by Delisa Lynn
“You probably do, you damn dicktwat.” She yelled as she placed her hands on her hips.
“Fuck...” Zander roared
Then Zander grabbed Audrey and kissed her so hard that Tatum and I are both stared at them. I didn’t know what to say. I just laughed at them. Looked like we were going be one big happy family.
It had been eight weeks since I’d seen Lila and since Tatum and I have become a couple. I told her everything about Bryn, and how I thought falling in love with Lila would take my mind away from her. Tatum knew that I loved her and she loved me. She moved into the loft with me, eventually we would move to the farm. I would be opening a practice there and Zander would be helping me run it. I’d been so busy with Tatum that I haven’t talked to Brody. I hoped everything is okay with him.
Alyssa finally took the hint, and wasn’t coming around anymore. She wasn’t happy that, I was with Tatum and I honestly think that Audrey or Tatum said something to her, because I haven’t seen her in weeks. Not that I miss her, she was so annoying and would never go away.
Tonight was the night that Tatum and I were going to finally make love. It had been years in the making and it was happening tonight. I was working late but I had big plans; I was having dinner delivered along with ten dozen roses, a dozen for each year that Tatum and I should had been together. I went to the lingerie shop and picked her out a sexy nighty. Hell, it was making me hard just thinking about her. I’d wanted that night for so long.
When I got back from lunch I had a message from Brody. I called him back because it sounded urgent.
“Hey Brody, it’s been a while is everything okay?” I asked I could tell his voice was kind of low.
“Evan, Lila was in a bad accident and they don’t think she will wake up. I thought you should know. It happened on her way home from New York. Nikki has been there two months basically.”
“I’m just now finding this out? You couldn’t call me when it happened?” I seethed
“Dude, it wasn’t my place. I’m sorry, but she is at the hospital where Addison was if you want to go see her.”
“Thanks Brody, I have had a lot going on. Tatum and I are together now. It’s a long story, I will fill you in later. Thanks for calling me.” I said as I hung up.
I had to go see Lila, I needed to tell Ta everything. Including the last night Lila and I were together. I called her and asked her to pack us a bag, and told her we were flying to San Francisco. She didn’t ask any questions and she met me at work. We headed to the airport, where I laid everything out. I told her everything about Lila from day one until two months ago. She said she understood everything and was glad I was going to see her.
We arrived at the hospital and I asked the front desk what room she was in, she was in ICU and I was informed only family was allowed to visit. They told me her husband was up there. I found Liam, and talked to him. He surprised the hell out of me, he shook my hand and thanked me for coming. I introduced him to Tatum, who still had some bruising. She said she would wait while I went into see Lila. Liam said that she may never wake up. I guess the plane crashed on her way home that night.
She looked so peaceful, just like she did when she slept. She was in a coma, and they said sometimes people in comas can hear you. So I talked to her just as I would if she was awake.
“Hey Lila, it’s Evan. I’m so sorry this happened to you. So much has happened in the last two months, you know you need to wake up for your girls and for Liam. They love you so much. He looks so lost without you. I don’t think he would ever be able to move on if something happened to you. You’re his world, Lila. I know you may not be able to hear me but I love you and always will, but I have moved on. Remember Tatum? She is Zander’s sister. We finally found our way back to each other. You would actually like her, you both have a lot of the same qualities.
She’s had a tough time lately, her fiancé whom she didn’t love, has basically held her hostage and beat her daily and then tried to kill her. She will be okay now though, I’m going to take good care of her. Now you darlin’, you need to wake up so Liam can continue to take care of you. He needs you Lila. Remember that time we went ice skating? You looked like Bambi skating. You need to wake up and tell your girls that story. I’m sure they would love it. Lila, love, you know I will love you until my last breath, we had some good times. You’re not done living though, you have such a great future ahead of you.
Come on just wake up and live that life. The one you dreamed of. I better go for now, but remember you have so many people that need you. Nikki really needs help planning that big wedding of hers. So get better, baby, I love you Lila Ray.” I said as I kissed her forehead, and I walked out to my future.
“Liam, thanks for letting me see her. I appreciate it. I wish you all the best and please call me if anything changes.” I said as I shook his hand.
“Thank you Evan, I know how much she loves you and you her. I will let you know what happens. Hey would you and Tatum, like to meet Addie and Maddie? They’re in the cafeteria with my mom.”
“That would be great Liam. Thank you.” I said as I grabbed Tatum’s hand and followed him down the hall.
“Hey girls, these are mommy’s friends, Evan and Tatum. Can you say hello to them?”
“Hi, Evun and Matum. Nice meet you Mummie’s friends.” Said Addie
“Hi, yeah meet you like Addie say.” Said Maddie
“Hi girls, you both look like your mommy and I have heard so much about you from your Aunt Nikki.” I said not letting Liam know I seen Lila last month.
“You, kno Aunt Nici?” said Maddie
“Yes, I went to school with her and your mom, and Uncle Brody is my best friend.”
They both giggled and hugged me. It made my heart melt.
“Our mummy is sweeping, her wake up soon the octor say.”
“Yes she will.” I said to Addie.
“I better go, it was nice meeting you two. Take care of your daddy while mommy is sleeping.” I said as I hugged them and they hugged Tatum, too.
We left the hospital and went to a hotel. That was one of the hardest things I had to do, other than bury my mother. Poor Liam, he was so pale and looked like he hadn’t slept in weeks. I couldn’t imagine. I still loved Lila but my life was Tatum. She was mine and Lila was Liam’s.
“Evan, you did really well considering everything. I’m really proud of you, babe.” Tatum said as she held my hand.
“Thanks love, I meant everything I said to you. Now we are having our night.” I said with a wink.
“Oh, I’m more than ready, if you want, you can just take me right here.”
“Hell no, I have waited to damn long to make love to you and it is going to be in a bed, where I can do whatever I want.”
“Well, you better drive fast because just thinking about you inside of me as my wet as hell.” She laughed
Once in the hotel room, I turned on the radio and “Fall” by Clay Walker was playing, that was the perfect song for Tatum and me. We had overcame so many obstacles, and finally she was mine and I needed her to fall into my arms.
I started kissing her and she was panting so hard, this was the moment we had both waited for. I took all of her clothes off and she laid on the bed, I took my clothes off and started kissing her all over. “Baby, I don’t think I can do anything, but make love. I need to be in you now.” I said as I rub myself against her.
“Evan, just give me all of you, we can do the other stuff later. Right now all I want to feel is you inside of me, I have wanted to feel you inside of me for so damn long, its time.” She said as she stroked me and started to guide me inside of her sexiness.
“Goddamn baby, you feel so good.” I said kissing her.
“Hmm… Evan, I love you so much. Give me it all, please don’t hold back. You won’t hurt me.”
“Are you sure, you know the doctor said eight weeks?”
“I know and I’m fine. Just give me everything you got.” She said as she grabbed my ass. I couldn�
�t believe she was finally mine, Tatum Kelley was mine. I’d loved her so long. Loving two woman at the same time was a fucking headache, I will always love Lila, but this was where I belong. Right in the arms of my girl. I wanted to thrust into her so hard, but I didn’t want to hurt her though. She kept wiggling under me and finally I was going to give her exactly what she wanted.
“Oh hell baby, I will give you all of me.” I said as I started making love to her nice and hard like she wanted. I don’t know if it’s was because we had waited for so long or what, but that was the best damn sex I’d ever had. I felt her arch her back and knew she was coming, I rode mine out with her. I laid next to my sweet woman and said, “Tatum, I love you.”
She laughed and said, “Evan, I love you, too.”
“Ta, will you be my wife?” I asked as I propped myself up on my elbow.
“What? Evan, I would love to be your wife! That’s the greatest proposal ever. You make sweet love to me then ask me to be your wife. Epic… Evan… Epic.” She laughed and a huge smile appeared on her face.
“Well I can wait to ask you, but I thought we could go pick the ring out together at Tiffany’s since we were planning on going shopping in Hollywood anyways.” I said as I kiss her nose. Her beautiful smile spread across her face.
“Yes! Hell yes I will. I have dreamed of being Mrs. Evan Martin since you kissed me on the way to Mable’s when I was thirteen. I need to call Audrey, she is going to fucking scream.” She said laughing
“Really calling Audrey now?” I laugh
“Okay, I will wait until we pick out the ring.” She said as she straddled me.
“I love you, Tatum Kelley, soon to be Mrs. Evan Martin.”
Tatum
Present
Life with Evan is perfect. We’ve been together seven months. He is amazing and we went to pick out a ring just as he said. It is a three carat princess cut diamond and it never leaves my finger. We’re having a house built back in Alabama, close to Evan’s grandparent’s farm. I’m almost finished with school but decided to put it on hold, for now. Evan and I are expecting our first child in six months. Yes, we are pregnant. Things couldn’t be better.
Thayer was found guilty for everything, and he will be spending the next twenty years in prison, I didn’t get charged for shooting him. They said it was self-defense.
Evan’s overfriendly friend Alyssa, hasn’t come around much. I bluntly told her that, he was mine and she wasn’t welcomed in our home. I know that she was his friend, but that bitch has some serious issues. I’ve heard all of the crap she has pulled with Evan. Audrey never missed a beat on keeping me updated on the man I was in love with. She actually confronted Alyssa several times, but she didn’t take the hint. She understood me clearly, I made sure of it. I don’t think she will call Evan again.
My parents are so excited about Evan and me. So is Gran, I think she always knew I would be a part of the family. Evan works very hard to take care of us, he and Zander are working on opening up the practice in Birmingham. It will be about twenty miles from the farm. They still haven’t decided on a name for it, they are so indecisive.
The day that changed everything keeps replaying in my head. I had wanted to leave Thayer for so long, he wouldn’t let me though, and he knew I had always loved Evan. He always threated that he would kill us both if I left. Finally that night I had enough.
I had made dinner and we ate, and was going to bed, I hadn’t felt well considering I was at the time three months pregnant with Thayer’s child. I had been having complications and wanted to sleep, well he had other plans for me.
He wanted to have sex and because I wouldn’t, he started hitting me. I was used to it by now. The only thing was now I had someone else to worry about, so I tried to perform just so he wouldn’t hurt the baby. Well it wasn’t good enough for him, he kept saying I was cheating and the baby wasn’t his, and if he couldn’t have me no one could. I tried to explain and he just kept getting more frustrated, and he pushed me down and started kicking me.
Well Audrey, my wonderful friend, had given me a gun, and I kept it under my side of the bed. So as he was kicking me, I knew he had already hurt my baby, I took the gun and tried to shoot him, but again, he had other plans. He took the gun from me and I thought for sure I was dead, he shot me in the side and said, “Now his baby is dead and you will be next. Then I will kill him.” Meaning Evan, who I hadn’t seen in years. I never had sex with anyone other than Thayer.
Once he shot me and saw the blood, he freaked out and was trying to stop the bleeding. All I could think about was getting out of there. I could hear Audrey in my head cussing Thayer and telling me to kill that dicktwat. Adrenaline kicked in as I jumped up took the gun, and wanted to hurt him but not kill him. “This is for all the years of torture you have put me through Thayer. I hope in prison you are someone’s prison bitch and they rape you just like you did me all those times. I hate you, you are nothing but a dirty mother fucking dickweed” Then I shot him in the shoulder. I wanted to blow his dick off. I hated him, and I hated that I ever let him touch me the way he did.
“Ta, baby are you okay?” Evan asks as he lays beside me
“I’m more than alright, I’m the happiest woman in the world. No matter what happens, we will be by your side.” I say to my sexy man.
“Okay, get some sleep, we have a long trip tomorrow and I don’t want you or the baby not getting your rest.” He said then he put his head on my stomach
“Hey there Peanut, your momma and daddy love you so much. We’re going to decorate your room in a couple weeks. I know you are a boy, your momma swears you are a girl. Now you get some rest. Daddy loves you Peanut.”
“Evan, you are perfect, after everything we’ve been through. I wouldn’t change it though because it brought us together.” I say as I kiss him good night.
Update on Lila…
She finally regained consciousness, and she is also pregnant. It possibly could be Evan’s, considering she slept with him around the time she conceived. They waited to tell him and did so about a week ago. I honestly think they hadn’t planned on telling him, but Brody and Nikki will be getting married in a few weeks and we all will be attending the wedding. Her due date is only a week away. Deep down, I pray it isn’t Evan’s baby. But it will not change the way I feel about him or change us. Lila played him for so long, I know how she feels though, she loves Evan. Audrey had told me how Lila looked at Evan when she saw them together. I couldn’t hate her after everything even if I tried. Who the hell wouldn’t love Evan, he is the perfect man.
I had waited so long to be with him. Every day I’d hope and pray that someday I would be his. When Zander told me he was engaged to Lila years ago, I thought I’d lost him forever. Then when I found out what she’d done to him, I wanted to choke her and hug her at the same damn time. He was free to be with me, the only problem was I couldn’t get away from Thayer, until that horrible day. No matter what, I will be by his side just as I said I would. No one can hurt us as bad as we have been hurt already. Lila Borrowed his heart until I could keep it, now his heart isn’t Borrowed, it’s mine.
~This Is Our Forever~
These are all the songs I listened to while writing Borrowed. Each one has a meaning for different characters. Not all of the songs are in the book. I have listened to each one over and over. I love country music and the fact that Evan Martin is a country boy, these songs fit him perfectly. There are several songs that fit Evan and Lila and Evan and Tatum. You can listen to this playlist on Spotify.
The Best Of Me by Brantley Gilbert
Laughed Until We Cried by Jason Aldean
I Don’t Do Lonely Well by Jason Aldean
Let Me Down Easy by Billy Currington
She’s Everything by Brad Paisley
I Told You So by Carrie Underwood
Paint Me A Birmingham by Tracy Lawrence
Fall Into Me by Brantley Gilbert
Life After You by Daughtry
Trying Not To L
ove You by Nickelback
New Favorite Memory by Brad Paisley
Hot In Here by Nelly
The Trouble With Girls by Scotty McCrery
See You Again by Carrie Underwood
A Little Bit Stronger by Sara Evans
Solider by Gavin Degraw
Find Yourself by Brad Paisley
I Won’t Let Go by Rascal Flatts
Without You by Keith Urban
Fall by Clay Walker
What Comes Around Goes Around by Justin Timberlake
Halo by Beyoncé
Hurt by Christina Aguilera
My name is Delisa Lynn, I grew up in Columbus Ohio, I am currently residing in Western New York. I love music, all generations, I do have a soft spot for country and 80’s hair bands. My favorite season is fall, I love the weather that time of the year, watching the leaves change and most of all being able to watch football. Go Bucks!! I am also a 49ers fan and New York Yankees fan. My favorite color is pink, not baby pink hot pink. My mother in law thought I was joking when I asked her to add hot pink in my wedding dress. I’m married to my high school sweet heart, we have been together going on nineteen years, sometimes I can’t stand him but I wouldn’t trade him for the world. I love you Jay. Our baby is a five year old spoiled Yorki named Sophie and yes she thinks she is human.
I have always had a passion for reading and writing. I remember being around eight or nine years old reading my Mama’s romance magazines. Then once I got a little older I was reading full length novels by the time I was thirteen. I remember my freshman year in high school, I told my English teacher I wanted to be a writer he laughed when I said I wanted to write love stories. So Mr. Gatti look at me now. Of course it took me twenty plus years to get here. I have a very vivid imagination and have always felt I should express it in my writing. When I’m not writing you can find me snuggled with my hubby watching a movie, or cuddled in the corner of the couch with my fur baby reading.