He shook his head again. I saw that I was beginning to lose him. “I do not know what to think of this, Gwalchmai. If anyone else came to me with a story like this, I would laugh at him. But you…”
“I think that you must believe him,” Bedwyr interrupted softly. “I do not know that I have ever seen a man so deeply touched by the Otherworld.”
Agravain glared at his friend. “There is nothing wrong with my brother. True, he is a poor warrior, but that gives you no right to insult him.”
“I am not insulting him.” Bedwyr seemed mildly amused. “And I think he can look after his own honor. Gwalchmai, go on.”
“Lugh sent a boat from Tir Tairngaire, at the urging of the Light…”
“What is this ‘Light’ you keep talking about?” asked Agravain irritably. “The sun?”
“I think I understand,” Bedwyr said slowly. “In a sense, the sun. As the sun is a type of Light, since all other lights are ultimately derived from it, by reflection or by dependence with the rest of the world, so the Light which your brother speaks of is the source of good and of illumination, and other goods are known only in it. Yes, Cei, I did read it in a book of philosophy. But am I right?”
“I…I think so,” I said, astonished. “Yes, if I understand you. I do not know any philosophy. I know only that the Light sent a boat, and I embarked, and it took me to the Islands of the Blessed.”
“Oh God!” said Cei, at last releasing his growing anger. “How many have made that claim? And how many have been to those islands? None, because those islands do not exist outside the songs of poets! Agravain, you are my brother, but this brother of yours is another matter. He has been spinning gossamer from clouds of lies this whole while, and you’ve been taking it for true yarn. But I can’t. When you have had enough, I will be riding up ahead.”
“He is not lying, Cei,” said Bedwyr.
But Cei only gave me a look of disgust. “No, indeed. He is merely giving a poetic form to the concepts of philosophers, and discoursing upon the summum bonum or whatever you call it. This is a fine enough tale for Breton mystics and philosophers, Bedwyr, but I am a Dumnonian and a Roman, and I want no more of this.” He spurred his horse to a gallop and left us, reining in beside some other warrior.
“Go on,” said Agravain. “I will listen.”
But he was beginning to agree with Cei. “I am not lying,” I said.
“I do not say that you would, deliberately,” said Agravain, apparently deciding to be very honest. “But after what had passed, you could easily have had some kind of dream.”
“I thought it was a dream, when I woke up and found myself in Britain,” I said. “But I still had this.” I touched Caledvwlch’s hilt.
Agravain looked at it, his brows knitting. “A sword. I noticed it earlier. It looked to be worth a good amount. You think it was given to you in the Land of Promise?”
“It was, by Lugh, from the Light. When I woke up southeast of here, returning from Tir Tairngaire, I knew that I had not been dreaming or gone mad, because it lay beside me. Its name is Caledvwlch.”
Agravain glared at it. He was becoming angry now, and I dreaded the results of his anger. “A sword. A fine sword, as far as I can tell. Let me see the rest of it.”
I drew Caledvwlch. His eyebrows went up and he whistled. “Och, fine indeed; I should like such a sword. But it is not supernatural.”
Bedwyr stared at the bright steel for a moment, then looked away. He apparently did see something supernatural in it.
I considered making the fire burn in the blade, to show Agravain the power as well, but decided not to. It was too violent and obvious; an abuse of the power. Besides, I had no desire to be thought a witch, and I did not know the warriors. So, “Lugh gave it to me,” I reiterated.
Agravain snorted. He was rejecting the story now. Perhaps he could simply not accept it of me, of Gwalchmai, his weak, ineffectual little brother. “Go on,” he said, however. “You woke up with the sword, east of here, after spending—how long?—in the Isles of the Blessed.”
“It was nearly three years. It seemed only a day. But time was strange there. I woke in the hills in the borderland between the kingdom of Dumnonia and the land Cerdic claims, and when I was walking west I walked directly into a Saxon raiding party on its way back to Sorviodunum.”
Agravain calmed at this; this he could believe. “Couldn’t you tell a Saxon from a Roman?” he asked.
“I did not know where I was. For all I knew, I might be going to Constantinople, though I thought it unlikely. So I told them that I was a thrall, and my master had died in a blood feud, and they brought me back to Sorviodunum and sold me to Cerdic.”
“Why should he buy you? Did he suspect that you were a king’s son?”
“I don’t think so. Aldwulf of Bernicia told him to, and Aldwulf, like Bedwyr, or Sion, or most people these days, was not sure I was quite human when first he saw me.”
“That is ridiculous,” said Agravain. “Why should they think that? You did not, did you, Bedwyr?”
“Your brother is right,” said Bedwyr. “I think you underestimate him.”
“I know him better than you,” snapped Agravain. “Go on.”
“Aldwulf wanted to kill Arthur, as I said, and thought that if he killed me and used the sword, he could manage it, by sorcery. But he had conjured up a horse of the Sidhe for Cerdic, to prove his power in sorcery, a horse which could outrun and outstay any horse on earth. Cerdic was trying to break it, but could not. I could—you must remember that I was good with horses, though this one was different—and I did, and I rode it out of Sorviodunum as fast as possible.”
“Then where is it now?”
“I let him go. He was of the Sidhe; I had no right to keep him. That was the day before yesterday; and yesterday I met with that farmer you disliked and came to Ynys Witrin, where you came this morning.”
“A fine story,” said Agravain scornfully. “Very fine, indeed. But you forgot a few details, Gwalchmai. What about the hill-fort full of armed Saxons? But doubtless you slew them by the scores as you rode off on the king’s horse.”
“They did try to stop me, they just weren’t quick enough—no, I am not claiming any skill at arms. We both know better. But the Saxons were afraid. They did not think that I was human, and I had the sword.”
“Your sword! Why should they fear that?”
“It…I imagine it can be frightening.”
“Gwalchmai,” said Agravain, his voice level and controlled, but plainly very angry, “Cerdic’s warriors are not children to run away from a reputed magic sword. And what of the king, and Aldwulf of Bernicia? You say that Fflamddwyn is a sorcerer, and so his name and fame are in all Britain; couldn’t he have ruined that famous sword for you?”
“I do not think his power is that great,” I said, “I do not think anything could quench Caledvwlch, except its bearer. If I turned against the Light, since it is by Light that the sword burns…whatever. Aldwulf was unconscious when I left. I’d cut his face open with Caledvwlch.”
Agravain reined in his horse to a complete halt. “And how many Saxons did you kill leaving the camp?” he asked quietly.
I stopped the cart. Sion’s mare halted gladly, her sides heaving. “Three.” I knew what was coming now. “Agravain, I am not trying to claim that…”
“You have said enough,” Agravain went on firmly. The entire foraging band was halting now, and the warriors were turning their horses back or driving their carts forward to see what was happening. “The first part of your story I believe, the second is a dream or some confusion honestly and easily made, but this…this can be nothing other than an outright lie. You, striking down a Saxon king, and killing three of Cerdic’s warriors single-handed? You can’t even throw a spear straight.”
“Agravain, I said it was not from skill but…”
“Was it by m
agic, then? You said you’d rejected that, and rightly so.”
“No, it was not, but…”
“Then your tale is a tissue of lies,” Agravain proclaimed fiercely. “Nonsense you made up to give yourself some honor which you are afraid to win honestly in battle. You are hopeless as a warrior.”
“I've never said otherwise.”
“And I will show you how hopeless.” My brother ruthlessly thrust aside my attempts to fend off what was coming. “Get out of that cart and I will teach you not to lie…”
“I will lend you my horse,” Bedwyr said to me, quite suddenly, “and my spear and shield as well, so that you can fight as a warrior should.”
There was an instant of startled silence. “Thank you,” I said at last, slowly. “But I fear I will disgrace your weapons.”
“Perhaps,” said Bedwyr, “and perhaps not.”
“I wager he will,” said Cei cheerfully. “I stake a gold armlet that Agravain downs him. You are right, Agravain, to do this; no one could believe that tale but a Breton.”
“I would accept your stake,” said Bedwyr, “only I do not share your taste for jewelry. I have my reasons for believing the tale, Cei.”
Agravain scowled. He had wanted to fight me in the way he was best accustomed to, with his fists. But he decided that this would do. “Very well. Hurry. We must reach Camlann before too long.”
I climbed down from the cart, tying the reins to the corner post, and Bedwyr dismounted. He gave me his spear and shield, tying a rag around the point of the spear and telling me to use the butt end, then gave me the reins of his horse, which was a long-boned dappled Gaulish war-steed. I thanked him, feeling resigned to my inevitable defeat. It would be only another fall, I told myself. It could not hurt me.
I mounted Bedwyr’s horse and rode it in a tight circle, seeing how it responded and trying to get an idea of its temper. It was a good horse, though of course nothing like Ceincaled.
We moved off the road to the cleared land about it. Now that we had left the marshes behind, the road wound through steep hills, covered with plowed land and pasture. The pastureland by the roadside was soft, so a fall would not be very painful. The warriors of the band formed a circle, not really understanding what was happening, but interested. No one accepted Cei’s wager.
Agravain rode to the far side of the circle, levelled the blunt end of his spear, and nodded briskly. “I won’t hurt you,” he warned me, “But you must learn.”
I nodded, sighed, and raised my shield. He would be cheerful again once he had downed me, and it was a small enough price to pay for that. Still, I wished that he would believe me. It hurt a little that he could so quickly call me a liar.
Agravain urged his horse to a trot, angling his spear and following the line of the circle. I followed his example, trying to remember what I had struggled to learn in the Boys’ House. My brother saw I was ready and swung his horse towards me, touching it to a canter.
Suddenly, everything narrowed, and time itself seemed to slow as I touched Bedwyr’s horse to a gallop and rode to meet him. My heart soared, and I swung my spear out of line. Agravain saw it, smiled, confidently came in. The world narrowed further to his spear tip and right shoulder, and around these points all was blurred. He was almost upon me; I swerved my horse just half a step, caught his spear on the edge of my shield, sending it glancing off, dropped my own spear into line, and thrust it against his shoulder, braced for the impact.
Time resumed its normal flow, and Agravain fell from his horse, his eyes wide with surprise, as I reined in and turned my animal quickly, dropping my spear to threaten him.
He lay still for a moment, then rose, slowly, rubbing his shoulder and scowling in bewilderment. I came to myself and stared, first at him, then over at his horse, which was now nibbling the thick grass. I could not understand what had happened.
“We will try again,” said Agravain loudly. “Now.”
“It was an accident,” I said. “I could not do it again. I know that you’re the better warrior of us, Agravain.” Of course he was; it was his world.
“We’ll do it again, damn you!” shouted Agravain. He went over to his horse, remounted it, jerked savagely at the bit, and rode over to the opposite side of the circle.
“Cei,” said one of the warriors. “Is the wager still on?”
“If you want,” said Cei.
“Fair enough; I’ve armlets too.”
Agravain lowered his spear, and began trotting about the circle again. I did the same, waiting for him when he turned his horse nearly backward and came up with a swerving course. This time I reined suddenly as we approached, bringing Bedwyr’s horse rearing to a stop. Again everything contracted about us, and I felt even more clearly the wild lightness in my mind. Agravain was almost beside me, and his spear, aimed at my left thigh, was close. I beat it out of line with my shield, turning my horse and allowing his weight to join mine behind the spear as I thrust at Agravain’s side. Again, he fell; again his horse ran on, this time into the circle of warriors where it was caught.
Agravain rose to his feet. He was no longer scowling, but staring in total bewilderment, like a man who has seen the sun rising in the west. The madness was still on me, and I did not wish to speak, so I sat silent and unmoving, spear ready, and waited.
Agravain went and got his horse, remounted, levelled his spear. I rode to the opposite end of the circle and nodded.
He came at me immediately this time, at a full gallop. I hurled my spear, blunt end first, as he came, and rode on drawing Caledvwlch.
The spear hit his throat and glanced off, though he would surely have a bruise to show for it; had I thrown it tip first he would be dead. He almost fell as it hit him, but recovered in time, keeping his spear straight. His thrust as we drew even would have struck me through the ribs to the right of my shield, had it touched me—but I hacked at the shaft with Caledvwlch, and it snapped. Time froze, and I lifted the sword before Agravain’s horse could complete another step. The light was burning in the blade, and I was filled with a strength which seemed hardly to be my own. The world looked as though it had been etched on bright steel. I let all the force fall into my arm as I struck Agravain with the flat of the sword blade. He fell into the grass, his horse plunging slowly past me. He rolled over and lay still. There was a massive silence.
My head cleared a little and I sheathed the sword. Still Agravain lay motionless. The rest of the madness departed from me, and I dismounted hastily. “Agravain?” He did not move. I ran over to him. By the Light, how hard had I hit him? “Agravain?”
He shook his head groggily, then climbed to his knees, holding his arm where I had struck it. He stared at me. His face was white, beaded with sweat. He climbed slowly to his feet, still staring.
“Dear God,” he said, very slowly, each word falling into the ring of silence that was the watchers. “What have you become?”
“I said that you underestimated your brother.” Bedwyr walked forward, still calm and unshaken. “I think that you will find a place with Arthur, Gwalchmai ap Lot.”
“But the sword!” said Cei. “Didn’t you see the sword? It was burning. He…”
“The sword?” asked another, “Didn’t you see his eyes?”
Light! I thought desperately. Now they do believe that I am a witch.
“He has beaten Agravain of Orcade in fair combat, do any of you question that?” asked Bedwyr sharply.
“I question it,” said Cei immediately. “That was not fair combat. No ordinary mortal being could have…”
“It was a fair fight,” said Agravain. The warriors at once stopped glaring at me and stared at him instead. “It was a very fair fight, and long overdue. Gwalchmai is no witch, I swear the oath of my people to that. If any of you thinks otherwise, I am willing to fight again today. My brother is a warrior. God! By the sun, I have never fought anyone as good!�
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“It was an accident…” I began, still bewildered.
“It was not. You are better than I, and we both know that now.”
“One fall might have been an accident,” Bedwyr stated. “Three times constitutes proof. You are very good, Gwalchmai. Perhaps better than I.”
“That is absurd. You are the finest horseman in the Family,” objected Cei.
Bedwyr only smiled.
Cei shook his head violently. “Nothing of this makes sense. Swords cannot burn like firebrands. His story is impossible; but if it is true, where does that leave us? He is a sorcerer…”
“I said, nothing more about that!” Agravain snapped. “Whatever he was in the past, my brother is a warrior now.”
“How can I be?” I broke in. “I never could fight. You know that, Agravain. You must remember how I was in the Boys’ House, how I could not throw a spear straight…” Agravain rubbed his throat where my spear had caught it, but I plunged on. “Everyone knew that I was no warrior. Father was disappointed in me, I was disappointed in myself, so much that I was willing to give myself up to the Darkness from sheer anger and the pain of failing. How can I be a warrior?”
“You say that you laid open Aldwulf’s face with that?” Agravain began to point at Caledvwlch with the arm I had struck, then winced and clasped it again.
“I…yes, but…”
“And you killed three Saxons when you escaped from Din Sarum?”
“Yes, but Agravain…”
“There you are, then.” He turned to the others. “He has ruined Fflamddwyn’s good looks for him and fought against our enemies. Can you question that he is fighting for us?”
“We have only his account to rely on for that tale,” objected Cei.
“Do you accuse my brother of lying?” asked Agravain, trying to reach for his sword and wincing again.
Cei stopped, staring at my brother. Then he sighed and shrugged. He plainly thought that I was lying somehow, but he would not fight his friend for it. “I accuse no one,” he said. “But I will tell Arthur of this.”
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