by Mz. Lady P
My phone begin to ring as I searched in the closet. I looked at the screen and it was Skylar calling. I knew that I was wrong, but I sent her to voicemail. I did the same to Rock, Tina, Tech, Dominic, and Rashad. They were all calling to tell me that Jayceon had woke up. I hated to admit it, but after seeing him and Monique having sex, I didn’t care if I ever saw him again. Although I was the one who wanted a divorce, it still hurt for me to see him having sex with another woman.
I sat down on the edge of my bed and the realization set in that a part of me was still in love with Jayceon and the other part of me wanted nothing to do with him. All I wanted to do was move on with my life, but this man had a hold on my heart that was so tight. After deciding on a black and white skater dress to wear on my date, I checked on the kids and they were knocked out in their beds. Since they were sleeping, I decided to take a nap before dinner. As I laid down in bed I drifted off to sleep, I prayed that God would remove Jayceon from my mind and my heart. The sound of my phone ringing brought me out of my sleep. I looked at the number and I didn’t recognize it. I couldn’t ignore it because it could have been a potential client. I regretted answering it when Jayceon’s raspy voice came on the line.
“Bring my motherfucking kids to me now or I’m coming to get them.” His words sounded so venomous. I knew that he would at least attempt to do it. The last thing I wanted was Jayceon at my house, so I got the kids ready and prepared myself to deal with Jayceon. I made sure to pack them some clothes so that they could stay a couple of days. At this point, I couldn’t wait to go on my date with Juelz.
Chapter 7- Jayceon
From the moment I opened my eyes, all I could think about was my son. The last thing I remembered was shielding him from the bullets that were entering my car. I never got a good look at who it was that hit me up. The shit happened so fast. They robbed me for my money and jewelry, but I could get all of that shit back. I had my life and my son’s. That was the only thing that mattered. I hated for Bella to walk in and see me having sex with Monique. I woke up with a hard ass dick and Monique was there to handle it. I knew that Bella was hurt, but I also knew that I was not what she wanted so it is what it is. Right now I just needed to focus on getting back my strength and getting back to this motherfucking money. I’d been on my ass long enough.
My mother was so happy that I had woke up she decided to give a little party just for us. I felt like Bella was being disrespectful to my family by ignoring their calls, so I called her ass and she knew I was not playing with her about my kids. If I had to, I would roll over to her spot in a wheelchair and get my seeds. I understood that she was feeling some type away about seeing me in a compromising position, but my kids had nothing to do with it. We agreed not to put the kids in the middle of our drama.
After this shit that just happened to me, I wanted to do right by Bella. For some reason while I was in a coma, I was drawn to her voice and her touch. Each and every time I heard her and Monique arguing, I would be pissed because I couldn’t wake up and tell them to shut the fuck up. I wasn’t gon’ lie, it felt good. I thought people were lying when they said comatose patients could hear everything going on around them. I needed to sit and have a conversation with Bella. I owed her a sincere apology for everything.
“Are you okay, Bae?” Monique came in the room rubbing her small baby bump. I still couldn’t believe she was pregnant with my seed. She came over to the bed and kissed me on the lips.
“I’m good, Mo. In a little pain, but I’ll be okay once my kids get here.”
“Bella just came in the house with them.” I watched Monique as she smirked evilly. She got a kick out of Bella seeing us fucking. All I could do was shake my head at her childish ass.
“Don’t start no bullshit, Monique.” Before she could respond, my kids ran into the room.
“Daddy!” they both said as they tried to climb up in the bed with me. I looked up and Bella was standing outside of the door like she was scared to come into the room. Bella tried to walk away after we locked eyes, but I wasn’t bout to let her walk out without us talking.
“Bella! Come here I need to talk to you about some real shit.”
“Step out Mo. We need to talk in private.”
“She can stay, it’s obvious she means something to you and I mean nothing. How could you let this bitch wear my Harry Winston necklace you bought me? Give me my shit you ratchet ass bitch.” Bella reached over and snatched the necklace of off Monique’s neck. Monique hit Bella and they started to fight. I couldn’t believe this bitch went inside my home and touched some shit that didn’t belong to her. I distinctly told her not to touch any of Bella’s shit. I didn’t care if we were no longer, those were her things and she would come and get it when she was ready. I had just woke up from a coma and was in no position to break them up so they humbugged for a good minute before the family rushed in the room to see what was going on.
“I know damn well y’all ain’t in here fighting in front of my grandkids.” My momma was yanking the shit out of both of them. I was pissed because Jazzy and Baby Jay were screaming and hollering at the top of their lungs.
“This bitch started some shit with me. She’s been dying to fight me since she found out I was pregnant by Jayceon.”
“You started when you touched my shit. This is my necklace that my husband bought for me. Wait a God damn minute. I know damn well them ain’t my Red Bottoms and my custom made Birken bag you rocking.” Bella yanked away from my Momma and started whooping Monique’s ass again. Pops and Tech broke it up and was holding them a part.
“Oh, my God! My stomach hurt so bad. I think I need to go to the hospital.” Monique was crying and playing the pregnant role.
“Take Mo to the hospital for me, Rashad. Keep me updated. The rest of y’all step out so I can talk to my wife…I mean ex-wife.” My father was still holding Bella and she was fuming. I looked at Sky and I could tell she was pissed because Bella was upset.
“Bella, I love you but don’t you ever disrespect me or my home like this again. You are not some ratchet ass bitch in the streets. Don’t you ever let a bitch pull you out of character over no materialistic shit like clothes and jewelry. It’s obvious the bitch is a bum. Jayceon, you better get that bitch in check if she gon’ be in my house. I don’t like thieves. She think Bella just beat, stomped, and dragged her ass. That hoe will be wearing a toe tag fucking with my shit. As a matter of fact, let me go check some shit out. I’m happy you’re awake son, but you need to get better so you can take that kleptomaniac home. I refuse to sleep with one eye open where I pay the bills at. Come on granny babies. These people done lost their minds getting granny’s pressure up. Now Rocky got to bring it back down. Ain’t that right Rock Baby,” my mother said as she kissed my father on the lips.
“Got that shit right. Come on y’all.” My father let Bella go and followed my mother and the kids out of the room. Skylar was still standing there looking at me. I was glad Tech pushed her ass out of the room. My intentions were to explain to Bella that I would never give her shit to Monique or any other bitch for that matter. Instead of her allowing me to explain, she threw the necklace at me and hit me in the face with it. I swear if I wasn’t in so much pain, I would have jumped out of this bed and chased her ass down. I knew that she was in her feelings right now and she had every right to be. In the meantime, I had to deal with Mo. I needed to let her know that Bella was not to be fucked with period. She better not even act like she was on bullshit with her. I’d fuck Mo up about Bella. The only thing that was keeping me from going in on her ass was the fact that she was pregnant with my seed, but what this bitch needed to know was I would cancel her without so much as a thought.
Chapter 8- Bella
I swear I wanted to beat Monique’s ass some more. I gave less than a fuck about her being pregnant. Fuck her and that baby she carrying. I was so damn mad that I was literally shaking. This shit was beyond crazy right now. I couldn’t believe this bitch had the audacity to wear my f
ucking clothes like the shit was cool. Despite being mad at her, I was mad at myself for letting this off brand ass bitch take me out of character. My babies were there and I had no business fighting in front of them.
I had gone inside the bathroom and tried to calm down. I was so embarrassed that I allowed myself to get all worked up over some damn necklace that Jayceon’s ass probably stole during one of his many heists. It was the principle of it all though, it was mine. I remember when he came home from one of his many trips and gave it to me. I was in awe of all the diamonds and the way it glistened. After Jayceon put it on my neck, he stripped me out of all my clothes and fucked the shit out of me in his office. Just thinking of our love making sessions had me all horny, just thinking of his soft hands rubbing all over my body. Jayceon’s dick game was the truth. Not to mention, his tongue game. That nigga used to be sucking the soul out of my pussy. I had to fan myself just thinking about him eating my booty like groceries. I just wished things had turned out differently for us. I never thought falling in love with the love of your life would lead to so much pain.
Here I was once again crying over Jayceon. I was the one who divorced him, but I was in the damn bathroom crying my eyes out like I was still his woman. The sound of someone at the door made me wipe my face and flush the toilet as if I was using it. I opened the door and it was Jayceon leaning up against the doorframe as if he was about to pass out.
“What are you doing out of the bed?” I tried to walk out of the bathroom, but he blocked me. He slowly backed me back inside and closed the door behind him. I leaned up against the sink and looked down at my feet. The last thing I needed to do was look Jayceon in his eyes.
“Look at me.” I shook my head no and I continued to stare down at the floor. Jayceon lifted my chin and made me look him in the eyes. He pulled my face close and kissed me on the lips.
“Don’t do this, Jayceon.” He had pulled my legs apart and was standing in between them. I looked down and he was trying to pull his dick out of the jogging pants he had on. My mind was telling me to get out of there, but my legs wouldn’t move. I was shaking like a leaf. The last time I had sex, I was being raped, so this shit had my mind going into overdrive.
“I love you, Bella, and I know you still love me. I heard you telling me how much you love me when I was in that coma. Calm down. I’m not going to hurt you. Just let me feel you.” I looked down and Jayceon’s massive dick was hanging out and the veins were pulsating.
“I do love you, Jayceon, but loving you hurts too much. Please just let me be. I’m tired of crying over you.”
“I’m sorry for everything. I never meant to hurt you, Bella. I fucked up. I know it’s over between us. Just please let me feel you.” I just gave in and pulled my damn skirt up over my waist. I knew that I would regret this shit later. Jayceon and I started to kiss each other passionately. At the same time, he lifted me up on the sink and pushed my body back up against the vanity. He slowly entered me and I had to bite down on my bottom lip to keep from screaming out in pain. This shit felt like I was being broke out of my virginity. Jayceon’s dick was massive and I could feel him stretching the shit out my hole as he thrust in and out of me. I wrapped my legs around his waist and my arms around his neck. The shit was feeling so good I could feel us becoming one. His dick felt like home inside of me. After being violated by so many men and foreign ass dicks being forced inside of me, it felt good as hell to feel the familiarity of Jayceon.
“Fuckkkkkk!” Jayceon grunted as he continued to fuck me. He pulled his shirt over his head and I could see the numerous bullet wounds that were starting to heal. I couldn’t help but to kiss all of his chest.
“I fucking love you, Bella.”
“I love you, too, Jayceon. I’m about to cum.”
“Let that shit go. Cum all over this dick. I’m about to cum with you.” Jayceon and I stared into each other’s eyes as we both climaxed. I had to bite on his lip to keep from screaming out.
“Bend that ass over. I’m not finished with your ass. If this is our last time making love, I’m going to make sure I go all out.” Jayceon smacked both of my ass cheeks and started going clean in. I had to grip the sides of the sink to keep from losing my balance. As soon as I lifted my leg up and planted it on the tub, the door burst open.
“Okay now, Bella. Get that shit,” Ms. Tina said making a cat sound. I was so embarrassed because Jayceon was still inside of me and my ass was up in the air.
“Close the door, Ma!” Jayceon slammed the door in Ms. Tina’s face. We started back fucking like we didn’t just get caught with our pants down. Moments later, we both came again and that shit felt so good. My legs felt like noodles. I was glad Jayceon was holding me up because I knew I would have collapsed to the floor. As Jayceon held me, he placed soft kisses on my neck and back.
Once I got my balance back, I moved out of Jayceon's arms and I started to clean myself up. I grabbed another towel to gently wash him. He just leaned back on the wall with his eyes closed as I gently washed his dick and washed the remnants of me off of him. The bathroom was quiet as we both fixed our clothes. I guess neither one of us really knew what to say to one another. I was getting ready to walk out of the bathroom, but Jayceon grabbed me back by my waist and leaned me up against his body
“I just want you to know that you got my heart. I hate that I fucked up your life. It was never my intention to bring you into my world. The one thing I wanted to shield you from fucked up everything. I’m sorry for everything. I love you no matter what. I’ll apologize to you for the rest of my life if I have to. I know that I’m no longer what you want, but I just want you to know that when we were together, no matter my indiscretions or my lies, the love I confessed for you was real. That shit was from my heart. I don’t want you to ever think that Mo or any other bitch got the key to my heart. That shit is all you so whenever you ready to come back and open it up, I’ll be here waiting for you. Stay sweet, Bella.” Jayceon kissed me one last time on my lips and walked out of the bathroom.
Once again, I was standing in the bathroom all in my feelings. Only this time I wasn’t crying. I was confused at the words Jayceon had spoken to me. At that moment, I was looking at the Jayceon that I fell in love with. However, I knew that at any moment, Blockka would show up. It was crazy that I hated when Jayceon acted like his alter ego, but I loved his hood persona. Call me crazy, but I would have much rather been introduced to Blockka. I would have known what to expect. This shit was so fucked up. I see why drug addicts relapsed. This nigga had me in here wanting to say fuck that divorce and let’s go home. However, I knew that I couldn’t do that off of just a fuck.
Regardless of everything that Jayceon has just said, he was still with Monique and they were about to have a baby. What we had was over and I was good with that. Lord knows I love Jayceon, but I would never go from being his wife to his side bitch. I was not even cut from that type of cloth. After all I’d been through with this man, I wouldn’t even allow myself to stoop to some shit like that. Him and Monique could ride off into the sunset. All I wanted him to do was do the right thing by the kids. I already knew that he would do that so that was not even a concern. It was going to take more than some good ass dick to make me run back into the arms of Jayceon. Don’t get this shit twisted, I love Jayceon and I wanted nothing more than for us to get back to the place we were in the beginning of our relationship, but it was better for us to stay apart. In the meantime, let me get ready for my date with Juelz. Yes, I was still going on my date.
When I walked out of the room, I tried to rush past everybody in the kitchen but they all started clapping and whistling.
“Ms. Tina, you talk too much.”
“I didn’t say shit. We heard y’all asses.” I laughed as I rushed out of the door. I knew Skylar was about to talk about my ass and I didn’t want to hear it. When I got in my car, I looked up at the house and Jayceon was staring at me out of the window. I drove away with him on my mind heavily.
Chapter
9- Jayceon
I guess you never really miss a person until they weren’t in your life anymore. It was hard for me to just walk away from Bella, but I knew that it was for the best. Too much shit had happened for us to just get back together like that. At this point, I was not even sure if that would ever happen. Bella was different these days. She was not the same fragile, gentle, quiet Bella. All the shit she had been through had brought out the beast in her. She looked fucking amazing. She had me wanting to just hop in my car and go snatch her up and take her home, but I knew that I couldn’t do that. I had to respect her wishes. I knew that I shouldn’t be smoking, but I needed some Kush in my life right about now. I have too much shit going on right now. I needed an escape from reality if only for a minute.
“What’s Big Bro?” Skylar said as she walked in the room and sat down on the bed next to me.
“Shit. Just thinking.”
“Thinking about Bella, huh? It’s okay to admit when you fucked up. I know that you love Bella and she loves you. Being apart will make y’all bond even stronger. Don’t beat yourself up more than you already have. I love you, Jayceon, and I know that you’re truly sorry for everything.”
“Thanks, Sis. I appreciate that. I take it you’re not mad at me anymore.”
“I’m not mad anymore. When we got that call that you had been hurt, I couldn’t breathe. I’m so happy that you’re woke. I beat myself up because we weren’t talking when all of this happened. I’ll never be so mad at you again and never talk to you.” Skylar grabbed the blunt from my mouth and exhaled deeply. I knew she had other shit on her mind besides me and Bella.