by Anna Bell
‘Can’t stop, I’m running really late.’
I give Mike a quick wave over my shoulder and hot step it out of the council offices. I feel a bit rude not stopping to hear what he’s got to say, but I’m sure it was just a question about the audit we’re about to have. We’re all desperately trying to get all our ducks in a row before an inspector comes in to see what we do as a department, but it’s already five past six and if I don’t make it to the restaurant soon, not only will my mum tell me off, but she’ll be left unchaperoned with Will. Any time she’s alone with him she brings up the topic of him proposing.
I dump my work clothes in my car as I pass, before doing a quick jog, or rather totter in these heels, to the restaurant, which is just off the main high street.
I spot my family straight away as I walk past the window – it’s hard not to when they’re the only people in the restaurant. Will looks relieved as I race through the door and over to the table.
‘I’m so sorry I’m late. Work is nuts at the moment,’ I say, leaning over to give my dad a quick peck on the cheek and passing him his present. ‘Happy Birthday.’
‘Thanks, Lexi,’ he says, smiling up at me.
I bend down to kiss my mother, too, and as she brushes my cheek with her lips she stops.
‘What on earth do you look like?’
‘It’s a dress,’ I say, standing up straight and brushing it down. ‘I thought you’d be pleased that I made an effort to wear something that shows off my figure.’
‘It might have been nice if perhaps not quite so much of you was on display.’
I’m about to open my mouth to reply that this is the fashion, and lace is in, when Will gets up and stands behind me. Maybe now, after years of nodding along whenever my mother snipes at me, he’s decided to stand up for me and defend my wardrobe choice.
‘Lex, your skirt’s tucked into your tights at the back,’ he whispers.
I close my eyes and wish that I could disappear. When I open them a second later and see my mother still staring at me with pursed lips and a raised eyebrow, I realise that it hasn’t worked, so instead I try as best I can to pull the dress out from my tights as discreetly as possible. God love my boyfriend for trying to protect what little modesty I had left.
Needless to say my dress must have been in my tights since I came out of the cubicle. Thinking about it, I bet that was what Mike was going to tell me. He’s a good egg and I’m sure he wouldn’t have let me walk out like that. And while I’m not too embarrassed that he noticed – I’m guessing he saw worse at last year’s Christmas party when I drunkenly fell over and flashed our entire department – I am mortified that the fit guy from the top saw. Not to mention everyone on the high street as I walked here. I wonder if the finance lady saw my mistake as well and didn’t say anything – that’s almost against the code of sisterhood. She’s off my Christmas card list – well, she would be if I could ever remember her name. Thinking about it, maybe that’s why she doesn’t like me.
I clear my throat and move away from Will to sit down at the table. I place my napkin over my knees and try to act like I’ve got some dignity.
My parents go back to looking at their menus. ‘You look lovely in the dress,’ says Will, using his menu as a shield.
‘Thanks. It’s always a bit awkward doing the quick change in the loo.’
‘Ah, well. At least it was empty in here.’
‘Too bad the high street wasn’t when I was on my way. Do you know, I even had a wolf whistle! I haven’t been whistled at for years – I was well chuffed.’
‘I’d whistle at you,’ he says, winking.
I smile and I’m about to say something cheeky back when my mum coughs. I’d almost forgotten my parents were here.
Will and I lower our menus like naughty schoolchildren that have just been caught passing notes at the back of class.
‘So, I bumped into Vanessa’s mum yesterday in Sainsbury’s. She’s all excited about the big day.’
I feel my muscles starting to tense in preparation. It’s as if I’m putting up a force field around myself.
‘I’m sure she is,’ I say, as if it’s no big deal.
One of my childhood best friends, Vanessa, is getting married a week on Saturday. While I’m very excited that she’s tying the knot, my mother seems to have taken it as a personal insult that she’s dared to get married before me.
‘I hadn’t realised that they’d only been together for four years,’ she says in a tone as if they’d only met last month.
‘That set menu looks good,’ I say, pointing at the handwritten chalk board mounted on the walls. ‘I adore monkfish.’
My mother chooses to ignore me, and ploughs on like a steam roller.
‘Her mum was saying that Vanessa’s dress is from that little bridal boutique off Kimberly Lane.’
‘Um, yes, I think it is,’ I say, trying not fuel the conversation.
‘I see it when I’m on the way to Zumba. It looks magical. I always walk past it and hope that one day I’ll be going in there,’ she says longingly.
I sense Will getting fidgety next to me. If I’m uncomfortable with this topic of conversation, Mr Commitmentphobe is bound to be. You see, Will and I have been together for seven years and, despite us living together, he’s yet to produce a small, sparkly ring. Not that I really care that much. In my mind, our joint mortgage is probably more binding and difficult to break than a marriage certificate, but it’s a different story for my mum. It’s not that she objects to us living in sin or anything. As far as I can tell, she needs me to get married so that she has something to write about in her Christmas letter. Last year, she apparently emailed everyone to tell them she was doing a charity donation in lieu of cards, which I think was because she was too embarrassed to write for yet another year that I was neither engaged nor married.
Sure enough, Will’s now looking at his watch as if he wants to get home as quickly as possible and away from my interfering mother.
Luckily for both Will and me, the waitress comes over and takes our order. We’ve all decided to go for a set menu that includes main course and dessert, so at least we’ve shaved off twenty minutes by not having starters.
‘So have you had a nice birthday, Dad?’ I ask, well and truly shutting down the Vanessa conversation.
‘I have thanks, love. I got an excellent book called Match of My Life.’
‘Oh, great. From Mum?’
‘No, he bought it for himself. I bought him a jumper from M&S.’
Dad gives me a weak smile. Thirty-five years of marriage and every year he gets an M&S jumper for his birthday.
‘I’ve read that one,’ says Will. ‘It’s really good. Have you seen the Got Not Got Southampton book? I was reading it thinking you’d like it.’
‘Yes, I got that for Christmas. Great book. So many memories.’
I roll my eyes as Will and my dad get lost talking about different football books. The fact that they’re both Southampton fans is the only thing they have in common, and therefore the only thing they ever talk to each other about. I always thought it would be nice to have a boyfriend that got on well with my dad, but when they spend hours discussing the percentages of possession in the last game, I realise that I should have been careful what I wished for.
My father thinks Will’s the bee’s knees, unlike my mother, who disapproves of him, largely for not yet allowing her to become mother of the bride. Of course, my father’s impression is based solely on the fact that Will has a Southampton Football Club season ticket. He could be the world’s worst boyfriend, but as long as he went dutifully to every home game, then he’d still be OK. Luckily for me, he’s actually a pretty good boyfriend, but still . . .
I try and tune out their conversation about the league table, and that of my mother, who’s started telling me about her next-door-but-one neighbour whose daughter just had a baby. I’m sure you can imagine how she feels about grandchildren. Instead I use my time to daydream about th
e novel I’m writing.
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We make it through to dessert without me tipping wine over my mum’s head, much to my amazement. She was actually quite restrained, having got distracted by telling me all about the scandal of the stolen fridge magnets at her work (it was as riveting as it sounds). My dad and Will are sitting in silence since exhausting their talk about football somewhere between the main course and dessert. All in all, we’re on the homeward straight, and bar a cup of coffee we’ll be off back home – and it’s only 7.30. Gotta love an early dinner.
As another waitress sets down our coffee I notice that Will’s hands are shaking as he drops two sugar-lumps into his cup before stirring vigorously. He clatters the spoon so noisily against the china cup that even my dad looks over at him to see if everything’s OK.
I know that dinner with my mother would put anyone on edge, but I’m sure he’s jumpier than usual.
‘Have you got your outfit sorted for the wedding next week, then?’ asks my mother.
What was I saying about being on the homeward straight?
I burn my tongue as I try to finish my coffee in a bid to get away more quickly.
‘Yes, all sorted. I’ll take lots of photos and show you next time I see you.’
Can’t wait for that meet-up. I must remember to leave Will at home.
‘Ah, perfect. It’ll be nice to have some copies of photos of you at a wedding, even if it isn’t your own.’
I can feel Will’s leg jiggling under the table and I’m just hoping that his coffee is decaf as he’s clearly already got way too much nervous energy to add caffeine into the mix.
‘Well, thanks for a lovely dinner,’ I say, placing my cup down and looking expectantly at my dad for him to summon the bill.
‘Yes, thank you,’ says Will.
He glances at his wrist and looks in shock at the time, as if he hasn’t been checking it every few minutes since we got here.
‘The football’s just kicked off,’ he says, turning to my dad. ‘Do you fancy going to the Swan round the corner to watch it?’
‘Football? On a Tuesday?’ I say, exasperated.
‘Champions League,’ says Will without missing a beat. ‘Real Madrid vs Man City.’
So that’s why he’s been checking his watch all night. Not because he wanted to get away from my mother, but because he didn’t want to miss the game. Honestly, him being that anxious and jumpy about two teams that he doesn’t even support is just typical. My boyfriend is so sports-obsessed that he’d watch tiddlywinks if Sky Sports broadcast it.
‘Oh, I’d forgotten that was on,’ says my dad.
Although he’s a big Southampton fan, he’s not as addicted to watching sport as Will is.
‘We could go to the pub to watch it, and Lexi can take Jean back to ours for a cup of tea until we’re finished.’
My mouth drops open.
‘Um . . .’ I stutter, as the house is definitely not tidy enough to have my mum over. I can’t remember the last time I hoovered and I don’t even know if I loaded last night’s dinner plates into the dishwasher. ‘Why can’t we come to the pub too?’
I’m not a football fan, and I couldn’t think of anything worse than going to the Swan to watch the game, but I feel a bit affronted that we’re being farmed off like good little women to drink tea at home while the men go to the pub.
‘Because you hate the Swan and you hate football. You’ll be much more comfortable at home.’
Really? With my mum turning her nose up at the state of my house? But I can’t say that out loud – I wouldn’t want her to know how we really live in a pigsty.
‘But . . .’
Will is glowering at me with a look so severe that I stop myself from saying anything else.
‘Actually, Will, as kind as your offer is,’ says my mother, ‘I’ve booked tickets to the cinema for eight o’clock. That’s why we’re eating so early – it’s not just because your dad is tight, Lexi.’
She laughs a little, and my dad even raises a smile.
‘Thanks, Will. Some other time, yeah?’ he says almost hopefully.
‘OK,’ says Will, looking crestfallen.
He obviously really wanted company to watch the game. He would usually go with his best mates Aaron and Tom, but they must be busy.
‘I’ll go with you,’ I say, trying to plant an enthusiastic smile on my face.
He narrows his eyes as he looks at me.
‘You don’t have to.’
‘No, I want to. You clearly really want to go and see it.’
‘That settles it, then,’ says my mother. ‘Alan, get the bill, will you?’
My boyfriend smiles, and I see the anxiety fade away. All he wanted was someone to watch football with him. This way at least we can go and have a nice glass of wine together and shake off the dinner with my mother. It’s not like I have to watch the football anyway as I’ve got my trusty Kindle in my bag – one of the many tools I have in my arsenal as a sporting widow. I’m always prepared for being on the sidelines of some sort of sporting activity.
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