by Carter Blake
I’m also usually not here on fucking Saturday either, and the crowd is decidedly more touristy than usual, with small bands of Midwesterners and German tour groups nervously looking at brochures for the Liberty Island ferries.
Most of the tables are still empty, which is the way I like it. It’s been a long fucking week since getting back, especially living a forty-minute ride up the 1 train line, in the same place, the same bedroom where Audra was sending my possessions out the window not too long ago.
It’s been hard to sleep right there. I’m glad I won’t be living through any more of those days anytime soon and that Audra stopped texting and calling again.
Imagine if I ever actually ended up signing that marriage license. Christ.
Between one and two, that was our decided meeting time. It’s just past one now, and I don’t know what train Maddie’s on. If she did take the Acela, it probably shouldn’t get held up too much.
I know better than to try to give her advice on the fastest way to get downtown from Penn. She’ll decide she wants to walk for all I fucking know.
I’m usually not the person waiting, which is one reason that this doesn’t seem like a date, and I’m considering actually checking my phone—another first.
I do check to see if there are any calls or texts, and there aren’t. I knew that already since the volume’s jacked all the way up. Plus, any call or text from Maddie would come with its own ringtone: “Sleepwalk” by Santo and Johnny.
The iconic, excessively Hawaiian-sounding slide guitar melody will sure sound nice ringing out in the middle of this cafe, but the sight of Maddie walking in from the crowded sidewalk would be even better.
I don’t know why it’s starting to feel like a foolish fantasy that either of those things could happen, seeing as how it’s still barely past one, but I’m still compelled to open my phone’s browser and got to amtrak.com to look at the Acela schedule and the regular Northeast Corridor schedule. There are trains getting in pretty much hourly, but it means pretty much nothing.
There are more fucking crowds forming. Big, naive families with pungent, foil-wrapped sandwiches and bottles of water filling up more tables than I would ever see taken on a weekday morning, ferry ticket sellers taking a break with big energy drink cans, couples on vacation together, possibly their honeymoon…
This shit is getting me out of sorts. By the time one-thirty rolls around, which feels like some definitive halfway point, I have too much of this dumb, nervous energy to keep sitting. I get up for a coffee refill, which may not be the best idea in light of the line forming to get into the single restroom.
Gladly channeling some energy by standing up and moving, I take the longest I may have ever taken to let the coffee fill my cup gradually from the dispenser, to choose a sweetener, to pick up the skim milk carton, look at it, to decide to go with half and half, no, whole milk, to stir it like I’m in the kitchen at fucking Del Posto or something, trying to painstakingly mingle a ragù to life without rushing it—all taking what probably amounts to not more than five or ten more minutes before I have no choice but to go back to my seat while it’s still open.
One forty-five. I’m not used to worrying about the time, or much else for that matter. I’m back at my little table, trying to act relaxed and casual.
Not that I give a shit what anyone here thinks. That’s mostly so I’m not an overbearingly anxious wreck when Maddie arrives.
If she arrives? Not a thought worth fucking tormenting myself over right now.
By two, the weirdly maddening lunch crowd starts thinning out. It’s also two, though. Time to send a quick text.
Just one.
Hey, which train are you on? I can send a car to pick you up.
I regret hitting send almost immediately. If I’m worried about being overbearing, that may not be a good place to start.
Then again, it’s not crazy to ask for some kind of update.
Two-fifteen. I’m well into my next cup of coffee. My text was delivered but not answered.
Maybe she’s on the subway. She must be.
I watch the crowds outside. It’s going to be weird to see Maddie here, in the concrete wilderness, thousands of miles from the idyllic paradise I associate with her. It’ll surely be weird for her to see me here as well.
I watch the waves of tourists ebb and flow outside. I wish she didn’t have to fight these fucking crowds.
Two-thirty. It’s like I’m on Who Wants to Be a Millionaire, and I only have one lifeline left: a fucking phone call.
I unplug my phone from the wall, look at my stupid text to Maddie one more time, and emphatically hit the button to dial her number.
Her phone rings, meaning she’s not in the subway. It rings some more.
And then I hear Maddie’s voice, not saying hello, but asking me to kindly leave a message.
Fucking voicemail. I hang up. This is not as flamboyant a message as throwing lamps and shit out my window, but to me, the message is just as clear: time to give up.
I unplug the charger from the wall and start getting ready to finally leave, when I hear the dulcet slide guitar tones of Santo and Johnny ring divinely through my phone’s speaker.
The charger just drops from my hand to the floor, and I see a new text message on my phone screen with the name Madeline displayed above it boldly.
Ethan
So after all that, I probably shouldn’t fucking leave you hanging.
It’s five years later, and I’m suddenly looking at Madeline, facing her at the end of the hallway.
But you might be wondering what the hell that text message actually said, and if we ever got back together.
The answer to the second question is no, we didn’t. In fact, this is the first I’m seeing her since that day in Hawaii, at the bar on the beach.
The answer to the first question is that, from what I can remember, she said that she had a great time, then she doubled down a bit and used the word amazing to describe it, but she said as fun as it was, she didn’t want to continue, to expand past a vacation fling.
She ended the message with the word Aloha.
God, she looks fucking amazing right now. Even better than all my memories—and my dreams.
Okay, I’ll admit that I remember the whole fucking message really fucking well, even though I made the decision to delete it immediately for the sake of moving on as quickly as possible.
Did it work? What the hell do you think? Seriously, because over the course of the past half-decade, I’ve gone in and out of thinking about it and seeming to not think about it.
But when I do think about it, it’s still more intense than I’d like. And right now, with Madeline occupying a prime space in my vision, center-fucking stage, I don’t have a choice but to really think about it—and then some.
So after Maddie informs me of the investigation, what do I say?
“Am I being arrested?”
I know damn well I’m not. I think it’s a joke, even though I usually have a good handle on whether I’m joking or not. You know, like most healthy people.
“No,” she answers, dead serious. And now she’s walking toward me. Good God.
“That’s not even close to being in my purview,” Maddie’s voice continues, getting closer as her heels clack down the hallway. “But I suspect you know that.”
Maddie stops ten feet away from me, her face betraying that she realizes my joke. I guess it was a joke.
I feel myself catching on fucking fire as Maddie starts walking toward me again. My mouth is going fucking arid, and my heart is lifting off in tempo in a way it hasn’t in years. Five years, to be exact.
I almost want to ask her to stop, that I wasn’t prepared for this, but I don’t fucking dare.
This hallway doesn’t get too much natural light, but what little there is catches the full brilliance of that emerald hue that I’ve forced myself to forget about.
“I figured as much,” I reply hoarsely.
Every single pe
rson in the office besides me has taken it upon themselves to hide. I’m sure some people made a beeline for the elevator, but most everyone else is certainly huddled on the other side of their closed office doors, listening to every word of this exchange, trying to analyze every nuance in real time.
I wonder what they thought of that last sentence and how I said it. That’s pretty fucking funny to think about, but what I’m enjoying thinking about even more right now is how Maddie made everyone run in fear with just her presence and a few simple words.
That is really fucking sexy.
God, she looks good.
“I have a good deal more to explain about it, but to give you a couple important nuggets to start with, I’ve been chosen to head the investigation, and while I’m loath to take up much of your time, I’m going to need your help.”
There’s a reason that Maddie needed to call me Mr. Barrett. There’s no way she would be heading this investigation if anybody at the SEC knew about our history, brief as it was.
I suppose she didn’t feel it was even worth bringing up—that she feels so little about it that it wouldn’t be a conflict at all.
There’s a lot more I’m thinking about, though. Like how five years can go by so fucking fast. Or how feelings that seem like they should’ve faded completely are now arising again in dizzyingly vivid and sharp definition.
I look at Maddie, who’s now silent yet stoic, looking for any signs of what she’s going through. I see none—it could be everything, it could very easily be nothing.
I can’t believe she’s here, though. Literally.
I’ve heard that one way you can tell if you’re dreaming or not is to look at your hand. If you see the normal number of fingers, at their usual lengths, then you are in the waking world. I take a furtive glance at my outstretched left hand—it looks on the level.
Which means she’s really fucking here, and she really looks this good.
“Are you okay, Mr. Barrett?” Madeline’s eyes dart quickly down to my left hand, indicating that she noticed my look.
“Oh yeah, I was just checking something. So is this gonna take long?” I’m trying not to give any outward indications about our past, or at least how I feel about it.
“Long?” There’s a sparkle in Maddie’s eye. It sends a flicker of heat straight through my chest, and I need to concentrate on not falling backward—as if I’m being pummeled by a swift wind.
“I have a few minutes now. If you need longer, like a half hour, I may have some open time for an appoint—”
Maddie lets out a judicious laugh, but it’s still enough that the old sensation of being entranced by a riveting siren song comes flooding back.
“I apologize for laughing, Mr. Barrett.”
“You can call me Ethan.”
“Okay, Eth...an. This is not a matter we can settle over lunch. We’re just at the very beginning stages of this investigation. We are going to need your cooperation over the course of the next few weeks, maybe longer. You are going to have to work with me during that time.”
“Wow. That’s going to be a big time commitment on my part. I guess I better start rearranging my schedule.”
I get the beginnings of that helium-balloon feeling, like when Maddie first suggested she could visit New York all those years ago. Except this time, it’s weighted down by the fact this is all part of an insider fucking trading investigation.
“I suggest you start now, Mr. Barrett. You don’t have a choice in the matter.”
Maddie’s austere expression betrays the faintest hint of a smirk.
Inside Job
An Undercover Billionaire Romance
By Aiden Forbes
Copyright 2018 by Third Base Press
All rights reserved
This is a work of fiction. All names, characters, places and incidents either are products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events or persons is entirely coincidental. This work intended for adults only.
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Katy
It’s a small apartment―shaped like a box, in fact―but it has two windows and a closet, and I don’t really need that much space anyway.
I can see the entire place no matter where I am in the room. Sometimes I sit on the toilet, put my feet up on the bath tub, and watch television. I mean, I don’t do it a lot, but I have done it.
My computer is balanced on a narrow, blue folding table that I picked up from Goodwill when I first left the group home. It was my first piece of furniture. My computer and that small blue table are the two only things I might not actually be able to live without.
My coffee finishes brewing, and that last exhale of steam knocks me out of my revelry. My eyes turn away from my tiny room to focus on the screen.
“Where the fuck is everyone?” I say out loud.
Two short steps, and I’m back at the desk, sitting at the wooden stool.
I fold up my body, my shoulders slouching towards the screen, and I rest my coffee—black, always strong and black—on my knees. I check the desktop clock, making sure I’m on time.
I boot the DDoS window.
Hello, I type. Anyone there?
No reply.
Assholes? Bueller? I type.
Nothing.
“Fuckers,” I mutter.
I take a sip of the coffee. The jolt of caffeine works like magic―it immediately calms me down and makes me less anxious.
I open the bank’s website again, going over the plan in my head.
“This will work,” I say out loud. “We’re ready for this.”
The chime of the DDoS chatroom sounds. I switch windows.
Hey, the message appears.
It’s from AnansiBoy, one of the other planners of this hacking mission. The two of us have worked together for years, but I can’t really tell you anything about them.
I don’t know where AnansiBoy is from, and I don’t know where the rest of the people I work with is from, either. And, more importantly, they don’t know me.
We all disguise our IP addresses and bounce our connections out of various countries in Eastern Europe. We should be impossible to find—or, more accurately, nearly impossible to find.
There’s a whole crew of us who work together to take down banks, bloated conglomerates, hedge funds, and corrupt tycoons. We take their money and channel it to employees’ bank accounts or NGOs. Kind of like a modern Robin Hood mafia.
We don’t tell each other much about ourselves, though. Take AnansiBoy for example, who is the closest I have to a friend in this world.
The only thing I know about them is that they smoke and that―I assume―they like reading African folktales. Anansi is the trickster Spider-god, after all.
Wait. Now that I’m thinking about it, I know this other thing about AnansiBoy: they’re not to be fucked with.
I’m serious. If you look at this goddamn hacker sideways, they’ll take to their computer and destroy you. They’ll erase your identity, steal every cent you have, tarnish your reputation beyond repair, and then hire someone to kick your dog.
All while whistling, if I may add.
But they’d also do all that if someone even looked at me cross-eyed. It’s like having my own personal army.
Hey, I type. What’s happening? Why is everyone late?
It’s hard not to feel occasionally paranoid and nervous in this line of work. There’s no way of knowing if anything wrong has happened to the person on the other side of the screen.
Before AnansiBoy can respond, however, the virtual room fills with people.
*shrug*, comes the reply. Everyone here now?
Looks like it, I type.
Good…let’s get these fuckers.
In my small, shitty Brooklyn apartment, I holler, whoop, and then switch screens. The rest of New York goes about their business, oblivious to
the fact that there’s a small cadre of hackers attacking the Bank of the United States at this very moment.
I count down to the moment before we get in.
Three. We take down their firewalls. Two. We pick at each defense they put up to try and keep us out. One…
“Fuck yes! I’m in,” I exclaim.
I switch back to the DDoS window to tell the others. We decide to go replenish the bank accounts of people who were wiped clean by the housing crash. They won’t be filthy rich after, but a few million people will have enough for a small nest and then pay for a few years of Obamacare or whatever.
And then when that’s over, we begin transferring funds to the low-level employees the bank laid-off during the last merger. The bank had it coming. You don’t just kick out a bunch of people who have been working years to keep your goddamn building going.
Told you it’s a Robin Hood thing.
I check the clock on my laptop. The BofU’s computer security team―most of whom are sell-out ex-hackers―should be realize we’re in the system by now.
We have to move, AnansiBoy types.
I don’t reply. Instead, I attack faster and harder, moving funds into one stranger’s account after another.
Ok, time’s up, FateisFurious, AnansiBoy types. Finish them.
That’s me. That’s my screen name.
Know what else is furious? My fingers, flying across the keyboard, as I begin to shut down their site.
My last task tonight is to corrupt their databases and erase all traces of our presence―the equivalent of dousing their systems with kerosene. In a few more keystrokes, I will have lit the proverbial match that will take down their entire system.
I’m buzzing. Adrenaline is shooting through my system. I’m grinning ear to ear.
And then I hesitate.
A list of places flash in my mind suddenly—the soup kitchens, children’s homes, and shelters that fed me and took me in when I was small.
Shit. How could I not have thought of that earlier?