by C. P. Watson
“Are you sure?” She walked over to me and placed her hands on my waist. I closed my eyes as a feeling of comforting relief wash over me.
“Kiss me.” I whispered, my eyes reopening to look into hers. “I want you to kiss me.” Her beautiful grey eyes covered by the lens of her glasses made my heart flutter with admiration. She was so gorgeous, sophisticated and mine.
Leaning closer to her, our lips brushed against each other, her fingers tightened against my waist and the feeling of her hot breath touching my cheek made my chest burst with happiness.
“You’re so beautiful.” She mumbled, leaning her forehead against mine. I hummed as she pressed her lips against my own, the soft pads gently indulging into our lust filled moment, leaving us both breathless.
As our lips parted, our embrace did not. We leaned against each other for the remaining minutes we had together, enjoying the peace and love that flowed through our veins and radiated.
Her breathing was so calm and soft. Her mouth was ajar and her fresh breath that smelled of passion fruit and coffee filled my nostrils with comfort and happiness.
My mind was consumed admiring her graceful beauty, the glossy shine of her grey eyes and long lashes, the small curve of her lips that held a breathtaking smile and her long black hair my fingers found themselves caressing.
“You are extremely gorgeous.” I smiled and sank my teeth into my bottom lip just before we heard chatter coming from the hallways.
I stepped away and attempted to walk past her to get to my seat, but she grabbed my wrist pulling me towards her before placing a kiss on my lips. “I love you.” She kissed my forehead and the tip of my nose.
Releasing my wrist, I felt a slight blush creep up onto my face as I headed over to my desk and sat. She blew me a kiss before twitching the lock on the door, which I did not know she had locked in the first place, and opened it before walking over to her desk and sitting.
‘I love you too,’ I mouthed knowing she was looking at me. She grinned and sexily winked before turning her attention to the door as a student entered.
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AFTER CLASS, I WENT to my locker to place my Literature textbook inside. “Hey stranger.” I felt someone smack my ass and then leaned against the locker next to mine.
“What the fuck!” I grumbled and shoved her arm, obviously offended by her unpleasant gesture.
“Easy there hotstuff.” She stepped back and grinned at me.
I closed my locker and was about to walk away before she grabbed my wrist. “Don’t touch me.” I spat as I tugged my hand away.
“You never texted, I was just worried.” She said fluttering her eyes and stepping closer to me. “I missed you.” She used her thumb to touch my cheek.
Slapping her hand away, I gave her a disgusted look. “You’re pathetic.” I grumbled and gripped the strap of my backpack.
“Want to hang out later?” She said ignoring my insult.
“Oh, so you can tell your friends that you fucked me again?” I shook my head evidently angry.
“I would never hotstuff, where did you hear that from?” I quirked a brow and looked at her in disbelief.
“Next time you ever say shit about me, remember that I won’t think twice before I kick your ass.”
“Feisty. I like it.” She grinned and bit down on her upper lip.
“Fuck off.” I walked away.
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I HAD TWO TUTORING sessions before I finally was done for the day. The house was quiet as I entered, the peace strangely unsettling to me. I walked into the kitchen to see Midnight curled up beneath a kitchen stool, his paws stretched out in front of his face.
“Hi Meme.” I greeted as I walked over to the fridge and opened it. “Where is your mommy?” I took out a bottle of water before closing it. “Wait, does that make me your mom now too?” I furrowed my brows and thought for a moment. ‘We’re just dating, it’s not that serious as yet.’ I pressed my lips together and leaned against the kitchen counter. 'Or is it?’ He meowed causing me to look down at him. “Do you know something I don’t?” I knelt down in front of him and stretched my hand to caress his soft, black fur. “Would you like me to be your mommy?” I shivered at my use of words. Getting up, I opened the bottle of water and placed the cap on the counter.
‘Did I want kids?’ Pondered in my mind, ‘I was eighteen, I did not have to think about that, or did I?’ Ava and I were starting to move pretty fast. The exchange of heartfelt ‘I love yous’ was already on the table and we were having pretty decent sex.
I scrunched up my nose and scoffed. The sex was more than decent, it was great. I took a sip of the water and rested the bottle down on the counter top.
‘Sex, sex, sex, sex, kids.’ Those two words in one thought made me cringe. But then sex sometimes led to pregnancy which resulted to kids. So the two were connected, but were so inappropriate together.
I was a lesbian, I was never having kids. But there was adoption, or I could use a sperm donor, ‘or adoption.’ I said adoption twice. It was not a too bad idea actually. I agreed with my thoughts and sighed.
‘Sex, sex, sex, sex, sex.’
‘Did I like sex?’ I nodded in serious consideration. ‘Did I want kids?’ Probably, like maybe when I was fifty and I got very lonely, but I did love my solitude and I would always have Ava to fit into my comfort zone.
‘Would we still be together when I turned fifty and she would be fifty-five?’ There was a possibility. Unless I died in a car crash or got murdered.
‘Why was I being so negative?’ Okay, ‘happy thoughts, happy thoughts, I love Ava, she loves me, we should be kissing, yes! One, two, three.’
I was getting so weird. I shook my head to snap myself from my thoughts and walked out of the kitchen, up the stairs and into my room where I plopped myself onto my bed.
‘Kylie and Ava, girlfriends in a tree, Ava will you marry me?’
Fuck. My eyes widened, ‘why was I thinking about that? Why? Why?’ I smacked myself on the forehead with the palm of my hand. ‘You are insane, utterly insane.’ I groaned as I buried my face into the softness of a pillow.
‘Why was I thinking so much? Why was I thinking about kids and marriage? I did not intend to indulge myself in any of those in the near future, but what if that was what Ava wanted?’ The white picket fence and kids running around in the front yard, a beautiful husky and Midnight lying under the tree looking at his human siblings playing with his animal sibling.
Maybe I did need to see a psychiatrist. My mind was racing thoughts about the future as if I was in desperate need to start a family. I did not want that, I wanted Ava and I... and a white picket fence with a dog, a cat and kids. ‘Fuck me.’ I smacked my head repeatedly with my hands. ‘What is wrong with you?’
I got up and headed into the bathroom. As I looked at my reflection in the mirror, my blue eyes held deep concern for myself. I rested my weight on my hands that sat upon the surface of the sink, and leaned closer to the mirror, as if staring intently at another person.
“Tell me what you want.” I said behind gritted teeth, “I thought you wanted to go to college and be independent, but now you are thinking about kids.” My eyebrows furrowed, “you are not fit to be a mother, you are a child yourself.”
“Baby, are you okay?” I heard Ava’s voice behind me. I turned to her and felt relief wash over me.
“Don’t ever leave me alone again.” I rushed over to her and wrapped my arms around her neck. “My thoughts are scary.” I mumbled as I inhaled her intoxicating scent.
“Baby, were you talking to yourself?” She whispered tightening her grip around me.
“Did you hear all of it?” I pressed my lips together and felt my heart pounding in my chest.
“I heard enough to know we need to talk.” She released me and took a step back. “What’s on your mind?” She smiled and placed her hand in mine before guiding me over to the bed.
“Too much.” I sighed and took a seat. She sat right
next to me and placed her hand on my thigh in comfort.
“You know just because we love each other doesn’t mean we need to push things, I know you are not ready for that and neither am I.” I let out a deep breath and threw my back onto the fabric of the bedding.
“I was overthinking.” She leaned next to me and ran her hand up my torso.
“Allow me to enjoy my youth woman, you already want to put sperm into my vagina.” She scrunched up her nose and scoffed.
“Adoption is a good choice.” She picked up a pillow and smacked my face with it before bursting out into a fit of laughter.
Tossing the pillow away, she tackled me, pinning my arms over my head. “Put a ring on it first.” She shook my arms by the wrists and chuckled. My eyes widened and I swallowed, my anxiety levels rising. “I am fucking with you.” She released my hands and sighed. “Baby, I don’t expect you to think about all that stuff one day after we profess our love for each other.” I pressed my lips together, and looked at her for a moment before saying anything.
“But I actually want all of those things. The house, the animals and the kids.” I inhaled deeply and looked away.
“I want those things too.” She slowly shook her head and leaned her face closer to mine. “But that is for the future, you need to finish college first, I need to set my life on track. We need to grow into the persons we want to be first, then Miss Blanckaert, we’ll consider adoption and marriage.”
I smiled and stretched my face upwards to kiss her on her lips. “I love you.” I whispered and placed my hands on her hips. “I love you so much.”
“I love you too.” She rolled off of me and onto the bed beside me before intertwining our fingers.
“Where is grandpa?” I turned my head to face her so that I could look into her stunning, grey eyes.
“Probably at the country club.” I nodded and continued to stare at her. “I took a week off for your mother’s wedding, and you my dear, will be my tour guide around the city.” I nodded excitedly and touched her cheek with the pad of my thumb.
“Will I get detention for skipping class for an entire week?” I pouted and slid my thumb across her face.
“That would be very naughty of you, I’d have to talk to the principal about this.”
“You won’t punish me yourself?” She smirked and ran her hand down my side.
“I would but I’d be ditching school too.” Her hand stopped right above my bum.
“So you need to be punished too.” I whispered and flicked her nose with my index finger.
“Ouch, that hurt.” She whined as I jumped off of the bed. Grabbing my arm, she pulled me back down and smothered my face with a pillow, not being able to contain her laughter.
“I surrender! I surrender!” I screamed, my words being stifled by the pillow against my mouth.
“What did you say?” She raised the pillow away from my face.
“I surrender.” She chuckled before placing a kiss upon my cheek.
“You are so fucking adorable, I could just eat you up.” She pinched my cheek making me squirm away from her.
“That hurts.” I rubbed the spot and pouted.
“Then I’ll kiss it better.” I shook my head and stood before crossing my arms over my chest. She frowned and stayed seated looking up at me.
“Where were you today?” She furrowed her brows.
“I picked Natalie up from school and we went to the park for a bit, you know, sisterly bonding.” I sighed and used my fingers to move her messy hair from covering her beautiful face.
“That girl approached me today.” I said wanting to be honest with her.
“The one who has a major crush on you?” I arched a brow and rubbed my chin with my index finger.
“You are going to have to be more specific, everyone has a major crush on me.” I grinned pretending to be conceited.
“Oh shut up, don’t remind me. I am going to have to buy a shotgun to keep them away from you.”
“Don’t be ridiculous, I was just fucking with you.”
“I wasn’t.” She tapped her fingers against her thighs and looked me directly in the eye.
“You’re possessiveness was just taken to another level.” She pulled me by my hand and allowed me to sit on her lap.
“Maybe not something so drastic, I’ll be an old lady and use a stick instead.” I shoved her shoulder and chuckled.
“You are fucking ridiculous.” She snickered and pinched my side.
“So what did she want?” I bit down on the inside of my cheek knowing she was not going to like what I was about to tell her.
“She asked why I didn’t text her and she might have smacked my ass.” I shut my eyes and waited for Ava’s outburst.
“You are not serious, right?” I nodded, my eyes still closed. “That fucking bitch.” She grumbled and slid from under me.
“Don’t be upset, I told her to fuck off and shoved her, so I handled it on my own.”
“Sure you did, you probably liked it.” She began to pace the room and I scoffed.
“You gotta be fucking kidding me, I handled the situation, what’s your problem?” She looked at me in disbelief.
“What’s my problem?” She asked rhetorically. “She touched your ass, that is highly inappropriate.”
“I did not say it wasn’t, but why do you have to have a bitch fit because of it.” She shook her head, her anger rising.
“She touched my girlfriend’s ass!” She yelled and placed her hands over her head as she continued to pace the room.
“Well fuck, scream it for the entire town to hear.” I rolled my eyes and crossed my ankles.
“Maybe I should, because some people need to know their boundaries.”
I sighed and stood, her jealousy and possessiveness making the nerves in my brain thump vigorously. “Baby, you know you can’t.” She dropped her hands to her sides and let out a deep breath.
“I’m sorry I got so worked up.” She said as I wrapped my arms around her neck.
“It’s okay.” I said softly.
“If only I could tell her off.” She enthused and tightened her grip around me.
“And what would you say? Bitch back off from my woman?”
“Something along the lines of that, but let’s throw in me telling her that I own a rifle and have access to a dump site.” I grimaced, not that she could see.
“What do you want me to make you for dinner?” I asked trying to change the topic.
“You are cooking?” I nodded and released my arms from being hooked around her neck.
“I make a killer stuffed plantain.” She smiled and slid her fingers through my hair.
“Can mine have veggies?” I kissed her forehead and nodded.
“Anything you want babe.”
CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
It was Saturday, so Ava and I had the entire weekend to ourselves. I was wide awake before her and watched as she softly stirred in her sleep. Her faint breaths and sighs giving my heart a comforting feeling.
The fabric of the bed sheet covering her torso slipped off of her chest, exposing her breasts. I furrowed my brows not remembering that she came to bed topless and stretched over her body and looked down to the floor, where clothing laid. I chuckled as I sat up and continued to look at her, wondering why she stripped off her clothes while sleeping.
Pulling up the bedding to cover her breasts, she turned and stretched her arm backwards, exposing her bare back.
"At least she has on underwear,” I thought as I looked down at her ass, her lace underwear not leaving much to my imagination.
My eyes then travelled up to her smooth back, tempting me to run my hand along her side, to feel the curve of her body.
‘Just wait till she wakes up.’ I warned myself and got up from the bed. Stretching my arms and taking a deep breath, I headed into the bathroom to brush my teeth.
Turning the knob to allow the water to flow, I picked up my toothbrush and toothpaste. I opened the cap of the tooth
paste and drew a horizontal line across the toothbrush before closing it.
Sighing, I placed it back it its holder and cupped some water in my left palm before bringing it up to my face to wash my mouth. I spat out the water, then placed the toothbrush into my mouth.
After I was finished brushing my teeth, I tugged off my pyjama pants and top along with my underwear before I hopped into the shower.
The warm water soothed my skin, my hands caressing my body as I sponged myself down with soap.
Rinsing my skin, I turned off the shower and walked out of the bathroom, water dripping off of my body.
“You look yummy.” I heard Ava say as I headed towards my dresser.
“Finally up I see.” I looked at her through the mirror to see that she sat up and the sheet slipped off of her torso again. Pressing my lips together, I forgot the reason why I was at the dresser in the first place.
“You are so sexy when you are naughty.” She grinned as she got up from the bed, the sheet falling completely off of her body.
“I am not being naughty, I’m just…”
“Checking me out.” She cut me off. I shook my head in an attempt to disagree as she walked closer to me, her sexy curves on display.
I turned to her, the devious look in her eyes making me know that I was in for a treat. She placed her hand on my wet, exposed waist and pulled me into her, our nipples grazing against each other.
“Someone’s pretty bold today.” I said as she pressed her knee against my thigh.
“I can be when all of your bits and pieces are on display.” She grinned as her hand slid down in between my thighs. I gasped and swallowed as her fingers continued to roam. “You are so wet for me already.” She leaned closer and whispered in my ear.
“At least fuck me on the bed so that my feet won’t hurt so much.” I whined making her let out a chuckle.
She pulled me into her and lightly shoved me onto the bed so that my back laid flat against the soft fabric of the bed sheet. “Spread those legs for me.” She ran her tongue along her bottom lip as my knees distanced themselves from one another.