by Tom Rachman
Previously, Tooly would have marched ahead. But she waited till he was ready. When he apologized for his slow pace, she reduced hers. “Nice to have a calm wander for a change,” she said. “No point running ourselves ragged.”
“Look!” He pointed out a hare darting through the gorse.
They watched, and when Fogg turned to her, aglow with pleasure at his sighting, she hopped over to hug him.
“Physical harassment,” he joked, blushing.
By the time the weather had changed, they were in the little old Fiat, trundling back to Caergenog. And by the time she’d parked opposite the shop they had reached agreement: although Fogg refused to take full possession of the shop, he might take half. That is, he’d accept nothing officially, but she would proceed on the assumption that each owned fifty percent of World’s End and that any profits (even to mention such a possibility was extraordinary) would be split. “That’s non-negotiable,” she insisted. “Really, you should have it all. With my business acumen, this place would’ve been bankrupt ages ago.”
Later that week, Duncan phoned. After Humphrey’s death, he had encouraged Tooly to return home and pledged to take care of the paperwork. He called now to update her on the disposal of Humphrey’s possessions, having traveled down to Sheepshead Bay and glanced through everything, finding only garbage, junk mail, tons of old pill containers.
“Humph was a pharmacist once,” she explained. “He liked to keep all sorts of cures around to help people. When you throw away the drugs, I think you’re supposed to pull off the labels so they don’t get misused on the street.”
“They were pretty much empty already.”
“No,” she corrected him, “did you check under the cushion of his armchair? There was a bunch of heart medication there. I saw it recently.”
“I checked there. Just empty bottles.”
When could Humphrey have taken all those? Tooly had gone out that morning. He knew well the effect of those drugs.
“So, in theory,” Duncan continued, “you’d get anything.”
“What? Sorry, I was thinking of something else.”
“Just saying how Humphrey left no will. But if there’s anything left in his estate you’ll get it as his daughter.”
She wasn’t sure how best to explain, after all this time, that Humphrey was no relative of hers. “Sounds like there’s nothing of value anyhow.”
“That’s pretty fair to say. Given the outstanding bills for that surgery he had,” Duncan said, “we’ll move toward declaring him insolvent upon death. I’m going to Sheepshead this weekend to oversee the removal of his junk.”
She hated that strangers would rummage through Humphrey’s belongings, then toss it all away. “Should I come back and deal with this?”
“Seriously, it’s fine.”
“If there are fees, you have to bill me.”
“Don’t worry.”
“Duncan,” she said.
“It’s fine.”
He couldn’t accept gratitude, so changed the subject to talk of the winter break. His kids were still grumbling about not having gone anywhere that past summer. Unseriously, he and Tooly chatted about the family coming to visit Wales the following year. She offered free lodgings at World’s End—he’d been so generous to her, and the inn rooms would accommodate them all for as long as they liked. But his family was a closed circle again, she an outsider, one whose lifestyle had initially looked like novelty to the McGrorys, briefly like inspiration, and finally like subtle criticism. Sometimes it was best to leave the past where it lay.
During this period, Tooly kept her grief over Humphrey to herself. She contemplated him when opening books, speculated about his opinion, imagining how it would have been to show him around the shop, which really was his. She kept busy, working with Fogg to complete the database, dealing with online sales, which were not quite as rampant as he’d suggested but kept them afloat.
Toward the end of Humphrey’s life, he had abstained from alcohol, wanting clarity of mind, and Tooly had stopped in solidarity, no matter how she had craved a drink. Since then, she’d ceased the solitary tipples of old, abolishing her nighttime habit of vanishing into glasses of red wine, that nightly amnesia starting around 8 P.M. Anyway, she was collaborating so much with Fogg now that her evenings were no longer solitary. She reserved time to practice her ukulele (oddly, she’d gotten slightly better by not playing these past weeks). Even as she strummed, her new cellphone often trilled beside her in the attic, with a text from Fogg posing a catalog query. She thumbed in half a response, then gave up and went downstairs to answer him. For breaks, they closed the shop, took afternoon hikes past the priory, up into the Black Mountains.
When they returned from one such ramble, there was a delivery truck idling before the shop, hazard lights blinking. The driver unloaded six boxes. An invoice was thrust at her; the van zoomed off. Duncan had sent these. She peeled off the packing tape and the cardboard flaps popped apart. Inside: volume after volume, crammed in, and the smell of Humphrey’s room.
His books were cheap editions, mostly—dust jackets missing, bindings torn, pages unglued and falling out. Many were too worthless even to consign to the Honesty Barrel. She sorted them, pausing here and there, losing herself for hours in familiar copies—there was the edition of Nicholas Nickleby that Paul had bought for her a quarter century before, that she had read in secret at King Chulalongkorn International School, had lugged to that house party in Bangkok, left behind with Humphrey, and from which she’d read to him in Sheepshead Bay. So strange that this had taken place weeks before—seemed at once like a single day and many years ago.
She organized the worthiest volumes on three low shelves against the right wall of the shop, with a sign identifying the new section: HUMPHREY’S BOOKS. There were about a hundred—that’s all it amounted to in the end—and they were all for sale, including his prized blue volume of essays by John Stuart Mill. Inside each cover, she wrote his name, picturing a stranger years later opening the book, reading “Humphrey Ostropoler,” and wondering who had possessed that name, and why he’d surrendered this edition. People kept their books, she thought, not because they were likely to read them again but because these objects contained the past—the texture of being oneself at a particular place, at a particular time, each volume a piece of one’s intellect, whether the work itself had been loved or despised or had induced a snooze on page forty. People might be trapped inside their own heads, but they spent their lives pushing out from that locked room. It was why people produced children, why they cared about land, why nothing felt equal to one’s own bed after a long trip.
For days, customers failed to notice Humphrey’s Books. Then, a sniffly-nosed Jaguar driver crouched before them, gathering on the cat-scented carpet a pile of volumes to buy, including that edition of John Stuart Mill essays. To avoid the sight, Tooly made a trip to the post office.
Along with business parcels, she brought two padded envelopes, one containing Palm Groves and Humming Birds: An Artist’s Fortnight in Brazil, a copiously illustrated 1924 rarity with maroon pigskin binding, gilt title lettering, and marbled end papers that she mailed to Paul. The other envelope was for Sarah, containing a work on coin collecting and a coffee-table photo book of Kenyan landscapes. She addressed it to the seaside apartment in Anzio on the assumption that this was where Sarah might be, now that the weather had turned cold.
When Tooly returned to World’s End, the customer had gone, along with several of Humphrey’s books, leaving the remainders leaning at glum angles. She crouched before them, stricken with regret, and shifted the leftovers to hide the gaps.
“You said I could sell those,” Fogg reminded her.
“No, yes, I know. I’m trying not to be stupid about it.”
He tapped the sales ledger with his pencil. She glanced up, then returned to reordering the section. He yammered on with uncommon noisiness about—well, she didn’t know what—and kept tapping his pencil on the ledger. “I�
�m trying to get you to come over and look,” he said.
She obliged, reading the sales entries, including those for a dozen of Humphrey’s volumes.
“Yes, I know.”
From under the counter, he produced them all. “I’m the one who bought them. Out from under his runny nose.”
She thanked Fogg, but returned them all to the Humphrey’s Books section.
“I’ll just have to buy them again,” he warned her. “Could get dear after a time.”
“Okay,” she relented. “I’ll keep these ones. Thank you.”
Sarah never did respond to her package. But Paul did, with a touching note, thanking her for the visit that past summer and for the beautiful volume, which would be ideal for the flight he was about to take, heading off for two months with Shelly to their house in Nong Khai. He wrote of his efforts to cultivate dwarf banana trees there, saying he longed to show off his renovations but could convince no one to trek out there. Tooly was welcome to visit—and even to bring somebody. He’d be honored to meet any companion of hers.
“Fogg,” she said, “would you accompany me through the jungles of Thailand?”
“You being honest?”
“No, not really.”
He departed to alphabetize Asian History for a few minutes, then returned. “You know what I am?” he said. “I’m …” He wandered into the reference section.
“What are you, Fogg?”
“Thesaurus.”
“You’re a thesaurus?”
“The word begins with an h. Where’s the thesaurus?”
“Hungry?”
“No, why do you ask?”
“You said you begin with an h. Did we sell it?”
“Sell what?”
“The thesaurus. Are you hypnotized?”
“How do you mean? Oh, another h-word. No, no.”
“Are you heroic? Or happy? Or hangry?”
“Not any of them,” he replied. “What’s ‘hangry’?”
“When you’re hungry and angry at the same time.”
“I’ve been that. Many a time.” He snapped his fingers impatiently, unable to recollect the word.
“What’s it to do with?”
He went outside, door tinkling. Through the window, she observed him dipping into the Honesty Barrel, his arm disappearing in there. She half expected it to emerge drenched and clutching a trout. Instead, he returned with a battered Roget’s thesaurus and stood flipping its pages. “There,” he said, suddenly hesitant, splaying the book, thumb under the word. “That one.”
“That’s not an h-word. It begins with b.”
“Right you are.” Not having received the desired response, he closed the book over his thumb and went back outside to the Honesty Barrel.
It was a cool autumn day, feathery clouds and a sun too timid to warm the village yet. Roberts Road was empty, as if there were nobody but Fogg in the village of Caergenog, in the nation of Wales, in all the British Isles—none but him there, feeling like an ass. He cursed himself for trying to sound clever with her. If only the earth would open up and swallow him. A forbidden thought entered his mind, a sexual one about her, and his knees weakened. Can’t think things like that at the Honesty Barrel! He imagined making her a meal using a cookbook, not the tatty old ones in Recipes & Eating but a posh volume bought brand-new in Cardiff, with photos of how food never really looked. He fantasized about the two of them in a proper town, poor but happy. His invalid brother had decent help now, and his mother had met someone—it wasn’t mad for him to consider leaving here, at least for a spell. He was younger than Tooly, but could make the case that it was better for an older woman to be with a younger man since women lived longer, and if they went with older men they risked becoming nurses, as his grandmother had done for thirty years, poor devil. He daydreamed of a city, where things happened, where they’d attend meetings—he’d never been to a proper meeting. Everything was under way in the world, right at that moment!
He brushed off a ladybug, which had climbed from the barrel up his arm, and he dithered to avoid returning, removing his thumb finally from the thesaurus, from under that word beginning with b: “besotted.” He’d meant it as a joke, or to be taken as a joke, anyway, or to be taken not altogether as a joke.
In his pocket, the mobile phone beeped and wriggled. They’d said on the radio that the entirety of human knowledge was available on these handsets, that smartphones had outsmarted their owners. But, for now, he was in control, and the nagging gadget had to wait. He took only a glance at the little screen, enough to see that the text came from Tooly. He pocketed the phone and finished tidying up the Honesty Barrel. Soon he’d read her message and he would know. But not yet. That present had not arrived yet. This one lingered.
For my sister Emily
Acknowledgments
FIRST OF ALL, to Alessandra Rizzo, my companion through everything. Also to my marvelous parents, Clare and Jack, and my dear friend Ian Martin. This book is not about my sister Emily, but her life infused mine when I wrote the novel. My affectionate gratitude to her, whose friendship, wise suggestions, exquisite cooking, wild energy, and wonderful madness are unforgettable; as long as I have my memory, she will be there.
Many thanks also to my elder sister, Carla, and my brother, Gideon, and their respective families: Joël, Talia, and Laura; Olivia, Tasha, Joe, Nat, and Adam. And to Alice and Greg, who offered such invaluable support to my parents. My particular gratitude also to those who helped Emily, including Kris Beardsley, Bessie Alyeshmerni, Emily Spencer, and Wendy Chun-Hoon, along with many more in Washington and beyond.
In researching and writing this novel, I encountered generosity and assistance around the world. In Bangkok, from the Mader family: Ian, Eunie, Emily, and Mia. Also, Dolores Nicholson and Denis Gray. In New York, Irena Stern, Esteban Illades, Neha Tara Mehta, and Vandana Sebastian at Columbia; plus, Ned Berke of Sheepshead Bites. In Italy, my affectionate wishes to Aldo and Margherita Rizzo, and Benedetta. My thanks also to Rosaria Guglielmi for so kindly allowing me to start this novel in Anzio; also to Chicca and Valerio, and Alberto for his photographic help. In London, Mareike Schomerus and Jonathan Silverman. In Canada, Brian Malt. Farther afield, Judy Baltensperger, Laura Gritz, Dominic Perella, and Kevin Sprager. My special thanks also to Christopher and Katy, superlative guides in Connecticut and now dear friends.
As ever, many thanks to my agent, Susan Golomb, as well as Soumeya Bendimerad and Krista Ingebretson at the Susan Golomb Literary Agency. Also, to Natasha Fairweather of United Agents in London. At the Dial Press, I am indebted to Susan Kamil for all her efforts on the page and numerous acts of kindness beyond it; great thanks also to Noah Eaker. At Random House of Canada, Kristin Cochrane and Brad Martin. At Sceptre, Suzie Dooré and all her marvelous colleagues there. Warmest appreciation also to my international publishers and editors.
Finally, an affectionate thanks to all my favorite bookshops—in Vancouver, London, Hay-on-Wye, Rome, Paris, New York, Portland, Caergenog (if only it existed), and elsewhere—where I found haven and company.
BY TOM RACHMAN
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About the Author
TOM RACHMAN was born in London in 1974 and raised in Vancouver. He attended the University of Toronto and Columbia Journalism School, then worked as a journalist for the Associated Press in New York and Rome, and the International Herald Tribune in Paris. His first novel, The Imperfectionists, was an international bestseller, translated into twenty-five languages. He lives in London.
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