I believe you met my daughter. I remember my introduction to Rashid with a pang. The way his gaze softened when he spoke of Aisha told me how much he adored his little girl. I can’t even imagine what he’s going through. Or Zahir.
“I wish we could call him,” Kasha says two weeks after the collapse, over yet another gourmet hotel dinner that doesn’t taste nearly as good as it used to when it was the three of us and Zahir.
“Or at least move back to the house,” Sasha says.
We’re all suddenly sick of living in a hotel.
I call one of the few numbers I do have and ask Johnny when he thinks he’ll be done with the house.
“Not for another couple weeks, and that’s only because your sheikh gave me double the usual crew to make sure it was done by the time the twins graduate from high school,” he answers. “But the major renovations are done. If you don’t mind playing bedroom shuffle and sharing while we get wrap up the rest of the work, you can move back in this weekend if you want.”
We don’t mind, and we do want.
We say a sad good-bye to Erick and Dane, with a reminder tacked on that there are laws here preventing them from following us to our private property, no matter who’s footing their bill. They seem to understand. But proving just how well they’ve been trained, they accept hugs from Sasha and Kasha while only nodding at me.
But even after moving back into the house, we still don’t return to our work on the twin’s demo album. And not just because of the 7:00 AM to 6:00 PM construction noise.
“It just doesn’t feel the same without him,” Kasha complains the one time we go out to the music set up in the detached garage and give rehearsing the two songs I wrote a shot.
I agree, though Zahir has nothing to do with the music and probably wouldn’t enjoy the twins brand of urban pop even if he did.
“Why don’t we give it until the construction work’s done?” I suggest. “He’ll probably call us by then.”
“Yeah,” Kasha says, her voice straining with forced enthusiasm. “And he wouldn’t miss our graduation, would he? He said he’d get us a car as a gift if we did well on our S.A.T.s”
“He said what?” I ask, alarmed.
“Kasha! He also told us not to tell Prin,” Sasha points out to her sister.
“Sorry, Prin,” Kasha says with a cute apologetic moue, “But, he promised…”
Sasha screws up her mouth and crosses her arms. “How have you not learned by now that dudes are always making promises they don’t keep?”
And though she is looking at Kasha, it feels like she’s talking to me.
But Sasha is the one who ends up shouting on the morning of their graduation in late June when she glances through the kitchen window to see a white Mercedes Maybach Landaulet with royal Jahwar license plates pull into our new circular driveway, followed by two matching white Aston Martin DB11s.
Sardonic teen act abandoned, both she and Kasha run out the front door, screaming at the top of their lungs.
However, they stand there deflated when I finally arrive on the scene. And I immediately see why when Luca, not Zahir, steps out of the backseat of the Landaulet, one of his Jersey boys is driving.
“What’s what, girls? Now which one of you is Kasha, and which is Sasha?” he asks, holding up two silver and black key fobs.
Neither of the girls say anything. They simply stand there looking so despondent at the sight of a gorgeous man holding key fobs for their dream cars that Luca asks, “Wait…did I get the date wrong? Today’s your graduation, right?”
Sasha speaks first, her expression morphing from sad to angry like a decision made. “You know what? Tell him he can keep his damn car!”
“Sasha…” I start to say, but she turns and runs back into the house, probably searching for a place to hide. Like she always does when she doesn’t want people to see that she has genuine emotions.
And to my surprise, the normally brightside-all-damn-day Kasha says, “Yeah, tell him to keep both of them.” I see tears in her eyes before she follows her sister back inside.
“Wow…that did not go nearly the way I imagined it would in my head,” Luca says in their wake. Then he looks over his shoulder and makes a “cut the engine” motion to the guys in the front seat of each Aston Martin.
I shake my head because it’s the last week of June. Meaning Zahir’s been gone without a word for over a month.
“He’s not coming back, is he?” I say quietly.
Luca shakes his head. “Doesn’t look like it. He’s dealing with a fucking shit storm over there. He hasn’t even sent for the car he left behind, just told me to take care of it…and you. You know, keep on Johnny to make sure the place’s done on time, make sure he gets paid, make sure the twins get the cars…stuff like that.”
I nod, understanding. I want to feel grateful he even bothered to follow through on his promise to the twins. Or made sure everything he started got finished. I don’t want to be selfish, I don’t, but it’s been weeks and I have to ask, “Did he say anything about sending for me? About me coming back?”
Luca pauses, the way people do when they’re trying to decide how much to share. Then he says, “No, he didn’t say anything one way or the other. But Jersey guy to Jersey girl, that extended family of his makes mine look like a bunch of rainbow-hugging Quakers. I’m surprised he got away with as much as he did, and I wouldn’t hold my breath for him to bring you back over there anytime soon.”
As soon as he says this, I release a breath I didn’t realize I’d been holding.
Luca looks around. “I didn’t really see it before, except on paper, but the house looks really nice from the outside. Like, the color you chose to replace the white.”
I look up at the house’s muted yellow exterior and say, “Kasha’s idea. I like it, too.”
“And I hear you guys have a full studio in there now.”
“Yeah,” I say with a crooked smile, but this conversation is already too sad, so I don’t tell him we haven’t even used it.
“What do you want me to do with the cars?” he asks.
“I don’t know,” I answer. “I guess keep them for a bit until the girls aren’t so sad about Zahir.”
“When do you think that will be?” he asks.
“I don’t know,” I say again, and though we’re talking about the girls, it feels like we’re talking about me.
The girls stop bringing up Zahir after that. They throw their caps at the graduation ceremony and act like the cars never happened. Sasha tells me I should either sell the house or start looking for work, and as if on cue, the associates manager from Liederman-Frankel calls to tell me my job will be available if I want to start back in September after I take the bar.
The formerly hostile associates manager sounds suspiciously chipper about the prospect of my return and I don’t have to guess why because I know Zahir’s hand is somewhere in the background of this call.
“Thank you,” I say, my voice subdued and soft. Like I’m still in Jahwar and watching Zahir eat while I’m sitting hungry on the bed.
I make myself think of Aisha, and how Zahir must be feeling, and how I am probably the furthest thing from his mind. As it should be…I guess. I’m some random woman who kissed him, and no matter what we shared, we were never a real husband and wife.
Except on paper.
A contract signed, the same as IP paperwork. I belong to you. But you don’t belong to me…
That one lyric takes me by surprise, but then my mind goes silent and I tell the associates manager I’ll see her in September.
Back to square one for real this time, I think as I get off the phone. But unlike my earlier thought, the words don’t come on a melody. It’s just a thought. A dead thing in my head.
And then one day I come down to the kitchen to find the twins at the island’s new brushed steel counter. They are both looking at Kasha’s phone, their expressions stricken.
“What’s going on?” I ask, afraid some belove
d celebrity has died.
But after exchanging a look with Sasha, Kasha hands me the phone. “I created a Google Alert before I decided he was no longer our cool brother-in-law. But I forgot to turn it off…”
The rest of her sentence is lost to the roaring ocean that appears between my ears as I read an online UAK Woman’s Magazine article announcing HH Sheikh Zahir’s engagement to HH Sheikha Hessa, a member of the Ardu Alzuhuwr royal family.”
“I’ve brought some champagne back from my visit with the royal family of Ardu Alzuhuwr. Would you like to share a glass with me at dinner tonight?”
Suddenly, I feel sick. Everything clicks. Why Zahir left for that two-day “business trip” and why he had champagne when he came back.
And in a strange twist of fate, that is when my phone goes off. I take it out of my back jeans pocket and see a number that starts with the country code for the UAK.
Chapter Thirty
“Why are you calling me?” I ask without bothering to say hello when I answer the phone, my voice dazed and confused.
“You’ve seen the announcement then,” Zahir’s replies, his voice still overly precise, but more emotional than I remember. “I hoped to catch you before you did.”
“Why are you calling me?” I repeat, my own super unprecise voice shaking because I still don’t understand. He’s engaged now. Getting married to another woman!
“I am sorry. I am so very sorry you found out this way,” he says gloomily. “The sheikha’s family released the announcement without my consent.”
“And…so what? You were hoping you could leave it to Luca to handle just like he’s handled all your other loose ends? You’re disappointed you have to talk to me about this yourself?”
“No,” he answers. “I am never disappointed to talk to you, Prin. I’ve spent every day of the last six weeks wanting to talk to you. Wanting to hear about the twins. Wanting to hold you and speak to you of Rashid and the pain of losing Aisha.”
Here’s the thing. If he had called me even fifteen minutes ago, I could have suppressed my feelings. Put my hurt away and focused exclusively on him. “It’s okay, baby, let me do all the work.” Like I did during Ramadan.
But in an instant, the lawyer I lost in Jahwar returns with a vengeance. “You’re engaged. Is this true?” I ask, switching to the voice I used during law school mock trials.
A long moment of silence, then, “Yes, Prin, but…”
“That means our temporary marriage contract is now null and void, is that also true?”
“It is, but, habibti—”
And that’s when New Jersey reality show Prin decides to join the conversation. “Bitch, I am not your habibti if you are engaged to another woman!”
Then before he can protest, I say, “I started falling in love with you in Jahwar. But while I was falling for you, you were going to Ardu Wherever and arranging to marry another woman so you could void our engagement. While I was falling even more in love with you here in America, you knew the entire time that you already had someone else on deck!”
“No, Prin, no!” he says. “My family arranged the trip I took to Ardu Alzuhuwr. I was obligated to meet with the king and his granddaughter. I played along, because there were promises I had to make to keep you even for those short six months. But I had no plans to announce the marriage until the end of our time together.”
His voice becomes low and harsh as he says, “You have no idea how much I wanted our marriage. How long I have wanted you. From the very moment we met in that bedroom at Holt’s party. And for those eleven years after. I thought about our meeting, those fleeting five minutes, replaying it in my mind over and over.”
He expels a huge breath, “You know, Prin, I lied about only watching a couple of your shows. I watched every single episode you were in. I tried to convince myself the attraction wasn’t there. I knew I couldn’t be King of Jahwar and have you. But then that kiss happened…” his voice softens with the memory “…and suddenly, I saw a way. A way to finally have you, if only for a short while. So, I took it, Prin. But oh, Allah, you were beyond anything I expected. I thought our time together would cure my unnatural obsession, prove once and for all I had no business lusting after a woman who’d come into my room, looking for my brother—”
He breaks off with an angry breath. “If I had known how perfect you would be, how you would fit my soul in every way. How during our dinners with the twins, I would have such sweet imaginings of us doing the same with our own children… If I had known not having you permanently would hurt so much, I never would have risked it. I never would have signed that contract. But I did sign it. I was your husband. And you were my wife. And you must believe I meant every word I said to you in front of your mother’s wall.”
In front of my mother’s wall. But doesn’t he know my mother’s wall is gone? Knocked down and removed like the chairs at a table of a temporary wife who refuses to heel.
“Did you fall in love me like I fell in love with you, Sheikh Zahir?” I ask, forcibly going back to Prin the lawyer.
“Prin…” he says at the sound of his title falling from my lips for only the second time in our lives. “Do not…do not call me that.”
“I love you,” I say, steel laced throughout my tone. “With every fucking ounce of my soul. Do you love me, Sheikh Zahir?”
“Does it sound like I am in the position…that I am in any way permitted to love you like that?” he suddenly roars into the phone, his voice now filled with unchecked frustration and rage.
“No,” I answer, my case made. “It doesn’t.”
Then I hang up.
One moment he’s there, finally on the line like I’ve been wishing him to for the last two months. And the next moment, he’s gone, and I’m left breathing hard, like I’ve just run a marathon, rather than had a difficult but long overdue conversation.
“Prin?”
I turn to see Kasha and Sasha at the kitchen counter. I’d completely forgotten they were still in the room. Or that I was in the kitchen. Of our damn near brand new house. With the pristine cherry wood floors and the heated swimming pool that now works and a room that no longer has my mother’s last words written on the wall.
Jersey Prin fades…Lawyer Prin disappears…and then…there’s just me.
A woman too broken to love or be loved. Who somehow mistook Happy for Now as the Happily Ever After she’d been wishing for since she left for boarding school.
“Prin…” a voice says again. This time it’s Sasha.
I say nothing, just go upstairs to the new master suite which is decorated Bedouin-style in silky, rich-hued fabrics. Another surprise for the sheikh when I thought I might be able to convince him to stay a couple of weeks more after Ramadan for the twins’ graduation.
I drop down onto my bed and I cry and I cry. The way you hear about in those romantic dramas, filled with tubs of ice cream.
Then I fall asleep. And when I wake…
My head is filled with lyrics.
When I look back on it, I don’t remember going to our new music library. But I’m there. For hours. Then days. At one point, food starts to appear. Bagels and sandwiches…sometimes pasta dishes from the little Italian eatery where Sasha took a summer job, despite or perhaps because her college tuition has already been magically paid for by yet another man she can no longer trust. I never see it appear, but when I wake on the couch where I’m filling up notebooks, or use the bathroom, or look up from my writing, suddenly starved, there’s always a plate.
And then one day I wake up.
Sub-space? the ghost of the person I used to be with Zahir asks.
And his ghost says…absolutely nothing.
He’s gone…I scrawl this across the last sheet of paper in a notebook I’ve filled up.
Then I take a deep breath and close it.
“Alexa, what day is it?” I ask the smart speaker I got the twins as a graduation gift.
”It’s Thursday, August 2nd.”
“
Alexa, what time is it in Jahwar?”
“Hey Kadin, it’s Prin, wassup,” I say in response to Zahir’s London-born secretary’s long and ornate announcement of Zahir’s office and title.
“Prin! I mean…Ms. Jones. I have instructions to put you through to his highness right away.”
“No thanks. Don’t want to talk to him. But I do want to talk to you. Real quick. You probably want to have a talk with your in-house legal counsel because you should have had me sign a non-disclosure form.”
“A non-disclosure form?” he repeats. Then his voice dips to ask, “Are you calling to threaten the sheikh?”
“No…” I answer, offended. But then I think about it and say, “Okay, sort of—you got me there. But this doesn’t have to get ugly. You really, really need me to sign an NDA before the sheikh’s wedding. And I totally will…on one condition.”
Chapter Thirty-One
“Well, Prin, this was certainly not how I expected to spend my August,” Asir says two days later when I open the door with the twins standing behind me.
“But you’re excited, right?” Kasha says, clapping her hands together.
“Yes,” he assures her with a charming smile. Then he holds his hand out to Sasha and says, “Hello, I’m Asir Zaman, the new official major shareholder of Majesty Records and I’m incredibly excited about producing your demo album.”
“Yay!!!! We’re going to make a real demo! We’re going to make a real demo!” Kasha chants, jumping up and down.
It’s like old times, but new.
“Did you get my list, Prin?” Asir asks when we’ve all gathered in the kitchen.
“It’s in the fridge,” I answer, nodding toward the double-door Viking fridge I didn’t even know they made until we were searching for something to match the new Viking-brand stove in our ultra-modern kitchen.
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