Unfortunately, that is not the accepted thing for a lady to be, Mother had always added with a sigh.
Hearing her brother Finn’s voice rise up in protest to something Father was saying, Sorcha quickly donned a gown and slippers and crept down the stairs, staying low. Her legs trembled from both her nerves and her crouched position. If Father caught her, she feared he’d marry her off in a fit of anger, as he had done to her sister, Constance, several months prior, not even a fortnight after Mother had died. Poor Constance had never even been disobedient like Sorcha, not until the day Father caught her in the arms of one of his commanders. Father had yelled that the Earl of Angus’s daughter was not supposed to waste her worth on a mere commander. All the years of Constance’s meek, obedient behavior had not saved her from Father’s anger.
It had taken only a sennight after the discovery of the kiss and Constance was gone, married off to the Earl of Mar, who had shamelessly arrived to collect Constance with his mistress on his arm. The earl had informed her sister in front of a room full of people, Sorcha included, that he expected an heir immediately or Constance could anticipate the same treatment his first wife had received. If the cook’s whispers were correct, the earl’s first wife had met with her death in a most suspicious manner. Sorcha knew by Constance’s letters that she was absolutely miserable. The earl was a cruel, selfish man who kept his mistress in the room across the hall from Constance.
Directly after Father had married Constance off, he had told Sorcha in plain terms that if she disobeyed him one more time, he’d find a husband for her that made the Earl of Mar seem saintly. She didn’t doubt him for a breath. He’d threatened it several times in the past few weeks, too, and she had spent many a sleepless night worried about to whom he might marry her.
When her mother had been alive, Sorcha had kept the slightest hope that she might one day have the good fortune of marrying a man she cared for, as Mother had often managed to influence Father’s choices and treatment of them without him seeming to realize it. It was one of the great secrets Sorcha and her siblings knew but never dared to utter aloud. Thanks to Mother, Sorcha had been allowed to learn to read and write, Constance had not been married off at fifteen as Father had wanted, merely so he could gain land, and Finn had been able to avoid going to war after Mother had convinced Father that Finn’s talents were needed at home. Her brother had a quick mind for arguments but no skills as a warrior, a fact Mother and Sorcha had often done their best to help Finn disguise. Yet Father knew and was cruel to Finn because of it.
Mother had managed to protect him for a bit, but not one day after her death, Father had demanded Finn go to battle. And it had only taken that one battle for him to realize the full extent of how his son, his heir, was not the man he hoped. Now Father was determined to make Finn a warrior.
Sorcha peered over the top of the stairs toward the open door of the great hall. She could see Finn’s profile as he stood just inside the door. The man next to him was much taller and broader, but all she could see was a wide expanse of shoulders. With care, she moved down one step and then another until she could see curly dark hair, a chin covered with dark stubble, and the side of a square jaw. Her stomach twisted with recognition—Hugo, the Earl of Ross’s son. His arms were crossed in his usual arrogant and annoying manner.
She nearly groaned. What was he doing here? She narrowed her gaze on Hugo. The man had absolutely no compassion for others, which was only one of the reasons she did not care for him.
She shimmied down another three steps, craned her neck to see if anyone had turned toward her, and dashed off the steps and to the left, where she could see fully into the room.
Her brother’s and Hugo’s backs were now to her, and upon the dais sat her father, Hugo’s father, and two men she did not recognize. She instantly knew they were wealthy, however, by the richness of their cloaks and the many men hovering about them. She glanced over her shoulder toward the stairs and the direction of her bedchamber. If she were wise, she would go back to bed and keep doing her best to go unnoticed by her father. She prayed that at the upcoming feast, she might finally meet a man that truly stirred her and that, God willing, the meeting would lead to a love match that Father would accept. Or one that she would be willing to defy him to secure.
Her stomach flipped at the prospect of marrying a virtual stranger, but her stomach turned to hard knots at the thought of being forced to marry someone like the Earl of Mar, who would treat her like a brood mare, or Hugo, who would forever think himself better than her simply because he was a man. She wished to have a marriage like the one her aunt, Blanche, Baroness Wake of Layton, had found. Blanche had disobeyed her and mother’s father’s wishes long ago by running off into the night with an Englishman she had met at a tournament and had truly loved.
So far, Sorcha had only met men with whom she didn’t care to be in the same room, let alone spend the rest of her life.
“Finn!” Her father’s booming voice made her flinch. “Ye’ve failed me again!”
Sorcha winced, and her heart clenched for her brother, imagining how their father’s cruel words likely made him feel. Finn had once been a happy child, but over the years, he had become an angry man, and Sorcha suspected it was because he could not please Father. She didn’t know for certain, because he no longer confided in her. It seemed the more she tried to help, the more scornful he became. It didn’t improve the matter that Father had often pointed out to Finn that she had more skill as a warrior than he did.
She could sense his resentment when he was around her, but he was her brother, her twin, and she loved him still. Because of this, she found herself creeping to the alcove under the stairs so she could see and hear better.
She watched as Father moved off the dais and advanced toward Finn, whose shoulders visibly stiffened at their father’s approach. Father’s boots thudded against the floor as he strode across the room and stopped directly in front of Finn. “Ye had one simple task,” he snarled. “Kill Katherine Mortimer.”
Sorcha’s breath caught deep in her throat, and she found herself pressing as far back into the shadowy, dusty alcove as she could. Her back met with the wall, and she inhaled a long breath of the musty air, trying to calm her suddenly racing heart. Father had ordered a woman’s death? Sorcha had long ago lost the notion that her father was a good man, yet to order a woman to be killed? And who was Katherine Mortimer?
Finn turned his head, and even from the cobwebbed alcove, she could see the side of his jaw set in anger. “The king’s mistress was heavily guarded.”
Gooseflesh prickled across Sorcha’s entire body, and her scalp tingled with fear. Father had ordered the king’s mistress killed?
Treason! Her father had committed treason and drawn Finn into it with him!
But why? Why?
She bit her lip, fearing she knew the answer. The king had been steadily stripping the nobles—her father included—of power, and the nobles were starting to rebel. She wrapped her arms around her waist, her heart pounding nearly out of her chest.
“Ye should have planned for guards!” Father rebuked, jabbing his finger into Finn’s chest. “King David would guard his mistress well! Anyone who is nae a clot-heid would ken this. He is obsessed with the woman, which is precisely why I ordered ye to kill her!” Father shot out a gloved hand and smacked Finn so hard that her brother stumbled into Hugo. A disdainful look swept across Hugo’s face as he shoved Finn away from him.
Sorcha pressed farther into the alcove, but there was nowhere to go. The wall blocked any retreat. For a moment, she wished desperately that she had stayed abed and had not heard this exchange, but with a squeeze of her eyes and another long breath, she pushed the thought away. Mother had always told her that everyone had secrets. Some would kill you slowly with the keeping, some would kill you quickly when revealed, and others would shape who you were. Secrets could make you better or worse, depending on if you learned from them. The trick was to know which was which. This was mos
t definitely a secret that could get them all killed if King David learned of it. Thank God above that her brother had failed to murder the king’s mistress.
Finn straightened his shoulders and stood tall, his eyes glittering dangerously. Sorcha sucked in a breath, certain he was about to finally make a stand against Father. “I’ll hunt her down,” he said instead, causing bile to rise in Sorcha’s throat. “Even if I die in the process, I vow I’ll nae fail ye again.”
Sorcha trembled even as her father snorted. “If only yer vow held the weight of a capable warrior.”
Finn seemed to grow smaller before Sorcha’s eyes. His shoulders hunched, and his head dipped forward as if in shame. Usually, she would feel his woe at being dismissed so by their father, but all she could feel was horror. Finn intended to kill a woman because Father had commanded it; her brother was further gone than she had realized. Feeling powerless to stop it or to help him, she dug her nails into her palms, the edges cutting into her sensitive flesh.
“All is nae lost,” Hugo said. His strong confident voice rang of secrets that wielded power. “I ken where Katherine’s party is going and the path they are taking.”
Her father’s eyebrows shot up. “And how did ye come by such information?”
Hugo turned to speak to her father, and she could see that one side of his mouth had pulled into a pompous smile. “I joined with one of Katherine’s maids two days ago in Edinburgh. Once I learned who she was, it occurred to me I could get information out of the wench that might aid our cause.”
Her father chuckled. “What a sacrifice ye’ve made, Hugo.”
Now Hugo chuckled. The sound of his mirth at the dastardly thing he had done made Sorcha cringe. “I’ve nae a doubt I can overcome Katherine’s party and kill her,” Hugo said. “They are headed through the Caledonian Forest on the westernmost side, following the trail of the Marching Oaks.”
Sorcha’s stomach roiled at Hugo’s offer. The man never did anything that he did not think would benefit him somehow, and she had a horrible suspicion…
“What would ye wish in return for completing the mission that was assigned to Finn by myself and the others?” Sorcha’s father asked, waving a hand toward the two men who still sat at the dais.
Other rich nobles, she presumed, angry that King David was taking their land and giving it to commoners he thought more loyal. Of course, he was right. Her father and these “others” were not devoted to King David. In truth, they detested him because he would not let them influence the way he ruled.
Hugo turned to face the dais. “I would do anything to aid ye,” he said and glanced to her father before looking back at the dais, “and my lords Stewart and March in your quest.”
It was just like Hugo to avoid a direct question. He had to want something quite important to show such reluctance to reveal what it was until he felt certain of her father’s answer. Sorcha did not miss how Hugo’s gaze flicked to his father, the Earl of Ross, nor how the earl gave an almost imperceptible nod of approval at his son’s words. The churning in her stomach turned so violent that she doubled over a bit, feeling sick.
“Of course ye would, Hugo,” Sorcha’s father said lazily. “We all ken ye want what’s best for Scotland, as each of us certainly does. The king surely does, as well, though he seems to have forgotten that having us, the nobles, work with him to rule is what’s best for Scotland.”
Sorcha barely resisted the urge to grunt her disgust. Now that she knew who the noblemen in attendance in the room were, it was undeniable that each of them—from her father to King David’s own nephew, the Steward—were not gathered here out of concern for Scotland. They were here to ensure they kept their power, just as she had guessed. Apparently, they had decided to strike at King David through his mistress to show the king they could hurt him despite the fact that he was king.
“Still,” her father spoke again, “for risking yer life to help us tell David that without us by his side nae even his beloved mistress is safe, we—” her father waved a hand behind him to the men who sat silently on the dais “—would wish to reward ye for yer aid. Tell me, what sort of reward would ye care for?” It was a command more than a question; he was clearly weary of Hugo’s stalling.
“If it pleases ye, my lord, I’d like to marry yer daughter,” Hugo responded, finally revealing what he had been after.
A gasp escaped Sorcha, and she slapped a trembling hand over her mouth. Her pulse raced when Hugo’s gaze shifted in her direction. For one long moment, she felt his eyes searching the darkness, and she feared greatly that somehow he could see her. She held her breath, but he looked at her father again. She exhaled, placing her palms flat against the walls to either side of her because her legs felt as if they might buckle beneath her.
“That certainly pleases me,” her father replied so easily that tears instantly pricked Sorcha’s eyes. He knew she did not wish to marry Hugo, did not even care for him, but none of that mattered to her father. She did not matter to him. He had bartered her away without so much as blinking.
Her throat tightened as the tears blurred her vision then slid down her cheeks in twin paths of warm, wet betrayal. She swiped angrily at them. She had understood for many years that Father considered her and her sister possessions to be used for gain, but she had never feared greatly what might come to pass because she believed Mother would somehow influence him. Sorcha had foolishly relied upon that knowledge for her future. But Mother was gone. Constance was gone.
Father clapped Hugo on the shoulder. “Once the deed is done, return to me and Sorcha will be yers, along with Blair Castle, which I will give to her as a wedding gift.”
“Father!” Finn burst out.
Sorcha flinched, fearing what was to come, and within a breath, Finn’s head jerked violently to the right when the back of their father’s hand struck his cheek.
“Ye’re nae worthy to command Blair Castle,” Father snarled.
She cringed at the words. Blair Castle had been given to him by King David when he had helped negotiate the king’s release from captivity in England just three years earlier. Father had promised the castle to Finn when he finally proved himself a worthy warrior.
She glanced to her brother and bit her lip, hoping he would not do or say anything that would make the situation worse. Finn turned so that she had a direct view of his face, and much to her relief, he pressed his lips into a thin white line as his cheeks turned a blotchy red. His hands curled into fists at his sides, but he did not speak.
She started to exhale a relieved breath when Father spoke. “Ye are nae worthy of the Stewart name, Finn. So help me, I will make a warrior out of ye if it kills me. Ye will ride with Hugo to hunt Katherine’s party, ye will watch how a real warrior completes a mission, and then ye will return and serve as guard to yer sister as she makes her way to Blair Castle to rule it by Hugo’s side.” He paused. “And when Hugo deems ye to finally be a true warrior, ye may return to me and command my men, and someday, when I die, you may rule this castle. But if ye’re never deemed worthy, as God is my witness, I’ll give this castle and all others to the children Sorcha bears Hugo.”
She cut her gaze to Hugo, who was struggling not to smirk. Panic swept through her at what was unfolding. If Hugo was successful and she did nothing to stop him, she would be a party to murder, not to mention she would become the man’s wife. She could not live with herself if she did not try to prevent an innocent woman from being murdered, and she certainly did not want to be chained to Hugo forever. Yet, if he wasn’t successful and he was captured, or worse, Finn was captured, they may well all hang by the king’s command once he traced the order back to the lords in this room.
She ground her teeth. She knew where the trail of the Marching Oaks was, and if she fled now, she had a very good chance of reaching Katherine before Hugo, Finn, and the others. She thanked heaven that her uncle Brom had secretly taught her how to ride a horse. She was an excellent rider, but if she did this, there might very well be no retu
rning home if her betrayal was discovered by Hugo or his men. They’d tell her father and he’d brand her a traitor, and she shivered to think how Father might punish her. Marriage to Hugo surely would seem a blessing.
She pushed the fear out of her mind. She had to save the king’s mistress, not to mention herself from Hugo and her brother from doing something so dreadful as to be party to the murder of the king’s mistress.
Taking a deep breath, she crept out of the shadowy alcove and raced out of the castle. She had intended to take the most direct path to the stables, but to her horror, Hugo’s men were already gathered in the courtyard, dressed battle-ready like Hugo and mounted on their destriers, as if waiting to depart as quickly as possible when the order came. She ducked back into the castle and made her way quickly to the rear door that led to the gardens.
Running now, she raced through the gardens toward the stables. She burst through the door, not at all surprised to see her uncle sitting on a stump talking to the horses. Brom was more comfortable around animals than he was around most people, so he was in the stables much of the time. He turned toward her, a childlike smile pulling at his lips. His eyes had always reminded her of Father’s, but Brom’s were kind, unlike his brother’s. His gaze darted all around her, yet never settled on her. Her throat tightened with emotion. She could flee to her aunt Blanche’s home if her betrayal was discovered, but Brom and Finn were the two reasons she had not done so after her mother had died and Constance had been married off so callously by Father.
Brom had the big, burly body of a strong warrior but the mind of a child, and Finn had the mind of a man but not the will of a fighter, nor the spine to stand against Father. She feared what would become of both of them if she left. Sorcha was the only one other than Mother who had ever been able to calm Brom when he was agitated and could get him to talk at all. Her fears for Finn were entirely different but just as real. There was a desperation in him that had grown more and more each year, fed by Father’s criticism and the pressure to become a coldhearted warrior—and man. She feared he was becoming just that, and she could not idly watch it happen.
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