by Pat Stewart
She was a good girl, and I knew that I could rely on her. I sat her down with her dolls in a corner of the room and I got on with the business of hosting the party. By the end of the afternoon, I had a queue of ladies all eager to put their names down for their own Tupperware party.
‘I’ll be with you all soon,’ I said as I rummaged around in my bag for my diary.
I looked up to see Rachel sitting with her arms angrily folded across her chest.
‘Rachel, are you all right?’ I asked.
‘Yes, but I don’t think much to this party,’ she replied in a loud voice.
The ladies in the queue gasped and all turned to look at her. For a split second, I didn’t know what to say, so I decided to humour her.
‘Why, Rachel? What’s wrong with the party?’
I dreaded what her answer might be.
Rachel huffed and held out her hand as she counted off the faults one by one against each finger.
‘Well, there’s no jelly, no ice cream, there are no party games… and there’s not even a blancmange!’ she complained.
Suddenly, the room erupted with laughter.
‘Well, thank goodness for that,’ the hostess said with a hand against her chest. ‘For a moment, I wondered what she was going to say.’
Still, it had been a lesson learned. After that, I never took Rachel to a Tupperware party again.
After three years working for the company, I decided I’d had enough. It was the early 1970s and there was a new product on the market called Portmerion pottery, so I became an agent. It turned out to be a good move because the pottery proved very popular. In fact, it sold so well that I went out and bought myself a van to transport it to parties. After a particularly good sales run, I decided I needed to stop selling for other companies and sell goods myself.
‘I think I’m going to buy and sell my own stock,’ I said to Johnny one morning over breakfast. ‘What do you think?’
He glanced up from the kitchen table.
‘What, you mean stop all the parties?’
‘Yes.’
Johnny thought for a moment. ‘Well, you’ve spent years making a fortune for everyone else, so maybe now it’s time to do it for yourself.’
With Johnny on board, we travelled up to Stoke, where I sourced and bought the best pottery I could find. I also ordered some cut glass from Czechoslovakia. It was so good that it rivalled the items sold in H.Samuels jewellers. I even brought in a couple of agents to sell the goods at parties because I reasoned three agents were better than one. Soon I had a warehouse full of stock and both Peter and Stephen working for me. The boys would pack the party orders up, and Johnny would drive around delivering them. With sales going well, I decided to set up my own market stall in Cardiff on Sunday, where I sold pottery and other fancy goods.
Soon the summer season was upon us. Johnny had landed a gig down in Weston-super-Mare. I decided to travel down to spend some time with him. By now, Rachel was nine years old and horse mad. She’d found a riding school nearby, where she volunteered to help out on a daily basis. It’d kept her busy and it also meant I had time on my hands. One day, I was wandering around when I passed a market near Brean sands. I spoke to the Toby – the man who ran the market – who also happened to be the Toby at the market in Cardiff, where I had a stall.
‘Hello, Pat,’ he said, smiling warmly as I approached. ‘What are you doing here?’
‘Oh, Johnny’s doing a summer season down here,’ I explained. ‘But listen, I’d really like to sell pottery and other fancy goods here. What are my chances of hiring a space?’
The Toby nodded.
‘Not a problem. I’ll sort you one out.’
With my new stall in place, I brought down a van full of goods from my warehouse in Cardiff. With nowhere safe to store it, I loaded it into Johnny’s dressing room.
‘Hang on! Where on earth am I going to sit?’ he complained, looking around the packed-out dressing room.
I picked up a box off his chair and popped it on top of an enormous pile in the corner of the room. I went back to his chair and tapped it with my hand.
‘There. Look, you’ve plenty of room now!’
Johnny rolled his eyes, huffed and clicked on the lights around his dressing-room mirror.
‘It’s beginning to look like a bloody warehouse in here,’ he moaned as he applied his stage makeup.
With my stock scattered from Cardiff down to Weston-Super-Mare, I decided to open more market stalls. I roped in friends and Peter and Stephen to help me. Between us, we sold at markets in Chepstow, Cardiff, Pontypridd, Newport and Port Talbot. Within the year, I’d built up the business so much that I had to buy another van. I also got Rachel to help me out on Sunday mornings in Cardiff.
With theatres becoming less fashionable and cinemas taking over, Johnny’s bookings began to dry up. Instead, he’d spend hours travelling to the wholesalers to source more goods to sell on the market stalls.
A few years later, when Peter and Stephen were in the sixth form, they mentioned they were going out that night to a party.
‘Is it in Cardiff?’ I asked.
‘Yes,’ Peter replied. ‘But it’s not in a pub, it’s at someone’s house around the corner.’
I was just relieved that my boys weren’t going out drinking in the busy city centre.
‘Well, just be careful and look after each other, won’t you?’
‘Yes, Mum,’ Peter promised as he closed the door and they headed off into the night.
Around 10pm, I was thoroughly shattered, so I left Johnny watching TV and headed upstairs to bed. I was awoken a few hours later by voices in the hallway. I pulled on my dressing gown and ran downstairs, where I found Stephen standing with a policeman, who was talking to Johnny.
‘Whatever’s the matter?’ I gasped, wondering what the police were doing in my house. I looked behind them and that’s when I realised Peter was missing.
‘Where’s your brother?’ I asked Stephen.
‘That’s why I’m here,’ the officer told me. ‘Peter’s at the hospital. There was an altercation at the party. I’m afraid he’s sustained a nasty cut to his face.’
‘Oh, my God!’ I gasped. ‘Is he going to be all right?’
The policeman looked up at me and nodded.
‘Yes, although I’d like to take you to the hospital to see him.’
‘I’ll get changed now,’ I gasped and ran upstairs to get dressed.
Over the next few hours, a picture began to emerge. Peter and Stephen had been at the party when a few men had turned up drunk. They knew the householder so, when they’d become rowdy, she hadn’t called the police. Peter stepped in to try to calm the situation down and a fight had broken out. At some point, one of the men had smashed a plastic glass into Peter’s face. Although it hadn’t been glass, it was sharp enough to cut open his face. In fact, the doctor told me my son had been lucky not to lose his eye. Frightened and unsure what to do, Stephen and his friend ran to their headmaster’s house nearby and he’d called the police.
The police eventually charged one of the men with assault. I was told it was so serious that the case would be transferred from magistrates to crown court, where a tougher sentence could be passed if the accused was found guilty. We waited months for the case to go to court but, eventually, the day arrived. I sat and listened as one teenager after another gave evidence for the prosecution. I was thoroughly disgusted by the men, particularly the one who’d almost blinded my son because he’d pleaded not guilty. A week or so later, the jury retired to consider its verdict. I was stressed out because the case had taken its toll not only on my boys but on the whole family. One day, I was outside speaking to one of the court clerks. I asked him how long it usually took a jury to reach a decision.
‘That depends,’ he replied. ‘Sometimes it can be straight away, sometimes it can take ages. But you’ll know they’re back if you see the defendants walk past us and out of the court.’
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�d said the words, the door of the court swung open and out stepped the defendants. They laughed out loud as they ran past me and towards the exit.
‘Tara, love!’ They shouted and smirked, trying to goad me.
I turned back towards the court clerk.
‘Does that mean…’
He nodded his head.
‘Sorry but it looks as though they’ve been found not guilty.’
A fury had boiled up inside me. I marched back into the courtroom, where the jury were standing up to leave. I stood in the middle of the court and began to shout.
‘I hope you never have a child come home with his face cut like that!’ I hollered.
The court clerk had run in after me and told me to be quiet, but by now I couldn’t help myself.
‘How can you let them go?’ I screamed at the jury. ‘Just look at what one of them has done to my son. How dare you do this?’
I felt someone grab my arm on either side. I turned to see two police officers who were trying to restrain me. They’d heard the commotion and had come running up from the court cells below. They thought I was a defendant on the loose! Johnny, Stephen and Peter jumped to their feet and ran over to try to rescue me.
‘Let her go. She hasn’t done anything wrong!’ Johnny protested. ‘Can’t you see she’s upset?’
It didn’t matter; I was still ejected from the court. I sat outside on the steps and cried my eyes out. I was furious because, in my mind, they’d got away with it. For months afterwards I simmered with anger, keeping my eyes open, looking for the man who’d been found not guilty of almost blinding my eldest boy. I scoured crowds, looking at every face I passed, but I never saw him.
One day, almost a year later, I was working on one of my market stalls. It was a particularly cold Sunday morning, but I knew I had to carry on and work to pay the bills. Peter and Stephen were busy manning a stall at different market some miles away, so Rachel was helping me out. Johnny and I had bought her a couple of ponies, so it was her way of paying us back.
I was sipping a hot cup of tea, stamping my feet against the cold ground to stop them from going numb, when I spotted a familiar face in the crowd – the man who’d been found not guilty of attacking Peter. He was walking along without a care in the world with his wife and baby. I felt my stomach clench with anger. I knew it was wrong, but I couldn’t help myself. My eyes scanned my stall, looking for a small but expensive item. Within seconds, I’d found one: a pile of silver-plated coasters. I picked them up and was delighted when I realised they fitted perfectly in the palm of my hand. I closed my fingers and encased them. Rachel looked over at me, wondering what on earth I was doing.
‘Whatever you do, don’t say a word!’ I hissed, putting a finger against my lips.
Rachel’s gaze followed me as I strode straight up to the man. As he passed by my stall, I plunged a hand inside his coat pocket, withdrew it and held up the coasters.
‘Thief!’ I shouted, looking him directly in the eye.
Other market traders had heard the commotion and came running over to try to restrain him. The market lads held him down as he tried to protest his innocence.
‘But I haven’t done anything!’ he shouted as his wife looked on in horror.
‘Tell that to the police!’ one of the other traders remarked.
The police were called and the man was arrested and taken away.
‘Phone your dad,’ I told Rachel, pushing some coins into her hand.
She took them and rushed off to use the nearest phone box.
Of course, the man continued to protest his innocence at the police station. At first, they didn’t believe him, until he explained all about the case and the fact he’d been acquitted of attacking my son.
Ten minutes later, Johnny arrived at the market. As soon as I saw him, I fell into his arms, sobbing. I knew I’d done wrong but I couldn’t help it – I’d just wanted justice for my boy.
‘Pat, this is serious,’ Johnny said when I explained what I’d done. ‘You could get into trouble for this.’
‘I don’t care,’ I said defiantly. ‘I just hope he felt as scared as Peter did.’
The police eventually let the man go, but they never did come to see or question me. Even if they had, I would have taken my punishment. I didn’t care – I just wanted justice for my son.
CHAPTER 23
MAKING ENDS MEET
Rachel’s love of ponies continued and soon her two animals had increased to four. Pony livery didn’t come cheap, especially living in a city centre. She was competing in show jumping and dressage events, so we decided to sell our house in Cardiff and find a smaller home with a bit of land attached. We bought a two-bedroom bungalow for £26,000 at auction. It was in a small village in mid-Glamorgan called Wick, with the property set in a couple of acres of land. We suddenly went from having a city house to a place in the country but, because we had people waiting to buy our Cardiff home, we had just two weeks to complete the sale and move. It happened so fast that our dining-room furniture spent the first night stacked on the driveway!
By now, the boys were older; both had got engaged and were close to buying properties of their own. As a temporary measure, we bought a caravan for them to sleep in, which we parked on land at the back. Stephen eventually left home to marry his wife, Claire, and then Peter moved in with his fiancée.
Although theatre work had begun to dry up, Johnny managed to secure a summer-season booking in Margate, followed by a pantomime in Walthamstow, London. By now, he was fifty-nine, so he was starting to slow down. Deep down, he realised theatre work, coupled with lots of travelling, was essentially a young man’s game. Once his stint in panto had come to an end, Johnny travelled back home to Wales. At that time, there had been a general water shortage even though it was still the middle of winter. It was a cold day in late January. Johnny had been busy working in the field at the back of the house, trying to repair some fencing. A few hours later, the back door swung open and he walked inside with his hands covered in mud. He went over towards the sink to wash them.
‘No, don’t wash your hands just yet!’ I said, remembering the water shortage. ‘The cats need feeding. Do that first, then you’ll only need to use one lot of water.’
‘All right,’ Johnny said as he went outside to feed the cats.
Rachel was busy in the field. She’d put water down for the ponies and had pulled on their night rugs before leading them, one by one, into the stable for the night.
‘Dinner’s almost ready,’ I called out to her through the back door.
Rachel raised a hand to let me know she’d heard and was on her way.
As I turned around, I noticed that Johnny was standing there, watching her through the plate-glass window.
‘Oh,’ I remarked, pointing towards Rachel’s pony as she led him across the field. ‘Look at Lord Chester. Isn’t he lovely?’
My husband turned and looked at me blankly.
‘Who’s Lord Chester?’
I waited for the punchline, only there wasn’t one.
‘Lord Chester. He’s Rachel’s horse, Johnny.’ I smiled, thinking he was having me on.
But he continued to stare.
‘Who’s Rachel?’
Again, I waited for the punchline. Instead, I was greeted with silence.
‘It’s Rachel. She’s your daughter.’
But by now, a sick feeling began to swell in the pit of my stomach. My instincts told me something was very wrong.
‘Johnny,’ I said, looking him directly in the eye, ‘we have two other children. Who are they?’
But he seemed lost.
‘I don’t know,’ he replied, honestly.
His answer came as such a shock that it felt like a punch to my stomach.
‘We have Stephen. Now, who’s the other boy?’
Johnny screwed up his face in concentration. After a moment or so, he suddenly remembered.
‘It’s Peter!’ he said, waving a finger in the air.
/> I felt better.
‘Yes! That’s right,’ I said, almost sobbing with relief. ‘And who am I?’
‘Why, you’re Pat!’
I nodded my head gratefully but tears were streaming down my face. Although he knew who Peter and I were, it was clear something was seriously wrong.
Johnny looked towards the sink and then down at his filthy hands.
‘Bugger your hands, Johnny,’ I said. ‘Come with me.’
I led him through into the front room and sat him down before running back into the kitchen to turn up the central heating. I knew I had to ring a doctor, so I ran into the hallway to make the call.
‘Please come quickly,’ I told him, my voice panicked and urgent. ‘It’s my husband. Something’s wrong. He can’t remember who his children are.’
The doctor said he was on his way, so I put down the phone and ran back in to Johnny. If this was a stroke and his brain was shutting down, I was bloody well determined I wouldn’t let it.
I spotted a wedding photograph of Stephen and his wife Claire on the mantelpiece. I grabbed it in my hand and held it up in front of Johnny.
‘Who’s this?’
But Johnny looked blank. I could see he was totally clueless.
‘I don’t know.’
‘It’s Stephen and Claire,’ I said, slamming the picture back down. ‘They’re married. It’s your son, Stephen, and your daughter-in-law, Claire. Now repeat what I’ve just told you.’
‘It’s my son and my daughter-in-law,’ Johnny replied, parrot-fashion.
‘Yes!’
My eyes scoured the room. I saw a lighter resting on the side table, so I grabbed it.
‘What’s this, Johnny?’ I asked, holding it up in front of him.
Johnny stared at it.
‘I don’t know,’ he admitted.
‘It’s a lighter!’ I said. I clicked against it so that the flame shot up out of the top. ‘You use it for lighting your pipe. Now, tell me, what is it?’
‘It’s a lighter.’
I wasn’t sure if I was doing the right thing or not, but I reasoned that if his brain was going to sleep, I’d poke it until I managed to wake it back up. I continued to hold up objects and ask Johnny to repeat what they were. I did this until the doctor arrived. For some reason, Rachel was nowhere to be seen.