by Uday Prakash
My game, however, is like the game of trying to hide an elephant with a washcloth.
Assume that the elephant is a truth. If a poet or writer tries to hide the animal behind a meagre washcloth, he risks burning his bridges and sinking the boats that ferry him through the journey of life.
Mohandas is real. If you’d like to verify this, you can do so by asking any inhabitant of our village, or any other village in this country.)
Mohandas’s mother and father had high hopes that when he got his BA he would soon find a good job. He’d been married by the age of fifteen to Kasturi, the daughter of Biranju, from Katkona village. She was a hard worker. After arriving at her in-laws’ after the wedding, she immediately began looking after the entire household, even taking on small chores for the neighbours; the money she earned allowed Mohandas to pay his college fees. Everyone was watching Mohandas, the first young man from his caste to get a college degree, and at the top of the class. When the exam results were announced, his photo was published in the local papers. Test prep companies even used his photo in their publicity materials.
Mohandas duly registered with the job office, and sent off application after application for openings he’d found in the classifieds. Time and again he received postcards from the job office. He then studied for the public service exam, working much harder than he’d ever worked as a student.
Mohandas travelled anywhere and everywhere looking for work. Though he’d aced his exams at college, he was never invited back after the job interviews. And then he’d discover the people getting hired were those with barely a high school education, if that, or the ones who had graduated in the middle or bottom of their classes. All of them had some kind of connection: either they were the son-in-law, or son, or nephew, or brown noser, or assistant, to a government officer, politician, or big shot. Mohandas came home after every interview with the feeling his luck was running out, but he didn’t give up hope. He knew full well how corrupt India was – but what about the ten or twenty per cent who found work on the basis on merit and hard work?
He realised after a while that some of the positions were auctioned off to the highest bidder. If his father had had fifty or a hundred thousand rupees, Mohandas could have used that as a bribe to get two or three jobs that had otherwise slipped away.
Time went on. He was now past the age limit for a government position. His family began to lose hope. Still, Kasturi kept up her encouragement: No government work, no problem, you’ll get something in the private sector. Or else pick up a trade. The government has plenty of opportunities nowadays for the out-of-work educated. We’ll raise chickens. We’ll start a brisk business selling eggs. We’ll open a shop to make candles or incense, or a little flourmill. Government banks are giving out loans. One time a literacy job came up; he could have found temporary work as a teacher. But in the end it turned out the government official who was in charge of the program was only hiring people from his own caste or political party; Mohandas was of a different caste, and didn’t belong to any political party.
He was totally straightforward; a bit reserved, and had plenty of self-respect. And, sadly, it simply wasn’t in his power to do as much running around as he would have been required to, kissing the arses of government officers or hakims, bribing them with food and drink. And like the jobs themselves, looking for a job was a bloodsport, full of rivalry. It’s not as if Mohandas was afraid of competition – if he had been, how would he have graduated with honours? But he soon discovered the real world was one massive sports stadium, and the ones who scored goal after goal were those who had the power to cripple the other players. And this power came from criminal, illegal connections and back-door deals, nepotism and nefariousness, bribes and rewards – none of which Mohandas had access to.
It wasn’t just Mohandas, but his whole family that began to let go of the dream of his becoming a government officer or hakim, and with great difficulty began to hope that he would just find some job, any job that would free him from joblessness and emptiness, and at least bring home some money to feed the family. This is when his father, Kaba, was diagnosed with TB. He began wheezing, and coughing up blood. And just a little while later Putlibai’s eyes were ruined by the free eye clinic. On top of all of the housework and small jobs she did to earn money, now Kasturi had become the caretaker for her in-laws. This was also when she was in most need of rest, since she was pregnant – Devdas had arrived in her womb.
Looking at Mohandas, you’d think he’d been sick for a long time. He didn’t visit many people from the village. It also became more and more difficult for him to face his fellow villagers or caste brethren, so he avoided them all. The same question was on everyone’s lips: ‘What’s he up to, and has he sorted out a job yet?
The Kathina river flowed nearby. Like most people from the village, Mohandas planted various melons, cucumbers, and gourds in the summer months on its banks. His wife and parents joined him – they dug irrigation ditches to bring water to the seedlings. They worked in shifts, afternoons and evenings, watching over everything to make sure the digging went smoothly; the crops brought them an extra nine or ten thousand rupees per year. Though a few times the monsoon came at the wrong time, causing the river level to rise; whatever crops had been ready for harvest were washed away by the swelling current. Twice this happened to Mohandas. A dark pessimism began to grow inside.
Mohandas hadn’t come home the night Kasturi gave birth to Devdas. He’d been lying on the wide sandy bank of the Kathina, keeping an eye on the quiet sky above. It happened to be a new moon the night Devdas was born. Kasturi almost didn’t live through the delivery; the umbilical cord got twisted around the infant’s neck, with little Devdas stuck halfway out. Bilspurhin, who’d come to help with the delivery, announced that Kasturi, who’d passed out from fear, was in mortal danger.
Mohandas’s blind mother and coughing father looked everywhere to find their son, but he was nowhere to be found. He was lying on the sandy bank of the Kathina, staring up at the moonless sky like a corpse, searching for some sign of life inside him. The dark black of the new moon night, not blood, flowed through his veins. His gloomy mind couldn’t find sleep, it swarmed with visions of terror that had incubated in the womb of a system thoroughly rotten and corrupt.
Mohandas had probably passed out on the banks of the river that night – otherwise, he would have heard his mother and father calling him, or his wife shrieking, or his newborn son Devdas crying when he was born at four in the morning.
The sun had already risen well into the sky by the time its rays awakened Mohandas, who was lying on the banks of the Kathina one kilometre outside the village, out of his sleep, or swoon.
Mohandas lay still in the sand for a long time as he warmed up. His body was spent, his thoughts scattered. It began to dawn on him that he wasn’t on his balcony or in his courtyard; he was sprawled on the sandy riverbank, where he’d planted cucumbers and melons and loki and tomatoes just a few days ago. But the rains had come too soon, and the river had first swelled, then overflowed, until its ravenous crest had swallowed everything whole.
Mohandas returned home to find quite a crowd from the village assembled; women, too. It seemed they were all talking about him, and the crowd hushed and people scattered as soon as he arrived.
‘It was by the grace of god she pulled through, son. The villagers had already come with the tulsi leaf and said she was nearly dead,’ his mother said, wiping the tears away with a corner of her sari. ‘I swear that baby’s some kind of angel.’
He went into his wife’s little chamber. Kasturi was lying on the cot, sleeping with her baby; moments earlier, she’d been on the brink of death. Smoke from the cow dung cake burning in the borsi pot filled the room, along with the smell of the neem water and musty ajwain. Her eyes barely registered Mohandas’s presence; his heart sank when he saw how exhausted she was, how vulnerable. One more stomach had delivered itself to the house that morning. Arrangements for half a litre of cow’s mil
k would have to be made daily for nine months. Kasturi would need a diet of turmeric rice, ginger, ghee, and sweet gur for a month. And then he’d have to spend all kinds of money feeding relatives for the birth ceremony, the naming ceremony, the annaprashan milk-and-rice newborn feeding ceremony. And then ... his gaze fell on the newborn sleeping against his mother’s side, a hale and hearty, pudgy little fellow, beautiful and innocent, snuggled against her, looking like the offspring of some divine being. Mohandas felt fatherly feelings well up inside for the first time, and he simply couldn’t take his eyes off of the boy.
‘The postman Sitaram’s here and he’s got something for you,’ Kaba called from the balcony.
Mohandas read the letter, from the biggest coal mine in the district, inviting Mohandas for an interview. It’d been more than a few months since he’d received this kind of invitation. Was it possible that while he lay in the sand on the banks of the Kathina his thoughts had produced some kind of sound that reached high up in the sky, finally reaching a celestial body? That a heavenly being perceived his sorrow, his calamitous state? Was the baby Kasturi gave birth to in the wee hours of the morning an angel who would unlock the door to a whole new life for his entire family?
The interview letter sent to by Oriental Coal Mines via the employment agency glowed with the promise of a new beginning. After a long drought, a tender sprout of hope grew once again in Mohandas’s heart. He couldn’t sleep the next night; though he had accepted the fact that his tree of life had been reduced to a dead stump, now it exploded with new shoots.
On the day of his interview, Mohandas arrived one hour early. Invoking the names of his family goddess, Malihamai, and his spiritual guru, Kabirdas, he experienced an unprecedented feeling of self-confidence, hungry for the job no matter what. A one hour written exam would be followed by an hour’s break, followed by the physical test. He dived into the tasks with all his mind and soul. He finished the hour-long exam in less than thirty minutes. The questions were easy, and multiple-choice; he had only to write a check mark next to the correct answer. For the two-hour physical exam they made him run a 1500metre dash, then a sprint, then lift some weights, then crawl on all fours over rough terrain, and finally run five laps around the field. He took an eye exam; they had him identify various colours. He didn’t come in second in any of these performances.
At four in the afternoon, the door opened to the office where the hundred and fifty other job applicants were sitting. The names of the five candidates that had been selected were called out, and Mohandas’s was number one.
His heart beat wildly – the impossible was happening. A quick end to all his life’s uncertainties. Every month, a pay cheque. Every day, a fire in the stove at home, and a hot, steaming curry. Medical treatment for his mother and father. No more need for Kasturi to work like a dog in the homes of others.
The clerk had assembled all of Mohandas’s diplomas and transcripts. Looking over his BA transcript he said, ‘Huh? You haven’t found a job yet? With just a little shoulder to the grindstone and you should’ve been able to find something decent.’
‘How soon can I start?’ Mohandas asked.
‘Consider yourself started. We’ll have all your papers processed by the end of the week at the latest, and then the contract will be sent to your house. At most the whole process will take two weeks.’
It was the dawn of a new era at the home of Mohandas. He had two thousand rupees sitting at the post office, and with it he bought a new mosquito net, a kilo of ghee, sweet gur, dried ginger, a few good pots and pans, new clothes for Kasturi and Devdas. For himself he bought a pair of jeans, a poly blend shirt with a checked pattern, a thirty-rupee wallet, a couple of five-rupee handkerchiefs. He made arrangements with Parasu for a half litre of milk to be delivered each morning. Word spread in the village that, at long last, Mohandas had found an honest-to-goodness job. Villagers who had utterly shunned Mohandas began to be civil, even solicitous. People who’d made fun of his degree and hard work began to sing a different tune.
‘It was just a matter of time. Mohandas couldn’t have sat around empty-handed for very long with his kind of degree.’
And then there were others who made comments like this: ‘You know that bamboo-weaver-whatever caste Mohandas belongs to? They’ve got job quotas for them now too. And he’s the one who got the quota job for his caste since he was the only one of the lot there with a degree.’
And kheer, too, was served for dessert at Mohandas’s home that week, and a delicious potato-tomato curry – and spicy! His mother forgot about her blindness as her fingers felt and groped around the little winnowing basket to pick out the pebbles from the rice and dhal. She even used mustard oil to make a chicken dish with red chili and dried mango powder. Kaba bought a full pack of Mangalore Ganesh bidis and a box of Nai Jahaz-brand matches – a gentle strike, and they lit up like a torch. He sat out on the balcony for many nights, taking long, satisfying puffs on his bidi, singing bhajans in praise of Kabirdas at the top of his lungs. And he didn’t cough once, and there wasn’t any blood in his phlegm.
One morning at the crack of dawn blind Putlibai was nearly pirouetting in the courtyard, singing with all the joy in her heart:
My boy, his wife, they’ve come to settle down
And so has the little bird myna, in the same room, she’s nested ’round
Call it a holy sign, call it a holy sign, and our troubles will wash away
Jai ho to Goddess Maliha! Success and victory and more
Jai ho to Satguru Maharaj! Victory and success to you
The next week Mohandas waited every day for the letter to arrive from the coal mine. But the postman didn’t come. And then the next week, too – no letter. It was going on three weeks, and by then he’d heard that Santosh Kumar Sharma, son of Kanchan Mal Sharma from Kansakora, was the first to receive his papers. Mohandas caught the state bus service to the coal mine, and was told by the same clerk in the recruitment office that the letters were in the process of being sent out. There were, in fact, only three positions for the five men picked; if no more spots opened up, they’d have to strike two candidates from the list. Mohandas was terrified; the clerk saw the disappointment on his face and tried to reassure him by saying that he hoped that two more positions would open up and even if they didn’t Mohandas’s name still wouldn’t be struck from the list since his had been at the very top.
Mohandas went home. The clerk had told him to wait another six weeks, and had tried to sound as convincing as possible, but Mohandas had already lost a little of his verve. He thought about how Parsu would want his money at the end of the month for the daily milk. In all the excitement, he’d borrowed more money; how was he going to pay it back now? Kasturi told him to keep his resolve. Putlibai promised goddess Maliha whatever she wanted if she saw Mohandas through. And, well, Kaba didn’t say very much; the singing stopped and the cough came back.
Six weeks later Mohandas returned to the Oriental Coal Mines. He waited for a long time before the clerk called him into the recruitment office, where again he told him to wait a little longer. This time he didn’t say for how long, and the bonhomie had faded from his demeanor. Before leaving, Mohandas emphasised that he’d be back again in a month to see if there was anything new; indifferently, the clerk replied, ‘Why bother? If you get the letter, you get the letter.’ Then he added, ‘The truth is that the Coal India manager who chose the candidates that day was from Bihar and gave one of the jobs to his son-in-law. These are the kinds of games the higher-ups play.’ A dark pit opened before Mohandas.
The next month Mohandas went again to see if he could find something out – you never know. He was made to wait outside the office from half past ten in the morning until half past three in the afternoon. After pleading and cajoling with the underling, Mohandas was allowed inside the office, only to discover that the other clerk was on vacation, and that the fat clerk filling in for him knew nothing about his file. Mohandas expressed his concern about the whereabou
ts of his college transcript and other original documents; by way of an answer, the fat clerk asked what in the world they would do with his transcript and certificates, and added that if Mohandas didn’t get the job, the office would return them by registered mail. Otherwise he could come and pick them up himself the next time he came.
Again Mohandas went home. He knew in his heart of hearts that the gods in the skies had truly sensed his disaster, and had therefore showered drops of mercy onto the dead stump of his existence; the ugly burl had wondrously sprouted shoots and buds, about to burst wide open. But the backdraft of corruption and bad luck had burned it all away. Now no hope remained. If he’d had some cash on hand he could have found a middleman to take it to the top, and secure him the position. The rich in the village were the first to get wind of Mohandas’s situation; just as they’d done before, they started making fun of his education and skills. Mohandas had to swallow the bitter pill of humiliation the day he ran into Vijay Tiwari, son of Pandit Chatradhari, with whom he’d studied at college; and who, even though barely managing to graduate – at the bottom of the class at that – had been set up with a job as a police sub-inspector, thanks to his in-laws’ behind-the-scenes deals. He summoned Mohandas.
‘Moe-huh-naaa! Mo-ha-na! Just the other day I bought three water buffalo as part of a government sponsored program. You see, I’m going to start a dairy. If you play your cards right, you and dear Kasturi can tend to the buffalo, feed them, look after them. You’ll get paid on the first of the month, and I’ll get your house fixed up through the Indira Awas program. And that sweetheart Kasturi shall have a good time in our milk dairy!’