Almost Lost, Never Forgotten

by T. L. Sieving

  “Do you have feelings for me?” I look at him and think of how amazing he has been with me and to me the past few months, this is who Chase is now. I think of how I watch him play baseball and how sexy he looks in that uniform. I think about how he has stepped in and taken this protective role with me and it feels so natural.

  When I look in his eyes I see some doubt, like he isn’t sure what I’ll say or maybe he’s afraid of what I will say. We need to have this talk, but I wasn’t expecting it when I saw him walk in the bar with Arianna.

  I also see this man who has been protecting me from the moment we’ve been reconnected. I see a man who isn’t trying to change me or dictate my life, just a man who is there for me no matter what I need or where I am, Chase has been there for me.

  “Yes, I have feelings for you,” I tell him and a sign of relief shows on his face.

  “Good, because I have feelings for you too, and I want to act on them…”

  “Good,” I say and I think he’s going to kiss me but instead he pulls me toward him and into his arms.

  We sit on the bench cuddling for hours. He’s telling me stories about his time at the University of Michigan and he asks me a lot about my time at NYU. We sit there until we start to see the bar crowds coming out and realize its 2am already.

  We walk hand-in-hand back to the car and he takes me back to my hotel.

  “Do you want to come up?”

  “No, I shouldn’t…”

  I look at him a little confused, “How do you plan on acting on these feelings for me then?”

  “I plan on courting you slowly!”

  Well Ok then; I guess I’m going upstairs alone tonight.

  Chapter 39

  By courting me slowly I guess Chase means he’s taking me on dates every night but isn’t even going to kiss me. We hold hands, we snuggle, and we look at each other like we’re about to rip our clothes off, but he leaves me without even a kiss every time.

  To be honest if it was any other man I would have called it off by now thinking he was a prude. But this is deliberately slow for us to really get to know each other again and build a new trust between us. If this is how Chase wants it to be, then this is how it will be.

  We’ve been doing this for two weeks and I think I’m about to burst! He has been beyond sweet to me, but I’m ready to skip first base and make a damn home run.

  Sam is leaving Italy tomorrow and heading to visit me for a few days before going to Los Angeles for more movie-making fun. I’m so excited to see her and fill her in on what’s going on with Chase. I haven’t wanted to say anything to her just yet. I’m really looking forward to a girl’s night in with lots of girl talk.

  I’m at the stadium finishing up a meeting with the Mustangs PR team and I know Chase has been working out so I go to see if he’s done.

  I walk down the hall toward the work out area and I can hear his voice and know he’s talking to someone, but all I can tell is it’s a female voice.

  Chase I’m not asking you for anything but sex.

  Ok Arianna. Sorry just not interested.

  Ok, but you’ve said that before and I’m not letting you go so easy. I’ll see you soon, baby.

  Bye, Arianna.

  Shit I need to start walking again but I’m shocked at what I heard. Why didn’t he say, ‘Fuck No Arianna, I have a girlfriend’ or something like that? I have no idea what, “I’m not letting you go so easy” means to them, but I know what it means to me.

  Just as I take my first step they both turn the corner. Chase is sweaty and has his shirt off with his shorts hanging down on his hips. Holy shit!

  If Arianna wasn’t here I would jump him right now.

  “Hey, Luciana, are you done?”

  I bite my lower lip and shake my head up and down. I’m biting my lip hard trying to bite my tongue from what I just heard. I want to stake my claim, but since in Chase’s words we’re doing this ‘painstakingly’ slow, I won’t. I don’t even know if he’d consider me his girlfriend.

  “See you later, Chase,” Arianna says and leans up to kiss him on the cheek while she has her hands on his chest. I’m absolutely livid and Chase seems to be getting some amusement out of this.

  He sees my eyes and takes her hands off him and gives her a look before she turns and walks away.

  I just stare at him and it’s hard to remember what just happened when I see him looking so good.

  “You ok there, Lucy?”

  “Mmhmm,” I mumble, but don’t say a word. I’m angry and I’m in heat, I can’t figure out which one to act on.

  He’s looking at me with a tilted eyebrow and I feel like he’s mocking me a little.

  “What the fuck was that?”

  He smiles and puts his arms around me. I have to remember I went with angry, not heat, but it’s hard when I’m in his solid arms. I gasp when he pulls me toward him and into his hardness.

  “Make no mistake, this only happens when I’m around you.”

  He’s right in my face and I want to lean up and kiss him, but he pulls away and slaps my butt and tells me, “I have to go take a quick shower, I’ll be right back.”

  I remember to breathe as I watch him walk into the locker room. I take a few minutes to try to calm myself down, but enough is enough, I want him now!

  I walk into the men’s locker room and yell, “Hello? Hello?” but I don’t hear anyone. I walk around the corner and hear the showers on. I sure hope Chase is alone because I’m about to join whoever it is and at this point I don’t really care if we have an audience. I quickly take off my shoes because they are Gucci, and I’m not about to get them wet, but I head right into the shower room fully clothed.

  I see Chase’s backside and I take a second to see how fine it looks. There will be plenty of time for that later; right now I need his lips on me and his dick inside me.

  I take a step toward him and he turns around and sees me. He looks surprised for a second but then it’s pure lust in his eyes.

  I take the last few steps and I’m right up against him; he immediately starts unbuttoning my shirt. Since it’s getting wet and the buttons are small, it’s a little hard to do it and with one pull he rips it off me.

  That has to be the hottest thing anyone has ever done to me.

  I put my hands on his chest and look up as we share our first kiss. Our lips meet and we instantly attack one another with our tongues. There’s more passion in our kiss than I was prepared for and I feel weak in the knees.

  Chase feels me trembling and takes his hands from my head and palms my breasts. He moans into my mouth and I’ve never needed anything like I need him inside me.

  The kiss deepens as he moves my skirt up to my waist and moves my panties over and sinks his fingers into my dripping wetness.

  I don’t need him to touch me now; I want him in me. My hands are roaming his body frantically like they need to touch him to breathe. I make my way to his hard and throbbing cock and I move it toward me.

  “Are you sure?”

  I wrap my legs around him as he glides his penis into me and I moan in his mouth; I finally feel what I’ve been missing for all this time. The need that has been there for the past few months, the teasing that we’ve been doing for the past few weeks, and the years I went without him are all here in this moment and it has never felt more intense.

  I’m moaning as he slams into me. It’s only a few seconds before I start to feel the buildup and I know this orgasm is going to rock me.

  “I’m close, Chase…” I moan

  “Me too, baby.”

  The orgasm that hits rocks me to my core and back up again. I’m trembling in his arms and thank God he’s holding onto me because I would’ve fallen to the floor.

  He’s still inside me when he starts kissing me again. He continues rocking into me and the second time is less intense but just as sweet.

  After a few more minutes of making out he pulls out of me and sets me down. He makes sure I’m steady on my feet before he
takes his arms away from me.

  I put my panties back where they belong and pull down my soaking wet skirt.

  “Holy shit,” he says, “That was incredible.”

  I smile and put my hands back on his chest, standing on the tips of my toes I kiss him and tell him, “You are mine.”

  Thankfully Chase has some extra clothes in his locker that he can give me to wear. It really would be the ‘walk of shame’ walking out of the stadium in soaking wet clothes. Not that it’s much better walking out in my heels and his oversized workout clothes.

  “Where are we going?” I ask once we’re in his car.

  “You’re closer babe, so we’re going there.”

  “Closer is better,” I smile and agree with him as he moves his hand from the wheel to my thigh.

  We pull up to the front of my hotel and he tosses the keys to the valet. Chase looks like he’s on a mission and I’m happy to be part of that operation.

  “Come on, love, let’s go.”

  I don’t miss the term of endearment he just used; normally he calls me ‘babe’. We’re at my door in no time at all; I’m overjoyed with excitement that I’m not walking in my room alone tonight.

  “Are you hungry or thirsty?” I know he had a huge workout today so I’m sure he’s starving and exhausted, especially because I added a little bit to his workout in the shower.

  “So… are you into voyeurism?” Chase asks me and I start laughing.

  “Not particularly, but when I saw you looking all hot and sweaty I had to have you right then.”

  “Is that so?” he asks as he makes his way to me. He takes me into his arms and whispers, “Where’s the workout area in the hotel?”

  “Ha ha ha… that plus that girl putting her hands on you made me angry.”

  “Is that so?” he asks me again, this time nibbling at my neck.

  I moan as he nips his way around my neck, “You look pretty sexy in my clothes, Lucy.”

  I reach down and pull my shirt over my head. “Let’s see if I look sexier with your clothes on or without any clothes on?”

  He pulls in a breath when I pull my shirt off and I realize I had my black lace bra on when we had our dalliance in the shower so this is the first time he’s seeing me bare.

  I grab the hem of his shirt and pull it off him; he takes his hands off my waist only to raise them to help me pull his shirt off.

  “I already know you look sexy with and without your clothes, but I plan on examining every single part of that sexiness.”

  “Jesus Luce, if you’re going to talk like that I’m going to lose it fast.”

  I wink at him and feel a rush of sexual electricity between us.

  He has tattoos on his chest that I want to lick and some more on his arm that I want to trace with my fingers.

  Well, maybe I can lick those too.

  I feel very secure in my skin when I’m with Chase and I want to devour him.

  “If you lose your shit fast Chase, you’ll get the chance to lose it over and over and over again… so don’t worry.”

  “Fuck, I wanted to make love to you nice and slow but… bedroom… Now!”

  He picks me up and throws me over his shoulder carrying me into the bedroom. I’m laughing at how barbaric he’s being, but I’m super turned on how he wants me so badly.

  He tosses me on the bed and I let out a little scream. He crawls between my legs and brings his eyes to mine. “Lucy,” he breathes out as I take his bottom lip into my mouth and nip it between my teeth before sucking on it to make it feel better.

  He just looks so damn edible and I want him. I have no idea how we made it the past couple weeks without even kissing, but I have every intention of making up some time with him tonight.

  “Is it just my mouth that’s yours?” he asks me.

  I lean back to look in his eyes and I smile as I push him over so I’m on top, straddling him.

  I bend down to his ear and suck on his right lobe and whisper, “No, Chase.” I make a trail of kisses on his neck from his right ear to his left, “It’s not just your mouth,” I whisper. I move my kisses down his neck to his chest and stop at his heart, my eyes never leaving his.

  I kiss his heart before moving back over him so our faces are together. “I want all of you, Chase; I want you to be mine.”

  He quickly flips me off him and rolls me onto my back and pulls off my shorts. He doesn’t even put his hands on me, he just guides his hard cock into me and I feel like I’m in heaven.

  I moan at how he fills me up. I was ready for him, but he’s very large and it takes my breath away. Once again he’s moving inside of me at a quick pace and before long my orgasm is bursting through me just as powerful as it was in the shower and I feel him right behind me.

  My head is thrown back as I scream his name as a second wave rocks my body.

  My God, he’s going to be the death of me, but I can’t think of any other way I’d rather go.

  Chapter 40

  We’re sitting on the balcony sharing a pizza from room service. It’s the middle of the night and I know we’re both exhausted, but we’re also starving after a major workout today.

  “Can I ask you a question?” Chase asks me.

  “Sure,” I say as I take another bite of my pizza.

  “Do you still have feelings for Jax?”

  I look at him finding it strange that this is what he’s asking me. He asked me a few weeks ago and I said no.

  “No, I don’t,” I tell him.

  “Are you sure?”

  I’m not sure why this came up, but I feel the need to reassure him so I put down my pizza and move to his lap.

  “Chase I’m 100% sure, why are you asking me this again?”

  He smiles and leans in to kiss me, “Because last time I asked you weren’t positive so I wanted to make sure you were positive now.”

  I think back to that night and remember now, I said ‘I think’ and that must have hurt Chase. I don’t want to ruin this moment but I need to ask him something that has been bothering me.

  “So, what’s going on with Arianna?”

  “Nothing! I should never have gotten involved with her, but she’s Jason’s sister and she was always just… there. But I assure you nothing is going on or will be going on.”

  It now makes sense to me why she was in New York for our first interview and why I’ve seen her around so often. Jason is one of Chase’s closest teammates and if she’s Jason’s sister that’s why she’s around.

  “Ok!”

  “Ok?”

  “Yup, I trust you to be honest with me, so ok!”

  We sit in silence for a few minutes before Chase asserts, “You are mine Luciana, I don’t want anyone else.”

  I lean toward him, “Yes, I am, now take me to bed.”

  And he does. Sleep hasn’t come this easy for me in a long time.

  Sam came a little earlier than expected and she got a surprise when Chase answered my hotel room door in only his shorts; guess she got more than she expected!

  I also got a surprise from Sam… Ana came with her. We were like 13 year old girls screaming, shouting, and jumping up and down for our reunion. Chase stayed for an hour visiting with us but then left us alone to have girl time.

  For two days we didn’t leave my hotel. We ordered room service, ate in the hotel restaurant, visited the hotel spa, and sat in our PJs in bed catching up on everything we’ve missed.

  I told them about the painfully slow way that Chase and I started dating and gave them a few details of our hot shower sex. I saw Ana fanning herself so I knew I was sharing just the right amount. God I miss having these girls around me.

  Sam is all smiles when she talks about the movie and how Jax is doing at being a first time Director, but there’s a hitch to her and I can tell she’s still carrying around some guilt. She didn’t want to talk about it too much, but she said she’s talking to Jax about everything and letting him in.

  Although I’m having a great time wi
th my girls, I start to miss Chase. He’s ‘sexting’ me but it’s not even close to the real thing. This is my first ‘sexting’ experience and it’s hot and all, but it’s not as awesome as the real thing I’m dying for some more.

  Tonight is Ana and Sam’s last night with me; it’s sad that I have to work tomorrow or I’d be heading to L.A. with them. We’re going to Chase’s house tonight and I’m excited for us all to hang out together. He’s having a little get together so Sam and Ana get to meet some of his friends.

  Chase’s house sits on a lake and it boasts a spectacular view. He has a huge outdoor living area with a pool, outdoor kitchen, and a fire pit overlooking the lake.

  Sam convinces me to keep my hair down for the party, so I put waves in my long dark brown hair. I wear a long skirt that has a tall slit up it and a shirt that barely covers my mid drift; if I raise my arms my stomach will be exposed.

  Sam and Ana are ready and look amazing. “Look at that ladies, we don’t need stylists to look good!”

  Ana clears her throat, “I’m a stylist biatch, and I brought you that outfit!”

  We all burst out laughing; she did dress us all.

  Dan, my Michigan driver, takes us to Chase’s and I let him know that we’re spending the night. He makes sure we all know he can be here within 10 minutes if anyone needs a ride home. Chase and Sam let me know earlier that the Renaults have added extra security to this party, which is not shocking.

  We walk up to the front door and it’s unlocked, so I walk right in. It’s only my second time here and I really haven’t roamed the entire house, but you don’t need to go through it to see it’s a rather impressive home.

  The house screams ‘summer parties’ and that is exactly why Chase chose it. We walk through the kitchen and out the back door and it’s Ana who is super impressed, but not by the yard or view; it’s by the ridiculous amount of men she has to choose from.