by Phil Rickman
And the word had gone out.
‘Amen,’ Merrily said, and the people in the tower repeated it; not much echo, as if the voices had been sucked out like smoke.
Merrily prayed for help. Praying for a foothold on this. Where should it be directed? What needed to be brought to peace? Ideally there should be a Requiem for Jemmie Pegler, but without the cooperation of her family this was not an option. Anyway, no time.
Robbie?
Robbie was not, somehow, quite part of this. And Robbie had fallen from the Keep. He still, in some way, stood for an innocence.
It left Marion.
Marion who had made a mistake and accepted the consequences. Marion who so many people — Robbie and Bell and Jemmie Pegler — had moulded to match their own requirements.
Poor Marion.
‘Erm… Thank you. I’d like everybody to leave now.’
Sandy Gee’s eyes flashed urgently in the light of the hurricane lamp.
‘I’d like to work with Sam.’
Sandy’s stare told her that she’d better know what she was doing.
She didn’t.
When they’d all left, Steve leaving behind, at her request, his hurricane lamp, she said, ‘OK if I come up there with you, Sam?’
Lol stood up. He could see, lit up like a distant doll’s house, the complex chessboard façade of the Feathers, the main street a chain of lights, the whole town like a jeweller’s counter.
He’d have to deal with his own fear, make a rush at her. It was unlikely he’d get close enough even to reach for her before she let the inflammable dress brush the candlelight. But what else could he do?
What else?
‘Bell…’
‘Yes.’
‘Do you really think Marion flies?’
‘If you’re going to throw your girlfriend’s dogma at me—’
‘No… No, it’s not, but… we’ve all heard endless accounts of what a ghost looks like, what a ghost sounds like, what a ghost does, but we don’t — and nor does anyone — know what a ghost feels.’
‘And what do you think they feel?’
‘I doubt they feel anything, they just exist. Transient, two-dimensional, in flickering shades of grey… Just existing, in little cold pockets of nothing.’
‘Beautiful.’
‘It’s not immortality.’
‘Existence without pain.’
‘But without any prospect of happiness.’
‘I sometimes think our highest aspiration is the avoidance of pain.’
‘That’s deeply sad,’ Lol said, ‘coming from an artist.’
And, saying that, he realized that being an artist was the explanation of most of it. It was not spiritual, not about transcendence… only a projection of a grand design, developed over many years from a single lurid image in a picture book. She’d found a place on which to impose her vision of a multidimensional heaven. An old-fashioned concept album in a beautiful gatefold sleeve.
Not madness, but it was a fine distinction.
Something else occurred to him then, something far more prosaic. If it was the dead baby’s birthday, it was also Jon Scole’s. No wonder the poor sod had got drunk.
‘Bell… how did Jonathan die?’
He was thinking of Merrily’s vague suspicion about the blood. How there had not been enough of it.
‘You’re a creator,’ he said. ‘You’re not a killer. You couldn’t kill. Could you?’
Because it was clear she didn’t see her own death as an act of self-destruction; it was a great display, a rush of ferocious light that would launch her spirit into an intimate form of eternity.
She’d gone still, with her head on one side, like a Halloween mannequin someone had wedged between the battlements as a joke.
Lol said, ‘Did he kill himself? Did he take an overdose or something? Did he prise open the mandolin case, on his birthday, and see where all your maternal love had been going?’
She tilted suddenly, and he thought she was going over, unlit, and he ran at the wall.
‘No!’ Throwing her hands out, then slapping them back down when the case began to slip, tugging it into her lap.
He stopped.
‘He… must have gone on drinking, taken his clothes off and gone to bed, and then… I don’t know… Maybe he got up to make a phone call…’
‘How do you know that?’
‘Because there was a message on my machine this morning. It was full of bile. So drunk he could hardly speak. It was like, “You fucking old bitch… you gave away a baby and kept…” ’
Lol could hear voices in the streets and alleys below, guessed that Bell finally had an audience. Without one, there would be no point.
‘ “… Kept something…” ’ She began to play with the clasp on the mandolin case, flicking it up and down with her fingers. ‘ “… Something looks like a Kentucky fried chicken.” ’
‘He was dead when you found him, right? Come on, Bell, everybody’s going to know after the post-mortem.’
She let the clasp snap back. Her sigh was irritable.
‘Maybe he went on drinking and choked on his own vomit. I don’t know. I was just so angry at him. He’d killed Robbie and he’d got away with it… for what? Such a sordid, ignominious… such a little death… He wouldn’t… even he wouldn’t have wanted that. I… I went into his hovel of a kitchen and I found a knife in a drawer.’
Lol imagined the resulting scene like a concept-art tableau: Tracey Emin meeting Damien Hirst in their own perfect purgatory.
Bell said, ‘It’s how I imagined Arnold de Lisle dying. Naked. Cut to pieces. Jonathan, if he was nothing else, at least he looked like a warrior. Like Eric. All they ever had was their looks.’
‘Arnold de Lisle, huh?’ Lol was suddenly furious at her. ‘Except that with Arnold there’d have been masses of blood. When someone’s already dead, nothing pumping, you can cut through arteries and just get a dribble.’
‘I didn’t know. Or if I did, I didn’t think.’
‘So that was pretty sordid, too, really. And you know something else? With your luck, you could throw yourself off this roof and… and land on the porch or something and just wind up a paraplegic.’
‘We’ll see,’ Bell said. She straightened up with a kind of magisterial calm and flicked up the catch and opened the mandolin case, releasing a very strong smell of what could only be more lighter fuel.
‘The other difference with Arnold,’ Lol said in desperation, ‘was that at least he had some love first.’
Bell smiled sadly, with those lovely crooked teeth, a glint of moving light in her eyes as she came down, with the open coffin, to the candles.
Side by side, looking out of the window space towards the river and just a few lights, Merrily and Sam prayed together for Marion de la Bruyère, Merrily murmuring snatches from the Requiem Eucharist.
‘We’ve come to remember, before God, our sister Marion…’
Robbie Walsh had probably chosen well. Marion might well have resembled Sam physically even if, in a border fortress full of tense, wary men, she’d have grown up faster and probably harder.
You promised eternal life to those who believe:
Remember your servant Marion,
as we also remember her.
Bring all who rest in Christ
Into the fullness of your Kingdom
where sins have been forgiven
and death is no more…
And then busking it.
‘God, we pray for the release of Marion’s spirit from the deluded and the misguided and those who would use her to further their own… agendas. We pray that Marion may…’
It was very cold now, in the Hanging Tower. Sam crept close to Merrily; she was shaking. Her face was in shadow but the tiny ring glittered at the edge of an eyebrow.
‘… Fly,’ Merrily said.
Quite prepared to become aware of long, slow breathing in the tower, or even what Bernie Dunmore had described as more like an absenc
e of smile. A smile so cold, so bleak, so devoid of hope… only this perpetual, bitter… terminality.
Unprepared for a long and hollow scream from somewhere else.
50
Dead Person Watching
Coming up to sunset, Lol’s living room was like the inside of a terracotta plant-pot. Even Jane didn’t like it any more.
‘Who gave you this number?’ Lol said into his mobile.
‘That doesn’t matter.’
‘I’ll have to change it now.’
‘Don’t bother,’ Lord Shipston said. ‘I doubt you’ll be hearing from me again. I just wanted to say, do you really want to start all this?’
‘Well,’ Lol said, ‘the album’s already out.’
‘I don’t care about the album. If I’m ever asked, I think I shall accuse you of, shall we say, political satire. Anything beyond that, we’ll see each other in court. And I’ll win because I can afford the best.’
‘You’re threatening me again,’ Lol said. ‘Nothing changes.’
‘I’m just pointing out to you the problems of a long and costly libel action.’
‘It’s nothing to do with courts, Gavin,’ Lol said. ‘In the end, mud just sticks.’
It went on like that for a while. Lol considered the options but, with guys like this, compromise was not one of them.
‘The situation is that I’m quite happy for you to remain with all the other iffy bastards in the House of Lords,’ he said eventually. ‘I’d just be worried if I’d heard you’d gone back to having direct responsibility for psychiatric patients.’
‘That isn’t likely to happen,’ Shipston said.
‘In that case, as long as neither Merrily nor I have any further problems with Saltash or Fyneham or anybody else who may have been unknowingly dragged into it, you won’t hear from me again. Or from Helen Weeks.’
‘Is that blackmail, Mr Robinson?’
‘Is that paranoia?’ Lol said, and Shipston cut the call, Lol just hoping he didn’t go so far as to check out poor Helen Weeks and find out that she’d died in one of those notorious train crashes on the outskirts of London some years ago. She’d been going back to hospital at the time, accompanied by her sister.
Some people never had any luck.
The sun was setting behind the stubby-pillared market hall as Lol crossed the cobbles to the vicarage. Sunday evening and the street was full of people, but very few of them coming from the church where, in the absence of Ledwardine’s own vicar, the Rev. Dennis Beckett was conducting evensong.
Lol didn’t recognize most of these people or their posh four-by-fours.
It’s all changing, Laurence, Lucy Devenish murmured at his shoulder, frowning down her nose, which had been a little like Belladonna’s, except not so… well, not so attractive, not that Lucy would care.
The new type of incomer, Lol reflected. In the days, not so long ago, when property in Herefordshire and Shropshire and mid-Wales was still relatively cheap, you’d get the pioneer type, the urban romantics with rural dreams who wanted a smallholding, their own veg garden, a few sheep and chickens. Now the Border had become the new Cotswolds and it was the wealthy people who were moving in, and they were not satisfied with a low-key existence, side by side with the farmers and the old village families.
They wanted to possess.
There were two more modest cars in the vicarage drive, and he thought he recognized both of them.
* * *
‘We’re not here, Laurence,’ Frannie Bliss said. ‘Neither of us.’
‘Ghosts?’ Lol pulled out a chair next to Merrily’s at the refectory table. ‘Everybody’s a ghost.’
Mumford looked up from his tea, his eyes muddy.
‘Andy here didn’t want to come to HQ,’ Bliss explained. ‘And I didn’t want to be seen with him, either — Annie Howe’s much too close to that prick from Shrewsbury.’
Lol didn’t understand, and couldn’t see any reason why he might need to.
‘Jane’s out with Eirion.’ Merrily poured him some tea. ‘I think they’re celebrating something. So I thought it would be a good time to, you know…
‘Complicate my life,’ Bliss said.
‘It might be rubbish, Frannie. Bell might be absolutely right in her belief that Jon Scole killed Robbie. Maybe, but I just don’t want it to be him. I don’t think he had his adoptive parents killed, either. The people you liked, you don’t want them to have been the bad guys. Whereas the people you don’t like…’
Merrily looked at Mumford, who, for his part, had wanted it to be this Jason Mebus. Mumford didn’t even look up. He was wearing a suit and tie, and didn’t look retired. He looked safe again. Retired people, Lol had decided, were the new delinquents. Lol had heard that, following a phone call from Gomer Parry, Mumford might soon be head-hunted by Jumbo Humphries, Welsh Border garage-owner, feed dealer and private investigator. It would keep Mumford off the streets.
‘You must be awful glad you didn’t kill the twat, Andy,’ Bliss said.
Mumford grunted. ‘Was never on the cards.’
Bliss smiled, looked at Lol and Merrily, and lifted his eyebrows.
Merrily said, ‘I’m probably just being stupid.’
‘Look,’ Bliss said. ‘It’s pretty clear that nobody thought Robbie was an accident, and suicide looks increasingly unlikely. So if there has to be a third suspect, fair enough, I’m always happy to get another lawyer out of the system.’
‘I just lay awake thinking about it, and then I woke up thinking about it.’ Merrily shook out a cigarette. ‘I thought that, well, if Jon Scole wasn’t bothered about all the money going to Robbie, here was somebody who definitely was.’
‘Go on, then. Spell it out.’
‘Well… her childhood was disrupted after her father dumped her mother for Bell. She was virtually expected to be Bell’s nursemaid whenever she spent any time with them. And, after her father went off to America, it was her real mother who got her the job with Smith, Sebald. And then she gets saddled with Bell again.’
‘She could’ve said no, Merrily.’
‘With Bell in the same town, and her father saying please look after her? OK, on the one hand a good client, but it must have been hell constantly covering things up, wondering what the firm’s good name was going to be dragged into next. And then there’s her future father-in-law, who… well, a lot of unexplained alienation there that must already be putting a strain on her relationship with Stephen Lackland.’
‘And then,’ Bliss said, ‘the mad woman announces that she’s adopting the son of — pardon me, Andy — this grasping bint from the Plascarreg, and making arrangements to ensure he and the new Palmers’ Guild get the bulk of her considerable estate. Do we know if Susannah Pepper attempted to talk Belladonna out of it?’
Merrily shook her head. ‘Dunno, but — something else that occurred to me — if Bell died, Susannah would’ve been left as Robbie’s guardian. Not the way anyone would want to start their married life.’
‘Could she die?’
‘That’s her lifetime’s ambition, Frannie. Anyway, you could never prove it about the lawyer. I just wanted to unload it. Sorry.’
‘No, no… I’ll pass it on, discreetly. No doubt the lads in Ludlow will be observing them together when Bell appears in court to face charges of wilful damage to a stiff, or whatever we cobble together. Charge might, of course, get thrown out — who knows?’ Bliss finished his tea. ‘So you’ve placed her in the custody of Huw Owen. Interesting.’
For both of them, Lol thought.
It had been Merrily’s idea to ask Huw Owen to take care of Bell. They’d told her last night that The Weir House was already surrounded by the media, and they’d brought her back here to the vicarage. It was safe enough for her — and safe from her, Lol had thought — in that it wasn’t Ludlow.
Although at one stage she’d become disorientated and appeared to think that it was a country-house hotel, Bell had slept for perhaps the first time in over twenty-four
hours. By the time she was awake this morning, around eleven, Huw was already here, looking like the stand-in keyboard player from some acid-rock band that had never made it into the 1970s. Bell had acted strange and subdued and seemed in some way hollow, as though some part of her had indeed rolled like a fireball from the church tower, and was already haunting the back streets of Ludlow.
Well, Huw knew all the spiritual retreats and the sanctuaries that could turn people around. Plus he had a murky kind of charisma. And he liked strange women.
They hadn’t consulted Susannah Pepper.
Just after dawn, Lol had awoken suddenly in Merrily’s bed — well, it had been late when they’d got back here, and there was Belladonna to see to — convinced for a knife-edge moment that he was still up there on that tower and that the remaining two candles hadn’t inexplicably gone out when Bell had lowered herself over them.
It seemed like a bad joke now…
No, it didn’t. It still didn’t seem like any kind of joke. Maybe it had been the sudden disturbance of the air that had done it, or maybe the fact that the flames, already burning very low, had been deprived of air, Bell’s dress acting like a big snuffer. Or maybe…
Maybe it had been an act of God. They had, after all, been votive candles.
You believed what you needed to believe.
All Lol wished was that he hadn’t accidentally glanced into the open mandolin case.
Even though it was early May now, it was still sufficiently cool to justify a fire in the vicarage drawing room, and they sat on the sofa and did things together that you weren’t supposed to do over the age of seventeen, especially if you were a minister of God and this was a Sunday.
Exploring one another, maybe, wondering if they were intact.
‘I still feel happier here, I’m afraid,’ Merrily said. ‘I know this is really stupid, but at your place I always feel Lucy’s watching.’
‘Giving us a slow handclap.’
No, Lucy had a certain decorum.
‘All right — big question,’ Merrily said. ‘Seriously, do you think Lucy could be seeing us in her house, processing the information and responding to it, intellectually or emotionally? A dead person watching. Can someone be earthbound in a benevolent way?’