“Yes, Mother.”
“While you are lying here, think about what I’ve said. You are almost sixteen. It’s time you understood the importance of doing your duty.” She paused in the doorway. “And if you won’t listen to me, I’m sure your father will be more persuasive.” She closed the door.
“What could be more important than solving a murder?” Emily threw her pillow at the door.
If anybody’s friend be dead
It’s sharpest of the theme
The thinking how they walked alive,
At such and such a time.
CHAPTER 16
By that afternoon, Emily and her mother had reversed their roles.
“Emily!”
“Yes, Mama?”
“Close the curtains, please. The light is stabbing my eyes.”
Emily hurried into the parlor carrying a tray bearing a glass of water and a bottle of Dr. Gridley’s patented medicine for neuralgia.
“Hurry, Emily.” Her mother lay on the softest sofa, her hand covering her eyes.
Emily pulled the curtains closed, trying not to let her gaze linger out the window. The brilliant August sunshine was a temptation she could not afford to indulge today.
She poured the medicine into the glass and offered it to her mother. “I don’t know if I should take it,” Mrs. Dickinson protested. “It always makes me so sleepy.”
“Mama, it gives you relief.” Emily gently raised the glass to her mother’s lips. Mrs. Dickinson drank deeply, wincing at the sharp flavor of anise. “Sleep is a balm to your pain.”
“But who will help you with the baking? There’s so much to be done. I knew I shouldn’t have let your sister go picnicking.”
“Mama, Vinnie has been working so hard while I played truant that she deserves a treat. Dr. Gridley’s daughter was kind to invite Vinnie to join the party.” Emily concentrated to keep the envy out of her voice.
“But you’ve never done all the baking alone. . . . You aren’t ready.”
She laid her hand against her mother’s cheek. “I was trained by the best housekeeper in Amherst. Think of this as my comprehensive exam.”
“You’ll remember to make several loaves of corn bread? And the coconut cake? I promised the Hitchcocks that I would bring some to the tea tomorrow . . .” The doctor’s prescription began to take effect and Mrs. Dickinson drifted into sleep.
Emily stared down at her mother, wrestling with a mixture of irritation and affection. With a shrug, she trudged into the kitchen. Half a dozen pans were out, waiting for batter and baking. She brought out the milk and eggs from the icebox. She compared the number of the eggs with her baking requirements. There wouldn’t be enough.
Slipping wooden clogs over her indoor slippers, she went out to the chicken coop, leaving the kitchen door wide open in the hope that a summer’s breeze might blow out the stifling heat from the oven.
When she returned to the kitchen, a basket of eggs on her arm, she stopped short.
Henry Wentworth was leaning against the battered table in the center of the kitchen. He wore a casual suit, and his wide grin suggested he was confident of his welcome.
“Henry! What are you doing here?” she asked, tucking a stray strand of hair behind her ear.
“I was coming to invite you for a ride and I spied you heading to the coop. I’m afraid of chickens, so I thought I would wait inside.” His eyes sparkled, as though he were asking her to laugh at him. “I hope you don’t mind?”
Grasping the basket tighter, Emily’s thoughts were racing. When she had seen him last, he had been grief-stricken. Although she had found his tears plausible, she still harbored suspicions that Henry knew more than he’d told her. And now he was acting as though he hadn’t a care in the world.
Slowly her feet brought her inside the kitchen, but she left the door propped open. Not meeting his eyes, she untied her filthy apron, stained with the juice of bushels of strawberries from this year’s jam-making. She took Vinnie’s much cleaner apron off the peg and fastened it around her neck.
“Of course I don’t mind,” she finally managed to say. “Won’t you sit down? Can I get you something to drink? Cold water?” She deposited the basket on the edge of the table without her usual care. It began to tip.
“Careful!” Henry caught the basket, rescuing the eggs, and placed it in the center of the table.
“Thank you,” Emily said, her pulse racing as though it were her own body that had nearly crashed to the ground. She was acutely aware that she was alone with him, and that her mother wouldn’t wake up if an earthquake shook the rafters.
“Now that I’ve done my good deed for the day, I’ll have that water.” Henry pulled his tie loose and wiped the perspiration from his brow.
Emily’s hand flew to her mouth. Mr. Nobody had used that same gesture in the smithy. For a moment it was as if Henry was gone and Mr. Nobody had taken his place.
“Emily? You did offer me water, didn’t you?”
“What?” Emily regretfully returned to the present. “Of course.” She pumped water at the sink into a pitcher and poured a glass for him.
Henry drank deeply. “Miss Dickinson, would you like to go for a drive and enjoy this beautiful day?”
Emily’s gaze went to the rolling hills outside the window, freshly scrubbed after yesterday’s rain. The apples on the trees in the orchard shone, and even the gravestones in the cemetery glistened. The freshness out of doors made the kitchen even more stifling.
He continued, “It would be a kindness to help me take my mind from our family’s loss.”
Emily jerked her attention back to his face, trying to see the truth in his features. Was James’s death the family’s loss or gain? Surely Henry, as charming as he seemed, profited from his cousin’s demise? She might never have another opportunity to find out. What harm could an excursion hold.
But then she looked back at the kitchen table and the never-ending baking. “I’m afraid I can’t,” she said.
Henry glanced around at all the pans. “How much do you have to bake? You look as though you were making enough to feed all of Amherst!”
“Four loaves of cornbread, three loaves of bread, a coconut cake, and a chicken pie for dinner tonight.” Emily counted on her fingers. “Actually, it’s a capon pie. Austin’s rooster finally disturbed my mother’s sleep one too many times.” She gestured to the carcass by the sink, feathers already plucked.
“Who killed the rooster?” Henry asked, staring at Emily as though she had sprouted a second head.
“I did, of course. Vinnie is too soft-hearted.”
“That is unexpectedly ruthless of you,” he said.
“Not terribly. Mother insists that we be as sufficient unto ourselves as we can. But this particular rooster’s sacrifice will be a blow to Austin. I don’t know how I’ll break the news to him.”
“And who is Austin?” Henry asked.
“My older brother. He’s away at school. I miss him terribly.”
He nodded. “When I’m away, I miss my sister. More than I appreciate her when I’m home!.
“Are you and Ursula close?” she asked.
“Close enough,” he said. “I’m the eldest by five years and our parents aren’t very practical, so I’ve always felt responsible for her.”
“Austin tries to take care of me. Vinnie, too, despite that I am the elder. Without them, I would be lost.” Her hands were busy measuring the flour into a large mixing bowl. “But if I’m to be completely honest—I wouldn’t mind losing my way sometimes. One never knows what one will see.”
“I like the way you phrase things, Emily.”
Emily laughed, and she began to relax. After all, hadn’t she deduced that Henry was genuinely shocked when he saw his cousin’s body? Whatever mystery swirled around James’s death, Henry’s part could not be so nefarious. After all,
she and Henry had shed tears together.
Henry went on. “Tell me what I can do to help. If I can’t tempt you outside, the least I can do is assist with the baking.”
Emily shook her head with a smile. “I can’t see you cooking. Your clothes are too fine.”
“That can be remedied,” he replied, removing his suit coat and hanging it over a chair. He rolled up the sleeves of his linen shirt. Emily noticed his thin wrists and long fingers. She remembered the strength of James’s hands as he had lifted her off the stable floor. She wanted to reach out and touch Henry’s hands, but stopped herself. What was she thinking? Despite their resemblance, Henry was not his cousin.
Emily turned away, feeling a flush moving up her neck to her face. She pushed two eggs toward him. “Very well. I need these cracked into this bowl for the coconut cake.”
“That sounds easy enough.” He grabbed an egg and squeezed it into his fist over the bowl. Emily began to giggle as he turned his hand over, letting the sticky mess drip into the bowl. She handed him a clean cloth.
“There’s a trick—I’ll show you. But first let me rescue that egg,” she said. “Mama always says, ‘Waste not want not.’” She picked the white bits of shell out of the golden yolk. “Like snowflakes in summer,” she murmured.
“I beg your pardon?” Henry asked.
Her clean hand reached for the hidden compartment in her corset for her notebook until she remembered Henry’s presence. She glanced about the kitchen and spied Jasper’s shoeing bill from the smithy. She took her silver pencil from around her neck and scribbled on the paper. The words secure for later use, she replaced the pencil around her neck. She looked up to see Henry staring at her.
“I’m sorry,” she said. “I needed to write something down.”
“May I see?”
“No!” She caught herself. “I don’t show anyone my words.”
“Words?” He raised his blond eyebrows. “So Miss Emily Dickinson considers herself a writer?”
What was the mysterious power these cousins had? No one outside her family knew her secret—but James and now Henry had discovered it in no time at all.
Hurriedly, she changed the subject. “Can you check my recipe for the amount of cream of tartar?”
With a small grin, he picked up the piece of paper. “One teaspoon cream of tartar.” His eyes, dancing with mischief, rested on her face. Could he see the blood rushing to shame her expression? “Will you write about me later, Miss Emily?”
“Absolutely not,” she said. “Why on earth would I write about you?” Here was a difference between the cousins. When James had discovered she wrote, he had talked about Emily. Henry spoke of himself.
“I’m an intriguing character,” he teased.
She picked up a wooden spoon and shook it in his direction as though she were brandishing a sword. “I’m not interested in intriguing characters.”
“Then what does interest you?”
“My impressions of what I see around me. My own thoughts.” Too late, she realized how immodest that might sound.
“I’m sure your thoughts are a fascinating study,” he said, a mocking gleam in his eyes.
Catching her lower lip between her teeth, she pointed to the recipe in Henry’s hand. “And the soda? How much?”
“One half teaspoon.” He turned the page over. “Where are the instructions? Shouldn’t a recipe tell you what to do?”
“Not mine.” She flashed him a quick grin. “I like lists of ingredients. Then I decide what to do with them.”
“To what end?”
“Chemical combustion!”
“The way your eyes glisten quite frightens me,” Henry said. “What does an Amherst miss know of combustion?”
“Quite a lot,” Emily assured him. “We take chemistry lectures at the College. Hasn’t Ursula told you?”
He spread out his hands. “If it doesn’t involve fashion or botany, Ursula is a closed book.”
“All her clothes are lovely, and she’s very clever in botany,” Emily conceded, stirring in the tartar. Henry took a seat at the table and watched her, his chin resting on the bridge of his interlaced hands. “And now the soda.”
“The ladies in my family wouldn’t have the first idea how to make a coconut cake, much less kill a capon. That’s a job for the servants.” he said idly. He sat up straight. “I beg your pardon, Emily. That sounded snobbish. You’ve met my mother—I would hate to sound as pretentious as she.”
“Not at all,” Emily said. “We Dickinsons are true to our Puritan forebears—don’t pay anyone to do what you can do yourself! But that doesn’t mean everyone else has to be a slave to our principles.”
She added a cup each of coconut and sugar to the bowl and then two cups of flour.
“My mother believes in the domestic arts,” Emily confided, glancing guiltily at the door to the parlor, “but I would happily trade my baking duties for a pencil and paper and a quiet desk.”
“And what will you write? Gothic romances? Chemical treatises? Poetry?” He caught sight of her expression. “Ah, a poet in the making.”
Emily’s mood turned wistful. “Your cousin managed to get me to admit that, too. You two must have been quite the pair.”
Henry stared out the window. His clouded face was in sharp contrast to the clear summer sky. “We were indeed. We only saw each other at school holidays, and away from Mother. She didn’t approve of James or his father. But we had plenty of adventures.”
Emily felt a guilty pang that it was so easy to talk with Henry. Had she forgotten James so quickly? But she couldn’t resist hearing stories about him. “Tell me,” she prompted as she stirred.
“Once we climbed Mount Washington in New Hampshire. We were caught by a freak snowstorm in October. We almost died.” A reminiscent smile played on his lips. “Those were excellent times.”
Emily shook her head. “An excellent time? Almost dying? It amazes me what young men find ‘excellent.’”
“Even the almost dying was fun—because of course we didn’t! But James and I liked pushing ourselves.” His eyes took on a sad cast, perhaps remembering that his cousin would never again rise to the challenge. “Whenever we visited Uncle, we used to race each other across the Connecticut River—the faster flowing it was, the more we liked it.”
Folding over the batter and working in the thick coconut, Emily rolled her eyes. “The river isn’t safe—it’s a wonder you weren’t drowned.”
He shrugged. “The danger was the fun part.”
“Sometimes I could scream at how little adventure I am allowed to enjoy,” Emily said. “But do tell me more. If I cannot have adventures, it gives me pleasure to hear of other people’s.”
“Well, I remember the time we camped in Rattlesnake Gulch. We swore we would bring home a rattlesnake!”
Pouring the cake batter into the pans, Emily asked, “And did you?”
He looked rueful. “No. We saw a bear and came running home. After that we stayed closer to Uncle’s house, exploring the Indian trails.” He sighed. “I miss those days. I wish James wasn’t dead.”
There was silence, finally broken by Emily. “The batter is ready,” she said. She crossed over to the oven, opened the door, and stuck her hand in. Henry stared while she counted.
“One, two, three, four . . . ” When she got to ten, the heat was unbearable and she snatched her hand away. “The oven is ready,” she said.
“Emily!” Henry grabbed her forearm to examine the redness on her hand. Without releasing her, he poured water from the pitcher onto a cloth and carefully wrapped her hand. “I had no idea that baking was so dangerous!”
“All domestic duties are hazardous to your health,” Emily retorted. “One is apt to die of boredom! I’d rather have rattlesnakes and bears any day.”
Henry laughed loudly. Emily hushed him, but
it was too late.
“Emily!” Mrs. Dickinson’s querulous voice could be heard from the parlor. “Who’s here? Did I hear someone?”
“I’ll be right there, Mama,” Emily called.
Henry stood up. “I had better be going and leave you to your alarming household chores.”
“I would rather have gone for a ride with you,” Emily said, shocked at how easily the sentiment slipped from her lips.
“Another time,” Henry said, pleased. With a slight bow, he took his leave.
Emily turned on her heel toward the parlor. Her hand was on the doorknob when a thought suddenly occurred to her. Henry had told her that he and James were strong enough swimmers to race the swift-moving Connecticut River. Then why had he been so willing to believe that James had drowned? Was she the only person who saw the questions surrounding his death?
“Emily!” Her mother’s voice was full of her drugged sleep.
Emily put aside her suspicions for later consideration. Summoning a suitably cheerful tone, she called out, “Coming, Mother.”
Until they lock it in the grave,
‘T is bliss I cannot weigh
CHAPTER 17
The next morning Emily was ready to return to her investigation as soon as the breakfast dishes were cleared from the table. Her mother was gone, Emily’s coconut cake in hand, to spend the day with Mrs. Hitchcock. Emily tried to leave quietly by the front door, only to find Vinnie blocking her way.
“You’re staying inside, Emily Elizabeth,” Vinnie said. “We can talk about the case here.”
“We can talk, but then I’m going out. Alone,” Emily said. She sank down on a sofa, trying to quell a cough in her chest.
“Only if I decide you are well enough to go,” Vinnie said firmly.
Knowing she was defeated for the moment, Emily took a deep breath and began. “James’s death was meant to look like an accidental drowning, but he had no water in his lungs. And someone dressed his body in Horace Goodman’s clothes and deposited it in our pond.”
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