“Well?” asked Paul, who was visibly agitated. “What then?” he inquired rather sharply, seeing that Dr. Cutter was silent.
“To be short about it,” said the professor, “it has been evident to me from that moment that her mind is deranged. No argument can affect the distorted view she takes.”
“But what is the view? What does she think?” inquired Paul, trembling with excitement.
“She thinks that you were the cause of your brother’s death,” answered Cutter shortly.
“That I murdered him?” cried Paul, feeling that his worst fears were realized.
“Poor lady!” exclaimed the professor, fixing his gray eyes on Paul’s face. “It is of no use to go over the story. That is what she thinks.”
Paul turned from his companion, and leaned against a tree for support. He was utterly overcome, and unmanned for the moment. Cutter stood beside him, fearing lest he might fall, for he could see that he was wasted with anxiety and weak with fatigue. But he possessed great strength of will and that command of himself which is acquired by living much among strangers. After a few seconds he stood erect, and, making a great effort, continued to walk upon the road, steadying himself with his stick.
“Go on, please,” he said. “How did you come here?”
“You will understand that I could not leave Madame Patoff at such a time,” continued the professor, inwardly admiring the strength of his new acquaintance. “She insisted upon returning northwards, saying that she would go to her relations in England. Fearing lest her mind should become more deranged, I suggested traveling slowly by an unfrequented route. I intended to take her to England by short stages, endeavoring to avoid all places where she might, at this season, have met any of her numerous acquaintances. I chose to cross the Splügen Pass to the Lake of Constance. Thence we came here by the Nagold railway. I propose to take her to the Rhine, where we will take the Rhine boat to Rotterdam. Nobody travels by the Rhine nowadays. You got my telegram at Vienna? Yes. Yours went to Wiesbaden, was telegraphed to Como, and thence here. I had just time to send an answer directed to you at Vienna, as a passenger by the Oriental Express, giving you the name of this place. I signed it with your mother’s name.”
“She does not know I have left Constantinople, then?”
“No. I feared that the news would have a bad effect. She receives her letters, of course, but telegrams often do harm to people in her state, — so I naturally opened yours.”
“Is she perfectly sane in all other respects?” asked Paul, speaking with an effort.
“Perfectly.”
“Then she is not insane at all,” said Paul, in a tone of conviction.
“I do not understand you,” answered the professor, staring at him in some surprise.
“If you knew how she loved my poor brother, and how little she loves me, you would understand better. Without being insane, she might well believe that I had let him lose himself in Stamboul, or even that I had killed him. You read my letter, — you can remember how strange a story it was. There is nothing but the evidence of a Turkish soldier to show that I did not contribute to Alexander’s disappearance.”
“It was certainly a very queer story,” said the professor gravely. “Nevertheless, I am of opinion that Madame Patoff is under the influence of a delusion. I cannot think that if she were in her right mind she would insist as she does, and with such violence, that you are guilty of making away with your brother.”
“I must see her,” said Paul firmly. “I have come from Constantinople to see her, and I cannot go back disappointed.”
“I think it would be a great mistake for you to seek an interview,” answered the professor, no less decidedly. “It might bring on a fit of anger.”
“Which might be fatal?” inquired Paul.
“No, but which might affect her brain.”
“I do not think so. Pardon my contradicting you, professor, but I have a very strong impression that my mother is not in the least insane, and that I may succeed in bringing her to look at this dreadful business in its true light.”
“I fear not,” answered Dr. Cutter sadly.
“But you do not know,” insisted Paul. “Unless you are perfectly sure that my mother is really mad, you can have no right to prevent my seeing her. I may possibly persuade her. I am the only one left,” he added bitterly, “and I must be a son to her in fact as well as in relation. I cannot, for my own sake, let her go to our English relatives, with this story to tell, without at least contradicting it.”
“It is of no use to contradict it to her.”
“Of no use!” exclaimed Paul, impatiently. “Do you think that if the slightest suspicion, however unfounded, had rested on me, my chief would have allowed me to leave Constantinople without clearing it up? I should think that anybody in his senses would see that!”
“Yes, — anybody in his or her senses,” answered the professor coldly.
Paul stopped in his walk, and faced the strong man with the gold spectacles and the intelligent features who had thus obstinately thrust himself in his path.
“Sir,” he said, “I know you very slightly, and I do not want to insult you. But if you continue to oppose me, I shall begin to think that you have some other object in view besides a concern for my mother’s health.” His drawn and haggard features wore an expression of desperate determination as he spoke, and his cold blue eyes began to brighten dangerously.
“I have nothing more to say,” replied the scientist, meeting his look with perfect steadiness. “I admit the justice of your argument. I can only implore you to take my advice, and to reflect on what you are doing. I have no moral right to oppose you.”
“No,” said Paul, “and you must not prevent this meeting. I wish to see her only once. Then I will go. I need not tell you that I am deeply indebted to you for the assistance you have rendered to my mother in this affair. If she does not believe my story, she will certainly not tolerate my presence, and I venture to hope that you will see her safely to England. If possible, I should like to meet her to-night.”
“You shall,” replied the professor. “But if any harm comes of it, remember that I protested against the meeting. That is all I ask.”
“I will remember,” answered Paul quietly. Both men turned in their walk, and went back towards the hotel.
“You must give me time to warn her of your presence,” said Cutter, as they reached the steps.
Paul nodded, and they both went in. Cutter disappeared up-stairs, and Patoff was shown to his room by a servant.
“I shall probably leave to-morrow morning,” he remarked, as the man deposited his effects in the corner, and looked round, waiting for orders. Paul threw himself on the bed, closing his eyes, and trying to collect his courage and his senses for this meeting, which had turned out so much more difficult than he had expected. Nevertheless, he was glad that Cutter had met him, and had warned him of the state of his mother’s mind. He did not in the least believe her insane, — he almost wished that he could. Lying there on his bed, he remembered his youth, and the time when he had longed for some little portion of the affection lavished on his elder brother. He remembered how often he had in vain looked to his mother for a smile of approbation, and how he had ever been disappointed. He had grown up feeling that, by some fault not his own, he was disliked and despised, a victim to one of those unreasoning antipathies which parents sometimes feel for one of their children. He remembered how he had choked down his anger, swallowed his tears, and affected indifference to censure, until his child’s heart had grown case-hardened and steely; asking nothing, doing his tasks for his own satisfaction, and finally taking a sad pleasure in that silence which was so frequently imposed upon him. Then he had grown up, and the sullen determination to outdo his brother in everything had got possession of his strong nature. He remembered how, coming home from school, he had presented his mother with the report which spoke of his final examinations as brilliant compared with Alexander’s; how his mother had said a
cold word of praise; and how he himself had turned silently away, able already, in his young self-dependence, to rejoice secretly over his victory, without demanding the least approbation from those who should have loved him best. He remembered, when his brother was an ensign in the guards, spoiled and reckless, making debts and getting into all kinds of trouble, how he himself had labored at the dry work assigned to him in the foreign office, without amusements, without pleasure, and without pocket money, toiling day and night to win by force that position which Alexander had got for nothing; never relaxing in his exertions, and scrupulous in the performance of his duties. Even in the present moment of anxiety he thought with satisfaction of his well-earned advancement, and of the promotion which could not now be far distant. He remembered himself a big, bony youth of twenty, and he reflected that he had made himself what he now was, the accomplished man of the world, the rising diplomatist among those of his years, steadily moving on to success. But he saw that he was the same to-day as he had been then; if he had not gained affection in his life, he had gained strength and hardness and indifference to opposition.
Then this blow had come upon him. This brother, whom he had striven to surpass in everything, had been suddenly and mysteriously taken from his very side; and not that only, but the mother who had borne them both had put the crowning touch to her life-long injustice, and had accused him of being his brother’s murderer, — accused him to a stranger, or to one who was little nearer than a stranger, — refusing to hear him in his own defense.
He wished that she might be indeed mad. He hoped that she was beside herself with grief, even wholly insane, rather than that he should be forced to believe that she could be so unjust. What construction the world would put upon the catastrophe he knew from Count Ananoff; but surely he might expect his mother to be more merciful. A mother should hope against hope for her child’s innocence, even when every one else has forsaken him; how was it possible that this mother of his could so harden her heart as to be first to suspect him of such a crime, and to be of all people the one to refuse to hear his defense! He hoped she was mad, as he lay there on his bed, in the little room of the hotel, in the gathering gloom.
At last some one knocked at the door, and Professor Cutter entered, admitting a stream of light from the corridor outside. Paul sprang to his feet, pale and haggard.
“You are in the dark,” said the professor quietly, as he shut the door behind him. Then he struck a match, and lit the two candles which stood on each side of the mirror on the bare dressing-table.
“Can I go now?” asked Paul. The scientist eyed him deliberately.
“Pardon me,” he said. “You have not thought of your appearance. You have traveled for three or four days, and look rather disheveled.”
Paul understood. The professor did not want him to be seen as he was. He was wild and excited, and his clothes were in disorder. Silently he unlocked his dressing-case and bag, and proceeded to dress himself. Cutter sat quietly watching him, as though still studying his character; for he was a student of men, and prided himself on his ability to detect people’s peculiarities from their unconscious movements. Paul dressed rapidly, with the neatness of a man accustomed to wait upon himself. In twenty minutes his toilet was completed, during which time neither of the two spoke a word. At last Paul turned to the professor. “Did you have difficulty in arranging it?” he asked coldly.
“Yes. But you may see her, if you go at once,” answered the other.
“I am ready,” said Paul. “Let us go.” They left the room, and went down the corridor together. The quiet and solitude of his room had strengthened Paul’s nerves, and he walked more erect and with a firmer step than before. Presently the professor stopped before one of the doors.
“Go in,” he said. “This is a little passage room. Knock at the door opposite. She is there, and will receive you.”
Paul followed the professor’s instructions, and knocked at the door within. A voice which he hardly recognized as his mother’s bid him enter, and he was in the presence of Madame Patoff.
A bright lamp, unshaded and filling the little sitting-room with a broad yellow light, stood upon the table. The details of the apartment were insignificant, and seemed to throw the figure of the seated woman into strong relief. She had been beautiful, and was beautiful still, though now in her fifty-second year. Her features were high and noble, and her rich dark hair was only lightly streaked with gray. Her eyes were brown, but of that brown which easily looks black when not exposed directly to the light. Her face was now very pale, but there was a slight flush upon her cheeks, which for a moment brought back a reflection of her former brilliant beauty. She was dressed entirely in black, and her thin white hands lay folded on the dark material of her gown; she wore no ring save the plain band of gold upon the third finger of her left hand.
Paul entered, and closed the door behind him without taking his eyes from his mother. She rose from her seat as he came forward, as though to draw back. He came nearer, and bending low would have taken her hand, but she stepped backwards and withdrew it, while the flush darkened on her cheek.
“Mother, will you not give me your hand?” he asked, in a low and broken voice.
“No,” she answered sternly. “Why have you come here?”
“To tell you my brother’s story,” said Paul, drawing himself up and facing her. When he entered the room he had felt sorrow and pity for her, in spite of Cutter’s account, and he would willingly have kneeled and kissed her hand. But her rough refusal brought vividly to his mind the situation.
“You have told me already, by your letter,” she replied. “Have you found him, that you come here? Do you think I want to see you — you?” she repeated, with rising emphasis.
“I might think it natural that you should,” said Paul, very coldly. “Be calm. I am going to-morrow. Had I supposed that you would meet me as you have, I should have spared myself the trouble of coming here.”
“Indeed you might!” she exclaimed scornfully. “Have you come here to tell me how you did it?” Her voice trembled hysterically.
“Did what?” asked Paul, in the same cold tone. “Do you mean to accuse me to my face of my brother’s death, as your doctor says you do behind my back? And if you dare to do so, do you think I will permit it without defending myself?”
His mother looked at him for one moment; then, clasping her hands to her forehead, she staggered across the room, and hid her face in the cushions of the sofa, moaning and crying aloud.
“Alexis, Alexis!” she sobbed. “Ah — my beloved son — if only I could have seen your dear face once more — to close your eyes — and kiss you — those sweet eyes — oh, my boy, my boy! Where are you — my own child?”
She was beside herself with grief, and ceased to notice Paul’s presence for some minutes, moaning, and tossing herself upon the sofa, and wringing her hands as the tears streamed down. Paul could not look unmoved on such a sight. He came near and touched her shoulder.
“You must not give up all hope, mother,” he said softly. “He may yet come back.” He did not know what else to say, to comfort her.
“Come back?” she cried hysterically, suddenly sitting up and facing him. “Come back, when you are standing there with his blood on your hands! You murderer! You monster! Go — for God’s sake, go! Don’t touch me! Don’t look at me!”
Paul was horrified at her violence, and could not believe that she was in her senses. But he had heard the words she had spoken, and the wound had entered into his soul. His look was colder than ever as he answered.
“You are evidently insane,” he said
“Go — go, I tell you! Let me never see you again!” cried the frantic woman, rising to her feet, and staring at him with wide and blood-shot eyes.
Paul went up to her, and quickly seizing her hands held them in his firm grip, without pressure, but so that she could not withdraw them.
“Mother,” he said, in low and distinct tones, “I believe you are mad. If
you are not, God forgive you, and grant that you may forget what you have said. I am as innocent of Alexander’s death — if indeed he is dead — as you are yourself.”
She seemed awed by his manner, and spoke more quietly.
“Where is he, then? Paul, where is your brother?”
“I cannot tell where he is. He left me and never returned, as the man who was with me can testify. I came here to tell you the story with my own lips. If you do not care to hear it, I will go, and you shall have your wish, for you need never see me again.” He released her hands, and turned from her as though to leave the room.
Madame Patoff’s mood changed. Though Alexander was more like her, she possessed, too, some of the inexorable coldness which Paul had inherited so abundantly. She now drew herself up, and retired to the other side of the room. Paul’s hand was on the door. Then she turned once more, and he saw that her face was as pale as death.
“Go,” she said, for the last time. “And above all, do not come back. Unless you can bring Alexis with you, and show him to me alive, I will always believe that you killed him, like the heartless, cruel monster you have been from a child.”
“Is that your last word, mother?” asked Paul, controlling his voice by a great effort.
“My very last word, to you,” she answered, pointing to the door.
Paul went out, and left her alone. In the corridor he found Professor Cutter, calmly walking up and down. The scientist stopped, and looked at Paul’s pale face.
“Was I right?” he asked.
“Too right.”
“I thought so,” said the professor. “Do you mean to leave to-morrow?”
“Yes,” answered Paul quietly. “I must eat something. I am exhausted.”
He staggered against Dr. Cutter’s strong arm, and caught himself by it. The professor held him firmly on his feet, and looked at him curiously.
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