Chariots on the Highway

by Limor Moyal

  In the evening they ate at a fancy sea-food restaurant, and after the meal they went down to one of the isolated beaches and walked together, hand in hand, on the water line.

  “This reminds me of the evening we spent on the beach in Pituach,” whispered Tom.

  “You were sad. I remember I wanted to hug you and take your pain away,” Dan remembered the hurt of that moment.

  “I was sad because I wanted you to hug me and I knew I couldn’t hope for it. You have no idea what it took not to kiss you that night when you told me about Adam and you were crying. I loved you even then, so much. It tore me apart to know that you existed in the world, but you couldn’t be mine!”

  Dan stopped and stood in front of Tom. He looked up at the starry night sky. There, they could see them clearly. Hundreds of stars, and even one shooting star leaving a milky trail as it fell.

  “When you look at the stars, does it make you feel bigger, or smaller?” Dan asked him.

  Tom looked at him and thought about the question before answering. “Bigger! I don’t know why, but my ability to take in all of this beauty with just a single glance, that’s big. This beauty, it almost hurts my eyes, but it’s all mine now, and it makes me feel as big as the sky!” he said and looked straight at Dan.

  “I love you, Tommy,” Dan stopped and looked at him, he was excited and nervous, and Tom’s eyes told him that he felt the same.

  “I've loved you since the beginning, from the first second. But it took me a long time to understand what it was that I was feeling, this thing that was grabbing onto me and shaking up my life. Everything was blurry, like a cyclone picking up all the dust in my life and suffocating me. It picked up all the memories, fears, pain, scars. All the shit I swept under layers of time and routine, tried to bury it forever. Everything was a mess from your cyclone, Tom.

  But then the dust started to clear, and I could breathe again, and I could see again, and I saw you. Standing and waiting for me, with a smile, golden eyes, and an outstretched hand.

  I'm sorry I let you wait for so long, Tommy, but for me to be yours, I had to go through a process. You deserved no less than getting me whole and ready for you. And now, Tommy, I'm ready and yours, only yours.

  I love you, all of you, each and every part. I love the smile and the scar above the eyebrow, I love the funny face you make when you shave in the morning. I love your polished Hebrew, stained by a little American accent, and I even love your smell in the morning… and it’s time for me to tell you this. When I look at you, Tommy, I don’t see the past, it becomes irrelevant! When I look at you, I see the present and the future, and everything that matters to me is to keep seeing you in front of me, and to see you looking back, because then, Tommy, I feel alive.”

  Tom wiped a tear, and hugged him tightly.

  Dan continued and whispered in his ear with a bit of a broken voice, “You’re going back to the army soon. I don’t know what the future holds. But remember there’s someone, that you, Tom, are his whole world. You’re his air, and he’s willing to die for you, or even better, to live for you! And that someone, Tom, is me!”

  Tom hugged him even tighter, and Dan felt warm tears wetting his shoulder, and Tom trying to choke back breaking sobs.

  Dan gave him a soft loving kiss, not the kind that lead anywhere, not one of a beginning, or one of an end, but a kiss that exists for its own. A kiss tasting like tears and home.

  When they came back to the suite that night, they shared a shower, soaping and washing each other. Warm water washed away layers of salt, sweat and sunscreen, exposing their sensitive skin, hot and slightly burned from the hours they’d spent in the dessert sun.

  After the shower, they laid on the huge bed and stared at each other, the soft, white sheets enhancing the beautiful shades of their naked skin.

  Dan felt the moment has come, the moment he feared but craved all the same, he couldn’t wait any longer.

  "Tommy, I want you to fuck me."

  Tom's body responded immediately, hearing the words coming from Dan lips, the thought of finally fucking his lover, made him hard as a rock. He reached out and stroked Dan's face.

  "You don't know how much I want you" Tom whisper and closed on Dan's lips, kissing him hungrily. He pushed his greedy tongue into Dan's mouth as if he were trying to eat him. Tom's sexual dominance was always in the background, Dan knew Tom needed to be in control and it seemed to him that his request to be fucked had unleashed the sleeping monster that resided in his young lover.

  "Turn around" Tom whispered in a demanding tone, and Dan turned on his stomach offering his naked body. Tom couldn’t help looking at the impressive man lying there for him, the long exquisite body, solid back muscles, and gorgeous tight ass, his heartbeat was so strong and fast he could hear it in every cell in his body. He wanted to fuck Dan as deep and as hard as he could, to bury himself inside him and own him. But he knew he had to do it slowly and carefully, he knew how important it was to ease Dan into submission, that the act of penetration scared his lover, and how much courage he showed, to trust and give in. He was determined to give Dan the best experience he could, and show him how amazing it could be to bottom.

  Dan felt warm, wet lips touching gently at the back of his neck, licking him, kissing him tenderly. "Relax, baby. Give yourself to me, let me take care of you. I promise it will be good, I promise not to hurt you, I want you so much, Dan."

  Dan couldn’t stop shaking, Tom's words sent chills of fear and anticipation all over his body.

  The kissing and licking moved slowly down his back, towards the valley between the shoulder blades to the small of his back. When Tom's lips came near his ass Dan was so tense his muscles tightened. "Relax, babe, lift up your ass and open for me, I want to see you, baby." Dan lifted his ass in the air and felt exposed and vulnerable like never before in his life, but deep inside, he knew Tom would never hurt him.

  Tom placed his hands on Dan's ass cheeks, and slowly opened him and exposed his tight entrance.

  Suddenly, Dan felt a warm wet soft touch on his opening, the sensation was so foreign and intense that Dan heard a roar coming from within his throat, his ass muscles clenching.

  "Let go, baby, let me taste you, you are so sweet and hot, let me fuck your ass with my tongue."

  Dan felt his cock drilling into the mattress and his heart beating hard. He had never felt so exposed and aroused before.

  Tom licked and tongue fucked him with such hunger and lust that Dan couldn’t hold on anymore. "Stop, Tommy. I can’t. I'm about to burst if you keep on, give me a sec, baby."

  Tom stopped his feast only to reach for the lube bottle by the bed, "You don't cum until I let you, babe," Tom whispered in his ear while pouring generous amounts of lube on Dan's hole.

  Tom lay beside Dan and kissed him with passion and lust. While he ravaged Dan's mouth, he slowly inserted a finger into Dan's ass and began to finger fuck him, touching his secret core, and sending him to oblivion. Dan was on the edge, his eyeballs rolled back from the pleasure of it all.

  Tom added another finger and stretched Dan’s hole with both fingers, continuing the attack on his ass and mouth.

  Dan breathed heavily and was barely keeping himself from erupting on the spot.

  Then Tom's fingers slipped out and left him empty and needy. "Easy baby, relax for me," Tom whispered to him as he climbed on top of him, placing his cockhead against his entrance.

  Dan heard Tom's heavy breathing and knew that Tom could barely restrain himself.

  "Baby, I'm going to fuck you now, open for me, let me get inside you, little by little, I promise not to hurt you, babe. We’ll take it slow.” And just like he said he would, he pushed into Dan slowly. "Breathe, relax. Let me take you." Dan tried to relax his muscles and open himself up. The pain and pleasure mixed together, formed tears in his eyes, tears that started falling. Tom pushed in another inch, while whispering calming words in Dan's ear, and kissing him.

  It took several minutes of mutual effort
before Tom was fully inside.

  The pain of stretching, the pleasure in his core and the intense feeling of being filled by his lover's cock, was so overwhelming, Dan was amazed to discover how strongly his body could react to being fucked. He felt his body was out of his control, he felt vulnerable, he felt penetrated and controlled, and he loved every part of the experience.

  "I'm going to fuck you now. Are you ready for me?" Tom whispered and Dan nodded, he couldn't use speech in the state he was.

  Tom began to thrust, at first smooth and long thrusts at a slow, steady pace until Dan needed more. "Fuck me harder, fuck me harder, Tommy, please…"

  Tom increased the thrusts and they both sighed with excitement. "So hot, baby… so tight… so good to finally fuck you. You're mine."

  "I'm yours," Dan replied while the tears still formed in his eyes, wetting his face and the pillow. He was so happy giving in to Tom.

  Tom stopped suddenly and slid his cock out, he turned Dan onto his back and climbed on top of him. “I need to see you while I'm inside you. I want to look into your eyes when you cum for me." He spread Dan's legs and slid back in with one thrust. He kept his eyes locked on Dan’s and started fucking him hard and fast, pinning himself as deep as he could inside him. Drops of sweat covered his face and he panted, "I love you Dan, I'm gonna cum in you, I'm gonna make you mine." Tom assaulted his mouth with an aggressive wet kiss fucking his mouth with his tongue while fucking his ass with his prick.

  Dan felt warm liquid splashing deep inside him, he felt pulses shooting from Tom body filling him up. He heard his lover cry out and it all sent him over the edge. A deep roar eluded him and he exploded in volcanic orgasm. The splashes of cum was so powerful that one thick splash landed on his cheek.

  The mutual orgasm left them both spent and panting.

  Tom raised his head and slowly collected the cum smearing from Dan's cheek and connected their mouths together, sharing it with his lover in a soft kiss of dancing tongues.

  They kissed deeply, both bodies soaked in cum, tears and sweat. Tom still embedded deep in Dan, slowly softening.

  And Dan thought he had never felt such peaceful pleasure.

  "You're mine now!" Tom whispered.

  "I love you, Tommy."

  23 Targeted Hit

  “Maybe you can stay? Get a ‘sick leave’ and stay with me. I can get you a doctor’s note. We can say that you have a contagious virus,” begged Dan.

  It was early Sunday morning. Dan gave Tom a ride to the train station. They parked at the stop in front of the entrance, and had a few last words of goodbye before Tom went back to the base.

  Dan was in the middle of a mini anxiety-attack, but he managed to hide it with humor.

  Tom wasn’t fooled, he knew that Dan was scared for him, and Tom was scared for himself just as much.

  However, he was never a coward, and he never shirked his duties. Except for one significant lapse that he preferred not to think about.

  “I don’t want to go, I'd love to stay with you and not go, not only because I don’t want to go to the army right now, but also, and mainly, because I want to be with you all the time. The military was very important to me when I first got to Israel, Dan, but it’s not anymore, and now it's you, only you, but I have to finish what I started, and then we can be together. Without counting the days, without begging for days off, and without sleeping in separate beds and dreaming about each other.

  There are only 50 days left to my terminal leave, it's not much, Jedi, and then I'm coming home to you.”

  “Tom, I'm begging you, don’t be a hero! Don’t jump on grenades, don’t put yourself between a bullet and its target. You have to take care of yourself! Promise me!” demanded Dan and hugged him hard.

  Tom hugged back, and kissed Dan intensely and deeply. He left the Jeep and put his duffel bag on his back, giving Dan a piercing look before moving toward the train station. Dan saw his figure moving further and further and he wished in his heart that his soldier would come home quickly and safely.

  On Monday morning, Dan was in the midst of a storming discussion in GreenTech’s conference room. All of the executives gathered there to discuss the structural changes that Dan had started applying in the company. The atmosphere was stormy, and toxic sentences full of emotions were fired every direction like bullets.

  Sharron came in without knocking, “Dan! I apologize for interrupting, you have an urgent private call.”

  His heart froze. He turned white. Tom! Something happened to him! He got up without saying a word and ran to the private phone line. The phone receiver on Sharron’s extension was laying on her desk, and he didn’t think twice before picking it with shaking hands. There wasn’t time to change extensions.

  “Hello!” he said with a trembling voice.

  “Dan, it’s me, Tom. I'm sorry if I interrupted you.”

  Dan could breathe again, hearing the voice he wanted to hear the most.

  “You didn’t interrupt me at all, Tommy. What’s going on? Are you okay?”

  “We’re going in, I'm not supposed to tell anyone anything, Dan. But I had to tell you we’re going in, in a few minutes,” he hushed for a moment.

  “Dan, if I don’t come back... if something happens to me. I want you to know that I love you. I want you to know that I've never loved, nor will I ever love anyone as much as I love you. Don’t forget that Dan, don’t forget that you’re the most important person in the world to me!”

  Dan sent a little punch of frustration into Sharron’s desk. He bit his lower lip in an attempt to stabilize his trembling voice, “I love you, Tommy. Take care of yourself and come back to me. You hear me!? I'm waiting for you!”

  “Bye, Jedi.”

  “Bye Tommy.”

  He put down the phone receiver and collapsed into the chair in front of Sharron’s desk, placing his face into his hands, trying to pull himself back together.

  Sharron, who had witnessed the call, didn’t say a word. She went over to get him a glass of water and closed the office’s door after her.

  She patted his back a little bit, “Drink up, Dan, it’ll calm you down,” he took a deep breath and drank the water.

  “What happened, boss?” asked Sharron with worry.

  “It’s Tom, he’s going on an operational duty, he called to say goodbye, in case of… you know, something happening to him,” Dan took another sip from his water and tried to calm down.

  “Tell the executive staff that the meeting’s over... that I was called somewhere urgently, I don’t know. Think of something. I'll be in my office.”

  “You got it, boss!” she said and left the office.

  Dan entered his office and tried to calm down. He tried to convince himself that everything was going to be okay. That units of this kind knew how to work clean and silently, and only rarely did something go wrong.

  Sharron came back and went into his office. She sat in front of him and looked at him with a look full of compassion and worry, “I didn’t mean to find out under these circumstances that you’re in an intimate relationship with Tom. But given that I overheard, I want to tell you that I'm happy for the both of you for finding each other. In the last weeks I saw you glowing, like I've never seen you before, and now I know why. He’ll be okay, Dan, don’t worry.”

  Dan looked at her, he was happy she was there, happy she was with him, happy she knew and understood and supported. It was important to him even though he didn’t admit it to himself. Sharron had a main role in his life, and her good opinion mattered to him.

  “Thank you, Sharron, thank you for the support. I very much appreciate it.”

  “And don’t worry, Dan, I'm not going to tell anyone,” she declared.

  “Don’t bother hiding it, Sharron. Tom’s not a dirty secret I'm going to hide. That doesn’t mean I'm going to give an interview to the papers about my sex life, but I'm not going to hide the fact that Tom’s my lover either.”

  She smiled, “I've always admired you, Dan, now I
admire you even more. I think Tom is lucky, and you two together is the hottest thing ever,” she summed up with a sly smile, and Dan laughed and rolled his eyes at her.

  “What happened with the meeting?” asked Dan.

  “I dismissed them. I told them you got called about some administrative issue in customs. Isaac asked me to tell you that the ‘Targeted Elimination’ was a success. Is that some kind of code?” she asked.

  “They were planning on firing Shaulov. I knew they were planning a vote, it was supposed to be a spontaneous act, but it was all planned ahead to make sure he will be out.

  Allegedly, I was supposed to stop it, it’s not really legal, and not very ethical either. But bottom line, the man was a ticking bomb and a threat to GreenTech. Some of the damages I didn’t even reveal to the board because I didn’t want to lose my control over this crisis. Sometimes there’s no choice and a ‘Targeted Elimination’ is the only way to go.”

  “How do you feel about going over the import reports together? I know the last thing you need is to let your mind roam free. Let’s keep it busy together,” suggested Sharron, and so Dan took the offer with both hands. Import reports, that’s exactly what he needed right now.

  On the way home, while he was slowly dragging himself in a typical Ayalon traffic jam, he did the only thing he could think of. He called Robby.

  “Hey Dan-Dan, what’s up man?” answered Robby with a jolly voice.

  “Robby! Tom’s team is out. He managed to call and say goodbye. By his voice and all the preparations in the past few months, I know it’s something big. You have to help me. Kiss whoever’s ass you need to! For all I care, say it’s your nephew, and that he’s an only child! I want to know what’s going on. And the second you have something you’re calling me!” shot Dan as a command, daring Robby to disobey him.

  “Shit, Dan, no problem, I'll do anything I can and I'll let you know the minute I have something. But try to calm down. You know how much we’d get excited to go do operational work. We’d think we were in a scene from Platoon, and it would end up with us having to switch a rusty old wiring device’s battery. The most dramatic encounter I remember was with a wild goat that tried to sniff my crotch. Stop worrying! Everything will be okay!” said Robby, and for a moment Dan believed it and calmed down a bit.