by Delisa Lynn
“Zan, I knew but I promised I wouldn’t say anything. Is she okay? What the fuck did he do?” I asked, I was getting angry I wanted to stomp the shit out of that Thayer character.
“Yeah, she is fine now. He broke her arm. Audrey called me. I’m going there now. I will be back in a few days.”
Fuck he must have found out she was talking to me. I kicked the wall on the restaurant and realized I kicked a little too hard, probably broke my fucking foot. I went back in the restaurant and Lila had a concerned look.
“Everything okay?” she asked
“Yes, just a friend that had a little trouble is all.” I said as if I didn’t care. Who the fuck was I kidding I was so pissed off, I could beat the fuck out of that fucker, and not care about anything else.
“Ready to order darlin’? I need a glass of wine, how about you?” Hell right now I needed a fucking keg and to play my guitar. I still can’t believe Tatum, went back to him.
“I would love a glass of wine. It has been such a long month. I never imagined college would be this hard. Also being away from my family and friends, is driving me insane. I’m excited about going home for the holidays. What are you doing over break?” she asked and took a swig of her wine.
“I’m not sure yet, I really don’t want to go back home. I know my roommates will be leaving to head back to their families. I may just stay and play at Zeb’s every night.” I said with a wink.
“Evan, you can’t spend the holiday alone. You should be with your family and friends. I love to help my mom cook, and Addie and I always go shopping, while the guys watch football.” She said as she smiled, thinking of her family.
“We will see, I may go home. I know my folks would like it if I did.” I said trying to hide the fact that I didn’t want to go. I don’t know why I let what Bryn did to me make me hate being home. I’d moved on, but it seemed like everything in Utah screamed Bryn and baby!
I dropped her off and tried to convince her to stay here. She just laughed. And gave me a quick hug, as we parted I reach down and kissed her cheek.
It had been weeks since I spoke to Tatum, it was like I was borrowed time with her. I was still worried about her though. Lila and I had been getting closer. I wish she wasn’t going home for break. Hell I would love to stay cooped up with her all weekend.
Me: Hey beautiful, are you sure you don’t want to just stay with me all weekend? I will be lonely.
Lila: Sorry, but no! You will have Brody!
Me: He isn’t as pretty as you are
Lila: I will be back soon!
I packed my bags, I was either going home or to the farm. I still hadn’t decided. On my way to see what Brody was doing, my phone rang. I didn’t even look at it, I assumed it was Lila, because she was just texting me.
“Hello darlin’, you change your mind?”
“Change my mind about what, Evan?”
“Oh, hey Tatum. Everything okay? I thought you were someone else.”
“Will you please come home with Zander? I miss you and want to see you, I think we should talk.”
“Ahh, I guess I could. I will see you soon.”
“Yay, thank you. Be careful, love you.”
“Love you, Ta.”
Tatum wanted me to come to Birmingham with Zander, she said she needed to talk. I had never told Zan about my feelings for his sister. Of course he would rather see her be with me than Thayer.
“Hey Brody, I think I’m just going to head to out with Zander. I would like to see my grandparents.” I said as I sat next to him on the couch.
“Evan, I know you aren’t going to see Pap and Gran, it’s Tatum Kelley who you really want to see. You can’t fool me, bro.”
I ran my hands through my hair and looked at my best friend, he was right. I was going to see her. I can’t believe I was, considering I had try to get her out of my mind.
“Man, you are so right. Between her and Lila, they have my mind going crazy! I’m chasing them both around, hell I haven’t been laid in months. I just don’t know where the fuck I stand with either of them.” I said as Brody cocked his head back and laughed.
“Well you need to figure out what you want. Or see what the hell kind of games they are playing. I’m telling you, Lila has a dude. I guess he was here a couple weeks ago. Nikki didn’t see him, but he was at the townhouse with Lila.” Brody said as he stood up.
She was fucking her boyfriend, then hung out with me?
“Alright, man I have a plane to catch. I will see you next week. I will go see your parents, too.”
“Thanks Brody, have a safe flight.” I said as he walked out the door. I was waiting for Zander, he was with Heather. Now the two of them, they was on a day off the next day. She had him wrapped.
I loved seeing the look on my grans face, I hadn’t told them I would be there. She was in the kitchen, baking pies just as she always did.
“Evan, baby. What a great surprise. Your father didn’t tell me you was coming out for Thanksgiving. Do they know you are here?” she said with a look of concern.
“Yes Gran, I told them this morning. How could I miss having a wonderful dinner with my favorite girl?” I winked and then placed and kiss on her cheek.
“Oh son, you are so handsome. You remind me so much of your pap, when he was your age. Have you seen Tatum yet?” she said has she slung a dishtowel over her shoulder.
“No Ma’am, you know she has a boyfriend Gran? I’m kind of seeing someone from NYU. Her name is Lila and she is from California.” I wasn’t lying because I had been hanging out with her. I was just leaving out the fact she seemed to be involved with someone else.
“That reminds me Gran, I would like to have a couple jars of your apple butter and jelly to take back with me, if that’s okay?” I said, hell Brody and I loved that stuff, but I also wanted to give some to Lila.
“Of course, you can son. I will get you a box together. I worry about you boys out in that big ol’ city all alone.” Gran said has she patted my arms.
I gave her a quick kiss and went out to see Pap. He spent all his time in the barn or in the pasture. He was close to seventy years old and had the energy of a thirty year old. And of course Mr. Kelley was with him.
“Well I will be, it’s my favorite grandson.” Pap said as he hugged me.
“Sir, I’m your only grandson.” I said with a laugh.
“How are you doing Mr. Kelley?” I asked as I shook his hand.
“I’m good, how is New York treating you and my son. You aren’t having any wild parties are ya?” he said and laughed as he patted my back.
“No Sir, we are doing well. No big parties, just focusing on classes.” I said to the two men.
My phone started vibrating, I looked down and it was a text from Tatum. She said to meet her at the swimming hole. So I excused myself and headed that way. The weather was great, it wasn’t hot or cold just perfect. I could see her from a distance she must have been here already.
“Hey you, what’s all this about?” I said as I lean in to give her a hug. God, I loved touching her.
“Evan, I missed you. I don’t know what these feeling are but they are all new to me. I’m engaged to Thayer and I thought I loved him. But all I do is think about you.” She said as a tear rolled down her cheek.
“Oh fuck, baby, I have them too. I love you Tatum, and I would give up everything for you. My heart has been broken once, and I don’t know what’s going on with us, and it scares the piss out of me.
She leaned her back into my chest. The sweet scent of her, sent chills through me. I leaned my head down and placed a small kiss on her neck. She let out a small moan, I could feel her heart beating rapidly.
“Evan, I don’t know what’s going on. I have never felt this way about anyone but you. I have always loved you, and always will. I can’t leave him though. It would hurt him.” She said as she faced me and put her hand on my face.
“Hurt him? Look what he has done to you baby. He has hurt you more than once. He will
get over you, let him know what it feels like to be hurt.” I said as I cupped her chin in my hand.
She ran her hand over mine, I put both hands on either side of her face. I pulled her closer to me and I felt the heat from her breath on my lips, I grazed her lips with mine. She let a small moan escape her mouth as she fell in my arms and shoved her tongue in my mouth. Our tongues explored and I caressed her in my arms, I could feel the heat of her on my legs as my arousal was pushing hard into her.
We both were panting, I laid her on the ground and didn’t take my mouth off of hers. I ran my hand up her shirt, her skin was so soft. I felt her lacey bra. I moved my mouth from hers and down her neck. I slid my hand under her skirt. I wanted to rip the thong from between her legs. I moved it to the side and slid a finger in her. “Jesus Ta, you are so wet.” I said as I started circling her clit with my thumb.
“Evan, I have never wanted anyone as bad as I want you right now. Please... I need you. Make love to me. I have never wanted to be fucked so badly in my life.”
I lifted her shirt with my other hand, her bra fastened in the front, I unfastened it and her breasts took my breath away. I took her right nipple in my mouth as I slid my finger deeper into her wet opening. She started moving faster and faster. She arched her back, threw her head back and exploded all over my fingers.
“That was amazing, Evan. I love you so much, I just don’t know what to do. Is this wrong? I mean I know it’s wrong, but fuck…It feels so right. And no it’s just not my vajayjay talking. It’s all of me. Please can we just pretend like no one else matters right now?” she said as she started kissing me hard, she pushed me down and straddled me. She was grinding on me and had me so hard, my zipper was imprinting my cock.
I wanted to be buried balls deep inside of her sexiness. I couldn’t though. I had a conscious and I knew she was engaged to someone else. I wanted more than anything to unzip my pants and bury myself in that sweet pussy.
“Tatum, we can’t do this love. It’s all wrong, I can’t do this here or now.” I said sitting up, she started crying. Fuck, one minute I give her the greatest orgasm she has probably ever had, and now I made her cry.
“Don’t cry baby, I want you. Trust me, I want you more than any fucking thing. It’s just wrong right now. You are going to marry someone else. Thayer is going to be your life. If you tell me right now, you will leave him for me I will make love to you up and down this river bank. But I can’t as long as I know you are going back to his bed.” I said as I felt the unshed tears forming in my eyes.
“I can’t Evan, I have to go back to Thayer. He is my fiancé and he loves me.” She said as she stood up and fixed her clothes.
“Where do we go from here? Tatum, I can’t lose you as a friend. I love you to goddamn much.”
“Evan, I don’t know what’s going to happen. I will always love you.” She said as she placed a kiss to my lips and walked away.
Thanksgiving ended up being very awkward, I knew Zander sensed the vibe between his sister and me. She left that day and didn’t speak to me again. We all had dinner and she just talked when spoken to. I hated that I hurt her, but I just couldn’t be with her knowing she was going back to him.
I called and text Lila, several times and never heard anything back from her. I was getting kind of worried, because she always returned my messages. I was meeting her at the airport, so I just went in hopes that she would be there. I could see her walking toward me, she had a huge smile on her face. The closer we got to each other I could feel my smile spreading.
“I have missed you, gorgeous” I said as I pulled her in for a hug and kissed her cheek. I decided not to tell her about Tatum, just in case what we had was going somewhere, I didn’t want her to be jealous. Because Tatum would always be in my life, no matter who I was with.
“Evan, I missed you too. There is something I need to tell you though, please don’t be mad at me. But I have a boyfriend, his name is Liam and he is Addison’s cousin. We have been together for about nine months, he is in the Army. I just didn’t know how to tell you, I really like you and enjoy our time together.”
“He is the one that was there when your ex cheated on you, his cousin. I’m sorry I just assumed you were single, you had never mentioned anyone. I understand though.” I said as I placed my hand on her hand.
“Still friends?”
“Of course we are, darlin’.”
“Good, I was afraid of losing you.” She said with a slight frown.
“Never going to happen love.” I said as I rubbed my hand on hers.
I dropped her, off and went home. I had so much going through my fucking mind. I called Zeb’s to see if I could come and play. I just wanted to get lost in the music. No country music tonight though, I told the manager I would play something different and they would still love it. I headed over to the bar.
“How y’all doing tonight? Most if you already know who I’m, but if you don’t, my name is Evan and I’m a law student at NYU. I love country music, but tonight I’m going to do a something a little different. I hope you all enjoy.” I said as I placed my feet on my stool.
I started singing the lyrics of Nickleback’s “Trying Not to Love You.” I had never played this type of song on my guitar and I was a little nervous, but it was a goddamn hit. Everyone was clapping and whistling. I felt really good, I had a couple beers in me already.
I thought hell I will do another one. Next I played “Life After You” by Daughtry. Everyone loved it also. I looked over and seen Alyssa and Cara standing at the bar. Fuck, Alyssa was licking her lips. I knew when she done that, what she wanted. The way I was feeling, I may just fuck the hell out of her tonight. I finished my song and stepped off the stage.
“Hey, Evan that was gre…” Was all Alyssa could get out before I slammed my mouth into hers. I didn’t want her but I needed her, I needed to relieve all of my stress and she would be that and the distraction I needed.
“Let’s go to your place, now!” I growled
She didn’t say anything she followed me out the door. There was no one at her place. I hadn’t fucked her in so long, I will be honest she isn’t good in bed at all. But I could let loose with her.
She started taking my clothes off, one thing about her she gave the best blow jobs ever! I wrapped my hands in her hair, as I pushed her mouth further down my cock. I just needed to be inside of her. I grabbed a condom and rolled it on and flipped her over.
I pushed myself so deep inside of her I had her crying, wanting more. With every thrust, I tried to get Tatum out of my head. I hadn’t had sex in so long, I didn’t know how long I would last, I wasn’t attracted to Alyssa at all, but I just kept seeing Tatum’s face, every time I slid in and out and with every motion of her hips pushing into me, it was Tatum I imagined fucking. I could feel my build up getting ready to release. I wanted to make sure she was getting hers to. I took my hand from her hip, and started massaging her clit. She was getting ready to explode all around me, just as I gave her one last hard thrust we both climaxed in unison. I had pushed into her so hard she fell down and I fell on top of her.
“Thanks Alyssa, I really needed that.” I said as I kissed her cheek. She smiled and started rubbing my side.
“I told you, no one will love you as much as I do. Stay with me tonight, please?” she asked
“Can’t, it’s getting late. I better go.” I said, she made a pouty face and wrapped a blanket around her. I walked into her bathroom and disposed of the condom and took a towel and cleaned myself off. I got a wash cloth nice and warm and took it to her, so she could clean herself up.
“I’ll show myself out, I will see you later. Have a good night.” I said as I walked out of her bedroom and never looked backed at her. I got in the car, and thought what the fuck did I do? I needed to go home and shower and wash all of Alyssa off of me, the one bitch I can’t stand I always end up running to.
Lila had text me a few times, but I never replied. Of course since that night Alyssa and I had
been together she was always around. I was standing in the library with Alyssa, well she was there we wasn’t there together. Lila walks over to us and she looked so fucking jealous.
“Hey Lila, you remember Alyssa don’t you?” I said has I moved my arm in front of the two women.
“Yes, I do! How are you, doll?” she said to Alyssa with that valley girl attitude. Holy hell she is jealous.
Alyssa didn’t say anything, she kissed my cheek and walked away.
“Can we talk Evan?” Lila asked with a frustrated tone.
“Yes, everything okay?” I asked with a concerned look as I ran my hand threw my hair.
“I just wanted to make sure we are okay?” she finally whispered.
“Absolutely, we are good Lila. Would you like to grab dinner?” I asked, I knew she had plans with Nikki because Brody had already told me.
“I have plans with Nik, maybe the four of us can go?” she said as she leaned against a book case. God she was beautiful.
“Okay, sounds great. I will see you tonight.” I said as I kissed her cheek, I could see the look in her eyes. I just walked away. FUCK….What the hell is going on, everything I want belongs to someone else. These girls are going to kill me. I don’t even feel like going back to class. I was going the shoot some pool. Luckily Brody was already done with classes for the day and went with me.
Alyssa text me and wanted to go to dinner with us. I wanted to say no so bad, but I knew it would send fire through Lila, so I took her with me. I see the girls walking through the restaurant, but they had some guy with them. Oh this better not be fucking Army boy.
She never said he was in town. I could feel my fist cringe as they approached the table. It was Nikki who introduced him though, he was her friend from Ohio. His name was Cameron or some shit. The look on Brody’s face, looked like he had shit a brick. He and Nikki had been seeing each other for months now, and now she brings this dude to dinner. Just glad he wasn’t that Liam fucker.