by King, V. L.
In that moment, I knew that was one punishment I was never going to forget. I knew that the look, the taste and the texture, in conjunction with the power behind his pressurizing ways and demands, would haunt me until my final day.
He was right. I would never push him to deserve that level of consequence again.
Chapter Six
The journey to Logan Airport was made in utter silence. You know, the awkward, disturbing silence that loiters in the atmosphere because you had been made to feel inferior when getting punished by someone of authority.
Inferior…it’s an ugly word, a word that no human should be made to feel. We’re supposed to be equal, aren’t we? Never in my life had I experienced such sensation. Each time I opened my mouth in a vain attempt to slice through the stifling atmosphere, Liam would divert his focus from the road ahead to me and just gape, as though I didn’t have two IQ points to rub together which could result in saying something worth hearing.
And so the journey continued in a near stillness.
A red light brought us to a halt. Sobbing and sniffling echoed from behind me, so I turned in the leather seat and peeked over my left shoulder. Brittany’s head was hanging down. The mass of green hair was separated into braided pigtails. Although her profile was somewhat obscured, I, however, was able to discern the tiny crystal droplet trickling down to settle on the tip of her button nose before relinquishing its grip and splattering onto the back of her knuckles.
The light was still red. Cars behind us bleared their horns, causing Liam to shake his head in exasperation. Not a single word passed my lips as I unbuckled my seatbelt and pulled the door release.
“Kady, what the fuck are you doing?” I heard Liam ask, his voice becoming fainter as I slammed the door behind me, placing that barrier between us.
Just as the light turned green, I opened the back passenger-side door to slip in beside my sister. I overheard Liam’s heavy sigh and saw his head flail, but I didn’t care. I may have been made to feel substandard compared to him, but I was the rock for my baby sister.
As soon as I clicked the belt into place, my arm instinctively crashed around her shoulders, and her head went lax and fell into my bosom. “It’ll be okay, Britt,” I reassured her while swaying softly. My fingers gently brushed over her scalp.
Brittany may have been younger than me by only three years, but I had always been there whenever she needed it. I was her rock, her protector in some ways. I was the one who she cried to if she was hurt or had been hurt, I was the one who always fought in her corner. I wasn’t only her sibling, I was her best friend. I was my sister’s keeper, and the mere fact that I felt she was concealing something from me…it hurt. It really, really hurt.
“I don’t like the idea of you flying in this state, sis.” I voiced my concern between each rocking motion.
My name was called from the seat ahead. Familiar green-and-blue-speckled eyes met mine in the rearview mirror. “She has made her decision, Kady. She told you herself she wanted to go back home. Stop making an issue.”
Yes, she did say that. Nonetheless, I didn’t appreciate being told not to voice my concerns to someone who was my blood. Then again, I didn’t want my concern to spawn a form of guilt in her fragile state. So I shut up and continued to be there to offer support and sympathy to my poorly green-haired, tearstained-faced sister.
Brittany didn’t once leave my side at the airport. If I went to the bathroom, she was with me. If I moved to the window, she was with me. If I changed seats, she did too.
The air was thick between both Liam and her. I didn’t know why, but I couldn’t help quash the secret deliberation that it could have something to do with the reason behind her melancholic bearing.
I inwardly slapped my palm against my forehead and groaned. Maybe she hooked up with one of Liam’s friends and she’s feeling the shame which often follows a one-night stand. Liam did after all mention her man-obsessed brain last night, with the pinching of many asses.
Oh, Brittany, Brittany, Brittany…what am I going to do with you?
A husky voice crackling over the system calling the flight to D.C. brought me back to the land of the living, instead of aimlessly searching for road signs in Marvel Land. Thrusting myself out of the cold, hard metal seat, I swallowed her up in an enormous embrace which I hope reflected how I felt about her early departure. I didn’t want her to go. If I could have, I would have tied her up and took her back home for the rest of her intended stay.
“I love you, Kady. I’m sorry,” she mumbled into the crook of my neck, and although the striving to recapture a form of strength which Brittany Jenson always had was evident, I still heard her words catch in her throat. I heard the sob and splatter of her very unladylike snot bubble against my turtleneck, and just like that we were kids again, comforting each other in a midnight thunderstorm.
Unsure as to when I would get the chance to be in her company again, she gradually drew her body from my arms and I took a moment to study her. Her sapphire eyes were red and sore. Her usual A-list glossy lips were withered and cracked. Her button nose looked raw as she glided the back of her hand over the flesh, catching her sniffles.
I extended her a tightlipped smile. “It’s not your fault you’re ill. You have nothing to be sorry for, silly.” I rubbed the tops of her denim-clad arms. “I love you too, Britt.”
She turned her back to me gingerly and began to walk away when I called out to her. Head craned over her shoulder, her weight being passed through her hip, she gazed under hooded, puffy eyes.
“Doesn’t Liam get a hug?” I asked, bemused. She’s always so tactile, especially with Liam. She always has been, those two bounced off each other.
Before giving her a chance to respond, the husky voice called her flight again. Liam was already at my side, his warm arm around my waist. “Don’t worry about it, Britt,” he said, saving her the time to either reply or make her way back to us. “I don’t want to risk getting ill myself, not with work at the moment.”
The arm around my body, and the buoyant voice of my boyfriend had flicked something in her. I could see that. It was unmistakable. Her eyes had turned as hard as priceless gem, and her lip curled with palpable distaste. She shook her head. Well, I think she shook her head. If she did, then it was so faint I barely noticed.
“Call me when you land,” I ordered.
“Okay. Speak to you soon,” she answered, and continued to make her way past the gate, while I stood stock-still and watched my baby sister until she was out of sight.
Hand in hand, Liam led me to the BMW in the lot. Considering what had happened during the prior four hours, the connection made me uncomfortable. How he failed to recognize it, I’ll never know. In spite of everything, his hand frequently squeezed and clutched upon my loose grip, while my gaze remained on the grey flooring of the lot as we made our way back to the car.
Lights flashed as he pressed the fob. My hand had begun to worm its way from his clutch to open the door. When his own hand made contact with the release and he pulled the door open for me, it was fair to say, I was relatively surprised. “After you.” He gestured with a gallantly tip of his head and a smile like butter wouldn’t melt.
“Thank you,” was all I could bring myself to say within my lingering state of inferiority. Body folded, I lowered myself into the protesting leather and reached back to fumble with the belt before drawing it across my body and clipping into place. The door was already slammed shut and narrowly missed colliding with my elbow upon impact.
Liam slipped in beside me, turned on the ignition, and began to back out of the space.
It was as though my jaw wasn’t connected to my body the way it kept falling open to free words which I rehearsed in my mind. Rehearsed…stupid I know, but I didn’t care. I wasn’t going to say or do anything stupid to prove to the man beside me that I needed another punishment dished out. No pun intended. Even the mere concept made my stomach lurch and my head become fuzzy.
In the mi
dst of focusing on the road, he murmured, “What is it, Kady? You look like a fucking goldfish.”
My lungs filled themselves to capacity with a deep inhalation, and while I picked my fingernail in my lap, I bit the bullet and rubbed my measly two IQ points together and hoped that I didn’t sound whiny and made a mediocrity of sense. “Do you know whether Brittany hooked up with anyone last night?”
A cautionary yet puzzled expression flashed across his face when he chanced a glance as my fidgeting form. “How would I know? Why do you ask?”
“Her typical vivacious, crazy chick attitude, compared to what she was like this morning…” I shook my head in the midst of my musing and rolled my lips over my teeth before relinquishing a sigh of defeat.
“Kady.” An unanticipated, tender hand lowered to my beige, linen-clad thigh. “She’s a big girl. She doesn’t need some third degree. If she did hook up with someone then that was her choice. Nothing in this world is done without cause, Kady. Every attitude, every action, every approach, it all has an underlining motive.”
A moment of clarity formed as those words were given. He was right. Each action in this world is done for a reason. His actions that morning were harsh, cruel, and barbaric, but they were needed. They weren’t some sadistic ploy to cause distress. They wouldn’t have been needed, had I not have overstepped the line and interfered with his business. It didn’t occur to me at that time that it was a two-way street, and that my actions of overstepping the mark also had an underlining reason, which he obviously could see or just wouldn’t regard.
No longer feeling inferior, the air between us became thinner and clearer. “You’re right.” I nodded, and as my musing was given a voice, his hand tightened with a degree of affection on my thigh. I repaid him with setting my own understanding hand over his and locked our fingers together.
Dilapidated buildings passed by at speed as I peeked out of the window. “No matter what it is, she’ll tell me eventually. She always does.”
“What on earth are you doing?” I giggled after big, strong arms wrapped in powder-blue shirt sleeves whipped me off my feet as we stood in the small hallway of our apartment building. Yet, my question was left unanswered as Liam focused on carrying me up each flight of stairs like he was carrying a gym bag in his arms instead of a fully-grown woman. I would have objected, kicked my legs, and swatted him away until he set me back on my feet. ‘God gave me legs for a reason’, as my Nan would say. Despite that, my arms came up to lock at the nape of his neck, the tips of his locks tickled at the edges of my fingers, while the pulse in the left of his neck caused his spider’s web to throb. Held against the hardness of his chest, I breathed him in and allowed myself to be carried.
Somehow, he successfully managed to dig into his black pants pocket for the apartment key and slip it into the lock without releasing, or accidentally dropping, me. I was quite impressed.
Kicking the door open, he took us over the threshold and again, kicked the door shut once we were inside. The solidity of the ground beneath my feet was greatly missed. I squealed for him to please put me down. Then again, Liam DeLaney being Liam DeLaney, didn’t take nicely to orders or requests. He did as he wanted, and if you were on the receiving end of what he wanted, there was no room for opposition.
The apartment was filled with the sounds of my lighthearted chortle. Burnish orange coated the walls as the sun was beginning to meet the horizon. It must have been about 4:30 p.m. and the nights rolling in earlier and earlier was a factor I held a great hate towards.
Into the bedroom we went. A shriek tore from my throat as I was tossed on to the black and red satin-adorned bed. Feeling like I had just walked through some web, my hands immediately flew up to hastily brush the sensation left behind as wayward tendrils tickled my face. Before I could even attempt to push myself up, I was pinned back down by a heavy body, his head hovering above mine.
“Good evening, Miss Jenson,” he purred. Just the simple use of him calling me ‘Miss Jenson’ had me squirming, not to mention the husky intonation which the two words traveled along. My legs fell open farther, allowing him to be cradled against me. Circling and grinding hips caressed my core, sending my eyes fluttering as I savored the sensation of his hinting motives.
“Good evening to you, Mr. DeLaney,” I breathed back, all the while my hips were propelling upwards to meet the tantalizing use of his gyrating hips.
He pulled away and slithered down my body where his fingers proceeded to sink beneath the waistband of my capris. When the button was popped, he continued to lower the zipper and peel them, along with my underwear, down my legs, slipping my heeled pumps off just before divesting the material from my flesh.
“What are you doing?” I asked as the hard body and hungry eyes glided back up my half-naked form. My arms were grasped insistently in his hands then I was hauled up and stripped of the remaining clothing, which was acting like an unwanted and unnecessary barrier.
Naked, with the exception of my bra, he laid me back down, nuzzled my neck, and streamed loud, wet, sweet sensuous kisses down the curve to meet my shoulder. “I was thinking,” he began then paused for a second while his tongue slithered across my collarbone. “We could go to the movies tonight and see a movie of your choosing.”
My body responded immediately with my head rolling to the right, offering greater access to devour the area. My eyes widened and my words caught. “Me? You’re going to let me pick?”
“This is my way of apologizing.” His words were ice water on my libido. Apologize? There was no need. I understood. I accepted it. Why was he rehashing it?
“There’s no need, Liam. I understand. Please, let’s not talk about it.”
His hips rolled sending my back into an arch and tipping my head back. “Okay. I thought we could get something nice after the movie, come back home and have a nice meal.”
“Meal?” God only knew what time that would be. There was no way was I going to be cooking that late at night! “Liam, by the time I cook and clean, it will be far too late.”
My neck felt cold and bare as he drew himself away, his forearms resting on either side of my head. Fingers grazed through my hair and I gazed up, watching as ravenous eyes glimmered shrewdly and the corners of his lips tipped. “Who’s saying I meant cook and eat off a plate?”
Huh? My brow furrowed and eyes narrowed.
“It’s lucky neither of us has aversions to dairy because I was thinking, whipped cream…”
I thought my eyes were going to pop out of their sockets; my body suddenly shuddered as my mind was tantalized by one single thought. Down my body he slipped, his lips maneuvered over my throat and the swelling of my breasts which were rising and falling rapidly. A groan vibrated through my chest as my breast spilled out from the cup of my bra when he tugged it downwards.
“Maybe a little raspberry nipple sauce?” He flicked my nipple with the tip of his tongue, the cool air pasted onto the peaking flesh before he took it into the wet heat of his mouth. “I meant, raspberry ripple,” he clarified after a small nip of his teeth.
“Of course you did,” I gasped, my pelvis pushing upwards as sweet friction was finally made along the substantial, growing bulge in his pants.
Each perfectly placed kiss which was spread over my body had me squirming and trembling in sweet anticipation. The sound of his voice as he spoke low, husky, and in innuendos, alongside his teasing ways of informing me what I was in for, had my thighs glazed with desire.
“But first…” I studied him as his head got further away and sank between my parted thighs. Before he had me lying back—panting, wanton, and splayed—my legs were hooked over his shoulders while my core was held with his scissoring fingers. I could feel the throb taking my body over like a lustful demon trying to break free. “I fancy eating a little pussy.”
His tongue took one long sweep up my exposed center before orbiting and sucking gently. Head tossed back, my hands clawed into the bedding and my groan of pleasurable approval vibrated
from my throat.
As I was lost to Liam and his expert tongue, the events of the day were incinerated, never to be remembered again.
Chapter Seven
December 2011
Eighteen months before the accident…
Where does time go?
I remember when I was a child, a year passing would feel like an eternity. The interval between each Christmas would feel like twelve long years, instead of twelve short months. It’s bizarre how as you get older, you become more aware of how quick time actually passes. It goes by in a blink of an eye. Is it because life as an adult is significantly more boring than that in childhood, and the days all seem to meld into one long journey, which makes it feel so? I don’t know. All I know is, one morning I’m waking up and red and golden leaves are snapping from the trees, spiraling down to the cold ground without a care in the world. The next, I’m waking up and every tree is bare, their leaves crumpled on the freezing ground and dusted with what looks like icing-sugar, making them stiff and crunch under your weight.
I was standing in the living room, wistfully pursuing the area which had been our home for three years. It wasn’t totally empty, the coffee table and rug were still in their designated space, but it felt so…bare.
Memories, both good and bad, had been created in this very apartment, and now we were leaving. We were moving from Dorchester to somewhere called Bricksdale. I didn’t care for it. I hadn’t even seen the property. Liam went ahead, called all the shots like DeLaney does with his high-strung ways and simply told me to trust him and his judgment.
Having connections in all the right places made things a whole lot easier. In saying that, having a boyfriend with those connections made things twice as difficult for the person who is less inclined to follow through with his requests.
It was simple, I didn’t want to leave. I especially didn’t want to leave a place I felt comfortable, a place I could call my home, for some random place that sounds like it should have a spot on some paranormal television show.