh, an airline pilot. They like pretty girls, you could fly anywhere you like, and they give you chewing gum as well, as much as you want, I seen it on the pictures.”
The end of break bell sounded, and Agnes looked over to the school doorway; the various class groups were getting into line to march back into class. She turned back to Marion.
“We better go in,” Agnes said and extended her hand. “Come on.”
“Nah, you go on, I’m going to work.” Marion began to climb the railings.
“But Sister Conception will miss you.” Agnes was aghast.
“I don’t care.” Marion was now on the other side of the rails. “See ya.”
“But she’ll slap you tomorrow for this.” Agnes was panicking now. Marion began to trot away, calling over her shoulder, “She’ll slap me anyway, see ya.” And she was gone. Agnes returned to the class, but thought of nothing else for the afternoon except this girl who seemed to have no fear. That’s what Agnes wanted, what every child wants more than anything else. Just to be not afraid. Within days the two girls were friends. Within weeks they were inseparable, and within months Agnes Reddin was not afraid. They did everything together, growing to have a great influence on each other. Marion began to spend more time at school, and Agnes became more and more unafraid. Incredibly, they would manage to make it through their childhood and teens without ever falling out, as children usually do.
Now, years later, as they lay on the floor holding hands, they wore each other’s friendship like a second skin. They lay there breathless and smiling, looking up at the dress.
“You’re going to go through with it, aren’t you? You’re determined to wear that dress,” Marion said.
“Uh-huh,” Agnes confirmed.
“You’re a stubborn bitch, do you know that?” Marion half sat as she said this.
“Not stubborn, Marion, I just know what’s right, and this is right. It’s a stupid rule made by stupid people,” Agnes said, stubbornly.
“Made by the Pope,” Marion exclaimed.
“Well, so what? What would he know about marriage anyway? If you don’t play the game, don’t make the rules. That’s what I say!” And they both laughed again.
Agnes’ rebellious stand was typical of her. She did not lick it from the ground, it was in her genes. It stretched back before she was born to a time when making a stand for what you thought was “right” could cost you your life.
CHAPTER TWO
Dublin February 23, 1921
Constance Parker-Willis would not recall it for a long time, but her initial encounter with Bosco Reddin had been a traumatic one.
The Parker-Willis family had been casting iron in Dublin since 1801. Constance’s father, Geoffrey Parker-Willis, had inherited the foundry from his grandfather, when his own father, an officer in the Light Brigade, had been killed in the Boer War. Always a successful business, the foundry really boomed for Geoffrey with the coming of the Great War, when output and profits soared. War had been good to Geoffrey. He married Julia Cornwell, a timid woman who bore him four daughters.
By 1921, Constance, the eldest of these girls, and nearly twenty-five years of age, was the only Parker-Willis girl who actually worked. Constance had taken a great intere
st in the foundry from early, and with no son to follow him and two of Constance’s three younger sisters married off, with the third about to be, Geoffrey decided to allow Constance to work in the accounting room of the foundry. Constance loved working there. The noise and the heat, the constant explosions of molten droplets hopping across the foundry floor, and the clanking of machinery, were so far removed from the boring world of high society in which her three sisters mixed as to be music to Constance’s ears. The foundry was situated on Misery Hill, on Dublin’s south docks. The foundry cannot take credit for the street name; rather, it was named Misery Hill in the seventeenth century, when the area was a leper colony.
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