And then, the sound of footsteps in the corridor broke the stalemate. A hand pushed the door open a little wider. “Ben?” a timid voice asked.
Christina stepped into the room carrying a bundle of women’s clothing. In less than a second, she had noted the overturned furniture, the bloodstained faces, the weapons. She turned, but before she had a chance to run, Tidwell had his free arm wrapped around her throat and the sharp end of his knife pressed against her face.
Christina screamed. Tidwell slapped his hand across her mouth to stifle the noise. The clothes in her arms fell to the floor. “Shut your mouth or I’ll cut it off,” he growled into her ear.
Christina obeyed. The loud screaming was replaced by a soft whimper. Her wide eyes looked desperately at Ben.
Ben took a step forward, still brandishing the lamp. “Let her go,” he said. His head felt light and dizzy.
“I don’t think so,” Tidwell said. Again he flashed the sickening smile. “Drop the lamp.”
“Not a chance.”
Tidwell tightened his choke hold on Christina’s throat.
“Drop the lamp or I kill her.”
Ben’s eyes locked with Tidwell’s. “How do I know you won’t kill her anyway?”
Tidwell’s eyes and nostrils flared. “Drop the lamp or I’ll kill the fucking bitch!” He shook Christina’s body back and forth, still pressing the knife close against her face. Ben saw a thin line of red emerge on her cheek.
Christina began to cry. She tried to stifle the noise, but the sobs still came out, in short, choking gasps. Tears were streaming from her eyes.
Slowly, keeping his eyes fixed on Tidwell, Ben lowered the lamp and set it on the floor in front of him. He couldn’t have held it up much longer anyway.
“Bad mistake,” Tidwell said, chuckling. He yanked Christina’s body backwards and placed the knife horizontally across her neck.
Outside the door, Ben heard the clatter of heavy footsteps. The unidentified feet ran down the hallway corridor and stopped outside the front door.
Tidwell’s head jerked to the side. “Drop it!” he shouted through the door. He twisted Christina’s body around so that it stood between him and the doorway. “I’ll kill her!”
Christina’s eyes closed tightly.
“I’ll kill them both!” Tidwell screamed. His face was jerking spasmodically, looking outside the door, then at Ben, then outside again. “Drop it or I’ll kill them both!”
Ben heard the sound of two soft clumps on the carpet in the corridor outside.
“Now we’re comin’ out!” Tidwell shouted, his face pressed close behind Christina’s. “Me and the bitch! And you’re gonna let us, or I’ll cut her fucking throat!” Shoving his knees against the back of her legs, he forced her through the doorway.
As Tidwell inched his way into the doorway, the inner wall began to block his view of Ben. Tidwell was concentrating on the people outside. As soon as Ben was certain Tidwell couldn’t see him any longer, he picked up the lamp, this time holding the base end away from him. In two steps, Ben was across the room and turning the corner to face the doorway.
Tidwell saw Ben in the corner of his eye as soon as Ben stepped into the doorway. Tidwell whirled and pulled the knife away from Christina toward Ben. He was too late. Ben swung the lamp like a baseball bat. The base of the lamp smashed into Tidwell’s head, and he fell in a crumpled heap onto the floor.
The two uniformed policemen standing in the outer corridor rushed forward and took hold of Christina. They gently lowered her to the floor.
Ben brushed the matted hair away from Christina’s sweaty, tear-streaked face. “Are you all right?” he asked.
She looked up at him and, after several seconds, nodded her head faintly.
Ben stepped over Tidwell’s body and rushed across the apartment to Catherine’s dark bedroom. He flipped on the lights. Catherine lay naked and motionless on the bed, the sheets twisted around her feet, her face staring up at the ceiling.
“Catherine?” He moved to the side of the bed closest to her. He saw two empty pill bottles lying on the bed, the same two bottles he had seen half-full on her bedstand the night before. He touched the side of her neck. No pulse. She was stone cold.
Ben was faintly aware of the sound of footsteps in the living room. One of the policemen had Tidwell on his feet and was pushing him into the bedroom. Tidwell’s arms were handcuffed behind his back. Blood was trickling from his nose and his left ear.
Tidwell saw the milky-white figure frozen on the bed. He made a soft, choking noise. “Don’t stand there leering,” he said, gasping for air, “… at my daughter.”
“Daughter?” Ben stared at the bloody man silhouetted in the doorway. “I thought she was your lover.”
Tidwell stared back at Ben, then averted his eyes. In that instant, Ben realized he had been right.
Ben’s eyes began to swell, and he found it difficult to breathe. He gazed at the pale porcelain figure, now transfixed, like a statue. He noticed she had something clutched in her right hand. He pulled her fingers apart slightly. It was his red handkerchief.
Ben heard the pounding of footsteps outside, and realized that reinforcements, probably led by Mike, were finally making their appearance. In two quick steps, he walked toward Tidwell, took aim, and swung his fist directly into Tidwell’s face.
PART FOUR
The Fixed Moment
41
BEN SAT ON THE sofa in a living room that looked like a page out of Architectural Digest. At one end, a beautiful brick fireplace with an antique wooden mantel served as a Victorian focal point for the entire room. At the other end, an ornate wooden entertainment center held all the necessities of twentieth-century life. Behind the sofa were a black grand piano, several tables bearing ceramic knick-knacks, and family photographs.
The woman sitting on the sofa facing Ben had in fact just turned sixty, although she looked at least ten years younger. Her fresh, ruddy complexion and her perfectly styled hair, dark brown with scattered, dustlike particles of gray, evinced the care and attention she had exercised to preserve herself.
“I don’t think I understand,” the woman said carefully. “So Emily is Catherine’s daughter by …” Her voice faded, and her face suggested an unpleasant expression.
“That’s right, Mother,” Ben said, nodding. “The moment I saw Catherine, I knew she had to be Emily’s mother. They have the same eyes, the same complexion. The same quiet beauty.” He paused reflectively. “And, of course, the poetry was the clincher. I think Catherine named Emily for Emily Dickinson. “He rubbed his arm in the spot where it was still sore. “Even after I realized the killer was Tidwell, though, I never guessed the rest.”
Ben’s mother rubbed her hands against one another. “It takes something like this to make a person realize just how lucky she is. That sort of behavior never happens in Nichols Hills.”
Ben smiled.
Mrs. Kincaid lifted a demitasse from her saucer and sipped her tea. “I don’t know how you ever figured it out.”
“The light finally dawned when Sanguine mentioned his franchise property in Phoenix. Tidwell had mentioned Phoenix before, and Fort Worth and some other cities, and indicated that he was in charge of securing real estate for the franchisees. Adams was just a puppet vice president; Tidwell found the properties and told him where to go. Tidwell was the only one who could have arranged for Adams to arrive at a vacant lot at just the right time to find Emily. It was all part of his sick master plan.
“I realized that Tidwell had left Sanguine’s office as soon as I told him I had found Catherine, the only witness who could possibly testify against him. He’d been gone fifteen minutes and hadn’t returned. It wasn’t difficult to imagine where he’d gone.” Ben pressed his forefingers against his temples. “If only I’d realized sooner.”
“Benjamin, you have to stop blaming yourself for everything. Everything is not your fault.”
Ben gazed out the immense bay window.
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bsp; “Benjamin, I think I know why you feel that way. … I want you to know—”
“Mother, I don’t want to go into this.”
“I want you to know,” she insisted, “that your father did not dislike you. If he was hard on you … it was for a reason.”
The two of them sat for a moment without saying anything, neither looking directly at the other. Ben’s mother took another sip of tea.
“I guess you know I was … upset when you stopped calling,” she said, maintaining an even tone. “You’re the only son I have. It seems as if you haven’t been the same boy since Toronto and Ellen—”
“Mother—”
“I worry about you, Benjamin.”
Ben stared at the ceiling. “Mother, I’ve had a lot to deal with.”
“Such as?” she said. A slight edge crept into her voice. “Switching jobs and cities and making a mad scramble for whatever you imagined might make your father happy?”
“It wasn’t like that.”
She leaned back against the sofa, obviously unconvinced. “Tell me what happened, Benjamin, that last day you saw him.”
Ben shook his head. “I don’t think I can. It’s too hard to remember. …”
Ben stepped into the hospital, room. The walls were a bleak green, made worse by the low lighting. The television tilting from the ceiling flickered with a rapid spattering of black-and-white images, but no sound emerged. The serving table next to the bed held a cold luncheon plate, barely touched. Ben wondered if there was a thermostat somewhere in the room. It seemed very cold.
Ben’s father lay on the hospital bed beneath two crisp white sheets. One plastic tube was patched into his right nostril, another was feeding his arm. His cheeks sagged with age and exhaustion, ending in jowls that rounded the underside of his chin. His eyes were closed. Ben had seen his father in the hospital before—this was his fifth visit—but he had never looked like this.
“Dad?” he said quietly.
His eyes opened. They blinked aimlessly for a moment, then lighted on Ben.
“You came,” he said, in a raspy whisper. Obviously, it was difficult for him to talk.
“Of course I came,” Ben said, leaning over the guardrail on the bed.
“I know you’re busy at school.” He tried to push himself up by the palms of his hands.
“That’s all right, Dad. Stay where you are.”
He relaxed. His voice seemed to regain some of its strength. “You learning anything up there?” The strong, slow drawl was a constant reminder of his farmhouse roots. “They taught you how to sue doctors for their life savings yet?”
“Dad, please.” Ben gripped the guardrail tightly. “It isn’t like that. In law school, we learn legal concepts. It’s an intellectual pursuit.”
Ben’s father chuckled softly, as much as the tube in his nose would allow. “Then you should be good at it.” He sighed. “In med school, we had to work.”
“I know, Dad. I’ve heard.”
“I don’t know why you couldn’t just go to med school and be respectable.”
“I don’t know, either, Dad. I guess I just didn’t want to spend my entire life sticking my fingers in people’s bodily orifices.”
The older man’s voice became stronger. “Make fun if you like, but you’ll never make the kind of money working for the district attorney you could make as a doctor.”
“No doubt.”
“So what else goes on at school, besides learning legal concepts?” His eyelids fluttered up and down. “Getting any?”
“What?”
“You heard me. I’m sure you’re familiar with the phrase. I’m asking you about girls.”
Ben cast his eyes skyward. “I’m not dating anyone at present.”
“That’s not exactly what I asked. I bet you get laid all the time. God knows your sister does.”
“Dad! Come on—”
“It wasn’t like that when I was in college. Students didn’t act like that. Well, I didn’t. Hell, people were probably banging each other right and left. I wouldn’t know.” He inhaled raspily. “Your mother was the only one for me.”
He seemed to rest for a moment, then suddenly his eyebrows knitted. “You didn’t do it with Jenny Jacobson, did you?”
“Who?”
“Jenny Jacobson. That skinny girl you dated in high school.”
“In high school? Of course not.”
He exhaled. “Well, thank God for that. She was a nice girl. Her father and I have been in the Rotary Club together for twenty-five years.”
Ben rested his chin on the guardrail. The two of them remained silent for several moments.
“So give me a report card, son,” he said. He reached under the sheets and scratched himself. “Tell me how I’ve done as a father. Tell me what I’ve done right and what I’ve done wrong.”
“Dad … I don’t know what you mean.”
“No, of course not.” A smile came over his face. “Whatever you lacked in drive, whatever your other undesirable qualities, you were always nice.” He paused. “Assuming niceness is a desirable quality.”
He looked up at his son. “It’s kind of hard to tell your father he’s been a son of a bitch when he’s about to die, huh?” And then he laughed, a loud, abrasive laugh that turned into harsh coughing and sputtering. Ben reached out to him, but he waved Ben away.
After a few moments, he regained control of himself. His eyelids seemed very heavy.
“Mother said you wanted to talk to me about something,” Ben said.
“Yes, I did. There’s a package waiting for you at home. Something I had Jim Gregory’s firm prepare. A portfolio.”
“A portfolio?”
“That’s right. Detailed information on all my various holdings and investments. I’ll be kind and just say that you’ve never expressed much interest in the family business. But you’re going to have to now.”
“You shouldn’t talk like that. You’ll be fine.”
“Don’t be a pansy, Ben. I’m dying. This is it. Like it or not, you’re going to have to take over the family finances. I’ve made a pile of money, and I want you to see that your mother and sister are taken care of.”
“Dad, wouldn’t it be better to hire someone to do this?”
“That’s so like you, Ben. Get someone else to do it.” He pushed himself up in the bed. “Look, it’s not like I’m asking you to actually make some money. All I’m asking you to do is take care of what I’ve made for you. You’re going to be the head of the Kincaid family, and I expect you to act accordingly.”
“So that was it?” Ben said. “You asked me to come here so we could talk about money?”
Ben’s father made a choking, snorting noise. “Yeah, what’s wrong with that? I guess you were expecting some profound philosophical deathbed advice.” He lowered himself back into his sleeping position. “Fine, I’ll give you some advice. Don’t get old. It isn’t worth it, it isn’t fun, and it isn’t fair. You spend your whole life going from one moment to the next. A happy moment here, a sad one there. Working hard, living clean, starting a family, hoping you can stack two or three, maybe even four of the happy moments together. Trying to freeze time. Trying to fix the moment. But it can’t be done.”
His pace slowed and his eyelids drooped lower over his eyes. “And then you’re old, and your life is like a book you read too quickly. All you can remember are a few scattered images and random thoughts. No sense of the whole.”
He exhaled deeply. “I think I’m going to sleep for a while now, Ben.”
“I’ll go.”
“No, stay. If you leave, your mother will insist on coming in, and she needs rest, too.”
“All right. I’ll stay.”
He smiled slightly, and his eyes closed. His hand raised and almost touched Ben on the cheek, then fell back to the bed. After a moment, he was asleep, and deep within the dream from which he would never awaken.
The clattering of the demitasse in the saucer made Ben look up. His mo
ther was staring at him.
“How’s your arm?” she asked.
“Oh, fine. Several stitches. I’ll probably have a scar, but”—he shrugged his shoulders—“people rarely admire my upper arm.”
“What do you think you’ll do now?” she asked.
“I don’t know,” Ben answered. He was being honest.
“Well, there’s no need to hurry your decision. It’s not unusual for a man to change occupations several times before he’s thirty. Even in Nichols Hills.”
“I like the law,” Ben said. “I like the potential it has for helping people, even if the potential sometimes goes awry.”
“Well, Benjamin, if you’re certain you know what you want to do, you should do it.” She hesitated a moment. “The only concern your father ever had was that you wouldn’t live up to your potential.”
“I’m afraid I can’t agree with that statement.”
“It’s true. You needed your father to push you to try harder.”
“You make him sound very altruistic.”
She sighed. “Are you going to be all right?”
“I think so,” he said slowly. “I don’t know. Something about this whole mess. I believe I’m starting to feel better.” He brushed his hands against his lap and stood up. “Well…”
“Stay in touch this time.”
“I’ll try, Mother.” He walked toward the front door, then stopped. “Mother?” he said.
“Yes?”
“It’s nothing against you. I mean … you know. I love you.”
She picked up a home-decorating magazine from the coffee table. “I know you do, dear.”
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THE TALL, THIN WOMAN with the stringy blonde hair was not dressed like a nurse or any other identifiable authority figure, but she seemed to be the one in control. Ben told her that he was an attorney, careful to suggest, without actually stating, that he was Tidwell’s attorney. The woman bought it; she was probably used to seeing junior attorneys sent out to do dirty duty like this. The woman gestured toward a chair, and Ben sat down.
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