The sound system was deafening, making conversation impossible, but by the look of it there was little if any interest in talking, just lots of body contact and flailing of limbs. I felt old. Hell, who an I kidding, I was old, it was just that my mind hadn't accepted it yet.
A bar ran the length of one side of the dancefloor, shiny black wood and brass rails, with half a dozen barmen in matching black trousers and waistcoats doing their best to deal with flow of orders. There was a crush at least three deep of people wanting to buy drinks, waving money and shouting to be heard above the brain-numbing music. Terry stopped and put her mouth up close against my right ear, so close I could feel her breath. I thought she was going to kiss me but instead she asked me what I wanted to drink. I put my mouth against her ear and said I'd better get it, she'd have no chance of getting through the crowds. She grinned and said that one of the barmen was a friend so I asked her for a vodka and tonic. She took me to a pillar and told me to stand there so that she could find me again and then she made her way to the bar for all the world like a black shark carving through a shoal of fish. She went to the far right of the bar where the crowd was thinner and where there was no barman serving and she stood on the footrest to give herself an extra six inches of height, but even so she didn't stick out and I reckoned it would be some time before she got served.
To my left a young guy in a red and green Mohican haircut and a t-shirt slashed with a dozen cuts gyrated in front of a girl with waist length blond hair in a tight rubber dress that left little to the imagination. Behind them two brunettes in matching leather outfits were dancing slowly and kissing, oblivious to the pulsating beat, lost in their own bodies. It was hot and I could feel sweat on my face and in the small of my back. I looked back at Terry. She still hadn't been served. She wasn't shouting or waving or doing anything that would attract the intention of any of the men behind the bar. Instead she seemed to be waiting and was staring intently at one of the barmen, a tall, thin guy with long black hair that was tied back in a feminine ponytail. He had long arms that seemed ungainly at first glance, jerkily moving from bottle to glass like a badly-manipulated puppet, but he was fast and never seemed to make a mistake. He had deep-set eyes and a narrow face which always appeared to be set in a frown with deep furrows across his brow. He seemed a very intense guy, and when he was taking orders he stared the customer right in the face, almost glaring at them, and then he'd nod curtly and fill the order. He always seemed to hear them correctly first time, he never asked them to repeat and, unlike the rest of the serving staff, he wasn't constantly leaning over the bar to hear better. It didn't seem to matter where he stood or how quietly the customer spoke. It was as if the music just wasn't there, as if he was working in total silence. He never spoke either, just keyed in the orders into the cash register and pointing when the customers queried the amount. He was deaf, I realised. He was deaf and he was lip-reading. He was doing it well, too, by the look of it.
He finished serving two lagers to a couple of men wearing studded dog collars and leather vests and then scanned the bar, his eyes widening when he saw Terry. He headed towards her, smiling widely. He raised his open right hand and moved it back and forth, sign language for hello.
She mimicked the gesture, pointed to her right ear and then made fists with both hands, moving them together then apart. The sign for noisy. She followed it by angling her fingers upright at right angles to her palms and then dropping both hands down. Then she put her left hand at chest height, palm down and moved it in an arc over the right hand. The two movements together signified tonight. Noisy tonight.
He nodded, pointed with his right finger and rotated it clockwise. Around the clock. Always.
He pointed at her and then pointed his index finger directly up, palm in front of his face and then rotated it anti-clockwise. You alone?
She waved her open right hand with the fingers together and the palm towards him made an S shape in the air. Never.
He laughed soundlessly.
She made two fists and brought the knuckles together, thumbs on top. With. She opened her fists and linked her hands together at the index fingers, separated them, switched positions and linked again. Friend. With friend. She meant me.
He laughed again, placing his two fists together, knuckles meeting, and waggled his thumbs towards each other. The sign for lovers.
She shook her head and repeated the sign for friend. My heart fell.
He pointed to his own chest, patted his forehead, and pointed at her. I know you.
She pointed at her own head with her right index finger and moved it clockwise. Crazy.
He looked past her, scanning the crowds, and caught me looking at him. He smiled and then looked back at her. He made a sign at his forehead, as if gripping the brim of an imaginary hat, and then pointed. The sign for he. He made a V sign with the first two fingers of his right hand and pointed at his eyes, then swung the fingertips out and away from his body. Watch. He watches.
Terry turned from the bar and saw me. She frowned and tilted her head on one side. The barman was laughing and began to serve a girl with platinum hair who was well over six foot tall and who had a tattoo of a fire-breathing dragon on one shoulder. Terry's hands began to fly in front of her body, she pointed to me, then put her hand against her head and flicked up her index finger, then pointed the index fingers of both hands up and made rising circling motions in front of her face, then pressed her thumbs and first fingers together and joined her hands and then moved them apart in a wavy motion. She had asked if I knew sign language. She did the movements quickly, as if testing me, and I had half a mind to pretend not to know what she was up to, but another part of me wanted to show off, to demonstrate that we had something in common.
Of course, I signed back. You sign well.
She grinned. You too. How come you can do it?
My sister is deaf, I signed.
Is she older or younger?
I put my fingertips on my chest then moved them up to just above my shoulders, then repeated the action several times, the sign of spirits bubbling up. Young. Deaf from birth, I signed. I learnt with her.
What's her name?
I signed her name letter by letter. Patricia. Terry frowned and signed back that she didn't understand. I realised my mistake, I'd used the British alphabet system which was different from the American version. I knew both because Patricia had had some deaf friends from the States and I'd met them several times. I spelt the name out again, this time using the American system.
Unlike the UK system it could be done with just the right hand.
This time Terry nodded and smiled.
I pointed to her, and then wiggled the fingertips of my right hand against my chin. You're cute.
She grinned and pointed her right index finger parallel to her lips, moving it from right to left.
Liar. Then she turned her back on me and caught the barman's eye again and ordered our drinks.
She brought them over, weaving her way through the throngs of crazies without spilling a drop. I was impressed. She was still wearing her sunglasses which I thought made her look kind of cute.
She clinked her glass against mine and said something in what sounded like Russian.
"What did you say?"
"It's a Russian toast."
"Cheers then."
"You want to dance?"
I surveyed the heaving crowds and shuddered. "I don't think so. They look as if they'd eat me alive."
She laughed. "Well I do. Hold this for me."
I took her glass and watched as she squeezed onto the dancefloor, found what passed for a space and began to move. She danced well, well enough for some of the guys to stop looking at their partners and to watch her instead. She had a good sense of rhythm and used the floor and was soon lost in the music. A tall, black guy in too-tight trousers and a white silk shirt open to the waist eased towards her and she smiled at him and they danced together as if they'd done it many time before. I was j
ealous, they looked good, and what they were doing was just about as sexual as you could get without touching. I envied him the way he seemed to know exactly what she was going to do next and he knew how to react to her. They'd be great in bed together, it was blindingly obvious, and I wanted to kill him. I looked away and saw the barman looking at me. He smiled and I grimaced.
Don't worry, he signed. They're just friends. They dance together, that's all.
I smiled back and lifted up the glasses to show that I couldn't sign back to him. He waved and went back to serving drinks. She danced with the guy for the best part of half an hour and then he delivered her back to me, kissed her on the cheek and gave me a mock bow before disappearing back into the sweating throng.
"You dance well," I said to her.
"I'd shitfire sure rather have danced with you, Jamie," she said, taking her glass. She put it, untouched, on a side table. She looked at her watch. "Come on, let's go."
"Where?"
"Trust me, Jamie. Just trust me."
She led me back outside, saying a dozen goodbyes as we left.
"You've a lot of friends," I said.
She shrugged. "I've been coming here a long time. It's a really neat place."
We walked back to the car, arm in arm, our footsteps echoing in the still night air. "Your namesake had a cat, you know?" she said.
"Who?"
"James Dean. A Siamese kitten. Elizabeth Taylor gave it to him. The night before he died he took it a neighbour's house. Everyone reckons he was a real macho type, you know, but he loved the kitten."
"What made you think of that?" I asked.
"Oh, I guess I was thinking about the questions you were asking me in the precinct house.
Remember? Do you prefer cats to dogs? Funny question, that."
"It's not the reply that's important, it's the fact that you can answer. Some psychotics can't make choices. It wasn't a trick question." Overhead hung the moon, pockmarked and accusing. The occasional car drove by but it was almost three o'clock so they were few and far between. We walked between two apartment buildings and I held her closer.
"Does that program, that Beaverbrook Program, always work?" she asked.
"I like to think so."
"Because I still don't, like, understand why you need a computer program to tell if someone is right in the head, you know?"
"Yeah, I know. Let me tell you a story."
"I'd like that," she said, and squeezed my hand.
"There was a guy called Rosenhan did some research in the early seventies. He told the staff of a teaching hospital that a number of fake patients would try to gain admission by claiming that they had symptoms of various mental illnesses."
"To check if they could spot them or not?"
"That's right. Each member of staff was asked to rate each new admission as to whether they were an impostor or not. Over a three-week period just under two hundred new patients were admitted, and at least one in five were reckoned to be faking it by at least one member of staff."
"So? That proves they knew what they were doing, right?"
"Wrong," I said. "They were all genuine patients. Rosenhan didn't send any impostors."
"Wow!"
"Yeah. He was making the point that often psychiatrists can't tell the difference between sane and insane people. Classification of mental disorders has always been pretty unreliable."
She turned her head to look behind us and then I heard someone running, the slap-slap of training shoes on the sidewalk. It was a man, a big man with wild, untamed hair and the beginnings of a beard. He was wearing a stained leather bomber jacket and torn jeans and he was heading right for us. I figured he was drunk maybe so I pulled Terry to one side to give him room to pass but as he drew closer it was clear from his staring eyes that we had a problem. We were the only three people on the street and he stopped running when he reached us. I held Terry tighter and she put her hand on my stomach as if seeking reassurance. The guy was breathing heavily and he ran a huge, dirt-encrusted hand across his unshaven chin. The other hand appeared from inside his jacket with a switchblade that must have been at least a foot long. He pressed a chrome button on the side and the blade sprang out with a metallic click. I felt Terry's hand tense on my stomach and then her nails scraped my flesh.
"Your fucking wallet," he said and thrust the knife to within an inch of my nose. "Give me your fucking wallet you mother or I'll slice your nose off."
"OK, OK, just don't hurt us," I said, keeping my voice low and my eyes averted. I'd been mugged twice before in LA, and I knew all the do's and dont's. Don't give them an excuse to hurt you, don't pose a threat, don't piss them off, just do as they say and appear to be as meek as possible, give them what they want and don't try to stop them getting away. Just remember as many details as possible so that you can tell the police afterwards, even though they've almost no chance of ever catching the guy. After the first mugging I began carrying around a spare wallet containing a few dollars and a couple of out-of-date credit cards but that was back home in my other jacket, I hadn't thought to bring it with me tonight. And the wallet in my back pocket had several hundred dollars in it and my gold Amex card. Damn. But no matter how much cash it contained I'd happily hand it over if it meant he wouldn't hurt me or Terry. Money I could always replace, even with my alimony payments. I reached into my back pocket and took out the wallet.
"Come on, come on, gimma the fucking wallet!" he hissed and touched the knife against the tip of my nose. I felt Terry's hand slide across my stomach as she stepped to the side, putting distance between the two of us. I didn't want that, it was better for him to regard us as a couple, as one entity, because if he saw her as an individual then he might start to get other ideas. I tried to reach for her hand but she moved away.
The mugger kept the knife on me but looked across at her. "Stay where you are, bitch!" he said.
A car drove along the street, a red pick-up, it slowed as it went by but then accelerated as if the driver had seen what was going on and hadn't wanted to get involved.
Terry spoke to the man in what sounded like Spanish. She took off her sunglasses and her eyes flashed. She was angry and she sounded it. Bad idea, I thought, if she wasn't careful she was going to push him over the edge, he was nervous enough as it was.
He grinned evilly and said something to her, also in Spanish. The knife wavered but not enough to make it worth my while trying to grab it, besides, he looked a hell of a lot stronger than me and I doubted that I'd be able to overpower him, with or without the knife. His grin changed into a leer and he said something else to her, his voice softer this time, and she cursed him. He laughed and he took the knife away from my face and moved towards her.
"Leave her alone!" I yelled and I grabbed for the knife. He swore and pulled it away and then slashed it across my arm. It was razor sharp and it sliced through the leather sleeve and I felt it cut into my flesh. As he pulled the knife away pain seared through my arm and I cried out and he drew back and then plunged the knife forward towards my chest. I thought I was going to die. I really did. But when the knife was an inch from my chest there was a blur and before I knew what had happened his arm had stopped moving and Terry had hold of his wrist. It was weird. One moment she was standing there, her arms by her side, the next she was reaching across my chest and was gripping his wrist, her eyes fixed on his. She seemed calm and relaxed, there was even a hint of a smile on her lips. He grunted and cursed and the veins on his neck stuck out as he pushed against her, but the knife moved no closer. I looked down and saw her nails digging deep into his flesh.
She spoke to him, quietly this time, still in Spanish but I could feel the menace in her voice. I was as hypnotised as he was and I stood there immobile, no longer feeling the pain in my arm.
He pushed harder but made no progress and then she moved, so quickly that later I couldn't remember how she'd done it, but one moment his arm was outstretched, the next it was bent back into an unnatural angle and there
was a splintering crack that made my blood run cold. He didn't scream, he passed out almost immediately and slumped to the ground as the knife clattered onto the sidewalk.
"Come on Jamie," she said, taking me by the arm. "I don't want us to have to explain this to the cops. We're, like, not on the best of terms at the moment."
We ran to the car and she insisted that I drove a mile or so before I checked the damage to my arm. When she was satisfied that we were far enough away from the would-be mugger did she tell me to pull to the side and take off my jacket. It was only a small cut, the thick leather had saved me from serious harm, and I doubted that it would even need a stitch. Terry took my hand and drew my arm up to her lips. She slowly licked along the skin until she came to the cut and then kissed the blood away. I could feel her tongue testing the edges of the wound, then a gentle sucking sensation.
"Hey, what are you doing?" I asked her.
She stopped sucking and lifted her head. There was blood on her lips and I was reminded of the first time I'd seen her, at the police station. "You don't know what he'd been doing with that blade," she said. "I'm cleaning the wound."
"What about AIDS?"
"Jamie, I hardly think you'll catch AIDS from a switchblade."
"Not me, you. You should be careful with blood."
She looked at me sternly. "Dr Beaverbrook, are you telling me that you're HIV positive?"
"No, of course not, it's just…"
She went back to licking the wound, her eyes on mine. It didn't hurt, far from it, it was soothing and, to be honest, downright sexy. I could see from her eyes that she was smiling and I reached over with my other arm and stroked her hair.
"You should be careful," I said.
"What do you mean?"
"Tackling that guy. God, he could have so easily killed you."
She snorted contemptuously. "Huh, in your dreams," she said. "There's nothing someone like him can do to hurt me. There's nothing anyone can do to hurt me, Jamie. Trust me."
"Everyone feels like that when they're young, Terry. You feel like you can live forever, that nothing can damage you. I used to feel the same, we all did. You feel that you'll walk away from any car crash, that a plane can explode and you'll be the only survivor, that you'll never get seriously sick, that you'll live forever. You feel like you're immortal."
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