by Maya Banks
“I never said I wanted to kill them,” she said calmly. “I said Esteban hired me to kill them.”
“So you’re here out of the goodness of your heart? Forgive me if I don’t quite buy that.”
She got to her feet, her hands fisted at her sides. “I’m here to save Damiano. I don’t give a damn about you or your cat friends.”
Eli cocked his head in surprise. “Damiano Ruiz?”
Her lip curled. “Yeah, you know, the guy who led your team into Adharji and took a shot of the same chemical agent you did.”
“I thought he died,” Eli said quietly. “When we got out…” He dragged a hand to the back of his neck and down his ponytail. “We wouldn’t have left him. We considered him one of ours.”
“He didn’t die,” she said icily. “We got him out. And now he’s got the same problem the rest of you do.”
“And that is?”
“Don’t play stupid mind games with me. He’s a shifter. Only he can’t control his abilities like you. He’s…” Her voice broke off, and her shoulders shook as she fought to compose herself. Then she looked back up at him, resolve burning brightly in her eyes. “I have to save him, and you’re going to help me.”
Fuck. What a goddamn mess.
He checked his watch as he realized that Ian and Braden should have been in by now. Not that they were predictable by a long shot, but he could usually time the duration of their shifts, just not when they’d happen.
“Stay here,” he said. “I need to go see about Ian and Braden.”
She frowned. “I’ll go.”
“Fine.” He wasn’t going to argue with her.
He turned and hurried toward the back again, hoping they hadn’t gotten behind the high security fence he’d had installed. It should do the job of keeping them contained, but then a wild cat didn’t always play by the rules.
“Why are you checking on them?” she asked as she hurried to catch up. “What’s wrong with them?”
“They’ve been out too long.”
She caught up to him again as he opened the last security gate and stepped onto the grounds. He listened intently for any sounds, any indication they were near. When she started to speak again, he silenced her with an upraised hand. Surprisingly she complied and kept to his side, as quiet as he was.
He hurried to the last place he’d seen them, where Tyana had come across them. When he got close, his pulse ratcheted up as fear gripped him.
Braden was lying on the ground while the jaguar prowled close by. When the jaguar scented them, he turned his head and hissed, his teeth flashing and his ears flattening.
“Oh shit,” Eli murmured.
“What’s wrong with him?” Tyana whispered. “Why doesn’t he just shift back?”
He didn’t answer. His attention was fixed on Braden, trying to see if he was moving. He prayed to God Ian hadn’t attacked him in jaguar form.
“Ian,” Eli called. “Ian, goddamn it, you have to let me go to him.” He felt stupid for talking to the damn cat. There was nothing of Ian inside, not when he was in shifted form. But he was starting to feel desperate. How could he sacrifice one brother for the other? He couldn’t hurt the jaguar. Ian had no control over his actions. He became the predator.
The jaguar snarled again and stalked slowly toward Eli and Tyana. Eli shoved Tyana behind him and held her there with one arm. He could shift and easily evade the cat, but it would leave Tyana unprotected.
Braden stirred and Eli heaved a sigh of relief. At least until the jaguar turned when it sensed Braden’s movement. The cat padded back to Braden, and Eli knew he was going to have to intervene. He wouldn’t stand back while Braden was mauled.
“If this goes bad, you get your ass back to the house,” he hissed in Tyana’s direction.
Then he let go, let the air swallow him whole. He streaked toward the jaguar as he bent his head to sniff at Braden’s chest.
Eli curled around the muscular neck of the jaguar, but to his surprise, the cat nuzzled against Braden, licked his cheek and backed off.
And then he began the shift.
Eli retreated, materializing a few feet away as Ian fell to the ground, his muscles contorting. The cat hissed in pain as his limbs elongated. His body rippled as fur and skin stretched and faded. Eli winced as the human face stretched in agony as Ian finally came back to himself.
Ian panted and a groan worked itself from the depths of his chest. He opened his eyes and looked first at Braden lying beside him and then turned his tortured gaze to Eli.
“What have I done?” he whispered.
He struggled to get up and collapsed to the ground again. Eli rushed forward to help him, but Ian shrugged him off as he fought desperately to get to his brother.
“Ian, he’s alive. I’m not even sure he’s hurt.”
Still, Ian pulled himself to his brother, and Eli knelt beside them both.
Braden blinked with glazed eyes. His muscles twitched and spasmed, and a heavy sweat bathed his entire body.
“Braden,” Ian croaked. “Are you okay? Talk to me, man.”
“I’m good. I think,” Braden whispered, his voice hoarse and laced with pain.
Eli felt Tyana walk up behind him. “Back off,” he growled.
The two brothers looked up at Tyana in confusion.
Eli stood and whirled around, anger and his need to protect his men uppermost in his mind. “I said, back away.”
She stared past him, not even absorbing his demand. Confusion simmered in her eyes as she stared at the brothers in a mixture of sympathy and horror.
“What’s wrong with them?” she asked. “Why didn’t they just shift back?”
“Because they can’t. You should know this, Tyana. You said Damiano was the same. They’re as unstable as he is.”
She shook her head, tears swimming in her eyes. “But you’re stable. You can control it. I thought…I thought they would be able to as well.”
And then Eli knew. That was what she wanted. It was why she’d risked her ass to chase him across the globe. She thought he had answers that would help her brother. How could he tell her that there was no answer? That he was the freak, not Damiano. Not Ian and Braden.
Ian rose unsteadily to his feet, pulling Braden up with him. Eli gave them his attention then shot Tyana a sharp glance. “Help me get them back to the house.”
She didn’t hesitate to wrap an arm around a naked Braden as he leaned heavily on her. He didn’t seem to care that a complete stranger was hauling him toward the house. He looked too washed out and exhausted to process much of anything.
Eli grabbed on to Ian and slung Ian’s arm across his shoulders. Then he started forward, dragging Ian’s weight with him.
As he watched Tyana struggle with Braden’s much larger form, he wondered if she’d make it back, but she didn’t complain, nor did she let go of Braden.
Eli cursed when he realized she was taking the brunt of Braden’s weight on her wounded shoulder.
Several long minutes later, Tyana and Eli hauled the brothers into the house and toward their bedrooms.
“Hold up right here,” Eli instructed Tyana as he reached over and leaned Braden away from Tyana and against the wall. “Sit tight a second and I’ll come back to help you get him into his room.”
Tyana nodded wearily.
Eli grunted as he heaved and tugged at Ian. He finally got him muscled over to the bed and leaned him down. Ian sagged against the pillow and his eyes opened, dull and shadowed.
“Did I hurt Braden, Eli? Tell me the truth. Did I attack my own brother?”
“No, man. I wouldn’t lie to you. You know that. You were protecting him. From us. He was out of it from the shift. You watched over him.”
Ian closed his eyes in relief. “Tired,” he murmured.
“Rest, dude. You’ll be hungry as hell when you get up. I’ll try to make sure there’s something to eat.”
Ian cracked a half smile. “Won’t you be too busy with your lady friend?�
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Eli rolled his eyes. “Noticed her did you.”
“I’m not dead,” Ian said dryly. “Nice ass. I got a good view on the way back. Think she’d hold the fact that Braden and I are cats against us?”
Eli gave a disgusted snort. “She’s not here to be your kinky plaything. You two get your own damn woman to sandwich.”
Ian smiled faintly. “Yeah, I know. You don’t share.”
“And don’t you forget it,” Eli warned.
Ian struggled to keep his eyes open, and Eli put his hand on his shoulder. “Get some rest, bro. This was a bad one.”
Ian nodded and closed his eyes.
Eli hurried back out to the hallway where Braden was still propped against the doorframe to his bedroom. Naked as a damn jaybird. He glanced over at Tyana but she seemed oblivious to Braden’s nudity.
“I’ll take it from here,” he told her. “Go wait for me in my office. You remember the way?”
She nodded, her eyes subdued. To his surprise, she didn’t give him any lip. No defiance. She just turned around and walked back down the hallway, a defeated slump to her shoulders.
Chapter Fifteen
When Eli walked into his office, he found Tyana gathering the weapons he’d tossed onto one of the couches. Her torn jacket was back on, and she was shoving her knives into place.
Her back was rigid, her movements mechanical, as though she were hanging on to control by a thread.
“What are you doing?” he asked softly.
She turned, casting her gaze briefly over him before returning to what she was doing.
“Leaving,” she said shortly.
He moved closer to her but was careful to keep some distance between them.
“You just got here.”
She slung the rifle over her shoulder and turned around again, her stance defensive and impenetrable as hell.
“I found out what I needed to know. You can’t help me.” She paused for a long second then stared hard at him. “Why you?”
He lifted his brow in confusion. “Why me what?”
She sighed with impatience. “Why are you stable? How is it you can control your shifts, even conjure clothing when you shift back? You’re in complete control of your abilities. The inhibitor I used on you was ineffective.”
“Dumb luck?”
“Until now, I assumed you’d found a cure, that you and your team had found a way to fight what happened. I wanted that for Damiano. I’ve killed for it. I would kill again. I’d do anything to save him from what I fear will happen if he doesn’t get help soon.”
“Join the club,” Eli murmured.
“I was hired by Esteban to kill Ian and Braden and to bring you in alive. Any idea why he’d want you alive?”
“Sweetheart, I don’t even know who the fuck Esteban Morales is, so how the hell would I know why he wants my team dead and me alive?”
Realization lit fire in her eyes. “Because he’s the bastard who unleashed the chemical agent on you. You’re stable. The others aren’t. He wants to know why. You’re the one thing in his experiment that didn’t go wrong.”
Eli held his hands up. “Whoa. Slow down. Back up and tell me what the fuck you mean by he’s the one who unleashed the chemical on us.”
Her shoulders sagged and fatigue blew over her. She looked like a sapling swaying in the wind. He moved into her space, took her by the arm and pulled her toward the door.
“What are you doing?” she asked.
“Fixing you something to eat. You’ll eat. Then we’ll talk. You’re no good to me unconscious. You look like you’re about to fall over.”
Her quiet acquiescence was starting to bug the shit out him. He was much more comfortable when she was threatening to kick his ass, kicking his ass or pulling a weapon on him.
He shoved her toward the kitchen, parked her butt in a chair by the table and went to rummage in the fridge for leftovers he could warm up.
Through it all she never said a word. Her gaze was focused across the room, unseeing, like she was a million miles away. Plotting her next move? Who knew with this woman.
He was beginning to understand her motivation a lot more now. Her loyalty to her brother mirrored his own toward his team. If he thought Falcon Mercenary Group held the answers to helping Ian and Braden, he would have been after their asses just like she’d latched onto his.
He warmed some soup on the stove, poured it into a bowl and plunked it down in front of her. Then he sat down across the table from her and told her to eat.
She fiddled with the spoon for a minute before she dipped in and started to eat. The silence grew between them as did Eli’s impatience. He wanted answers.
Not that someone, some group being after him was anything new, not since the shit that had gone down in Adharji, but Esteban was a newcomer to the mix. And if Tyana was right, and he was behind the chemical attack, the shit was going to hit the fan and quick.
When he heard the clink of the spoon against the bottom of the bowl, he looked up and saw her push the bowl away. She looked like she was about to say something, so he kept silent, waiting on her.
“This sounds so stupid,” she mumbled.
“Just say it, Tyana.”
Her eyes met his again. “For some inexplicable reason I feel like I can trust you.” She held up her hand. “That came out wrong. I don’t trust you. I don’t trust anyone outside Falcon. But I don’t see you as the enemy.
“And there’s this attraction thing…”
He raised his eyebrows. Somehow he didn’t see her as having the balls to own up to the tension between them.
“I’m attracted to you in a way that leaves me baffled.”
“The feeling is entirely mutual, sugar.”
She glared until he fell silent.
“I looked you up in Singapore for information. I wanted a way to help D. I didn’t intend for things to go as far as they did.”
“I’m certainly not complaining,” he offered.
Again she silenced him with a fierce scowl.
“Then you caught up to me in Paris and again, I lost sight of what mattered, what was important.” A faint light of shame passed over her eyes. “I compromised Falcon because I couldn’t keep my hormones in check. But when I’m around you…”
She put a hand to her forehead, a delicate gesture that contradicted her outer steel. “I get crazy. I feel stupid. I do stupid things. And quite frankly, it pisses me off.”
“I’m assuming there’s a point to this sharing of deep thoughts,” he said dryly. He wasn’t about to admit that he was doing a mental double fist pump and already plotting how to get her get all stupid with him again.
“Yeah, there is,” she bit out. “Esteban offered me a cure for D in exchange for killing Ian and Braden and bringing you in.”
He was beginning to understand. “But instead you came here, knowing full well you had a snowball’s chance in hell of pulling off the job.”
She cut him off with a derisive snort, and he rolled his eyes. “Let’s not go over the whole if I wanted you dead you’d be dead thing, okay? We’ve both had ample opportunity to kill each other. We haven’t. Obviously you have no more desire to see me or my team dead than I do to see you die.”
She nodded grudgingly.
“And you feel like you’re betraying Damiano because you aren’t willing to give Esteban what he wants?”
Her eyes flashed coldly, and he saw raw resolve there, simmering, angry.
“If I believed for a minute the bastard was telling me the truth I’d kill your men and package you and deliver you to him in a heartbeat.”
“So you think he was lying.”
“I think he knew exactly what buttons to push in order to get me to do his dirty work for him. Now what I want to know is why he’s so fixated on getting rid of Ian and Braden and why he wants you alive.”
Eli sat back in his chair. “My guess? If what you said is true, and we were all part of his little experiment then he wants me beca
use I’m what worked. Just like you said.” He frowned and leaned forward again. “What it doesn’t explain is why he doesn’t want Gabe.”
Tyana gave him a perplexed look. “Isn’t he the fourth member of your team? Why would Esteban want him?”
“Because he’s stable,” Eli said calmly.
Gabe was the sole reason Eli’s secret hadn’t been exposed. It also meant that Gabe was really the only experiment that worked. Had Esteban just overlooked him on his radar?
Tyana’s eyes rounded with shock. “So you aren’t the only one after all?”
Eli shook his head.
“Maybe Esteban wasn’t lying, then,” she murmured. “Maybe there is a cure.” Her chin came up and she looked at him, her eyes just a little bit lighter. “What went on during your captivity, Eli? Were you and Gabe given injections? Did they give you any serum? Tests?”
Eli’s jaw tightened. “They didn’t have time. We got out.” He couldn’t tell her that his natural shifting ability was what got their asses out of a sling in the prison camp. Not when the others didn’t start exhibiting symptoms until much later.
“We didn’t get in to rescue Damiano until three days after you guys split. He doesn’t remember what happened.” Her hands shook slightly on the table as she balled her fingers into fists. “He was in bad shape when we found him.”
The area right behind Eli’s eye began to pound. It felt like someone was shoving an ice pick right through his eyeball. He didn’t leave men behind. He’d watched Damiano go down. Seen his lifeless body dragged out of the cell.
“That bothers you.”
He looked up at her. She hadn’t posed it as a question. “Hell yeah, it bothers me. I don’t leave a man behind. I saw him die. I watched them take him away.”
“He was more dead than alive when we found him,” she said softly. “I won’t lose him to this. Not after saving him once.”
A silvery apparition shimmered and coalesced beside Tyana. Before he could utter a warning, not to Tyana, mind you, but to Gabe’s stupid ass, Tyana bolted from her chair and grabbed Gabe’s now solid form.
They fell to the floor, Tyana on top, knee dug deep into Gabe’s crotch and her knife across his throat.