by Mz. Lady P
After speaking with my parents, they told me that it was best I signed the papers. I felt like everybody was against me trying to save my marriage. After all I had done for Skylar, she had sided with Bella. Needless to say, that hurt me, but I guess everybody felt like that was what I deserved. After contemplating about what I should do, I decided to just go ahead and sign it. That was the only way I would be able to see my son. He meant more to me than anything in this world. I couldn’t even stomach losing him. I had already lost my daughter and I was not about to lose him or Jazzy.
I granted Bella her wish and ended our marriage. It fucked me up in the head, but I had to suck it up and deal with it. Regardless of if we weren’t together, my love for her would never change. I would still take care of her until the day I died. She deserved that much. Bella deserved to be happy and if I loved her like I say I did, I had to let her find happiness. Even if it wasn’t with me.
Chapter 3- Bella
I sat on the living room floor holding the finalized copy of my divorce papers. A tear fell from eyes because it was over. I sipped on my glass of Sunset Blush wine as I thought about my son. He was with Jayceon for the weekend. It was crazy that his parents had to mediate between us. I couldn’t look at him because I was afraid that all of the feelings I had for him would show. I still loved him and that wouldn’t go away over night. I just couldn’t be with him due to all the heartache that he had caused me.
Despite being in my feelings about us being divorced, I was trying to deal with him being happy with Monique. I couldn’t help but go on her page. Just looking at their pictures and videos made me so jealous. He was supposed to be sulking as well, but he looked like he was the happiest man on Earth. Monique was now expecting their baby and I was so hurt. I knew that I shouldn’t be, and that’s the best thing for me to do was move on with my new life.
Moving on from Jayceon was harder than I imagined. Everybody cheered you on when you walked away from a no good ass nigga but they forgot to tell you about how much the shit hurts. I deleted my pages so that I wouldn’t feel the urge to look her page. Immersing myself in being a mother and my business was all needed to do to get my mind off of Jayceon.
*****
“I can’t believe it’s your birthday and you’re in the bed. Get up, Bella. Let’s go get fucked up and party.” Sky had been trying to get me out of bed for the longest. I was so damn depressed it wasn’t funny.
“No, Sky. I’m not in the mood. I just want to eat ice cream and watch TV all day.” I pulled the covers back over my head and Sky snatched them off of me.
“I understand that you have a lot on your mind, but, Bella, you have to get past this. You keep saying how you want to get back to your happy place, but all you’re doing is sitting around feeling sorry for yourself. Your ass is divorced. It’s time you put on your freakum dress and get back out there in the dating world.”
“The last thing on my mind is a man.”
“That’s because the only thing on your mind is Jayceon. I know that you still love my brother and nothing is wrong with that. It was you who wanted the Divorce. He gave you what you wanted. He’s laid up with that bitch Monique. It’s time you get a nigga to knock your back out.”
Before I knew it, I was shedding tears.
“I’m sorry, Bella. I didn’t mean to get you upset.”
“It’s not you. I just keep thinking of how all those men touched me and raped me. I’ll never be the same again. I’m afraid to let another man touch me in that way. What if he finds out what happened to me? No one is going to love me after they find out.” I just laid my head on her shoulder and cried. I needed this stress to just subside because it was hindering my growth.
“You’re going to fall in love again and he is going to be one lucky man. Now go get the ice cream so we can watch The Notebook again.”
For the rest of the night, we just hung out together and I felt so much better. After Sky left, I grabbed my Kindle and started to read Hold You Down by Dominique Thomas. Them damn Matin brothers were a trip. I loved me some Ameer. As soon as I got into the book, my phone rang. I answered and it was Sky telling me to come to the hospital because something had happened to Jayceon. I didn’t even change out of my pajamas or remove my bonnet. I hauled ass to that hospital. We weren’t together, but I still cared for his wellbeing.
When I pulled up to the hospital, Tina and Rock were outside. Rock was trying to hold Tina up. At that moment, I was too afraid to get out of the car, but I said a quick prayer, got out, and went over to them.
“What’s going on with Jayceon, Pops?”
“It’s not looking too good, Bella. He got shot six times. He slipped into a coma after his surgery. They don’t think he’ll ever wake up.” I walked up to Rock and Tina and wrapped my arms around them. Rock was trying to be strong, but I could see the tears flowing. Minutes later, Sky and Tech came out of the hospital with Baby J and Jazzy.
“The doctor said that they have no internal injuries. A couple of cuts from the glass, but other than that, they’re fine.” Tina broke away from Rock and grabbed the kids and hugged them tight.
“I can’t believe a motherfucker would do this while the kids were with him,” Tech said as he kicked over a garbage can. Dominic and Rashad walked out of the hospital with their eyes bloodshot red.
“The kids were with him? What happened? Please somebody tell me something.” I was now crying looking down at the kids with bandages on their arms and legs.
“Blockka was at a red light and someone pulled up alongside of him and opened fire. He covered the kids and to keep them from getting shot.” I rushed over to the kids and hugged them.
“What am I going to do without my brother? I need him, Tristan.” Tristan held Sky up to keep her from collapsing on the ground. The whole scene before me was heartbreaking. I started to feel bad about everything that had transpired between us. I just wish things would have turned out differently. No matter the pain Jayceon had caused me, I didn’t wish pain or death on him.
“Let’s all go back inside and visit with him before we head home,” Rock said as we all held onto each other and went back inside the hospital. When we walked inside, Monique was talking to the doctors. Tina immediately went over there and joined them in the conversation.
“I’m his mother and I am the only one who makes these types of decisions.” We all jumped up and went over to see what made Tina so upset.
“I apologize, Ms. Tina. I was just putting people on the visiting list and making sure people weren’t on there that didn’t need to be,” Monique said as she gave me the look of death. I just shook my head at her. Here was another bitch that felt the need to hate me over Jayceon. I should be hating her; after all, she was fucking him while he was still married to me. This bitch better leave me alone before I fuck her up. I got some shit going on in my head right now. This ain’t what the fuck she want.
“Come on, Jazzy and Baby J. I’m taking them home with me.”
“Don’t leave, Bella. You’re a part of this family. You have every right to be here and to visit Jayceon,” Sky said as she tried to hold me back from leaving.
“It’s a lot going on right now. The kids are tired. I’ll come back and see him tomorrow,” I said as I rolled my eyes at the bitch Monique. I had a feeling that I was going to have to fuck this bitch up sooner than later. Fatima wasn’t working with a full deck but this bitch looked sinister and I didn’t trust her with these kids.
*****
The next day I dropped the kids off at daycare and headed over to the hospital. I made slow steps as I headed down the long corridor to Jayceon’s room. When I walked inside, a guy was in there looking like he was getting ready to place a pillow over his head.
“What are you doing?” I rushed over and the man knocked me over as he ran out of the room. I never got a chance to see his face. I immediately got on the phone and called Rock to tell him what had happened. I didn’t bother telling the hospital staff because it was obvious the
y weren’t doing their jobs. All I could think about was if I hadn’t come, that man would have smothered Jayceon.
I cringed as I looked at Jayceon with all the tubes coming out of him. The smell inside the room made me sick to my stomach. I hated it because it smelled like death to me. I didn’t know what came over me, but I kissed Jayceon on the forehead. His face was so swollen. His handsome face was almost unrecognizable. I grabbed his hand and stroked it.
“Jayceon, it’s Bella. I know that you’re mad at me about the divorce, but you have to wake up. Jazzy and Baby J need their daddy. Most of the family, your family needs you. Ms. Tina and Sky are taking this so hard. Please wake up, Jayceon.”
“You can leave now.” I wiped the tears from my eyes and I looked up to see Monique standing there rubbing her small ass stomach. She was barely showing and acting like she was due any day.
“I’m not going anywhere until Pops get here. I suggest you have a seat as well.”
“Let me get some shit straight with you now. You and Jayceon are no longer married so there is no need for you to be here. I am his woman and the mother of his unborn child. Your services are no longer needed. There’s a new bitch in town. Stay out of my way or get ran the fuck over.”
Before I knew it, I was in this bitch face damn near nose to nose.
“You said all of that and it means not one motherfucking thing to me. There is one important thing you forgot and that’s, that you’re not Bella. Trust and believe me when you fucking and sucking Jayceon’s dick, he’s wishing it was me. Don’t flatter yourself. You’re what I call a rebound bitch. He’s just using you because I didn’t want his ass anymore. How do I taste? That nigga loved to eat my booty like groceries. Oh, yeah, the last bitch that called herself running me over is taking a dirt nap. Now have a seat you insecure ass bitch.” I pushed her ass down in the other seat that was next to Jayceon’s bed. His hoes always brought out the worst in me. As soon as I made it back to my seat on the other side of the bed, Rock, Tech, Dominic and Rashad came bursting through the door.
“What the hell happened, Bella?” Rock yelled.
“When I walked inside, a man was placing a pillow over his head. When he looked up and saw me, he hauled ass out of here, knocking me down in the process. I didn’t even tell the staff because their ass is incompetent.”
“Exactly. That’s why he’s being moved to an undisclosed location with around the clock care. These motherfuckers want us to pull the plug anyway and that shit is not about to happen.” Rock pulled out his phone and started making calls. I grabbed Jayceon’s hand and he squeezed it a little.
“That’s right, Jayceon. Keep squeezing my hand.” Everybody rushed over and saw him moving his fingers a little.
“That’s right, Bro. Come on up out this shit,” Dominic said as he grabbed his hand.
“I think all of this company is too much on him,” Monique said as she stood up from her seat and walked around to the side of the bed that I was on. I blocked her ass from getting all the way up on Jayceon. I did the shit strictly because she called herself trying to treat me. Now that I’d pulled her hoe card, I was about to fuck with her every chance that I got. Once she got the hint, she stormed out of the room. I couldn’t do shit but laugh.
“That a girl, Sis. Let her know what it really is around this motherfucker,” Tech said in low tone.
After Rock had Jayceon moved out to their vacation home, I headed over to the daycare to pick up the kids. It was going to be hard running a business and taking care of two kids, but I knew that I was capable of doing it.
Chapter 4- Sky
All I could think about was my brother and if he was going to make it. Just seeing him lying in that bed doing nothing was killing me. Jayceon was more than my brother, besides Bella, he was my best friend. I’d be the first to admit that he had some fucked up ways but his heart was good. I know the way things went down between him and Bella was fucked up. However, my brother loved her. I still couldn’t believe that they were divorced.
Bella was dead ass serious when she said that she wanted out. A part of me believed that she was still very much in love with Jayceon. She had to leave that nigga alone to get her mind right and it wasn’t shit wrong with that. I stopped fucking with him for a while after finding out he had put his hands on her. I was a woman before I’m anything so I had to side with Bella. She had been through hell being with Jayceon. For him to have a baby with another bitch then turn around and shack up with that bitch Monique was unacceptable. She did right by divorcing him.
Jayceon stopped talking to me because he felt like I went against him and sided with Bella. Yes I did. That didn’t mean that I didn’t love him. Right is right and wrong is wrong. Jayceon was in the wrong. Point, blank, and period. I just wished we would have been on speaking terms when this happened to him. I wouldn’t feel so bad about how things were between us.
Since our father moved him, the whole family had been staying at the vacation house. After hearing someone tried to kill him, my mother would not let him out of her sight. My dad had to make her eat and go to sleep. Bella had been a real big help. She came every day and read to him. Not to mention, bringing the kids and letting them talk to him, as well. If that didn’t make him come out of that coma nothing would. Monique has moved in to help with his care around the clock. She was not fooling me. She was just here to keep shit up. Her and Bella had been at each other’s throats since this shit happened. I felt like a proud momma bear. Bella had been handling that bitch. The only reason my parents hadn’t sent Monique on her way was because she was pregnant with my brother’s baby. It was more of my mother looking out for her because my father couldn’t stand her ass. As for me, I didn’t fuck with her period. There was something about her I just didn’t like. I was watching that bitch like a hawk though. I’d kill her ass dead fucking with my brother.
*****
“This book was good as hell, Bae. I bet that’s that nigga Zoe’s baby.” I couldn’t help but to laugh at Tech. I had him reading Urban Fiction and he was addicted. He just finished reading That Eastside Love by Lucinda John.
“It better be my Bae Zoe baby. I love that nigga.”
“Get your ass beat up in here.”
“He’s just a book bae. All the girls who read Urban Fiction have a male character that they love.” I had to calm his nutty ass down because he was dead ass serious. Since everybody knew about our relationship now, he had become even more possessive and jealous. Besides that everything was great. Being his wife was everything I imagined it to be. Yes. We’re married now. A couple of weeks after coming back home to Miami, we got married at the courthouse. It wasn’t my dream wedding, but I married the love of my life. That was enough for me. The best feeling in the world was having my little family together. It meant the world to me.
“I better be your only Bae.” Tech pulled me down on top of him and we started to kiss passionately. I could feel his dick harden beneath me. I slowly slid down his body and removed his dick from his boxers. I had to look at it before placing it into my mouth. His dick looked like a perfectly sculptured statue that was standing tall. The sight of his juices oozing out made my mouth water. I sucked his huge mushroom head so that I could taste him before taking him in whole.
I had Tech so far down my throat that his balls were touching my chin. I was a beast like that. Despite being with other men sexually, Tech taught me everything I knew about pleasing him. He came in my mouth and I spit all on the tip of his dick and went back in for the kill. I looked him in his eyes as he roughly grabbed my hair and began to fuck my face. I began to moan out in pleasure from the orgasm I was having strictly from giving him head. Tech had that type of effect on me.
“Get up here and ride this dick!” he demanded and I couldn’t help but giggle. As I straddled him, he smacked me hard as hell on both of my ass cheeks. I slowly slid up and down his dick. At the same time I sucked on his fingers.
“Damn Sky Baby. That’s right. Ride your dick just li
ke that.” Hearing him say that made me want to show out on his ass. I spun around and I started bouncing on his dick backwards. I was on the verge of cumming when someone started banging on our front door.
“Who the fuck is that?” Tech said as he tapped me on the ass so that I could raise up off of him. He grabbed his gun from the dresser and checked to make sure it was locked and loaded.
“Whoever the fuck it is better have a good ass reason for fucking up my flow. I was getting ready to cum all over that dick.” I sat up in bed with my arms folded as I pouted.
“Don’t worry. I’m going eat that pussy until I make that fat motherfucker squirt.” Tech kissed my lips, pulled his boxers up, and walked out the door. Damn I love that thug ass nigga. The banging continued and then I heard a female’s voice and loud ass arguing. The sound of a baby crying made me jump up and throw on some clothes. Trinity was at daycare so I knew that wasn’t her. I threw on Tech’s shirt not even thinking of putting on bottoms and rushed to the living room.
“You over here playing house with this bitch and her daughter like our son don’t even exist. You’re not about to keep putting me and him on the back burner.” I couldn’t believe this bitch was on my doorstep with her son. I hadn’t heard a peep out of her since coming back to Miami. I did however have a feeling that her and Tech had been dealing with each other. In my heart, I knew that they would have to eventually. After all, they did share a son.
“I told you that I was going to come over later and see him. You didn’t have to bring all this shit to my house. You know Sky ain’t with this shit.” I just shook my head. This nigga had just confirmed what I already knew. Looking at their interaction, I could tell they were still fucking. I watched as Tech picked up their son and started to soothe him. He immediately laid his head on Tech’s shoulder. I didn’t know why but I became so jealous. I didn’t like the way my heart felt. My husband was standing in the foyer of our home with another woman arguing over the time he spends with his child. It wasn’t like I didn’t know about her and the little boy. It still hurts. I felt like it should be only us and our daughter. I wanted Tech all to myself. I was very selfish when it came down to him. For years, he’d had me all to himself. I’d never had him to myself. I might have sounded childish, but I didn’t care.