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by Jennifer Archer


  I back toward the bank—one step, then another—keeping him in my sight and grinning so wide my face aches. “I don’t trust you.”

  “Smart girl,” he says, advancing toward me slowly. One side of his mouth turns up into a lopsided smile that gives me more of a rush than the cold water trickling over my feet. When I connect with the bank, I crouch and reach back, refusing to take my eyes off him. But instead of grabbing the boots, I quickly swing my arms forward through the creek and send another scoop of water flying up toward Ty’s face.

  He yells, then lunges.

  I fall back onto the bank and he lands beside me. We laugh until my stomach hurts. In the silence that follows, Ty turns toward me, and I feel that same magnetic force drawing us together that I’ve felt before when I’m with him. When our faces are so close that his breath sweeps my cheek, nerves rush up and I pull back, fumbling on the bank for my boots, choked with embarrassment. What’s wrong with me? I wanted to kiss Ty more than anything. Why didn’t I?

  Minutes later, we’re walking down the same path we took to get here. “Thanks for asking me to meet you,” I say.

  “I thought you could stand to get away for a while.” He shrugs. “And I wanted us to have some time together without your mom around.” Ty slants me a look, and I try to pretend that it doesn’t turn my bones to jelly.

  “What?” I ask, my nerve endings humming beneath my skin.

  “What, what?” he teases. “You keep saying that.”

  “And you keep looking at me.”

  He stops walking and covers his eyes with one hand. “I’m sorry. I didn’t know looking wasn’t allowed.”

  Pausing on the path, I knock against him with my elbow and giggle, disarmed. “It’s not the fact that you’re looking, it’s the way you are.”

  Spreading his fingers, he peeks through them. “Like?”

  A wildfire of heat spreads through my body, all the way up to my face. “Like you’re thinking something,” I say.

  “You mean if I want to spend time with you, I not only have to wear blinders, I have to get a lobotomy, too?”

  “Shut up.” I cross my arms and try not to laugh.

  We start walking again, Ty with his hands in his pockets, me with my arms behind my back. “I’m just trying to figure you out,” he says after a moment. “I’ve never known a girl who dunks her head in mountain streams and stares down bears.”

  I send him a smug look. “That’s nothing. Wait until I tell you about the time I wrestled with a mountain lion and won.”

  He draws his head back. “You’re kidding.”

  I arch a brow.

  We reach the place where the waterfall sprays over a jutting cliff above us, just missing the path as it tumbles to a pool twenty feet down the side of the hill. The path follows the cascading water, and it’s an easy climb to the bottom. We make our way down.

  “Amazing,” Ty says when we’re standing alongside the pool. “What was it like for you growing up here? I mean, not many people have an entire forest right outside their door.”

  The air is damp and musky and alive with energy. I breathe it in, feeling revived like I always do when I come to this spot. “I loved growing up here.”

  “Don’t you ever get lonely?”

  I think of Iris and how isolated my childhood would have been without her. “Sometimes,” I say. “But I’ve learned to be alone.”

  I follow Ty across the trail. We climb over a stack of felled limbs that lie crisscrossed like the old pickup sticks Dad and I used to play with. When we reach an aspen tree with letters carved into the bark, Ty pauses to trace them with his finger.

  “‘L.W. and W.P. were here,’” he reads. “Did you do this?”

  “Wyatt and I did when we were eight.” I give a short laugh. “Silly, I know.”

  “Not when you’re eight.”

  “Yeah, you believe nothing will change at that age. That everything will always be good.” I hear the sadness in my voice, and shrug.

  “Too bad that’s a lie, huh?” Ty says.

  I nod, wondering what good things Ty has lost.

  He sticks his hands into his pockets again and says, “I’ll take you up on that offer of climbing the peak together.”

  “Good. I mean, you shouldn’t hike alone. No one should, but especially if you’re inexperienced.”

  “I’m not a complete greenhorn,” he says with mock offense.

  “One fourteener doesn’t make you an expert, either.” Smirking at him, I add, “Maybe I can show you how it’s done this weekend.”

  As I’m turning toward the waterfall, Ty catches my arm. “Lily.” I face him again, my skin tingling where his fingers push against my arm. “I have something to confess,” he says. “What I said to your mom about needing to make money for the trip home? That’s not really why I’m sticking around Silver Lake longer than I’d planned. I have plenty of money.”

  “Why are you staying then?” I say in just above a whisper.

  He lowers his head and kisses me, his mouth pressing gently against mine. He tastes like chocolate and smells like fresh air and sunshine and shampoo.

  Our noses bump when we finally lean apart.

  Breathless, I murmur, “You had candy after lunch,” then think: Ohmygod, what a stupid thing to say.

  Ty pushes a loose strand of hair off my face and tucks it behind my ear, the corner of his mouth twitching.

  We cross the road with our fingers linked, and when we reach the waterfall and the trail beside it that leads to the top, I wish that I didn’t have to let go of his hand to make the climb.

  10

  Mom wanders into the kitchen, leaning on her cane and yawning. I’m sitting on the rug in the living room trying to coax Cookie to play tug-of-war with a toy, but he’s not interested.

  “Did you have a nice nap?” I ask Mom, hoping she didn’t hear me pull up a few minutes ago.

  “Yes, just not long enough.” She takes a glass from the cabinet over the sink.

  I tell myself to stop being so skittish, but I keep imagining that she can read the truth on my face like a flashing neon sign: LILY’S BEEN MAKING OUT WITH TY.

  Mom glances over her shoulder as she fills her glass with water from the faucet. “Your hair is damp.”

  “I washed it.” I cringe inside at the lie. But I won’t risk saying anything that might ruin my chances of seeing Ty again. I can’t remember when I’ve had as much fun as I did with him today.

  Mom shuts the water off and walks to my side. Peering down at Cookie, she asks, “How is he?”

  “I think he’s depressed. Is that possible?” I scratch the satiny spot between his ears and watch his eyes drift shut.

  “He could be,” says Mom. “I’m convinced that dogs have feelings just like we do.”

  “He misses Dad,” I say quietly.

  “Maybe he does, sweetheart.” Mom squeezes my shoulder. “He’ll feel better with time.” Her slippers make a shuffling sound as she starts off, and the cane taps with a dull inevitability as it hits the floor.

  “Where are you going?” I ask.

  “Back to bed. I’m not feeling well.”

  “Do you want me to call your doctor?”

  “I don’t think it’s the lupus,” she says. “I might be getting the flu.”

  I know it’s not the flu. Eager to cheer Mom up, I say, “I think I’ll go into town and pick up that old movie you were talking about earlier. Would you watch it with me tonight?”

  “We’ll see how I’m feeling,” she says a moment before her bedroom door closes.

  Thoughts of this afternoon at the waterfall distract my worries about Mom as I change the bedding in Cookie’s pen. I settle him on the soft, clean pallet, replaying in my mind each moment with Ty. I’m so giddy I feel like I could jump out of my skin as I go upstairs to grab my wallet, keys, and phone. Before heading down again, I text Sylvie: Going 2 video store. meet me? I hope she can. I want to tell her what happened today.

  I’m backin
g the Blazer out of the driveway when she texts back: there in 30. merry mushroom after? need pizza fix.

  Braking, I type: k. see u there.

  Iris is restless during the drive, insisting I’m wasting time. She thinks I should be pumping Mom for more information about the Big Secret, or poking around the workshop some more while she naps. But I can only deal with so much at once, and right now I’m obsessing about Ty. And Wyatt. How I feel tugged toward one, then the other. It’s so strange to be thinking about them at the same time. I feel guilty comparing them, but I can’t stop.

  Soon, I’m pulling into Silver Lake. The only place to rent movies—Play It Again Flicks—is on Main, between Snowflake Bakery and The Pine Shed bar. The Merry Mushroom is across the street. I parallel park at the end of the block behind a mud-splattered truck.

  Downtown is usually pretty busy, and this evening is no exception. High school kids and students from the community college shop in the stores and hang out in the cafés, coffee shops, and bars along Main. I walk toward the video store, and through the window, catch sight of Sylvie browsing the aisle in the horror section. She loves low-budget slasher movies, and is especially partial to anything with dead in the title. Throw in a zombie or two and she’ll even stay home on a Saturday night.

  A few minutes later, after the guy behind the counter informs me that they don’t have the movie Mom mentioned, Sylvie and I cross the street to the Merry Mushroom.

  “I’ll split a pizza with you,” she says. “I don’t eat anything that once had a mother, though, so you’ll have to settle for veggie.”

  “How about sausage on half?” I ask, thinking I’ll take some home to Mom.

  She wrinkles her nose. “As long as it doesn’t touch my half.”

  We sit in a booth at the front window, and I breathe in the yeast-and-spice-scented air, my mouth watering. Sylvie’s black hair is streaked with purple today. She’s wearing a leather vest and arm warmers that look like black spiderwebs. Even so, our waitress makes Sylvie look like a Girl Scout. She’s emo to the extreme, the makeup around her eyes so dark she looks bruised.

  “Keep the sausage far left of center, okay?” Sylvie tells her.

  I quietly tap my foot to the beat of the impatient tune Iris hums and stare out the window as Sylvie places our order.

  When the waitress leaves, Sylvie’s raspy voice cuts into my thoughts. “How are you and your mom doing?”

  I turn away from the window to face her. “We miss Dad.”

  “Yeah,” she says, looking sympathetic. “Maybe we could do a movie night? Get your minds on something else? I pop an awesome bag of Orville Redenbacher.”

  Recalling the blood-splattered scene on her movie’s cover, I say, “Thanks, but I’m not sure we’re up for it. There’s something else that I need your advice about, though.”

  “Someone wants my advice?” Sylvie laughs. “I’ll help if I can. Spill.”

  I glance around the café and lower my voice. “It’s guy stuff.”

  Sylvie’s eyes widen. “Okay, who’s the asshole?”

  “Nobody. It’s just . . . I, um, sort of kissed Wyatt.”

  “You kissed the Goob?” She laughs, then shrugs and says, “Hey, he is sort of cute. Totally not my type but he’s got his own thing going on, you know? Part dork, part jock.” She studies me in a way that makes me think she’s trying to picture Wyatt and me together, then nods her head slowly. “You and the Goob. I sort of dig it, actually. If you want to hook up with him, I say go for it.”

  Heat shoots up my neck like a rocket. I nibble my thumbnail.

  “Uh-oh.” The silver stud in Sylvie’s eyebrow catches a beam from the overhead light and winks. “That bad of a kisser, huh?”

  “No! I mean it’s just . . . Wyatt and I have always been friends. Just friends.”

  Grabbing a glass container next to the napkin holder, Sylvie sprinkles Parmesan cheese onto her palm then licks it off. “If you’re confused about it, kiss him again and see how you feel.”

  “Won’t that just make it worse if the person I really want to kiss is someone else?” I draw my lower lip between my teeth.

  Sylvie lights up. “Whoa. Who are we talking about?”

  “The guy at Dad’s memorial,” I say.

  “No shit. Mr. Intense?”

  “Ty.” Just saying his name makes me feel as if my whole body is smiling. “Ohmygod, Sylvie! Mom hired him to shingle our roof and I can’t think straight when he’s there. Today I met him at the creek behind the springhouse. We had so much fun and—I don’t know. I mean, Wyatt’s making me crazy, too. He—”

  The emo waitress brings our pizza and saves me from having to say more.

  When we’re alone again, Sylvie says, “Hello? Are you listening to yourself?” She turns the pizza so that the sausage side is nearest me, then lifts a slice of veggie. “Judging from the way you just gushed all over yourself, I think I know the answer to this, but who are you really jazzed to kiss again, Ty or the Goob? And by jazzed, I mean your toenails catch fire just thinking about it.”

  The peppery aroma of the pizza suddenly makes me queasy. I lean back, my appetite gone. “I don’t know. Whenever Wyatt and I are together, I notice things about him I never did before, and I start wondering how it would be if we were more than friends.” I tell her about the cupcakes. “He’s so sweet, and nobody makes me laugh like he does. Plus, we know pretty much everything about each other, so I don’t have to worry what he thinks.”

  “He’s safe, you mean.” Sylvie looks disappointed in me. “Safe is a cop-out reason for being with someone.”

  A little defensively, I say, “But Ty is only going to be here a couple more weeks at most, then I’ll probably never see him again.”

  “So, you’re saying you’re going to settle for Wyatt?”

  “No! Is that how it sounded?” I slump back in the booth. “God, I’m so messed up.”

  “I don’t know what to tell ya,” Sylvie says around a mouthful of pizza. “But if you ask me, this side trip with Wyatt was inevitable. I’ve never known a guy who can stay friends-only with a girl forever. They always end up wanting to get their hot little hands in—”

  “Hey, Sylvie!” A guy tuning a guitar in the far corner of the café waves her over.

  She waves back and says to me, “Speaking of hot hands, I need to make amends with the entertainment. Jonesy called last night and I never called back.”

  “Sure, go on.”

  As she leaves the booth, I bite into a pizza slice and stare out the window, disappointed that Sylvie didn’t offer any easy solutions to my dilemma about Wyatt and Ty. But it’s not her fault. I don’t think any exist.

  Later, Wyatt calls while I’m driving home. When I tell him I struck out at the video store, he says, “I’ll loan you Superbad.”

  I laugh. “That’s not exactly the sort of movie I had in mind for Mom.”

  “What? You loved it. You wet your pants you were laughing so hard.”

  “I did not wet my pants.”

  “Almost. You knocked over Gram’s favorite vase trying to get to the bathroom.”

  “You are so lame,” I say, rolling my eyes.

  “It’s true! I caught it before it hit the floor. I didn’t tell you because I didn’t want to embarrass you.”

  “Yeah, right. Embarrassing me is your favorite pastime.”

  We laugh, then grow silent. Five seconds pass. Ten. I notice that the late-to-leaf cottonwood trees along the county road are finally budding. Wyatt and I will be graduating soon. Everything’s changing.

  “You should stop by,” Wyatt says.

  “I need to work on my paper. And Mom still hasn’t called Dad’s clients, so I’m going to do it tonight. I don’t think she can handle talking to them right now.”

  “Doesn’t sound like a fun job. I’ll be thinking about you.” Wyatt pauses, then adds in a softer voice, “Of course, I’ve been thinking about you all day anyway.”

  “I’ve been thinking about you, too,
” I say, wondering if our friendship has been leading us to this new place all along, and our getting closer was meant to be.

  “I should go since I’m driving,” I tell him.

  “Yeah, be safe. I’ll talk to you tomorrow.”

  I put the phone in the cup holder, oddly flattered by the change in Wyatt’s voice when he said he’d been thinking about me. But out of nowhere, Ty pops into my thoughts, and I’m confused all over again.

  After I get home, I devote a couple hours to my paper, then start calling Dad’s clients to tell them that his friend Sal will be in touch about finishing their projects. Sal called Mom yesterday and was nice enough to volunteer to do the work without taking any of the fee. I’m on the phone until close to ten o’clock, and Wyatt was right; it isn’t fun. By the time I make the last call, I’m so drained that I can’t muster the energy or enthusiasm to go out to the workshop. I know Iris is disappointed, but I can’t handle any more stress. I fall asleep curled up on the couch with my clothes still on and Cookie in his pen nearby, whining in his sleep again.

  Iris doesn’t pester me to go out to the workshop the next morning while I’m working on my paper. I guess she’s finally figured out that I won’t be able to give my full attention to anything else until I’m finished. I work nonstop until after one o’clock, then slip out of the cabin and take a sandwich to Ty.

  When I call out to him from the deck, he starts down from the roof to meet me. I saw him earlier when he arrived and we said hello, but Mom was with me. It’s the first time we’ve been alone since we left the springhouse yesterday, and I feel a rush of anticipation at the thought of seeing him again. I keep remembering Sylvie’s question about who I’m more “jazzed” to kiss: Wyatt or Ty? One thing I know—I’d let Ty kiss me right now in a heartbeat if he tried.

  Midway down the ladder, he jumps to the deck and turns to me, looking dusty, sweaty, and gorgeous in his torn flannel shirt and holey jeans. His dark hair just misses brushing his shoulders.

  “I’ve been waiting all morning for this,” he says.

  “I didn’t know my sandwiches are that good.”

 

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