Thief of Hearts: A Rogue Billionaire Fake Fiance Romance
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It would probably work on Prof. And Charlie, shit, he’d run scared!
Wouldn’t work on Ali, though. She’d stare him down with icy calm, just like she does me.
Maybe there are grades of crazy. Me and Ali, we’re at the top. More human than human.
Calmly, I hold out a hand.
“Jaxon Covington. You have one minute to get the fuck out.”
“I don’t give a fuck who ya are! I’m tellin’ you to watch out for me!”
“Why exactly did you come here, Mozzie? What’s the thinking, of asking to be taken to the big boss? Just so you can quiver like a piece of shit and disgust me?”
He stares at me. His eyes really are jiggling around.
Maybe he’s coming down or something. We’ll have to get Old Dog to shoot him up so he’ll calm down and we can have a decent conversation. Or bang him up with a briefcase.
Mozzie’s mouth works. He even spits a bit.
“You are a disgusting creature, Mozzie. Get the fuck out.”
“You gonna make me, Jack old boy, huh? You gonna make me?”
I don’t move.
The only movement in the cell is the smoke pouring from my cigarette.
I feel cold down the spine, my muscles going tight and hard as I stare Mozzie down, a deep, dark smile creeping across my face.
His crazed eyes bore into mine, but he has no fucking idea what crazy even looks like.
Lummox, Old Dog, Benny, and the two nearest guards throw themselves on Mozzie and start beating the fuck out of him.
I feel a crackle of power through my body, and I start laughing as I watch them punch the shit out of little Mozzie.
Alison
As I step into my boss’s office, he closes the door behind me. I walk around and sit in the chair across from his desk and wait for him.
I have no doubt I’ve been called in on behalf of Jaxon. I’m sure he’s looking for some kind of update on my progress for the case.
With coffee in hand, I look across the desk at my boss. He’s got a stern, serious look on his face—the kind that can make you uneasy if you’ve got something you’re hiding.
“It’s good to see you this morning, Alison,” he says. “How’s the Covington file looking?”
“It’s coming along, sir.” I sit back and take a sip of my coffee.
Fuck. They gave me hazelnut. I hate hazelnut.
“Is it now?” he prods. “I don’t suppose you’ve heard yet.”
“Heard what, sir?” I counter him, taking another sip of my unfortunate cup of coffee.
“There was an incident involving Covington. We had to send a man in his cell to the ICU. He’d been nearly beaten to death.”
“Oh my god,” I blurt, coughing coffee onto myself. “No, no, sir. I had no idea.”
My stomach is suddenly woven into a gigantic knot inside me. I don’t know what triggered such a violent outburst, but I realize I’m not so surprised it happened.
He takes a tissue from his desk and hands it to me. I pat my clothes as he explains the details of what happened to me.
“He didn’t do the heavy hitting. He had a couple of other inmates in his cell, and they beat the ever-loving shit out of this guy. We’ve already questioned the guards, and they knew nothing of how or why. But it seems Covington’s making it known that he’s powerful and influential, and others are either on his side, seeking protection, or against him, wanting to take him off his fictitious throne.”
I’m just in utter disbelief, even though it’s all so believable.
Jaxon is unstable. Every effort I’ve made with him has been futile. He’s still as manipulative and unapologetic as he was on day one.
He’ll always be like this. My heart pounds in my chest as I try to take in another sip of coffee. The hazelnut-flavored bean water is serving more as a crutch than an enjoyment.
“Alison?” my boss calls out.
“Yes, sir?” I return quickly as I swallow the sip.
“I don’t question your efforts on Jaxon Covington. I’ll make that known. You’ve been dedicating a lot of time to his case, and I just wanted to be sure you’re aware of the latest development.”
“I see, sir. Well, thank you,” I respond coldly. “If you’ll excuse me, I do need to get this into my case file on Covington.”
“Of course, Ms. Hughes. You’re excused.”
I step out of the room, and tears immediately well up in my eyes.
What the fuck am I even doing?
This entire case rides on me, and the news I’ve just received tells me that any progress I’ve made with Jaxon isn’t sticking.
He’s regressed. He’s angry. He’s pent up.
And it’s all my fault.
If I’d spent more time actually being his fucking doctor than his little fangirl, I’d be able to actually fix him. I’m the worst person to help him, because I don’t even know if I can help him anymore.
He trusts me. And I trust him. But outside of that room, when it’s just the two of us, how am I supposed to control what’s going on?
This outburst is certainly going to come up in his trial. And I’m going to have to come up with some kind of explanation of what’s happened.
I can’t just say, “Oh, he’s fit to stand trial,” and then look like an idiot when this gets light shed on it.
My shoes clack along the linoleum floor as I walk through the halls, my head turning to peer into my co-worker’s days for just a moment, catching a glimpse of anyone’s experience here other than my own.
I don’t want to think about the Covington file anymore. I’m so thrown and so discouraged and just…heartbroken that I want no part of any of it.
As I turn the corner, just a couple doorways down from my own office, the image of Jaxon orchestrating a prison attack drifts back into my mind. And once it’s there, it hits me hard.
I know I have work to do here. And there’s still time to do it. But how?
I finally approach my desk. As I plop down into my chair, I log in to my computer and start noting his file.
Violent outburst inside prison cell.
Orchestrated; did not actually make physical contact with victim.
More details will be added upon session with Covington.
I pull my hands away from the keyboard and let out a sigh. I roll myself to the side of the monitor and stare out at the rest of the building, watching everyone do their objective, unbiased work while I sit here, squirming over Jaxon.
I realize I can’t deal with it at all.
I’m assigned to such a complicated case. It’s my first case. I have a two-week deadline. I think I’m in love with my fucking patient.
I’m a goddamn mess.
I’m quick to stand back up, grab my purse and my coat, and just leave.
I don’t know what I’m doing or what’s supposed to come of it, but I need a fucking break. I push through the door, walk down the pathway, and get in my car.
With tears in my eyes and a thumping in my chest, I start my car and pull out the parking lot, just getting away from all this bullshit for the day.
Fuck my entire career today. I’m going home and cooling the fuck off, because I know without a damn doubt that I’m not myself right now.
Maybe I’ll have myself figured out when I take myself away from the situation.
Jaxon
I’m beaming as we walk through the halls. Bear escorts me up to Alison’s office and leaves me there.
I’m so excited, I can’t sit still. I wander around, touching her stuff and looking at her books.
I wonder when she first read The Art of Psychology. When did she decide she wanted to get into people’s heads? She certainly got into mine.
I make myself a coffee and sit in her chair. I look over the papers and computer, but I don’t pry.
I’m not that kind of guy.
Sitting in her chair is giving me a kick, though.
I grin as I sip my coffee, wondering who might’ve sat in the cush
y armchair across the desk since we fucked in it. I put my weight back in Alison’s chair.
It’s a wheelie, swivel chair, big and comfortable. The leather squeaks as I put my weight back in it.
I wonder if we can fuck in this one. We might tumble out of it, or break the chair. Either way, it’ll be fun.
I think about her clothes and what she might be wearing today. She seems to favor tight, close-fitting business skirts that come to the knee, and smart blouses that button up the front. She likes little jackets that pull tight at the waist, showing off her shape and yet hiding the true size of her breasts.
She likes those shiny black heels.
Sometimes with stockings, sometimes without.
Always with wild, tousled hair.
I breathe deep for a moment, imagining Ali under my nose, in my arms. The sweet, thick smell of a woman.
Ali is so delicate, so perfect, and I know I’ve never felt like this before.
I see her coming in the door in my mind, wearing the little suit, smiling at me, closing and locking the door.
She starts taking off the shoes and jacket, then she reaches the desk.
She unbuttons the blouse and makes a wise crack about me sitting in her chair, as if she’s the patient.
In my fantasy, I watch her boldly take off the blouse and bra. She walks toward me with her breasts swaying, sitting on my lap, kissing my lips.
I realize I’ve been in this chair for some time. I sip my coffee, and its getting cold.
Shouldn’t she be here by now?
I don’t actually know what time the appointment is. Not that I have a watch. I enjoy the timelessness of prison, but at times like this, knowing the time could be handy.
I drum the fingers of my left hand against the desk, finishing my coffee.
I need to see her. I’m trying to stay calm. My whole life has been on hold since we fucked.
I need her. I now see how the great design of my life was intended to bring me to this moment.
To meet Ali.
I considered getting busted and thrown in jail a large inconvenience. It’s not something I couldn’t handle; a learning experience, definitely, but an inconvenience.
Once I got in here, I realized the experience might have its own merits.
Then Ali. Everything in my life has led to Ali.
I picture her again, under me, her sweet smell clinging to my face. I want to spread her out on the floor, see that wild red hair fanned out as she writhes. I want get those gorgeous legs open.
I wonder if I could tease her so much that she would take me and tackle me like a wild animal.
My cock’s standing up nice and hard now. She’s so real I can almost smell her…taste her, too.
Where is she?
I try to be good. I try to restrain my thoughts, just like Ali would want me to.
I think about all the dresses I’ll buy for her when I get out of here—magnificent gowns, perfectly tailored, so she can sweep around like a princess.
I still don’t know all her favorite food. I can’t wait to take her out to eat.
To the opera, or to Italy. Anywhere. Just me and Ali.
I get up from her desk and start to pace. The sun has changed its angle through the one shitty little window, and I know it’s definitely late now.
Why would she be late?
Did something happen? A car accident? A personal emergency?
That’s what I should think about. I know she wants me, and it had to be something severe that’s kept her from me.
Despite this, I can’t help the doubt that begins to cloud my mind. It’s like dark ink spreading into my thoughts, and I can’t stop it.
I pushed her too hard, too soon. I shouldn’t have fucked her. I shouldn’t have got rough with her.
My own stupid demanding nature and impatience fucked this up for me. She’s terrified; she’s out there somewhere, huddling and scared because she doesn’t want to come near the big scary monster man.
Maybe she’s disappeared. Maybe she just left town.
Maybe Prof found out and took her off the case. My fists clench and my eyes narrow at the very idea. He better not interfere.
Still, I think she would’ve told me, or come to visit me. Surely, if something like that had happened, she would’ve found a way to contact me.
I stand very still and quiet in the darkening office. I have so many thoughts pounding through my head, but only one is gaining ground. It’s like a dark cancer blooming in my heart.
Ali is staying away.
Ali doesn’t want to see me.
I lose it for a few seconds, staggering, laughing, and clenching my fists, looking for something to hit. I hear my own voice, maniacal, laughing, half-crying.
The pain in my chest is eating me alive. It’s spreading like clouds in a storm on a summer day.
It’s spreading into my throat—where I feel tight and hard, like words won’t come out—into my arms, into my legs. It’s a black well of despair, and it’s taking over me.
“Ali…Ali,” I whisper it like a prayer.
Where is she? She knows I need her.
Why would she torture me this way? I don’t understand.
There’s a knock at the door, and Bear pushes the door open.
“Mr. Covington, sir. I need to take you back downstairs now.”
I cross my arms and plant my feet.
“Where’s Ali?”
“Dr. Hughes? She didn’t come in today.”
“She missed our appointment?”
“No, I mean, she didn’t come in at all. The whole day.”
“So she’s sick, then?”
“I don’t know…They did mention she wasn’t at the courthouse either. Maybe. Maybe she took a personal day off. It’s not really my department.”
“Well, you could find out!” I roar at him.
He flinches and steps back, letting go of the door. I pull a hand over my face, hearing my high-pitched laughter and trying to get myself under control.
I can’t. Panic’s singing through my veins.
I did this. I fucked her. I scared her away.
I hurt my princess, and now she’s running from the monster. She doesn’t want to fix me. She doesn’t care.
She’s bolting out of here under the cause of self-preservation.
“Do you need a minute, Mr. Covington?”
“I…”
I honestly don’t know. I want to get out of here.
I want to pound the pavement in my orange jumpsuit and worn, old canvas shoes until I find her. I want to walk the streets and howl at the sky like a lonely wolf.
“Pull yourself together, man.” My voice cracks as I say it. This is no good.
“Did you say something, sir?” Bear asks quietly.
“Yes,” I answer him, not really paying attention. I clench my fists, feeling all my rage and confusion come together inside me like violence is a solid thing that can be felt.
This is what always happens when I get upset. It’s so sharp and dark inside me; I must let it bleed out.
There’s no choice. This is how I was made, and I stopped fighting it a long time ago.
“Bear, you’re right. I think I should go back downstairs.”
I start to step toward the door.
Bear’s still wearing the bruises from our last tackle, so he backs up pretty quickly as I approach.
“You okay, Mr. Covington?”
“No, I’m not okay, Bear, you fucking idiot,” I snarl at him. We walk down the hall together, Bear giving me a bit of room.
“Do you…do you need something?” He doesn’t even want to ask. It’s hard to get good help these days.
“I want you to contact my guys for me. You know the number—they’ve already been helping you out, yes?”
“Yes, sir.”
“Right, then tell them I’ll be waiting for the call. It’s of the utmost importance they contact me. Immediately.”
“Yes, sir. I can do that.”
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We walk along in silence. I’m going to talk to Benny too, and give him the same instructions. I’m going to get everyone I have on this.
I must see her. I have to see Alison.
I have that feeling—that cold darkness inside.
If I don’t find her, speak to her…people will get hurt.
Alison
I’m staring a beady-eyed, fluffy teddy bear in the face. His nose is black, and he has a cute little stitched smile stretched across his face.
Surrounding him are candles in all different scents—lavender, Georgia peach, limoncello, cinnamon apple, and clean linen, just to name a few. But there’s more than I can even begin to process.
Also strewn around the table are countless individually wrapped chocolates and a big vase with two dozen roses.
“Who could this be from?” I ask myself sarcastically.
I set down my shopping bags right there at the door and walk over to my gift-covered, California king-sized bed. I graze my fingers along the bear’s soft fur and smirk.
In the bear’s comically sized arms, camouflaged by the overall display of lavish gifts, lies a large heart-shaped envelope. I take it and examine it closely.
I tear the top flap of the envelope from the adhesive and pull out a giant card. The front says I’m sorry.
I open the card, and reading the inside sends a flood of butterflies fluttering through my stomach.
You were right.
I’m more than aware of how creeped out I should be right now.
I should be worried. I should tell someone about this. Anyone.
This isn’t safe.
How did Jaxon get this here?
How did he find out where I live?
How did he know I love candles?
I haven’t divulged any of this during our meetings. Not even one hint. Have I?
But now I have this bear and candles and chocolate and flowers in front of me, all as a gesture of how much he appreciates me and all that I’ve done for him.
Maybe he’s coming around after all.
He made a mistake. He knows that.
And he’s remorseful. At least enough to apologize to me. And that’s a hell of a start, if you ask me.
He must really care about me. It must’ve been an incredible amount of effort to get this bear in here.