by Brin, David
"And then what? You gonna attack a starship with your bow and arrows!"
Dwer held back from reminding Rety that his bow once seemed a treasure to her-a prize worth risking her life to steal.
"I'm leaving the arrows with you," he said. "They have steel tips. If I take 'em, they'll know I'm not an animal."
"They should ask me. I'd tell 'em real fast that you're-"
"wife, enough!"
The reedy voice came from Rety's tiny urrish "husband," who had been grooming her, flicking sand grains with his agile tongue.
"have sense, wife! brave boy make ship eyes look at him so you and me can get away! all his other talk-talk is fake stuff, nice-lies to make us go be safe. be good to brave boyman! least you can do!"
While Rety blinked at yee's rebuke, Dwer marveled. Did all urrish males treat their wives this way, chiding them from within the heavy folds of their brood pouches? Or was yee special? Did some prior mate eject him for scolding?
"Iz' at true, Dwer?" Rety asked. "You'd sacr'fice yourself for me?"
He tried reading her eyes, to judge which answer would make her do as she was told. Fading light forced him to guess.
"No, it's not true. I do have a plan. It's risky, but I want to give it a try."
Rety watched him as carefully as he had scanned her. Finally, she gave a curt laugh.
"What a liar. yee's right about you. Too dam' decent to survive without someone to watch over you."
Huh? Dwer thought. He had tried telling the truth, hoping it would convince her to go. Only Rety reacted in a way he did not expect.
"It's decided then," she affirmed with a look of resolve he knew too well. "I'm coming along, Dwer, whichever way you head. So if you want to save me, we better both get on west."
"This ain't west!" she whispered sharply, half a midura later.
Dwer ignored Rety as he peered ahead through the swampy gloom with water sloshing past his navel. Too bad we had to leave yee behind with our gear, he thought. The little urrish male provided his "wife" with a healthy dose of prudence and good judgment. But he could not stand getting wet.
Soon, Dwer hoped Rety's survival instincts would kick in and she'd shut up on her own.
They were nearly naked, wading through the reedy marsh toward a pair of rounded silhouettes, one larger-its smooth flanks glistening except where a sooty stain marred one side. The other lay beyond, crumpled and half-sunk amidships. Both victor and vanquished were silent under the pale yellow glow of Passen, Jijo's smallest moon.
Colonies of long-necked wallow swans nested in the thickets, dozing after a hard day spent hunting through the shallows and tending their broods. The nearest raised spear-shaped heads to blink at the two humans, then lowered their snouts as Dwer and Rety waded on by.
Mud covered Dwer and the sooner girl from head to toe, concealing some of their heat sign with steady evaporation. According to ancient lore, that should make the patrolling guard machine see them as smaller than they really were. Dwer also took a slow, meandering route, to foster the impression of foraging beasts.
Slender shapes with luminous scales darted below the water's surface, brushing Dwer's thighs with their flicking tails. A distant burst of splashing told of some nocturnal hunter at work among the clumps of sword-edged grass. Hungry things moved about in this wet jungle. Rety seemed to grasp this, and did not speak again for some time.
If only she knew how vague Dwer's plan was, Rety might howl loud enough to send all the sleeping waterfowl flapping for the sky. In fact, he was working from a hunch. He wanted to have a closer look at the untraeki ship . . . and to check out his impression of this swamp. In order to test his idea, he needed to attain a particular frame of mind.
What was I thinking about, that day when I first contacted-or hallucinated-the voice of One-of-a-Kind?
It happened some years ago. He had been on his first solo trek over the Rimmers, excited to be promoted from apprentice to master hunter, rilled with a spirit of freedom and adventure, for now he was one of the few Sixers licensed to roam wherever he wished, even far beyond the settled Slope. The world had seemed boundless.
And yet ... And yet, he still vividly recalled the moment, emerging from a narrow trail through the boo forest-a cathedral aisle as narrow as a man and seemingly high as a moon. Suddenly, the boo just stopped, spilling him onto a bowlshaped rocky expanse, under a vast blue sky. Before Dwer lay a mule lake, nestled in the mountain's flank, surrounded by fields of broken stone.
What he felt during that moment of disorienting transition was much more than welcome release from a closed space. A sense of opening up seemed to fill his mind, briefly expanding his ability to see-especially the tumulus of Buyur ruins. Abruptly, he beheld the ancient towers as they must have stood long ago, shimmering and proud. And for an instant, Dwer had felt strangely at home.
That was when he first heard the spider's voice, whispering, cajoling, urging him to accept a deal. A fair trade. With its help, Dwer might cease living, but he would never die. He could become one with the glorious past, and join the spider on a voyage into time.
Now, while sloshing under starlight through a murky bog, Dwer tried again for that feeling, that opening sensation. He could tell from the texture of this place-from its smell and feel-that mighty spires had also pierced the sky, only here they were much grander than at any mountain site. The job of demolition was far advanced-little remained to tear down or erase. Yet somehow he knew what stood where, and when.
Here a row of pure-white obelisks once greeted the sun, both mystical and pragmatic in their mathematically precise alignment.
Over there, Buyur legs once ponderously strode down a shopping arcade, filled with exotic goods.
Near that translucent fountain, contemplative Buyur minds occupied themselves with a multitude of tasks beyond his reckoning. And through the sky passed commerce from ten thousand worlds.
Down the avenues were heard voices . . . not just of Buyur, but a myriad of other types of thinking beings.
Surely it was a glorious time, though also fatiguing for any planet whose flesh must feed such an eager, busy civilization. After a million years of heavy use, Jijo badly needed rest. And the forces of wisdom granted it. All the busy voices moved on. The towers tumbled and a different kind of life took over here, one dedicated to erasing scars-a more patient, less frenzied type of being. . . .
Yes? Who . . . goes . . . ?
Words slithered through Dwer's mind, hesitantly at first.
Who calls ... rousing me from . . . drowsy musing?
Dwer's first urge was to dismiss it as merely his imagination. Had not his nervous system been palped and bruised from carrying the robot across icy streams? Delusions would be normal after that battering, followed by days of near starvation. Anyway, his habitual defense against Oneof-a-Kind had been to dismiss the mule spider's voice as a phantasm.
Who is a phantasm? I, a being who serenely outlasts empires? Or you, a mayfly, living and dying in the time it takes for me to dream a dream?
Dwer held off acknowledging the voice, even casually. First he wanted to be sure. Wading cautiously, he sought some of the vines he had glimpsed earlier, from the dune heights. A nearby hummock seemed likely. Despite covering vegetation, it had the orderly outlines of some ruined structure. Sure enough, Dwer soon found his way blocked by cables, some as thick as his wrist, all converging on the ancient building site. His nose twitched at the scent of dilute corrosive fluids, carried by the twisted vines.
"Hey, this is a mule swamp! We're walkin' right into a spider!"
Dwer nodded, acknowledging Rety's comment without words. If she wanted to leave, she knew the way back.
Spiders were common enough on the Slope. Youngsters went exploring through mule dens, though you risked getting acid burns if you weren't careful. Now and then, some village child died of a foolish mistake while venturing too deep, yet the attraction held. High-quality Buyur relics were often found where vine beasts slowly etched the rem
ains of bygone days.
Folk legends flourished about the creatures, whose bodies were made up by the vines themselves. Some described them talking to rare members of the Six, though Dwer had never met anyone else who admitted that it happened to them. He especially never heard of another mule spider like One-of-a-Kind, who actively lured living prey into its web, sealing "unique" treasures away in coffins of hardening jell.
You met that one? The mad spider of the heights?
You actually shared thoughts with it? And escaped?
How exceptionally interesting.
Your mind patterns are very clear for an ephemeral.
That is rare, as mayflies go. . . . How singular you are.
Yes, that was the way One-of-a-Kind used to speak to him. This creature was consistent. Or else Dwer's imagination was.
The words returned, carrying a note of pique.
You flatter yourself to think you could imagine an entity as sublime as myself! Though I admit, you are intriguing, for a transitory being.
So you need verification of my objective reality? How might I prove myself?
Rather than answer directly, Dwer kept his thoughts reserved. Languidly, he contemplated that it would be interesting to see the vines in front of him move.
As if at your command? An amusing concept.
But why not?
Come back in just five days. In that brief time, you will find all of them shifted to new locales!
Dwer chuckled contemptuously, under his breath. Not quickly enough, my wanton friend? You have seen a mule being move faster?
Ah, but that one was crazed, driven mad by isolation, high altitude, and a diet of psidrenched stone. It grew unwholesomely obsessed with mortality and the nature of time. Surely you do not expect such undignified haste from me?
Like One-of-a-Kind, this spider could somehow tap Dwer's human memory, using it to make better sentences-more articulate speech-than he ever managed on! his own. But Dwer knew better than to bandy words. Instead, he willed himself to turn around. I
Wait! You intrigue me. The conversations our kind share among ourselves are so languid. Torpid, you might say, featuring endless comparisons of the varied dross we eat. The slowtalk grows ever more tedious as we age. . . .
Tell me, are you from one of the frantic races who have lately settled down to a skittering life beyond the mountains? The ones who talk and talk, but almost never build?
Behind Dwer, Rety murmured, "What's goin' on!" But he only motioned for her to follow him away from the mule cords.
All right! On a whim, I'll do it. I shall move
for you!
I'll move as I have not done in ages. Watch me, small flickering life-form. Watch
this!
Dwer glanced back, and saw several vines tremble. The tremors strengthened, dura after dura, tightening and releasing till several of the largest bunched in a knotty tangle. More duras passed . . . then one loop popped up out of the water, rising high, dripping like some amphibious being, emerging from its watery home.
It was confirmation, not only of the spider's mental reality, but of Dwer's own sane perception. Yet he quashed all sense of acknowledgment or relief. Rather, Dwer let a feeling of disappointment How across his surface thoughts.
A fresh shoot of lesser boo moves that much, in the course of a day's growth, he pondered, without bothering to project the thought at the spider.
You compare me to boo?
Boo?
Insolent bug! It is you who are a figment of my imagination! You may be nothing but an undigested bit of concrete, or a piece of bad steel, perturbing my dreams. . . .
No, wait! Don't leave yet. I sense there is something that would convince you.
Tell me what it is. Tell me what would make you acknowledge me, and talk awhile.
Dwer felt an impulse to speak directly. To make his wishes known in the form of a request. But no. His experience with One-of-a-Kind had taught him. That mule beast might have been mad, but it clearly shared some properties of personality with its kind.
Dwer knew the game to play was "hard to get." So he let his idea leak out in the form of a fantasy ... a daydream. When Rety tried to interrupt again, he made a slashing motion for quiet while he went on picturing what a spider might do to convince him it was real. The sort of thing Dwer would find impressive.
The mule being's next message seemed intrigued.
Truly?
And why not?
The new dross to which you refer already had me concerned. Those great heaps of refined metal and volatile organic poisons-I have not dealt with such purified essences in a very long time.
Now you worry that the dross might fly away again, to pollute some part of Jijo beyond reach of any mule being? You fear it may never be properly disposed of?
Then worry no more, my responsible little ephemeral! It will be taken care of.
Just leave it to me.
Alvin
I WAS RIGHT! THE PHUVNTHUS ARE EARTHLINGS! I haven't figured out the little amphibians yet, but the big six-legged creatures? They are dolphins. Just like the ones in King of the Sea or The Shining Shore . . . only these talk and drive spaceships! How uttergloss.
And there are humans.
Sky humans!
Well, a couple of them, anyway.
I met the woman in charge-Gillian is her name. Among other things, she said some nice words about my journal. In fact, if they ever succeed in getting away from here, and returning to Earth, she promises to find an agent for me and get it published.
Imagine that. I can't wait to tell Huck.
There's just one favor Gillian wants in return.
E.wasx
OH, HOW THEY PREVARICATE! • Is this what it means to take the Downward Path? Sometimes a citizen race decides to change course, rejecting the destiny mapped out for it by patron and clan. The Civilization of the Five Galaxies allows several traditional avenues of appeal, but if all other measures fail, one shelter remains available to all-the road that leads back, from starfaring sapience to animal nature. The route to a second chance. To start over again with a new patron guiding your way.
This much I/we can understand. But must that path have an intermediate phase, between citizen and dumb beast? A phase in which the half-devolved species becomes lawyers'.
Their envoys stand before us now, citing points of Galactic law that were handed down in sacred lore. Especially verbose is the g'Kek emissary. Yes, My rings, you identify this g'Kek as Vubben-a "friend and colleague" from your days as Asx the traeki. Oh, how that sage-among-sooners nimbly contorts logic, contending that his folk are not responsible for the debt his kind owes our clan, by rule of vendetta. A debt of extinction.
The senior Priest-Stack aboard our ship insists we must listen to this nonsense, for form's sake, before continuing our righteous vengeance. But most of the Polkjhy crew stacks side with our Captain-Leader, whose impatiencewith-drivel steams with each throbbing pulse of an angry mulching core. Finally, the Captain-Leader transmits a termination signal to Me,us. To faithful Ewasx.
"ENOUGH!" I interrupt Vubben in loud tones of Oailie decisiveness. All four of his eyestalks quail in surprise at my harsh resonance.
"YOUR CONTENTIOUS REASONINGS ARE BASED ON INVALID ASSUMPTIONS."
They stand before us/me, frozen silent by our rebuke. A silence more appropriate to half animals than all that useless jabber. Finally, the qheuen sage, Knife-Bright Insight, bows her blue-green carapace and inquires: "Might we ask what assumptions you refer to?"
Our second cognition ring performs a writhing twitch that I must overcome with savage pain jolts, preventing the rebellious ring's color cells from flashing visibly. Be thou restrained, I command, enforcing authority over our component selves. Do not try to signal your erstwhile comrades. The effort will accomplish nothing.
The minirebellion robs Me of resources to maintain a pontifical voice. So when I next speak aloud, it is in more normal tones. Yet the message is no less severe.
/> "Your faulty assumptions are threefold," I answer the thoughtful blue qheuen.
"You assume that law still reigns in the Five Galaxies. "You assume that we should feel restrained by procedures and precedents from the last ten million years. "But above all, your most defective assumption is that
we should care."
Dwer
IT WAS NOT ENOUGH SIMPLY TO COAX THE MULC beast. Dwer had to creep close and supervise, for the spider had no clear concept of haste.
Dwer could sense its concentration, shifting fluids and gathering forces from a periphery that stretched league after league, along the Rift coast. The sheer size of the thing was mind-boggling, far greater than the mad little alpine spider that nearly consumed Dwer and Rety. This titan was in the final stages of demolishing a vast city, the culmination of its purpose, and therefore its life. Millennia ago, it might have ignored Dwer, as a busy workman disregards the corner scratchings of a mouse. Now boredom made it responsive to any new voice, offering relief from monumental ennui.