“Hello?” a frightened elderly voice inquired.
“Kiko, please.”
“What?”
“Kiko.”
“Kiko?”
“Yes.”
A few hard knocks sounded in my ear and then, “Hello,”
came a sultry voice.
“Loretta?”
“Paris?” she managed to evince both surprise and joy in her tone.
“You said call you, right?”
“I’m surprised you did,” she said.
“Why’s that?”
“I don’t know. You seem to think about some things until all the color is washed out, I guess. What do you want?”
“I got fifty dollars and a yen to hear some jazz.”
“The High Hat?” she suggested.
“I was thinkin’ more in the line with Apollo’s.”
“You know you need a reservation to get in there,” she said.
“I do, but Milo don’t.”
“And you just came up with this idea on a whim?” she asked. She was playing with me, but even when playing, cats use their claws a little.
“No,” I admitted. “I got to find out some things there, but I promise you a good dinner and fine companionship.”
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“I’m not a cheap date, Mr. Minton.”
“I know how to act.”
I p i c k e d h e r u p at her parents’ house twenty-five minutes later. They lived just south of Venice Boulevard on the west side of town.
That night Kiko “Loretta” Kuroko was a sight to behold.
She wore a tight-fitting green gown that had sequins here and there, with a black velvet-and-silk shawl draped on her shoulders. Her black high heels made her taller than I by two inches, and her makeup was just enough to make any man from six to sixty-six skip a step in his gait.
I opened the door for her as her frightened parents gawped from a window of their small house.
Loretta’s whole family had been imprisoned in an American-run concentration camp during World War II. This caused her parents to be afraid of anything outside their small circle and it made Loretta hate all white people.
“Damn,” I once said to her. “My people been under a white man’s thumb for three hundred years an’ I don’t hate all of ’em.”
“That’s because they never lied to you,” she said on that weekday afternoon at Milo’s office. “But I always believed that I was accepted as a person and a citizen. After what I saw, I don’t care what happens to them.”
It was lucky for Milo and the black population of Watts in general. Loretta was a force to be reckoned with.
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“Loretta,” he said, not even deigning to recognize my presence.
“Mr. Hanley.” If Loretta knew you, she knew your last name and often used it as a mark of respect.
Loretta took a step across the threshold and I moved to follow. A big brown hand covered my chest.
“Where you think you goin’, boy?” Razor asked, no longer smiling but still showing his teeth.
I wish I’d said something smart or sassy, but I was flabber-gasted and intimidated. All I could do was stutter.
“Paris is with me,” Loretta said.
“Really?”
“Yes.” Her smile really was something.
“You know you could do a lot bettah than a little man like this here,” Razor said, giving her an up and down look.
“I can see that you don’t know him as well as I do, Mr. Hanley,” she replied. “Paris here can’t fight to save his life, but you know when women get a man alone, fighting is the last thing on their minds.”
The club was crowded, and the bar was right next to the door. A few of the people standing around heard Loretta’s lecture and started laughing.
Razor smiled and bowed his head to me.
“Excuse me, Mr. Paris, sir. I didn’t know.” He waved his hand and we were taken by a young brown girl in a tight pink dress to a table near the stage.
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hungry and so we had them bring out a basket of battered and fried shrimp with two salads.
The Winston Marks Trio was playing that night. They were one of the most important components in those early days of the new jazz. Winston could be anything from a lonely whale to a hummingbird’s wing with his trumpet. He would have probably been world renowned if he hadn’t had an eye for every lady he met. One of those ladies was his bass player’s wife. Three weeks after that performance, Billy Stiles shot Winston in the brain, ending the trio’s career.
I spent most of my time talking to Loretta. At one point I went up to the bartender, Silver Martin. I showed him the picture of Angel and he admitted seeing her before. I handed him a picture of Andrew Jackson and he promised to send over anyone who knew something about her.
Th e m u s i c wa s g r e a t . Maybe Winston sensed his death that night because he played like I never heard anyone play before. There was one number where I knew instinctively that he was tracing the cracks of a broken heart that could never be mended. Fool that I was, I even shed a tear.
Loretta placed a hand on mine.
“You’re a sweet man, Paris Minton.”
“And you’re twice the woman of anybody else in this place,” I said.
She smiled and let her head loll a bit to the side.
“What?” I asked.
“Are we going to do something about all these fine compliments?”
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how she felt on the inside. She shared our rage and our impo-tence; she strained with us at the edges.
“Well?” she asked.
I was frozen in place. I didn’t know what to say. It was as though I had just been in my house talking loud and bragging about what I’d do with some movie queen, and then she strolled in and said, “Let’s get it on, son.”
Loretta grinned. She was not the kind of woman who would belittle the man she was with.
“It’s okay,” she said.
“No.”
“No?”
“You don’t get it,” I said. “You couldn’t understand because I’m just gettin’ to it right now myself.”
“What?”
Loretta’s eyes shimmered and her presence was absolutely assured. She felt more at home in my world than I did.
“I love you,” I said, and her smile was replaced with aston-ishment.
“What?” It was a whole different question this time.
“I see you sitting there with Milo. I see you loving him and caring for him and everybody he cares for. You’re beautiful and strong and hurt, but you never complain. That man tried to humiliate me, and you shot him right down. And I’m not even thinkin’ that you’re askin’ me to share your bed. Even if you just wonder if we’ll have another date, I’m scared to death about it. You know the girls I hang with might forget my name in the mornin’. And here you are looking into me like I was this glass’a water.”
The smile returned to Loretta’s mouth after a moment.
“Maybe later, then?” she said.
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“Excuse me. Mr. Minton?”
I looked up and saw a short brown man with pockmarks on his skin that made him seem to be made of leather. He had a flat head and snake eyes but wasn’t at all threatening or even off-putting.
“Yeah?” I said, angered by the interruption of one of the few purely honest moments I’d had with a woman.
“Silver said you wanted to know about An
gel.”
“Excuse me,” Loretta said, standing. “I have to go to the powder room.”
She left, taking the best part of me with her.
“What you got?” I asked the man, whose name I never knew.
“Angel live with a dude named Useless at Man’s Barn.”
“I got that already,” I said, taking a small fold of cash from my pocket.
The man eyed my money and actually licked his lips.
“What you need, then?”
“You seen her in the last week or so?”
“Naw.”
“You know where she work at?”
“Naw.” He bit his lip, seeing the possibility of a tip fade.
“What about anybody she’s tight wit’ other than Useless?
Maybe some white dude?”
“I seen her with some white men but not with anyone more than a couple’a times. But she used to know this one guy, an’ it seemed like they stayed friends.”
“Who?”
“Guy name’a Tommy Hoag.”
“You wouldn’t have a number for ’im?” I asked.
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“Don’t need it,” the leather man said. “Tommy is the only Negro agent for the Schuyler Real Estate office on Hooper.”
Andrew Jackson leaped happily from my hand, and just as happily the nameless leather man jogged away from my table.
I saw Loretta approach from across the room. The men all gave her glances. The women looked to make sure that she kept on going.
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17 I was working with her, but she was definitely the captain of that boat. She licked my throat and nipped my ears, caressed the side of my neck in a way no mother had ever done a child’s. Two of her fingers found their way into a small opening between the buttons of my shirt. When she pressed against my nipple, I jumped a little.
“I’m not finished yet,” she whispered, just in case my flinch-ing meant that I was ready to walk her to the door.
There was no hurry to Loretta’s passion, but my heart was thumping like a lonely puppy’s heart does when his master returns after leaving him tied up for hours.
When we finally separated, I felt as if I had spent a lifetime with her.
“I understood what you were saying,” Loretta whispered.
“I do love Milo, but we aren’t like that. And you know, Paris, I need a man to make me whole.”
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parents were huddled there — a two-headed warden. Loretta kissed me again and then was enveloped in the frightened arms of their love.
I went to my trunk and brought out the whiskey and soda. I sat there smoldering cigarettes and imbibing alcohol until the fervor abated and the swelling went down.
I didn’t make it home until after four.
S o m e t i m e i n t h e e a r l y a f t e r n o o n I headed out looking for Tommy Hoag. Schuyler Real Estate was a small office wedged in between a hardware store and a barber’s shop on Hooper. The office was red of color and less than six feet in width. There were three desks along the crimson aisle. The first was at the window on the right, the second was just behind that on the left, and the third was against the back wall, removed from the other two by at least seven feet.
For years Schuyler’s had had three white agents sitting in that crooked line. The head man was always the one at the back of the room. You had to get past the first two barriers to reach him. These first two agents dealt with colored people wanting apartments and storefronts, churches, and small garages. The last agent always dealt with white businesspeople coming down to open big businesses like supermarkets and lumberyards.
Knowing the system, I was surprised to see the one colored face manning the hindmost desk.
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that was all I could do. But she was at the back of my mind, kissing my neck and making sounds of whoopee.
“Yes, sir?” the half-bald white man in the green jacket and black trousers asked. He had risen either to greet or to expel me.
“Mr. Hoag, please,” I said.
“Do you have an appointment?” the middle-aged roadblock asked, an apology already etched around his eyes.
“It has to do with this photograph,” I said, handing Angel over into his bone-colored grasp.
“I don’t understand?” he said, looking at the picture and registering something.
“He will,” I assured the salesman.
The first man, whose nameplate read roger, moved to negotiate between the desks, making his way toward the back of the aisle. The man behind him sat tall and thin, swathed in brown. He smiled and nodded.
“Nice day,” he said.
One of the things I love about America is that if you are a potential customer almost everyone is nice to you. They might hate your guts and wish you dead, but face-to-face they smile and nod and talk about the weather in a neighborly cadence.
Roger had made his pitch to Tommy and was returning without the photo. He nodded at me and smiled as he approached and then said, “He has a few minutes before his next meeting.
He’ll see you now.”
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wrist. Tommy Hoag was light skinned and auburn eyed at a time when freedom for black people depended on how closely we could approximate being white. His Caucasian-like features had served him well. His expression told you that he knew it and that he knew that you knew it too.
“Mr. Hoag?” I asked.
“Pleased to meet you, Mister . . . ?”
“Minton,” I said. “Paris Minton.”
“Have a seat, Mr. Minton.”
I sat, looking around.
On the wall behind his desk hung a framed parchment claiming that Thomas Benton Hoag had earned a bachelor of arts degree from Howard University.
The chair was walnut and the desk was walnut veneer. The black carpet would wear down in six months and the walls might as well have been paper. But Schuyler’s was an institution in Watts.
“Damn,” I said.
“Do I know you, Mr. Minton?”
“No. You might know my cousin, though. Ulysses S. Grant the Fourth.”
His eyes registered yes.
“No,” he said, shaking his head to prove it.
“Useless, that’s what most of us call him, is Angel there’s boyfriend.” I pointed at the photo on his desk.
“She’s a pretty girl,” he said noncommittally.
“She’s more than that, I hear.”
“What can I do for you, Mr. Minton?”
“Can you explain the theory of evolution?” I asked.
“Say what?” he asked. I could almost hear the Negro at the end of the sentence.
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“You got a college degree, brother. You know that’s more rare for a black man than someone actually born in L.A.”
Tommy smiled. He liked a quick wit.
“I could explain, but that would take too long,” he said.
“You’d have to do some background reading, the original texts, you know.”
“I done read The Origin of Species and The Descent of Man, ”
I said. “I understand the positi
on, but what I always wonder about is what I call the horizon point of the phenomenon.”
I was actually reciting arguments that Ashe had made to me back when she thought I was some kind of genius simply because I owned a bookstore.
Tommy didn’t know what the hell I was talking about, and so before he could embarrass himself I added, “You know, Darwin says that a species evolves. But a species ain’t one thing, it’s millions, maybe more. So outta all the people in the world, are we all at the same place on the evolutionary ladder?
Is there just one ladder or a thousand of ’em? Some people smarter than others, some stronger. You got a genius like George Washington Carver and a beast like Adolf Hitler. How are they related? Are they at the same place?”
“That’s what the Constitution and the Bill of Rights say,”
Tommy offered weakly.
“True,” I agreed. “But that’s a moral stance, not a scientific one. And the original document only referred to white, Christian, male landowners. Darwin throw a much bigger net than that one there.”
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people and was better educated than 99 percent of the Negro race. He would have felt that he could dismiss me unless I intimidated him physically or intellectually.
Tommy could have kicked my ass up and down the block, so I used the only muscle I had.
It worked too.
“Angel Allmont and I used to go out,” Tommy told me.
“We saw each other for a couple of months. But I had to let her go. She was pretty and everything, but I need a lighter-skinned girl in the business I do, and she had a wild side.
“And now that I think on it . . . her new boyfriend might have been called Useless. Something like that.”
“Have you talked to her in the last week or so?” I asked.
“No. She was goin’ out with your cousin and they got tangled up with a flimflam man named Hector. I think that’s what she said his name was.”
“Hector what?”
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