by Alex Barclay
‘Where does Jonathan Meester fit into the company now?’ said Ren.
‘He set it up – he’s the chairman,’ said Gary. ‘He bought Lang Pharmaceuticals six years ago, hired Nolan Carr as VP Sales & Marketing, and basically lined him up to take over from him when he took early retirement, which he did last year.
‘OK – on to Shelby Royce,’ said Gary. ‘A lot of Shelby Royce’s friends have been interviewed and they’re not saying anything other than the fact that she’s a lovely girl, doesn’t have a bad word to say about anyone … Her parents check out, so do the neighbors so far. The one interesting thing is that, according to Jane Allen, her closest girlfriend, Shelby Royce was not friends with Jared Labati. In fact, she refused his friend request on Facebook … the ultimate teen trauma according to my fifteen-year-old daughter. Jared Labati has already lied to us, so … we’re not considering him a reliable witness. Jane Allen says that Shelby had been on Facebook talking about not having enough money for Lady Gaga tickets, and maybe to suck up to her, Labati offered her a way of earning money at the hotel. Yes, you can still read someone’s Facebook profile without being “friends” with them …’
Gary Dettling, you dorky dad.
‘So,’ said Gary, ‘Jared Labati could have been doing anything to get close to Shelby Royce. He certainly tipped the power balance in his favor on Saturday night. He may have seen her as “owing him one” after that.’
‘Maybe he went up to the room to collect,’ said one of the detectives. ‘And the little girl got in the way …’
‘That’s a possibility,’ said Gary.
‘It’s not really a break-in when the guy’s got a key …’ said Bob.
‘What about the stepfather?’ said Paul. He glanced at his notes. ‘Dale Merritt?’
‘Seems like a big friendly giant,’ said Ren. ‘I’m not getting evil stepfather vibes.’
‘There is one other person who was in the room …’ said Gary.
‘A very little person,’ said Ren.
Mark and Erica Whaley sat, holding hands, in Bob’s office. Leo was in a fold-away stroller beside them. His little arm was wrapped around a Spiderman action figure, his fist curled into a ball.
Adorable.
‘I am really uncomfortable with Leo being interviewed again,’ said Mark Whaley, glancing down at his son. ‘He’s been through too much. First off, he wakes up alone in a strange room, God knows what he’s witnessed, his parents come in and start shouting and screaming … then he’s taken away from us at the Sheriff’s Office, and he’s put in a room with a stranger and asked a bunch of questions …’
‘We’d like God not to be the only one who knows what he witnessed …’ said Bob.
Risky.
Mark looked at him. ‘He’s been through enough.’
‘He’s three, Mark,’ said Erica. ‘He’ll be able to get through this a lot quicker than he’d get over the loss of his big sister …’ She slid her hand from Mark’s.
No-one said a word.
Eventually, Mark spoke. ‘He probably saw nothing. And if he did, it’s unlikely he’d be able to vocalize it.’
Erica stared at him. ‘Last week, you were calling him “easily one of the smartest kids” in pre-school, and saying how wide his vocabulary is.’
‘Erica, this is completely different. What they’re asking for, ultimately, is for our three-year-old son to relive the most traumatic experience of his short life …’
‘Mr Whaley, Leo won’t be asked leading questions, so he won’t be exposed to any scenario that’s outside of his experience on that night,’ said Ren. ‘He won’t have scary images planted in his mind. Child forensic interviewing is a real skill, and we have one of the country’s leading interviewers here.’
‘Well, she didn’t find anything out the last time …’ said Mark.
‘This kind of interview usually takes place when the child is well rested, and has eaten. We couldn’t afford the time to wait for that the first time. The circumstances early Sunday morning were not very conducive to a successful outcome, but we wanted to try.’
Erica was nodding. ‘Mark – she’s right. Leo isn’t able to concentrate when he’s tired. He’s not himself when he hasn’t slept. You say so yourself. His Spidey senses are weak.’ She tried to smile.
‘When do you want to do this?’ said Mark.
‘This afternoon,’ said Gary. ‘Some time around four p.m.’
Erica turned to Mark.
He was staring at the ground. ‘Fine, then …’ he said. ‘Go ahead. But … ’
‘Thank you,’ said Erica. She nodded toward Ren.
God bless you.
Gary followed everyone back into the command center.
‘Ren and Colin,’ said Gary. ‘About our old Tinytoes Bandit case – there’s a discovery conference at the U.S. Attorney’s Office with the AUSA and the defense attorney at twelve today – I need you to go to that.’
‘What?’ said Ren. ‘But—’
‘Colin – you drive,’ said Gary.
‘Good,’ he said. ‘I get to hold on to my breakfast.’
Ren grabbed her purse. ‘OK. I think I can channel Miss Daisy.’
Colin and Ren spent the first ten minutes of the drive in silence.
I want to slam your foot onto the accelerator.
‘Why the hell do we have to go to Denver in the middle of all this?’ said Ren.
‘I think they can survive without us for a couple hours,’ said Colin.
No, they can’t.
‘Do you mind if we go to Safe Streets first?’ said Colin.
‘No,’ said Ren.
‘I just need to pick something up.’
Much like your girlfriend needs to pick things up. Here goes: ‘Naomi sure knows how to have a good time,’ said Ren.
Colin smiled. ‘She is a live wire,’ he said.
‘We had a blast that night we were out,’ said Ren.
Colin nodded. ‘Yes … I guess she doesn’t have a lot of female friends …’
Probably because she’s stolen their men. ‘Really?’ said Ren.
‘Well, she’s moved around a lot,’ said Colin.
Probably because she was being hunted down by her female friends for stealing their men. ‘That’s hard,’ said Ren.
‘So, did she out-drink you?’ said Colin, glancing at her.
‘Not a chance,’ said Ren. Just go for it. ‘She definitely out-chatted me, though …’
‘You two fighting for air time …’ said Colin.
‘More she was chatting with the people we met,’ said Ren. ‘This group of snowboarders …’ Male snowboarders. Men. Other men.
Colin nodded. ‘Tis the season …’
To be whoring. Fa-la-la-la-la …
Ren turned on the radio.
There was a package on Ren’s desk when she arrived at Safe Streets. It had a Spyder logo. She ripped it open.
It was a new ski jacket. Her heart soared. She had bought it on a second screen while she was buying Ethan’s gifts.
I had forgotten about you.
She was shaking off her jacket to try the new one on, when the phone rang. It was Glenn Buddy.
‘Did you listen to the Kennington tape?’ he said.
‘Yes,’ said Ren.
‘She’s still swearing she doesn’t know who organized the party,’ said Glenn. ‘Neither does the guy-friend or the boy from school she said she liked.’
‘We need to find out who was behind that party,’ said Ren. ‘And whether there’s any significance in the choice of venue.’
‘The significance is kids’ fascination with asylums,’ said Glenn. ‘There are websites devoted to this, there are asylum “fans” …’
‘I’m fascinated myself,’ said Ren. ‘But I wouldn’t go to a party in one … especially the condition it was in.’
‘Even when you were sixteen …’ said Glenn.
Colin stuck his head around the door. ‘Ren – that meeting with the AUSA’s canceled.�
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Ren covered the phone. ‘Wait. I’m nearly done.’
Colin shrugged. ‘Gary just called.’
‘But, we’ve come all this way—’
‘Don’t look at me,’ said Colin.
WTF?
‘Sorry, Glenn, I’m back,’ said Ren. ‘Are you looking at the people running these asylum “fan” sites, or posting on them?’
‘Yup,’ said Glenn.
‘If you need any extra eyes on that, let me know,’ said Ren.
‘What do you make of the drawing?’ said Glenn.
‘That’s one freaky little monkey,’ said Ren.
‘Is it a see-no-evil hear-no-evil thing?’ said Glenn.
‘I don’t know,’ said Ren. ‘I’d like to think about it some more. My phone’s ringing, Glenn, I have to take this. It’s Gary.’
‘Sure, go ahead,’ said Glenn. ‘Thanks for all this, Ren.’
‘I’ll keep you posted.’ Ren switched calls.
‘How are you doing?’ said Gary.
‘I’m good, but …’
‘But?’ said Gary.
‘Colin just told me the meeting’s canceled—’
‘Yes,’ said Gary. ‘Nothing we can do about that. What time is it?’
‘Now?’ said Ren. ‘Twelve thirty.’
‘OK – you should be able to make that appointment,’ said Gary.
‘What appointment?’ Shit. Shit. Shit. The psychiatrist. ‘What appointment … time have you got there?’ Like that’s convincing.
‘Same as it always has been, Ren. One p.m. No change …’
‘Just checking,’ said Ren. She paused. ‘I’ve no car.’
‘Grab a cab.’
‘OK.’
Shit. Shit. Shit.
How did I fall for this?
24
Dr Leonard Lone was in his early fifties, sitting in an office that appeared to have been designed in the decade leading up to his birth.
Next client: brittle housewife with closeted husband.
Dr Lone sat cross-legged in a chair beside his desk. He was dressed in a mauve shirt, a pale green round-necked sweater, ghostly blue slim-fit jeans, and beige sandals with thick gray woolen socks. He pointed Ren toward a seat two feet in front of his.
Men should not cross their legs.
Ren pictured a website of psychiatrists, like a shopping website, where the images sped across the screen, and you could stop briefly and click on an image to get a closer look. She would have scrolled past the priestly Dr Leonard Lone. He smacked of downplaying your sexual exploits.
Ren wondered whether psychiatrists could tell how quickly she summed them up. Or if they cared. It averaged two minutes, but she always stayed for the full session to have her mind changed. She wondered if psychiatrists also noticed when they didn’t click, and did they hope she wouldn’t come back.
‘Hello, Agent Bryce …’ he said, reaching out to shake her hand.
‘Ren is fine,’ she said.
‘And is Ren fine?’ said Dr Lone.
Oh. Dear.
‘I’m … OK,’ said Ren. And not into you enough to feel like telling you otherwise. She slid her chair back a fraction.
‘So,’ said Dr Lone. ‘I’ve gone through your file, and … well, you’re obviously an FBI Agent. That must be quite a challenge.’
‘It can be,’ said Ren. But you’ll never understand exactly how.
Dr Lone waited. ‘So, tell me how is everything at work right now?’
Why are people always interested in my work? Ask me about relationships. I’ll get a gold star: one man. No pressure. No drama. No crime or drug history.
‘You’re smiling,’ said Dr Lone. ‘That must be a good sign.’
Of me entertaining myself. ‘Work is fine, actually,’ said Ren. And I need to get back to it. And I’ve already sent you out of the first round of Shrink Idol. So this pricey hour is a total waste. And I am sick of psychiatrists. And I already found the perfect psychiatrist. And now she’s dead. And it was my fault. And …
Dr Lone tilted his head. ‘How are you coping with the loss of your last psychiatrist?’
La. La. La. La. La. ‘As well as can be expected,’ said Ren. I can not believe I said that.
‘Have you had any grief counseling?’ said Dr Lone.
‘No,’ said Ren. That would be sensible and terrifying.
‘Maybe that’s something you could look at,’ said Dr Lone. ‘Along with your visits to me.’
Internal eyebrow raise.
‘So … what do you hope to gain from coming to see me?’ said Dr Lone.
Zero? A pain in my ass? Weight? ‘Em …’
‘Do you feel that you’re here under duress?’ said Dr Lone.
Ren paused. Be nice. ‘I understand why I’ve been sent to you,’ said Ren. ‘To a degree … actually, I don’t really. Because I’ve been fine.’
Dr Lone nodded. ‘It’s a condition of your employment that you are under a psychiatrist’s care, isn’t that right?’
‘Yes,’ said Ren. Sadly.
‘Well, maybe that’s all this is …’ said Dr Lone. ‘A formality. To keep your boss happy.’
Oh, you don’t believe that.
‘What are your concerns about coming here?’ said Dr Lone.
Let me think: I’m not sure I like you. Or you’re right for me. Or there’s any need for me to be here. ‘I don’t want to be put on medication.’ You said that last part out loud.
‘We’ve only just met,’ said Dr Lone. ‘I won’t be handing you a prescription today.’
‘And … any other day?’ said Ren.
‘I don’t necessarily believe in medication,’ said Dr Lone.
What? But I want you to. Even though I don’t want to take any. I just want to know it’s there. And that you believe there’s a quick fix. If, at some point, I need one. Which I don’t right now.
‘Why do you think I would medicate you?’ said Dr Lone. ‘If everything is fine.’
Damn you.
‘Everything’s great,’ said Ren. ‘Really good. I’m getting a lot done.’
Dr Lone nodded. ‘And are you getting much sleep?’
No. I don’t need it, but that’s the wrong answer. ‘Yes.’
‘How many hours are you getting each night?’ said Dr Lone.
None to one. ‘Seven.’
‘And what about eating?’ said Dr Lone.
And the correct answer is: ‘I’m eating well … regularly.’
‘And your caffeine intake?’ said Dr Lone.
Beautifully, wonderfully excessive. ‘Maybe a little more than usual, but we’re on an intense case.’
‘So everything is fine,’ said Dr Lone.
It actually is, people! ‘Absolutely.’
‘Yet, you think I might have put you on medication …’
‘Just … psychiatrists like to medicate.’
‘Not all of them,’ said Dr Lone.
‘So, how else would you correct a chemical imbalance … if you felt there was one?’ said Ren.
‘Assuming a chemical imbalance is what lies behind mental illness …’ said Dr Lone.
‘But—’
‘No study has ever proven that depression, for example, is caused by a chemical imbalance …’ said Dr Lone.
‘But, serotonin,’ said Ren. ‘Dopamine …’
Dr Lone nodded. ‘No study has shown that depression is caused by a lack of dopamine or serotonin.’
‘But … I’ve spent my whole life thinking I had a chemical imbalance,’ said Ren.
‘I would venture,’ said Dr Lone, ‘that you spent a great part of your life not thinking there was anything wrong with you and being oblivious to the field of psychopharmacology … until a psychiatrist diagnosed you in your mid-twenties. And then when you read up on bipolar disorder, you were assaulted with very clever advertising campaigns that reinforced the chemical imbalance theory.’
‘But I’ve read studies … in medical journals …’ said Ren.
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bsp; ‘You may have read that antidepressants raise dopamine and serotonin levels, and yes, that’s true – they do,’ said Lone. ‘But perhaps what you may not have read is that low levels of dopamine and serotonin have never been shown to cause depression.’
What?!
He nodded. ‘One could argue that fevers are caused by too little aspirin …’
‘That’s insane,’ said Ren.
‘It’s easy for someone to feel that they haven’t been treated if they don’t leave a doctor’s office without a prescription. Desperate people want help,’ said Dr Lone. ‘Or at least hope. They like to think there’s a quick fix. And I think differently.’
‘What do you think?’
‘I think medication can work for some people, absolutely. But I think it’s over-prescribed. I think antidepressants can work in the short term to get people back on their feet, but that diet, exercise and talking are the key. The right diet and exercise can work as well, and, in some cases, better than antidepressants. It’s just very difficult to persuade people. Either way, I certainly wouldn’t be prescribing medication after the first consult. All my sessions are typically one-hour long, by the way, not just the first session. They are that length so that we have time to talk.’
Oh. Dear. God. No. How is work even paying for that? Because I’m not worth it. Gary is the one who should be here. He’s lost his mind.
‘For today, Ren, I’d like you to go through some of your history …’
Noo. ‘Normal childhood, happy home, trained with the FBI, went undercover, came out from under the cover, psychiatrist died, here I am.’ She glanced up at the clock behind him.
He noticed. He slid his chair back a little from the desk. ‘I’m afraid that our time has run out.’
Oh. ‘OK,’ said Ren. But … no, it hasn’t. And aren’t you even going to mention the skimming over of the background?
‘Shall I see you again next week, Ren?’ said Dr Lone. ‘What would you think about that?’