“Harm! I’m proud of you, my boy. You’ll win through — some day!”
It was the first relief from his misery the poor man had felt since he had read the letter about the overdraft in the morning.
“What I can’t understand is the rest of the money,” said Overholt.
Newton looked very uncomfortable again, and moved uneasily on his chair.
“Oh well, I suppose I’ve got to tell you,” he said, looking down into his plate and very busy with his knife and fork. “Say, you won’t tell mother, will you? She wouldn’t like it.”
“I won’t tell her.”
“Well” — the boy hesitated— “I sold some things,” he said at last, in a low voice.
“Oh! There’s no great harm in that, my boy. What did you sell?”
“My skates and my watch,” said Newton, just audibly. “You see I didn’t somehow feel as if I were going to skate much this winter — and I don’t really need to know what time it is if I start right by the clock to go to school. I say, don’t tell mother. She gave me the watch, you know, last Christmas. Of course, you gave me the skates, but you’ll understand better than she would.”
Overholt was profoundly touched, for he knew what delight the good skates meant in the cold weather, and the pride the boy had felt in the silver watch that kept such excellent time. But he could not think of much to say just then, for the sight of the poor little pile of dirty money that was the sordid price of so much pleasure and satisfaction half-choked him.
“You’re a brave boy,” he said in a low tone.
But Newton was indefinitely far from understanding that he had done anything brave; he merely felt much better now, because he had confessed and had the matter off his mind.
“Oh well, you see, something had to be done quick,” he said, “and I couldn’t think of anything else. But I’ll go and earn that ten cents of Bangs every afternoon, you bet! And I guess I can pick up a quarter at the depôt now and then; that is, if you don’t mind. It isn’t much, I know, but it’ll help a little.”
“It’s helped already, more than you have any idea,” said Overholt.
He remembered with bitter shame how he had completely broken down before his son that afternoon, and how quietly the lad had gone off to make his great sacrifice, pretending that he only wanted to see whether the pond was freezing.
“Well,” said Newton, “I’m glad you don’t think it was mean of me to go and sell the watch mother gave me. And I’m glad you feel better. You do feel a good deal better, don’t you?”
“A thousand times better!” answered Overholt, almost cheerfully.
“I’m glad. Maybe you’ll feel like working on the City a little after supper.”
“I was afraid Hope had given us up to-day, and had flown away for good and all,” said the inventor. “But you’ve brought her home with you again, bless you! Yes, we’ll do some work after supper, and after you go to bed I’ll just have one more good evening with the Motor before I give it up for ever.”
Newton looked up.
“You aren’t going to give it up for ever,” he said in a tone of conviction. “You can’t.”
Overholt explained calmly enough that he must sell the machine for old metal the very next day, and sell the tools too. But the boy shook his head.
“You’ll curl up and die if you do that,” he said. “Besides, if mother were here she wouldn’t let you do it, so you oughtn’t to. The reason why she’s gone to be a governess is because she wouldn’t let you give up the Motor, father. You know it is.”
“Yes. It’s true — but—” he hesitated.
“You simply can’t do it, that’s all. So I’m perfectly certain you won’t! I believe everything will come round all right, anyway, if you only don’t worry. That’s what I believe, father.”
“It’s a hopeful view, at all events. The only objection to it is that it’s a good deal like dreaming, and I’ve no right to dream any more. When you see that I’m going to, you must make me sit up and mind my lesson!”
He even laughed a little, and it was not badly done, considering that he did it on purpose to show how he meant to make the best of it all, though Hope would not do anything for him. He ate something too, if only to keep the hungry boy company.
They went into the workshop, and found the bright moonlight streaming through the window that looked east. It fell full on the motionless Motor, under its plate-glass case, and turned all the steel and brass to silver and gold, and from the clean snow that covered the desolateness of the yard outside the moon sent a white reflection upwards that mingled with the direct moonlight in a ghostly sort of way. Newton stood still and looked at the machine, while Overholt felt about for matches.
“If only it would begin to move now, just of itself!”
The man knew that it would not, and wished that the boy would not even suggest such a thing, and he sighed as he lit the lamp. But all the same he meant to spend half the night in taking a last farewell of the engine, and of all the parts on which he had spent months and years, only to let them be broken up for old metal in the end.
The two sat down on each side of the little City and went to work to build the railway station; and after all, when Overholt looked at the Common and the College and remembered how happy he had been there, he began to feel that since dreams were nothing but dreams, except that they were a great waste of time and money, and of energy and endurance, he might possibly find some happiness again in the old life, if he could only get back to it.
So Hope came back, rather bedraggled and worn out after her long excursion, and took a very humble lodging in the little City which had once been all hers and the capital of her kingdom. But she was there, all the same, peeping out of a small window to see whether she would be welcome if she went out and took a little walk in the streets.
For the blindest of all blind people are those who have quite made up their minds not to see; and the most miserable of all the hopeless ones are those that wilfully turn their backs on Hope when she stands at the next corner holding out her hand rather timidly.
But Overholt was not one of these, and he took it gladly when it was offered, and stood ready to be led away by a new path, which was not the road to fame or wealth, but which might bring him to a quiet little place where he could live in peace with those he loved, and after all that would be a great deal.
VII. HOW A LITTLE WOMAN DID A GREAT DEED TO SAVE THE CITY
A FORTNIGHT EARLIER Mrs. Overholt had been much disturbed in her mind, for she read each of her husband’s letters over at least three times, and Newton’s fortnightly scrawls even oftener, because it was less easy to make them out; but she had understood one thing very well, and that was that there was no more money for the invention, and very little cash for the man and the boy to live on. If she had known what a dreadful mistake John Henry had made about debit and credit, the little woman would have been terribly anxious; but as it was, she was quite unhappy enough.
Overholt had written repeatedly of his attempts to raise just a little more money with which to finish the invention, and he had explained very clearly what there was to do, and somehow she had always believed in the idea, because he had invented that beautiful scientific instrument with which his name was connected, but she was almost sure that in working out his theory he was quite on the wrong track. She did not really understand the engine at all, but she was quite certain that when a thing was going to succeed, it succeeded from the first, without many hitches or drawbacks. Most women are like that.
She had never written this to her husband, because she would do anything rather than discourage him; but she had almost made, up her mind to write him a letter of good advice at last, begging him to go back to teaching for the present, and only to work at the invention in his spare time. Just then, however, she came across a paragraph in a German newspaper in Munich which said that a great scientific man in Berlin had completed an air-motor at last, after years of study, and that it worked tolerably,
enough to demonstrate the principle, but could never be of any practical use because the chemical product on which it ultimately depended was so enormously expensive.
Now Mrs. Overholt knew one thing certainly about her husband’s engine, namely, that the chemical he meant to use cost next to nothing, so that if the principle were sound, the Motor would turn out to be the cheapest in existence; and she was a practical person, like her boy Newton.
Moreover, she loved John Henry with all her heart and soul, and thought him one of the greatest geniuses in the world, and she simply could not bear the idea that he should not have a fair chance to finish the machine and try it.
Lastly, Christmas was coming; the girls she was educating talked of nothing else, and counted the days, and sat up half the night on the edges of each other’s beds discussing the beautiful presents they were sure to receive; and a great deal might be written about what they said, but it has nothing to do with this story, except that their chatter helped to fill the air with the Christmas spirit, and with thoughts of giving as well as of receiving. Though they were rather spoiled children, they were generous too, and they laid all sorts of little traps in order to find out what their governess would like best from each of them, for they were fond of her in their way.
Also, Munich is one of the castles which King Christmas still holds in absolute sway and calls his own, and long before he is really awake after his long rest he begins to stir and laugh in his sleep, and the jolly colour creeps up and spreads over his old cheeks before he thinks of opening his eyes, much less of getting up and putting on his crown. And now that he was waking, Helen Overholt felt the old loving longing for her dear ones rising to her womanly heart, and she planned little plans for another and a happier year to come, and meanwhile she bought two or three little gifts to send to the cottage in far Connecticut.
But when she had read about the Berlin professor and his motor and thought of her own John Henry making bricks without straw and bearing up bravely against disappointment, and still writing so cheerfully and hopefully in spite of everything, she simply could not stand it another day. As I have said, King Christmas turned over just before waking, and he put out a big generous hand in his sleep and laid it on her heart. Whenever he does that to anybody, man, woman, or child, a splendid longing seizes them to give all they have to the one child, or woman, or man that each loves best, or to the being of all others that is most in need, or to help the work which seems to each of them the noblest and the best, if they are grown up and are lonely.
This is what happened to Helen Overholt, in spite of her good sense and all her practical resolutions. As long as she had anything to give, John Henry should have it and be happy, and succeed, if success were possible. She had saved most of her salary for a long time past, spending as little as she well could on herself. He should have it all, for love’s sake, and because she believed in him, and because Christmas was waking up, and had laid his great affectionate old hand on her.
So it came to pass that when Overholt was pottering over the beautiful motionless Motor, late at night, sure that it would work if he had a little more money, but still more sure that it must be sold for old metal the next morning, to buy bread for the boy, even at that hour help was near, and from the hand he loved best in the world, which would make it ten thousand times sweeter when it reached him.
It was going to be an awful wrench to give up the invention, for now, at the moment of abandoning it, he saw, or thought he saw, that he was right at last, and that it could not fail. It was useless to try it as it was, yet he would, just once more. He adjusted the tangent-balance and the valves; he put in the supply of the chemical with the long name and screwed down the hermetic plug. With the small hand air-pump he produced the first vacuum which was necessary; all was ready, every joint and stuffing-box was lubricated, the spring of the balance was adjusted to a nicety. But the engine would not start, though he turned the fly-wheel with his hand again and again, as if to encourage it. Of course it would not turn alone! He understood perfectly that the one piece on which all depended must be made over again, exactly the other way. That was all!
There was the wooden model of it, all ready for the foundry that would not cast it for nothing. If only the wooden piece would serve for a moment’s trial! But he knew that this was folly; it would not stand the enormous strain an instant, and the joints could not possibly be made air-tight.
He was utterly worn out by all he had been through during the long day, and he fell asleep in his chair towards morning, his head on his breast, his feet struck out straight before him, one arm hanging down beside him and his other hand thrust into his pocket. He looked more like a shabby lay figure stuffed with sawdust than like a living man. If Newton had come down and found him lying there under the lamplight he would have started back and shuddered, and waited a while before he could find courage to come nearer.
But the man was only very sound asleep, and he did not wake till the December dawn gleamed through the clear winter’s sky and made the artificial light look dim and smoky; and when he opened his eyes it was he himself who started to find himself there in the cold before his great failure, in broad daylight.
Nevertheless, he had slept soundly, and felt better able to face all the trouble that was in store for him. He stirred the embers in the stove, put in some kindling and a supply of coal, and warmed himself, still heavy with sleep, and glad to waken consciously, by degrees, and to feel that his resolution was not going to break down.
When he felt quite himself he left the room and went upstairs cautiously, lest he should wake the boy, though it was really time to get up, and Newton was already dressing.
“I’ll walk into town with you,” said Overholt when they were at breakfast in the parlour. “It will do me good to get some air, and I must see about selling those things. There’s no time to be lost.”
Newton swallowed his hominy and bread and butter and milk, and reflected on the futility of the sacrifice he had made, since his father insisted on selling everything for old metal; but he said nothing, because he was dreadfully disappointed.
Near the town they met the postman. As a rule Barbara got the mail when she went to market, and Overholt was not even going to ask the man if there were any letters for him. But the postman stopped him. There was one from his wife, and it was registered. He signed the little receipt for it, the man passed them on his rounds, and they slackened their pace as Overholt broke the seal.
He uttered a loud exclamation when he had glanced at the contents, and he stood still in the road. Newton stared at him in surprise.
“A thousand dollars!” he cried, overcome with amazement. “A thousand dollars! Oh, Helen, Helen — you’ve saved my life!”
He got to the side of the road and leaned against the fence, clutching the letter and the draft in his hand, and gazing into his son’s face, half crazy with delight.
“She’s saved it all for me, boy. Do you understand? Your mother has saved all her salary for the Motor, and here it is! Look at it, look at it! It’s success, it’s fame, it’s fortune for us all! Oh, if she were only here!”
Newton understood and rejoiced. He forgot his poor little attempt to help, and his own disappointment, and everything except the present glorious truth — not unadorned by the pleasant vision of the Christmas turkey, vast now, and smoking, and flanked by perfect towers of stiff cranberry jelly, ever so much better than mere liquid cranberry sauce; in the middle distance, behind the noble dish, a noble pyramid of ice-cream raised its height, and yellow cream-cakes rose beyond, like many little suns on the far horizon. In that first moment of delight there was almost a Christmas tree, and the mother’s face beside it; but that was too much; they faded, and the rest remained, no mean forecast of a jolly time.
“That’s perfectly grand!” Newton cried when he got his breath after his surprise at the announcement. “Besides, I told you so. What did I say? She wouldn’t let you give up the Motor! I knew she wouldn’t! Who’s ri
ght now, father? That’s something like what I call a mother! But then she always was!”
He was slightly incoherent, but that did not matter at all. Nothing mattered. In his young beatific vision he saw the bright wheel going round and round in a perfect storm of turkeys, and it was all his mother’s doing.
Overholt only half heard, for he had been reading the letter; the letter of a loving wife who believes in her husband and gives him all she has for his work, with every hope, every encouragement, and every blessing and Christmas wish.
“There’s no time to be lost!” Overholt said, repeating the words he had spoken in a very different mood and tone half an hour earlier. “I won’t walk on with you, my boy, for I must go back and get the wooden model for the foundry. They’ll do it for me now, fast enough! And I can pay what I owe at the bank, and there will be plenty left over for your Christmas too!”
“Oh, bother my Christmas, father!” answered Newton with a fine indifference which he did not feel. “The Motor’s the thing! I want to see that wheel go round for a Christmas present!”
“It will! It shall! It must! I promise you that!” The man was almost beside himself with joy.
No misgiving disturbed him. He had the faith that tosses mountains aside like pebbles, now that the means were in his hand. He had the little fulcrum for his lever, which was all Archimedes required to move the world. He had in him the certainty of being right that has sent millions of men to glory or destruction.
That day was one of the happiest in all his life, either before or, afterwards. He could have believed that he had fallen asleep at the moment when he had quite broken down, and that a hundred years of change had glided by, like a watch in the night, when he opened his wife’s letter and wakened in a blaze of joy and hope and glorious activity. Nothing he could remember of that kind could compare with his pride and honourable satisfaction when he walked into the bank two hours afterwards, with his head high, and said he should be glad to take up the note he had signed yesterday and have the balance of the cheque placed to his credit; and few surprises which the partner who had obliged him could recollect, had equalled that worthy gentleman’s amazement when the debt was paid so soon.
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