by Devney Perry
“I’m—”
“Sorry. I know.” She slammed the car door closed and spun on her heel as she rounded the hood. She threw open the driver’s door but paused, looking at me from over her car. Then she waited.
“Take care of yourself, Aly.”
She huffed, then got in the car and backed out of the driveway, wiping tears off her cheeks.
I waited for her car to disappear down the street before going inside. Standing in my living room, I swept my eyes across the furniture. The toss pillows were gone. Aly had taken those, along with the throw blanket she had always used when we were watching TV.
I fucking hated that I’d hurt her. She was a good woman, just not the one for me. After two years, I’d never felt like she was the one. I’d never pictured asking her to marry me. Not once. We’d been on and off for our first year and a half together, but then she’d lost her roommate and moved in with me. Even after six months of Aly telling me she loved me, I’d never felt compelled to say it back.
I made my way to the kitchen for a beer, and as I opened the refrigerator door, my phone rang. I tugged it out of my pocket and pressed it between my cheek and shoulder. “Hi, Mom.”
“Hi, sweetie. How are you?”
“I’m good.” Or at least I was. The fridge was empty. Aly had taken all of my beer too. Damn it. Who took a man’s beer? That was just mean. She didn’t even drink beer—which I should have taken as a sign.
“I was calling to see if you and Aly could come over for dinner tomorrow. We haven’t seen you both in weeks.”
“I see Dad almost every day.”
“That doesn’t count. I haven’t seen you both in weeks.”
I took a deep breath and shut the door to the fridge. Mom was going to be pissed that I’d broken it off with Aly. She’d had her hopes up for a wedding and grandkids. “Mom, listen. Aly and I broke up.”
“What?” she gasped. “When?”
“Last week,” I muttered and braced.
“Last week!” she shrieked. “Why didn’t you call to tell me? Is she okay? Where is she going to live?”
“With her sister until she can find a new place. She’s hurt but it was for the best.”
“And how are you?”
“Fine, but I feel like an asshole.”
“Oh, Cole.”
I sighed. “I tried, Mom. I really did. But I just don’t . . .”
“You don’t love her. I know. It wasn’t hard to see.”
I abandoned my fridge and pulled out a stool from underneath the island, slumping onto the seat. “I should have ended it earlier. I shouldn’t have dragged it out this long and hurt her even more.”
“Well,” Mom said, “at least you didn’t marry her.”
“True.”
My eyes landed on the laptop by my side and I slid it over. As Mom talked into my ear, my fingers pulled up Google. Then they typed in Poppy’s name.
Her Facebook page popped up first. Instead of a profile picture, there was a logo for The Maysen Jar. What was The Maysen Jar? I clicked the picture to read the caption. Grand opening tomorrow!
Poppy had a restaurant and it was opening tomorrow?
“Cole!” Mom yelled into the phone.
“Huh? Oh, sorry. What was that?”
“I asked if you wanted to come over for dinner tomorrow.”
I closed the profile picture and clicked on another Facebook photo. This one was of Poppy standing outside a restaurant. Her hair was swept up in a bun and her arm was looped with a brunette’s. She was only five five or five six, but her legs went on for miles in her tight jeans and heels. The photo was stunning, but what really drew me in was her smile.
A smile I wanted to see for myself.
“Cole,” Mom huffed.
“Sorry, Mom.” I closed the laptop. “I can’t make it for dinner tomorrow. I’ve got plans.”
29th Birthday: Go skydiving
Poppy
“I love the name of your restaurant.” My customer handed me her credit card.
I smiled and swiped. “Thank you.”
“Except she spelled it wrong,” Randall grumbled on the other side of the register.
He’d been camped out on “his stool” all afternoon and evening, offering commentary to people as they came to pay their tabs. He’d been talking and eating. Randall had walked in right before the lunch rush and had since eaten two quiches, a spinach salad, a chicken potpie, three apple pies and two peach cobblers.
“Mason,” he muttered. “M-a-s-o-n. That’s how you spell mason jar.”
My customer looked at him, about to come to my rescue, but I just laughed. “Ignore him,” I told her as I handed back her card. “He’s just grouchy because I cut him off after five desserts.”
Randall scowled. “Grown man can’t even indulge in desserts these days without a lecture.”
“You’ll thank me later when you aren’t in a sugar coma.” I shot him my so there look and turned back to my customer with a smile. “Thanks for coming in! I hope you enjoyed everything.”
“Oh, yes, it was wonderful. You’ve got a fantastic menu. And so creative.” She glared at Randall. “Especially the name. I’ll definitely be back.”
“Thanks again!” I waved good-bye as she turned to leave.
When the door closed behind her, I surveyed the empty tables in the restaurant. For the first time since seven this morning, they were all vacant.
“Wow.” Molly joined me at the register with a wet rag. “That was crazy. I figured we’d be busy, but never that busy. We’re sold out of everything but one potpie and three salads.”
“It’s a good thing we’re closing in,” I glanced at my watch, “twenty-seven minutes.”
Not that I’d be going home. I’d be in the kitchen all night making breakfast dishes for the morning and replenishing the dessert cooler.
The late-evening summer sun was starting to set, and the dinner rush had finally subsided. At nearly eight, closing time for my small café was just around the corner, and as much as I didn’t want to turn customers away, I was hoping that my now-empty tables would remain that way. I didn’t want to have to explain—again—why I had so few options to offer from the menu.
“I need to adjust inventory plans for this week. I felt like a chump telling people we had hardly anything left.”
“Don’t worry about it.” Molly patted my hand. “People understood. You can make some adjustments and everything will be fine.”
“Traffic will probably slow down once we’re not the new thing anymore, but until then, we should plan for more.”
She nodded. “I agree. I’ve already updated the budget and sales projections.”
“You make sure to add a few extra pies to your tally for me.” Randall pulled on his cap. “I don’t want you running out if I’m here.”
Molly rolled her eyes but I just smiled. “Okay, Randall. I’ll make sure to save you some desserts.”
He slid off his stool and grabbed his cane. “See you girls tomorrow.” He gave me a pointed stare. “Don’t stay too late.”
I crossed my heart. “Promise.”
Molly and I waited for him to leave before we both burst out laughing. Yesterday, I’d thought my chances of seeing Randall James again were slim to none. Now, I was thinking he’d be my most frequent customer.
“Today was a good day.” Molly grabbed her rag and started wiping down the counter.
“A very good day.” With the exception of running low on food, I couldn’t imagine the opening having gone any better. Customers had been happy. Jars had been scraped clean. And I had found my rhythm quickly, balancing work in the kitchen and managing the counter with Molly.
And though he was a bit cantankerous, Randall had been a welcome and comforting presence today. Anytime I’d gotten flustered or started to stress, I’d found his eyes waiting for me with a small nod. His silent encouragement had saved me today.
Molly finished wiping the counter and started on the tables. “I’m
glad we’re bringing in a part-time helper soon. I don’t think I can handle six in the morning until after eight at night on a regular basis. I’m dead on my feet.”
“Me too.” Except I’d been here since four and would probably stay until well after midnight.
As Molly cleaned, I took a tub of silverware and black paper napkins to a table and collapsed into the seat. Closing my eyes, I relaxed for a few seconds before getting back to work, rolling the silverware in the napkins and finishing them with a white paper ring.
Molly finished up with the tables and came to sit down, helping me with the silverware. “I’m going home, taking a long, hot bath and then going straight to bed. For once, I’m glad Finn has the kids at his place so I can crash.”
Finn had come in earlier with Kali and Max so they could eat dinner. When Molly had joined them, I’d gotten a momentary swell of hope that the four of them might have a nice family meal, but then Finn had squashed it. He’d turned his chair sideways, away from Molly, with a two-foot gap between them so he wouldn’t have to make eye contact. He’d literally given her the cold shoulder.
“Did you and Finn talk at all during dinner?” I asked.
Molly shook her head. “No. He won’t talk to me. I’ve tried for months but . . . you know. He’ll never forgive me.”
I gave her a sad smile. She’d given up hope, but I hadn’t. Not when there was still love there.
Because Finn and Molly did love one another. Anyone who spent thirty seconds with them could feel it. But their marriage hadn’t been easy. A year ago, the two of them had been going through a rough patch. Finn had been working a ton and not spending much time at home. When he was there, he’d take his work stress out on Molly. They’d been fighting so much, Finn had actually moved out. They’d agreed on a separation and therapy, but Finn had never found the time to meet with their counselor.
Then Molly had made a mistake.
She’d been lonely and certain her marriage was over. She’d gone to a bachelorette party, gotten blitzed and had sex with some random guy from the bar. She’d messed up—big time—but to her credit, she’d owned her mistake. She’d told Finn the truth and begged for forgiveness. He’d told her to get a lawyer instead.
I’d had a hard time believing my friend could do that to my brother. I’d been angry and said some things I hadn’t meant, but then I’d apologized and forgiven her. Things had been so hard for her when Finn had moved out. She’d been devastated.
So I’d assumed my role as Switzerland, supporting Molly as my best friend and Finn as my one and only sibling. Meanwhile, they were miserable. Finn was punishing Molly for one mistake. Molly was still punishing herself for losing the love of her life.
“I’m sorry, Molly.”
She shrugged. “It’s my fault. If I were in his place, if he had cheated, I’d be ruined.”
Cheated. Why did she always say cheated? I hated that word. And the way she said it was worse than any four-letter curse. Molly wasn’t a cheater. Molly was just human, dealing as best she could with a broken heart. “You weren’t together.”
“We were still married. I was—am—still in love with him. I understand why he’s hurt and angry. Some mistakes you just can’t forgive.”
Or forget.
Molly would regret that mistake for the rest of her life.
“Enough about that.” Molly forced a smile, steering the conversation away from her and Finn like usual. “How was your karate class last night?”
Unlike my brother, Molly was more accepting about my decision to work through Jamie’s list.
“It was . . . interesting.”
So interesting that I’d stayed up most of the night thinking about that class. My mind had run on a loop all night, but not about karate. About Cole Goodman. It had certainly been a shock to see him again, but more surprising was the rush of feelings he’d invoked.
Feelings—chemical, electric feelings—I hadn’t had in a long time.
“So? What happened? Did you learn how to kick some ass?”
“Oh, yeah. I’m an expert ass kicker,” I deadpanned, then laughed. “I’m just glad that I survived the workout. To me, that’s a win.”
“Did you mark it off the list?”
I nodded. “Last night when I got home.”
“Are you okay?”
“I think so. I cried like usual, but when the tears stopped, I actually felt kind of good.”
“I’m glad. That’s what you were going for, right? Some closure?”
I nodded and rolled another bundle of silverware. “I’ve actually been thinking about trying to go through the list more quickly.”
Finn’s big objection was that going through Jamie’s list would drag on for years, and I could see his point. Now that I was starting to cross off more items, I was feeling motivated to keep going.
“How quickly?” Molly asked.
“A year? Maybe less?”
She thought about it for a moment. “It’s ambitious. Do you think it’s even possible?”
The biggest item on Jamie’s list had been the restaurant. It had also been the item requiring the most money. For the others, I mostly needed time. Luckily, some items I’d already set in motion.
“I think so. A year is going to be a push, but if I make the list a higher priority, I might be able to wrap up everything before Jamie’s birthday.” That would give me until New Year’s Day.
“Well, you know I’ll help with whatever I can.”
“Thank you.”
She moved her finished rolls of silverware into the tub. “You haven’t eaten yet. Why don’t you head back to the kitchen and I’ll finish up out here?”
I glanced at my watch. 7:49. “We survived the first day. I think I’ll head back and make a sandwich. I’m starv—”
The front door swooshed opened. Damn. I spoke too soon.
Turning to the door, I smiled, ready to greet my late-evening customer, but faltered as the door closed behind him.
Cole Goodman was walking my way.
My belly dipped as I took him in. His aviator sunglasses were perched on top of his chocolate-brown hair. A black polo stretched across his broad shoulders and pulled tight across his muscled arms. His pale-blue jeans molded to his Herculean thighs before draping down to his black, square-toed boots. The leather belt on Cole’s trim waist held both a shining badge and a holstered gun.
Cole smiled and locked his light-green eyes on mine as he crossed the room.
His straight, white teeth made my breath hitch—something that had happened last night more times than I wanted to admit.
Molly, who had turned around from her seat to greet our customer, spun around so her back was to Cole. Her cheeks flushed as she whispered, “Wow.”
Wow was right.
Cole Goodman was—simply put—gorgeous.
He could give a woman a speeding ticket and get a thank-you in return. He inspired women to attempt push-ups in a karate class just for the chance to watch him sweat through his gi. Cole made grown women blush like teenagers and giggle in corners, like those girls at the dojo last night.
Besides Jamie, I’d never seen a man so handsome. And if I were being honest with myself, Cole had even Jamie beat.
The blush in my cheeks paled as a knot of guilt settled in my stomach. I loved Jamie. Jamie had been a gorgeous man too. And as his wife, I shouldn’t be attracted to another man.
My smile turned to a frown the moment Cole stepped up to our table.
“Hey, Poppy.”
“Hi, Cole.”
His smile fell. “You don’t look happy to see me again.”
“Again?” Molly asked.
Cole looked down to my friend and held out his hand. “Cole Goodman. I ran into Poppy at the karate school last night.”
“Oh!” She stood and took his hand. “I’m Molly Alcott. Nice to meet you. Poppy was just telling me about your karate class.” She turned to me. “But she didn’t tell me she’d been bragging up the restaurant.�
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“I wasn’t—”
“Actually, I heard about this place online,” Cole said. “I saw Poppy’s name and decided to check it out.” He looked my way. “I hope you don’t mind.”
“No. Not at all.” I stood, shaking off my strange feelings. I couldn’t afford to turn away customers, even if they were handsome and made me feel uncomfortable things.
“I tried to get in earlier but I had something come up at work. I don’t suppose you’ve got any dinner left?”
“Just barely. We had more of a rush than I expected and we’re down to just a few things. Sorry.”
“Don’t be sorry. That’s a good problem to have on opening day.”
“You know,” Molly said, standing too, “I was just telling Poppy she should eat. She’s been running around like crazy all day. Why don’t you eat together?”
My eyes snapped to my friend. “It’s late and I’m sure Cole just wants to take something to—”
“I’d like that.” He grinned at Molly.
She smiled back.
I looked from one to the other and back again. I held up a finger to Cole. “Would you excuse us for just a minute?”
He chuckled and pulled out a chair at our table, taking a seat. “Take all the time you need.”
I grabbed Molly’s elbow, then yanked her away from the table and back to the kitchen. When the door swung closed behind us, I let her go and planted my hands on my hips. “What do you think you’re doing?”
“You like him.”
“What?” I squeaked. My voice was so high it’d send dogs into barking hysterics.
“See?” She gave me her smug smile. “You like him.”
I shook my head. “No, I don’t. I don’t like him.”
“Liar.”
I huffed. “It’s complicated. I know him.”
“Yeah. From karate.”
“No.” I shook my head and took a deep breath. “I knew him before karate. He was the cop that came to my house to tell me that Jamie . . .” I twirled my wrist instead of finishing my sentence.
“Oh, shit.”
“Pretty much.”