Love is a passion which, like certain powerful drugs, acts differently upon each different constitution of temper; love also acts more strongly when it is unreturned or thwarted than when it is mutual and uneventful. If two persons love each other truly, and there is no obstacle to their union, it is probable that, without any violent emotion, their love will grow and become stronger by imperceptible degrees, without changing in its natural quality; but if thwarted by untoward circumstances, the passion, if true, attains suddenly to the dimensions which it would otherwise need years to reach. It sometimes happens that the nature in which this unforeseen and abnormal development takes place is unable to bear the precocious growth; then, losing sight of its identity in the strange inward confusion of heart and mind which ensues, it is driven to madness, and, breaking every barrier, either attains its object at a single bound, or is shivered and ruined in dashing itself against the impenetrable wall of complete impossibility. But again, in the last case, when love is wholly unreturned, it dies a natural death of atrophy, when it has existed in a person of common and average nature; or if the man or woman so afflicted be proud and of noble instincts, the passion becomes a kind of religion to the heart — sacred, and worthy to be guarded from the eyes of the world; or, finally, again, where it finds vanity the dominant characteristic of the being in whom it has grown, it draws a poisonous life from the unhealthy soil on which it is fed, and the tender seed of love shoots and puts forth evil leaves and blossoms, and grows to be a most venomous tree, which is the tree of hatred.
Donna Tullia was certainly a woman who belonged to the latter class of individuals. She had qualities which were perhaps good because not bad; but the mainspring of her being was an inordinate vanity; and it was in this characteristic that she was most deeply wounded, as she found herself gradually abandoned by Giovanni Saracinesca. She had been in the habit of thinking of him as a probable husband; the popular talk had fostered the idea, and occasional hints, aad smiling questions concerning him, had made her feel that he could not long hang back. She had been in the habit of treating him familiarly; and he, tutored by his father to the belief that she was the best match for him, and reluctantly yielding to the force of circumstances, which seemed driving him into matrimony, had suffered himself to be ordered about and made use of with an indifference which, in Madame Mayer’s eyes, had passed for consent. She had watched with growing fear and jealousy his devotion to the Astrardente, which all the world had noticed; and at last her anger had broken out at the affront she had received at the Frangipani ball. But even then she loved Giovanni in her own vain way. It was not till Corona was suddenly left a widow, that Donna Tullia began to realise the hopelessness of her position; and when she found how determinately Saracinesca avoided her wherever they met, the affection she had hitherto felt for him turned into a bitter hatred, stronger even than her jealousy against the Duchessa. There was no scene of explanation between them, no words passed, no dramatic situation, such as Donna Tullia loved; the change came in a few days, and was complete. She had not even the satisfaction of receiving some share of the attention Giovanni would have bestowed upon Corona if she had been in town. Not only had he grown utterly indifferent to her; he openly avoided her, and thereby inflicted upon her vanity the cruellest wound she was capable of feeling.
With Donna Tullia to hate was to injure, to long for revenge — not of the kind which is enjoyed in secret, and known only to the person who suffers and the person who causes the suffering. She did not care for that so much as she desired some brilliant triumph over her enemies before the world; some startling instance of poetic justice, which should at one blow do a mortal injury to Corona d’Astrardente, and bring Giovanni Saracinesca to her own feet by force, repentant and crushed, to be dealt with as she saw fit, according to his misdeeds. But she had chosen her adversaries ill, and her heart misgave her. She had no hold upon them, for they were very strong people, very powerful, and very much respected by their fellows. It was not easy to bring them into trouble; it seemed impossible to humiliate them as she wished to do, and yet her hate was very strong. She waited and pondered, and in the meanwhile, when she met Giovanni, she began to treat him with haughty coldness. But Giovanni smiled, and seemed well satisfied that she should at last give over what was to him very like a persecution. Her anger grew hotter from its very impotence. The world saw it, and laughed.
The days of Carnival came and passed, much as they usually pass, in a whirl of gaiety. Giovanni went everywhere, and showed his grave face; but he talked little, and of course every one said he was melancholy at the departure of the Duchessa. Nevertheless he kept up an appearance of interest in what was done, and as nobody cared to risk asking him questions, people left him in peace. The hurrying crowd of social life filled up the place occupied by old Astrardente and the beautiful Duchessa, and they were soon forgotten, for they had not had many intimate friends.
On the last night of Carnival, Del Ferice appeared once more. He had not been able to resist the temptation of getting one glimpse of the world he loved, before the wet blanket of Lent extinguished the lights of the ballrooms and the jollity of the dancers. Every one was surprised to see him, and most people were pleased; he was such a useful man, that he had often been missed during the time of his illness. He was improved in appearance; for though he was very pale, he had grown also extremely thin, and his features had gained delicacy.
When Giovanni saw him, he went up to him, and the two men exchanged a formal salutation, while every one stood still for a moment to see the meeting. It was over in a moment, and society gave a little sigh of relief, as though a weight were removed from its mind. Then Del Ferice went to Donna Tullia’s side. They were soon alone upon a small sofa in a small room, whither a couple strayed now and then to remain a few minutes before returning to the ball. A few people passed through, but for more than an hour they were not disturbed.
“I am very glad to see you,” said Donna Tullia; “but I had hoped that the first time you went out you would have come to my house.”
“This is the first time I have been out — you see I should not have found you at home, since I have found you here.”
“Are you entirely recovered? You still look ill.”
“I am a little weak — but an hour with you will do me more good than all the doctors in the world.”
“Thanks,” said Donna Tullia, with a little laugh. “It was strange to see you shaking hands with Giovanni Saracinesca just now. I suppose men have to do that sort of thing.”
“You may be sure I would not have done it unless it had been necessary,” returned Del Ferice, bitterly.
“I should think not. What an arrogant man he is!”
“You no longer like him?” asked Del Fence, innocently.
“Like him! No; I never liked him,” replied Donna Tullia, quickly.
“Oh, I thought you did; I used to wonder at it.” Ugo grew thoughtful.
“I was always good to him,” said Donna Tullia. “But of course I can never forgive him for what he did at the Frangipani ball.”
“No; nor I,” answered Del Ferice, readily. “I shall always hate him for that too.”
“I do not say that I exactly hate him.”
“You have every reason. It appears to me that since my illness we have another idea in common, another bond of sympathy.” Del Ferice spoke almost tenderly; but he laughed immediately afterwards, as though not wishing his words to be interpreted too seriously. Donna Tullia smiled too; she was inclined to be very kind to him.
“You are very quick to jump at conclusions,” she said, playing with her red fan and looking down.
“It is always easy to reach that pleasant conclusion — that you and I are in sympathy,” he answered, with a tender glance, “even in regard to hating the same person. The bond would be close indeed, if it depended on the opposite of hate. And yet I sometimes think it does. Are you not the best friend I have in the world?”
“I do not know, — I am a good frie
nd to you,” she answered.
“Indeed you are; but do you not think it would be possible to cement our friendship even more closely yet?”
Donna Tullia looked up sharply; she had no idea of allowing him to propose to marry her. His face, however, was grave — unlike his usual expression when he meant to be tender, and which she knew very well.
“I do not know,” she said, with a light laugh. “How do you mean?”
“If I could do you some great service — if I could by any means satisfy what is now your chief desire in life — would not that help to cement our friendship, as I said?”
“Perhaps,” she answered, thoughtfully. “But then you do not know — you cannot guess even — what I most wish at this moment.”
“I think I could,” said Del Ferice, fixing his eyes upon her. “I am sure
I could, but I will not. I should risk offending you.”
“No; I will not be angry. You may guess if you please.” Donna Tullia in her turn looked, fixedly at her companion. They seemed trying to read each other’s thoughts.
“Very well,” said Ugo at last, “I will tell you. You would like to see the Astrardente dead and Giovanni Saracinesca profoundly humiliated.”
Donna Tullia started. But indeed there was nothing strange in her companion’s knowledge of her feelings. Many people, being asked what she felt, would very likely have said the same, for the world had seen her discomfiture and had laughed at it.
“You are a very singular man,” she said, uneasily.
“In other words,” replied Del Ferice, calmly, “I am perfectly right in my surmises. I see it in your face. Of course,” he added, with a laugh, “it is mere jest. But the thing is quite possible. If I fulfilled your desire of just and poetic vengeance, what would you give me?”
Donna Tullia laughed in her turn, to conceal the extreme interest she felt in what he said.
“Whatever you like,” she said. But even while the laugh was on her lips her eyes sought his uneasily.
“Would you marry me, for instance, as the enchanted princess in the fairy story marries the prince who frees her from the spell?” He seemed immensely amused at the idea.
“Why not?” she laughed.
“It would be the only just recompense,” he answered. “See how impossible the thing appears. And yet a few pounds of dynamite would blow up the Great Pyramid. Giovanni Saracinesca is not so strong as he looks.”
“Oh, I would not have him hurt!” exclaimed Donna Tullia in alarm.
“I do not mean physically, nor morally, but socially.”
“How?”
“That is my secret,” returned Del Ferice, quietly.
“It sounds as though you were pretending to know more than you really do,” she answered.
“No; it is the plain truth,” said Del Ferice, quietly. “If you were in earnest I might be willing to tell you what the secret is, but for a mere jest I cannot. It is far too serious a matter.”
His tone convinced Donna Tullia that he really possessed some weapon which he could use against Don Giovanni if he pleased. She wondered only why, if it were true, he did not use it, seeing that he must hate Saracinesca with all his heart. Del Ferice knew so much about people, so many strange and forgotten stories, he had so accurate a memory and so acute an intelligence, that it was by no means impossible that he was in possession of some secret connected with the Saracinesca. They were, or were thought to be, wild, unruly men, both father and son; there were endless stories about them both; and there was nothing more likely than that, in his numerous absences from home, Giovanni had at one time or another figured in some romantic affair, which he would be sorry to have had generally known. Del Ferice was wise enough to keep his own counsel; but now that his hatred was thoroughly roused, he might very likely make use of the knowledge he possessed. Donna Tullia’s curiosity was excited to its highest pitch, and at the same time she had pleasant visions of the possible humiliation of the man by whom she felt herself so ill-used. It would be worth while making the sacrifice in order to learn Del Fence’s secret.
“This need not be a mere jest,” she said, after a moment’s silence.
“That is as you please,” returned Del Ferice, seriously. “If you are willing to do your part, you may be sure that I will do mine.”
“You cannot think I really meant what I said just now,” replied Donna
Tullia. “It would be madness.”
“Why? Am I halt, am I lame, am I blind? Am I repulsively ugly? Am I a pauper, that I should care for your money? Have I not loved you — yes, loved you long and faithfully? Am I too old? Is there anything in the nature of things why I should not aspire to be your husband?”
It was strange. He spoke calmly, as though enumerating the advantages of a friend. Donna Tullia looked at him for a moment, and then laughed outright.
“No,” she said; “all that is very true. You may aspire, as you call it. The question is, whether I shall aspire too. Of course, if we happened to agree in aspiring, we could be married to-morrow.”
“Precisely,” answered Del Ferice, perfectly unmoved. “I am not proposing to marry you. I am arguing the case. There is this in the case which is perhaps outside the argument — this, that I am devotedly attached to you. The case is the stronger for that. I was only trying to demonstrate that the idea of our being married is not so unutterably absurd. You laughingly said you would marry me if I could accomplish something which would please you very much. I laughed also; but now I seriously repeat my proposition, because I am convinced that although at first sight it may appear extremely humourous, on a closer inspection it will be found exceedingly practical. In union is strength.”
Donna Tullia was silent for a moment, and her face grew grave. There was reason in what he said. She did not care for him — she had never thought of marrying him; but she recognised the justice of what he said. It was clear that a man of his social position, received everywhere and intimate with all her associates, might think of marrying her. He looked positively handsome since he was wounded; he was accomplished and intelligent; he had sufficient means of support to prevent him from being suspected of marrying solely for money, and he had calmly stated that he loved her. Perhaps he did. It was flattering to Donna Tullia’s vanity to believe him, and his acts had certainly not belied his words. He was by far the most thoughtful of all her admirers, and he affected to treat her always with a certain respect which she had never succeeded in obtaining from Valdarno and the rest. A woman who likes to be noisy, but is conscious of being a little vulgar, is always flattered when a man behaves towards her with profound reverence. It will even sometimes cure her of her vulgarity. Donna Tullia reflected seriously upon what Del Ferice had said.
“I never had such a proposition made to me in my life,” she said. “Of course you cannot think I regard it as a possible one, even now. You cannot think I am so base as to sell myself for the sake of revenging an insult once offered me. If I am to regard this as a proposal of marriage, I must decline it with thanks. If it is merely a proposition for an alliance, I think the terms of the treaty are unequal.”
Del Ferice smiled.
“I knew you well enough to know what your answer would be,” he said. “I never insulted you by dreaming that you would accept such a proposition. But as a subject for speculation it is very pleasant. It is delightful to me to think of being your husband; it is equally delightful to you to think of the humiliation of an enemy. I took the liberty of uniting the two thoughts in one dream — a dream of unspeakable bliss for myself.”
Donna Tullia’s gay humour returned.
“You have certainly amused me very well for a quarter of an hour with your dreams,” she answered. “I wish you would tell me what you know of Don Giovanni. It must be very interesting if it can really seriously influence his life.”
“I cannot tell you. The secret is too valuable.”
“But if the thing you know has such power, why do you not use it yourself? You must hate him
far more than I do.”
“I doubt that,” answered Del Ferice, with a cunning smile. “I do not use it, I do not choose to strike the blow, because I do not care enough for retribution merely on my own account. I do not pretend to generosity, but I am not interested enough in him to harm him, though I dislike him exceedingly. We had a temporary settlement of our difficulties the other day, and we were both wounded. Poor Casalverde lost his head and did a foolish thing, and that cold-blooded villain Spicca killed him in consequence. It seems to me that there has been enough blood spilled in our quarrel. I am prepared to leave him alone so far as I am concerned. But for you it would be different. I could do something worse than kill him if I chose.”
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