by Anne Bishop
Page 12
Saetan squeezed her shoulder. Then he shook her. "Jaenelle? Jaenelle, no! Don't leave me. Please don't leave. "
With effort, Jaenelle opened her eyes. "Leave? Oh, Saetan, I'm so tired. Do I really have to leave?"
He had to get control of himself. He had to stay calm so that she would feel safe. "You can stay here as long as you want. "
"You'll stay, too?"
"I'll never leave you, witch-child. I swear it. "
Jaenelle sighed. "You should get some sleep," she murmured.
Saetan listened to her deep, even breathing for a long time. He wanted to open his mind and reach for her, but he didn't need to. He could feel the difference in the body he still held.
So he reached out to Andulvar instead. "She's come back. "
A long silence. "Truly?"
"Truly. " And he would need his strength for the days ahead. "Tell the others. And tell Draca I'll take the cup of fresh blood now. "
5 / Kaeleer
Guided by instinct and a nagging uneasiness, Saetan entered Jaenelle's bedroom at the Keep without knocking.
She stood in front of a large, freestanding mirror, staring at the naked body reflected there.
Saetan closed the door and limped toward her. While she'd been away from her body, there had still been just enough of a link so that she could eat and could be led on gentle walks that had kept her muscles from atrophying. There had still been enough of a link for her body to slowly answer the rhythm of its own seasons.
Blood females tended to reach puberty later than landens, and witches' bodies required even more time to prepare for the physical changes that separated a girl from a woman. Inhibited by her absence, Jaenelle's body hadn't started changing until after her fourteenth birthday. But while her body was still in the early stages of transformation, it no longer looked like a twelve-year-old's.
Saetan stopped a few feet behind her. Her sapphire eyes met his in the mirror, and he had to work to keep his expression neutral.
Those eyes. Clear and feral and dangerous before she slipped on the mask of humanity. And it was a mask. It wasn't like the dissembling she used to do as a child to keep the fact that she was Witch a secret. This was a deliberate effort simply to behuman. And that scared him.
"I should have told you," he said quietly. "I should have prepared you. But you've slept through most of the past four days, and I . . . " His voice trailed off.
"How long?" she asked in a voice full of caverns and midnight.
He had to clear his throat before he could answer. "Two years. Actually, a little more than that. You'll be fifteen in a few weeks. "
She said nothing, and he didn't know how to fill the silence.
Then she turned around to face him. "Do you want to have sex with this body?"
Blood. So much blood.
His gorge rose. Her mask fell away. And no matter how hard he looked, he couldn't find Jaenelle in those sapphire eyes.
He had to give her an answer. He had to give her theright answer.
He took a deep breath and let it out slowly. "I'm your legal guardian now. Your adopted father, if you will. And fathers do not have sex with their daughters. "
"Don't they?" she asked in a midnight whisper.
The floor disappeared under his feet. The room spun. He would have fallen if Jaenelle hadn't thrown her arms around his waist.
"Don't use Craft," he muttered through gritted teeth.
Too late. Jaenelle was already floating him to the couch. As he sank into it, she sat beside him and brushed her shoulder-length hair away from her neck. "You need fresh blood. "
"No, I don't. I'm just a little dizzy. " Besides, he'd been drinking a cup of fresh human blood twice a day for the past four days—almost as much as he usually consumed in a year.
"You need fresh blood. " There was a definite edge in her voice.
What he needed was to find the bastard who had raped her and tear him apart inch by inch. "I don't need your blood, witch-child. "
Her eyes flashed with anger. She bared her teeth. "There's nothing wrong with my blood, High Lord," she hissed. "It isn't tainted. "
"Of course it isn't tainted," he snapped back.
"Then why won't you accept the gift? You never refused before. "
There were clouds and shadows now in her sapphire eyes. It seemed that, for her, the price of humanity was vulnerability and insecurity.
Lifting her hand, he kissed her knuckles and wondered if he could delicately suggest that she put on a robe without her taking offense. One thing at a time, SaDiablo. "There are three reasons I don't want your blood right now. First, until you're stronger, you need every drop of it for yourself. Second, your body is changing from child to woman, and the potency of the blood changes, too. So let's test it before I find myself drinking liquid lightning. "
That made her giggle.
"And third, Draca has also decided that I need fresh blood. "
Jaenelle's eyes widened. "Oh, dear. Poor Papa. " She bit her lip. "Is it all right if I call you that?" she asked in a small voice.
He put his arms around her and held her close. "I would be honored to be called 'Papa. ' " He brushed his lips against her forehead. "The room is a little chilly, witch-child. Do you think you could put on a robe? And slippers?"
"You sound like a parent already," Jaenelle grumbled.
Saetan smiled. "I've waited a long time to fuss over a daughter. I intend to revel in it to the fullest. "
"Oh, lucky me," Jaenelle growled.
He laughed. "No. Luckyme. "
6 / Kaeleer
Saetan stared at the tonic in the small ravenglass cup and sighed. He had the cup halfway to his lips when someone knocked on the door.
"Come," he said too eagerly.
Andulvar entered, followed by his grandson, Prothvar, and Mephis, Saetan's eldest son. Prothvar and Mephis, like Andulvar, had become demon-dead during that long-ago war between Terreille and Kaeleer. Geoffrey, the Keep's historian/librarian, entered last.
"Try this," Saetan said, holding out the cup to Andulvar.
"Why?" Andulvar asked, eyeing the cup. "What's in it?"
Damn Eyrien wariness. "It's a tonic Jaenelle made for me. She says I'm still looking peaky. "
"You are," Andulvar growled. "So drink it. "
Saetan ground his teeth.
"It doesn't smell bad," Prothvar said, pulling his wings tighter to his body when Saetan glared at him.
"It doesn't taste bad either," Saetan said, trying to be fair.
"Then what's the problem?" Geoffrey asked, crossing his arms. He frowned at the cup, his black eyebrows echoing his widow's peak. "Are you concerned that she doesn't have the training to make that kind of tonic? Do you think she's done it incorrectly?"
Saetan raised one eyebrow. "We're talking about Jaenelle. "
"Ah," Geoffrey said, eyeing the cup with some trepidation. "Yes. "
Saetan held the cup out to him. "Tell me what you think. "
Andulvar braced his fists on his hips. "Why are you so eager to share it? If there's nothing wrong with it, why won'tyou drink it?"
"I do. I have. Every day for the past two weeks," Saetan grumbled. "But it's just so damn . . . potent. " The last word was almost a plea.
Geoffrey accepted the cup, took a small sip, rolled the liquid on his tongue, and swallowed. As he handed the cup to Andulvar, he started gasping and pressed his hands to his stomach.
"Geoffrey?" Alarmed, Saetan grabbed Geoffrey's arm as the older Guardian swayed.
"Is it supposed to feel like that?" Geoffrey wheezed.
"Like what?" Saetan asked cautiously.
"Like an avalanche hitting your stomach. "
Saetan sighed with relief. "It doesn't last long, and the tonicdoes have some astonishing curative powers, but . . . "
"The initial sensation is a bit unsettling. "
> "Exactly," Saetan said dryly.
Andulvar studied the two Guardians and shrugged. He took a sip, passed the cup to Prothvar, who took a sip and passed it to Mephis.
When the cup reached Saetan, it was still two-thirds full. He sighed, took a sip, and set the cup on an empty curio table.
Why couldn't Draca fill a table with useless bric-a-brac like everyone else? he thought sourly. At least then there would be a way to hide the damn thing since Jaenelle had put some kind of neat little spell on the cup that prevented it from being vanished.
"Hell's fire," Andulvar finally said.
"What does she put in it?" Mephis said, rubbing his stomach.
Prothvar eyed Geoffrey. "You know, you've almost got some color. "
Geoffrey glared at the Eyrien Warlord.
"What did you all want to see me about?" Saetan asked.
That stopped them cold. Then they began talking all at once.
"You see, SaDiablo, the waif—"
"—it's a difficult time for a young girl, I do understand that—"
"—doesn't want to see us—"
"—suddenly so shy—"
Saetan raised his hand to silence their explanations.
Everything has a price. As he looked at them, he knew he had to tell them what the past two weeks had forced him to see. Everything has a price, but, sweet Darkness, haven't we paid enough?
"Jaenelle didn't heal. " When no one responded, he wondered if he'd actually said it out loud.
"Explain, SaDiablo," Andulvar rumbled. "Her body is alive, and now that she's returned to it, it will get stronger. "
"Yes," Saetan replied softly. "Her body is alive. "
"Since she's obviously capable of doing more than basic Craft, her inner web must be intact," Geoffrey said.
"Her inner web is intact," Saetan agreed. Hell's fire. Why was he prolonging this? Because once he actually said it, it would be real.