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by Jane Feather


  He to­ok her hand, pla­yed with the fin­gers. He felt her stif­fen and her hand lay limp and un­re­sis­ting in his." The­re's no ne­ed to be af­ra­id," he re­as­su­red, wil­ling to play the ga­me for a whi­le lon­ger. He ra­ised her fin­gers to his lips.

  Mi­ran­da tri­ed to wit­h­d­raw her hand. The­re was only one per­son she co­uld res­pond to as the du­ke of Ro­is­sy so cle­arly wis­hed her to res­pond.

  Henry felt a stab of im­pa­ti­en­ce. His fin­gers clo­sed mo­re tightly over hers and he bro­ught his ot­her hand to her thro­at. He stro­ked with a fin­ger­tip down to the pul­se. The skin of the fin­ger was ro­ugh and cal­lu­sed aga­inst her flesh and she ra­ised a hand in a flut­te­ring ges­tu­re of pro­test. But he ig­no­red it, mo­ving the fin­ger down over the soft whi­te skin of her bre­asts. The de­col­le­ta­ge was low, ac­cen­tu­ated by the high col­lar of the ro­pa ri­sing stiffly at the back.

  His fin­ger dip­ped in­to the cleft bet­we­en the small mo­unds. Mi­ran­da mo­ved ab­ruptly, pus­hing asi­de the ex­p­lo­ring fin­ger. "My lord du­ke, you must not."

  "Is it too so­on for a lit­tle lo­verly at­ten­ti­on, ma che­re7." He la­ug­hed. "But I know full well that you enj­oy the ga­me of co­qu­et­te." He had felt the qu­ic­ke­ning of her skin be­ne­ath his to­uch, the spe­eding of the pul­se. A swift and de­lig­h­t­ful­ly pas­si­ona­te res­pon­se.

  "We ha­ve but newly met, sir," Mi­ran­da of­fe­red.

  "But of co­ur­se, and you wo­uld be wo­o­ed and gen­t­led as any ma­id," he ag­re­ed with a bluff la­ugh. But the frown had re­tur­ned to his eyes. Ga­mes we­re all very well if one had the ti­me for le­isu­rely wo­o­ing. He must be back in Fran­ce wit­hin the month and he wo­uld ha­ve his fu­tu­re bri­de co­ming softly to hand be­fo­re he left. He wo­uld be as­su­red that this ti­me he had no un­wil­ling bri­de.

  "Will you ta­ke me back to Lady Du­fort, sir?" Ne­ver had Mi­ran­da ex­pec­ted to wish for Imo­gen's com­pany…

  "I wo­uld ta­ke one small ear­nest of yo­ur con­sent first." This ti­me, the fin­gers on her chin we­re very firm as he tur­ned her fa­ce up. She saw his eyes, dark, sharp, and ke­en as a fal­con's, co­ming clo­ser. The thin-lip­ped mo­uth wit­hin its ne­at be­ard ho­ve­red abo­ve her. She ste­eled her­self for the kiss, re­min­ding her­self that she was pla­ying a part. She was Ma­ude, a shy vir­gin, obe­di­ent to the dic­ta­tes of her gu­ar­di­an, but not re­pel­led by this su­itor, not re­luc­tant for such a mar­ri­age.

  But when his lips brus­hed hers, she jum­ped, jer­ked her he­ad away. "Yo­ur par­don, sir. I… I… am not ac­cus­to­med…"

  Henry sta­red at her in frus­t­ra­ti­on. Cer­ta­inly he was ta­king the ga­me of flir­ta­ti­on a big step fur­t­her, but the girl knew what was ex­pec­ted of her. And yet he had the fe­eling that her pa­nic­ked res­pon­se had not be­en fe­ig­ned, was not part of a ma­idenly ga­me of sham de­co­rum.

  "Very well," he sa­id, not tro­ub­ling to dis­gu­ise his di­sap­po­in­t­ment. "Co­me, I will re­turn you to yo­ur cha­pe­ron. We shall ha­ve ot­her op­por­tu­ni­ti­es in the next few days to get to know each ot­her bet­ter." He ro­se to his fe­et and of­fe­red her his arm.

  Ga­reth had wat­c­hed the­ir di­sap­pe­aran­ce be­hind the ar­ras and des­pi­te all his ef­forts to ab­sorb him­self in the con­ver­sa­ti­ons aro­und him co­uld think only of what was hap­pe­ning bet­we­en Mi­ran­da and Henry.

  "By God, Ga­reth, you're as dis­t­rac­ted as a mo­on­s­t­ruck calf!" Bri­an Ros­si­ter bo­omed in his usu­al lar­ger-than-li­fe fas­hi­on. "Co­me to the card ro­om."

  "Yo­ur yo­ung co­usin se­ems to ple­ase the du­ke of Ro­is­sy," Kip ob­ser­ved." The qu­e­en li­kes the mar­ri­age?"

  "Very much." Ga­reth's eyes re­tur­ned to the ar­ras. Henry had ma­de it cle­ar he had lit­tle ti­me to spend on this wo­o­ing. He wo­uld not lin­ger over the ni­ce­ti­es of co­ur­t­s­hip if he didn't ha­ve to.

  "Then what's wor­rying you, de­ar fel­low?" de­man­ded Bri­an. "The wench is wil­ling and ab­le, Ro­is­sy is wil­ling and ab­le. The qu­e­en smi­les. All's right with the world, se­ems to me."

  "Ma­ude is new to co­urt li­fe," Ga­reth of­fe­red. It so­un­ded ina­de­qu­ate even to his own ears. He ex­cu­sed him­self and mo­ved away, awa­re of Kip's eyes res­ting on his back.

  Mi­ran­da mo­ved out from be­hind the ar­ras as Henry held it asi­de for her. Ga­reth felt it li­ke a blow to his chest. What had they be­en do­ing be­hind the ar­ras? Had Henry be­en to­uc­hing her, ma­king whis­pe­red lo­ve to her? Had he kis­sed her? And why did it mat­ter so much to him?

  Mi­ran­da sto­od still, her eyes dar­ting aro­und the ro­om, se­ar­c­hing for him. And his own eyes pul­led her ga­ze to him. He co­uld do not­hing to pre­vent it. The con­nec­ti­on bet­we­en them was sud­denly as vib­rant and pal­pab­le as a fi­ne cha­in of spun gold.

  Ga­reth tur­ned on his he­el and stal­ked away thro­ugh the crowd.

  Chapter Nineteen

  Lady Du­fort stag­ge­red up the sta­irs to her own bed­c­ham­ber, al­most blin­ded by her he­adac­he, and if she was awa­re of Mi­ran­da's ste­ad­ying hand on her el­bow she ga­ve no sign of it.

  Mi­ran­da saw her in­to her bed­c­ham­ber and in­to the hands of the rat-fa­ced ma­id, then ma­de her way to Ma­ude's bed­c­ham­ber. Chip gre­eted her with his usu­al pas­si­on, as if wel­co­ming her back from the de­ad. Ho­we­ver many ti­mes she left him with Ma­ude and re­tur­ned, he co­uld not get used to it, and each ti­me his wel­co­me was one of ec­s­ta­tic re­li­ef.

  "So, tell me all." Ma­ude put asi­de her em­b­ro­idery ne­ed­le with an air of ex­pec­tancy. She was in her usu­al pla­ce on the set­tle, but the­se days she had lar­gely aban­do­ned the shawls and rugs, and in­s­te­ad of lying back with la­ven­der-so­aked han­d­ker­c­hi­efs and bur­ned fe­at­hers to hand, she ten­ded to sit up­right, busy with so­me em­p­loy­ment. Re­ading, sket­c­hing, or as in this ca­se, wor­king on a lar­ge ta­pestry.

  "You're re­al­ly get­ting on with that," Mi­ran­da ob­ser­ved, te­asing Ma­ude with the de­lay. She pe­ered at the can­vas on the fra­me. It was of a pas­to­ral sce­ne, with shep­herds and shep­her­des­ses gam­bo­ling be­si­de a bro­ad gre­en ri­ver among the lambs.

  “I’ve be­en wor­king on it for fi­ve ye­ars," Ma­ude sa­id with a gri­ma­ce. "But I do be­li­eve I've do­ne mo­re in the last we­eks than in the who­le pre­vi­o­us ti­me."

  "It's a very bo­ring sce­ne."

  "Yes, it is, isn't it?" Ma­ude's small no­se wrin­k­led. "Per­haps I sho­uld start anot­her. A bat­tle or a hunt or so­met­hing a bit mo­re ex­ci­ting."

  Mi­ran­da sho­ok her he­ad. "It's al­ways bet­ter to fi­nish what you start, ot­her­wi­se you get in­to the ha­bit of le­aving things half-do­ne, I find. It's not at all tidy."

  Ma­ude shrug­ged, ac­cep­ting this pi­ece of wis­dom as she did most of Mi­ran­da's pro­no­un­ce­ments. An­yo­ne who had li­ved Mi­ran­da's li­fe had to know what she was tal­king abo­ut. Which re­min­ded her. She re­ac­hed to the end of the set­tle. "See the clot­hes I ha­ve for Rob­bie. Do you think he'll li­ke them? They'll fit him, I be­li­eve." She held up for Mi­ran­da's in­s­pec­ti­on nan­ke­en brit­c­hes, a li­nen shirt, hol­land dra­wers, and a pa­ir of stri­ped socks. "I didn't know what to do abo­ut bo­ots. Be­ca­use of his po­or fo­ot."

  "I'm go­ing to ha­ve a spe­ci­al pa­ir of bo­ots ma­de for him as so­on as mi­lord pays me my fifty ro­se nob­les," Mi­ran­da sa­id, exa­mi­ning the gar­ments. "The­se are won­der­ful."

  "Oh, and best of all, the­re's a jer­kin. It'll ke­ep him warm." Ma­ude pro­udly dis­p­la­yed the dark wo­olen jer­kin. "It's prac­ti­cal­ly new. They're the co­ok's nep�
�hew's Sun­day clot­hes, but she was very ple­ased to ta­ke fi­ve shil­lings for them."

  "I'll pay you back as so­on as I ha­ve mo­ney." Mi­ran­da fol­ded the clot­hes ne­atly.

  "No, they're my gift to Rob­bie," Ma­ude sa­id. "I only wish I co­uld do mo­re for him." She le­aned back aga­inst the cus­hi­ons aga­in with the air of one set­tling in for a chat. "So, tell me abo­ut the du­ke. Is he per­so­nab­le?"

  Mi­ran­da ho­oked a sto­ol over and sat fa­cing Ma­ude at a re­aso­nab­le dis­tan­ce from the fi­re's bla­ze. "Yes, very. I think you wo­uld li­ke him very much. He's not ele­gant, the way mi­lord is. He's rat­her ro­ugh in his ways, I think. He says so him­self. It co­mes from ha­ving be­en a sol­di­er all his li­fe." She pa­used, frow­ning, tic­k­ling Chip's neck so that he rol­led his he­ad in bliss.

  "I ha­ve the fe­eling, tho­ugh, that he's not a man one wo­uld want to cross."

  "But you li­ked him?"

  "Mmm." Mi­ran­da nod­ded, a slight flush man­t­ling her che­eks. "Most of the ti­me I fo­und him very ple­asant."

  "Why only most of the ti­me?" Ma­ude's eyes shar­pe­ned and she le­aned for­ward.

  "He tri­ed to kiss me," Mi­ran­da sa­id can­didly. "And I didn't ca­re for it. I'll ha­ve to find a way to per­su­ade him to ke­ep his dis­tan­ce."

  "But I be­li­eve kis­sing and suc­h­li­ke is part of co­ur­t­s­hip," Ma­ude sa­id with a lit­tle frown. "When you re­ad the lays of the min­s­t­rels they're very de­ta­iled abo­ut the lit­tle ga­mes of co­ur­t­s­hip. The­re's al­ways kis­sing and swe­et words."

  "Mmm, may­be so," Mi­ran­da ag­re­ed va­gu­ely. "But then it's not re­al­ly me he's co­ur­ting. Per­haps it wo­uld be dif­fe­rent for you. You might find it qu­ite ple­asant. I'm su­re you'll li­ke him-"

  "Mi­ran­da, I am not go­ing to marry him!" Ma­ude in­ter­rup­ted, le­aping up with an agi­ta­ted sha­ke of her he­ad. "I don't know what Lord Har­co­urt's in­ten­ti­ons are, but I will not marry the du­ke. I will not marry an­yo­ne!" She be­gan to pa­ce the ro­om in in­c­re­ased agi­ta­ti­on. "I am go­ing in­to a con­vent with Ber­t­he." But even as she ma­de this dec­la­ra­ti­on so­met­hing felt wrong with the words. She'd spo­ken them many, many ti­mes be­fo­re, so why didn't they so­und right now?

  Ma­ude flung her­self on­to the set­tee aga­in and sta­red fi­er­cely in­to the fi­re. Ever­y­t­hing se­emed mud­dled sud­denly. She knew she didn't want to get mar­ri­ed. She knew she co­uldn't marry a Pro­tes­tant. She knew she wan­ted to en­ter a con­vent, to gi­ve her li­fe to Christ. She did know that, didn't she?

  "What's bot­he­ring you?" Mi­ran­da as­ked.

  "I'm not su­re," Ma­ude rep­li­ed. "Ever­y­t­hing se­ems so con­fu­sed sin­ce you ar­ri­ved."

  "Yo­ur par­don, ma­dam," Mi­ran­da sa­id dryly.

  Ma­ude sho­ok her he­ad. "1 didn't me­an it as a bad thing ne­ces­sa­rily. May­be I'm too yo­ung to ha­ve set­tled my fu­tu­re so com­p­le­tely. What do you think?"

  "You me­an you don't want to go in­to a con­vent?"

  "I don't know what I me­an," Ma­ude sa­id on a no­te of des­pa­ir. "But I do know that I'm not go­ing to marry the du­ke of Ro­is­sy."

  "You don't think it wo­uld be a go­od idea just to me­et him be­fo­re you ma­ke up yo­ur mind?" Mi­ran­da sug­ges­ted.

  "What pos­sib­le go­od wo­uld that do an­yo­ne?" Ma­ude re­ac­hed out to a si­de tab­le for a cha­sed sil­ver bas­ket of swe­et­me­ats. She set­tled the bas­ket on her sto­mach and se­lec­ted a mar­zi­pan com­fit, pop­ping it in­to her mo­uth.

  "I think you're af­ra­id to," Mi­ran­da sta­ted. "And yo­ur te­eth will go black if you eat so many swe­ets." Ne­ver­t­he­less she re­ac­hed for the bas­ket her­self, her fin­ger­tips traw­ling the con­tents un­til she fo­und a ho­ne­yed ra­isin. Chip chat­te­red, ex­ten­ded his palm. Mi­ran­da ga­ve him the swe­et.

  "Why wo­uld I be af­ra­id to me­et the du­ke?" Ma­ude de­man­ded crossly.

  "Be­ca­use you might li­ke him." Mi­ran­da jum­ped up.

  "Isn't the­re an­y­t­hing el­se to eat? I'm hungry for mo­re than swe­et­me­ats. The­re's ne­ver an­y­t­hing at co­urt." She went to the do­or. "I'll go to the kit­c­hen and fetch so­met­hing. What wo­uld you li­ke?"

  "You can't go to the kit­c­hen. Ring the bell." Ma­ude was scan­da­li­zed.

  Mi­ran­da just chuc­k­led and whis­ked her­self out of the ro­om, Chip bo­un­ding at her si­de.

  Ma­ude le­aned back aga­in, idly pop­ping su­ga­red al­monds in­to her mo­uth as she sta­red in­to the fi­re. Was Mi­ran­da right? Was she af­ra­id to me­et the du­ke? Af­ra­id to put her con­vic­ti­ons to the test? What if she did li­ke him? What wo­uld it be li­ke to be duc­hess of Ro­is­sy? Her own ho­use­hold; her own pla­ce at co­urt; no one to in­ter­fe­re with her or tell her what to do. She'd be su­bj­ect to her hus­band's aut­ho­rity, of co­ur­se, but as long as he wasn't a tyrant, it ne­edn't be too much of an im­po­si­ti­on.

  "See what I ha­ve." Mi­ran­da bo­un­ced in­to the ro­om, bre­aking a tra­in of tho­ught that wasn't go­ing an­y­w­he­re an­y­way. Ma­ude glan­ced idly at the tray Mi­ran­da hef­ted aloft on the palm of her hand.

  " The­re's ve­ni­son pasty, larks' ton­gu­es in as­pic, and a mus­h­ro­om com­po­te. Oh, and I to­ok the li­berty of bor­ro­wing a bot­tle of mi­lord's ca­nary wi­ne from the but­ler's pantry."

  Mi­ran­da set her bo­oty on the tab­le, ex­pertly drew the cork on the bot­tle, and fil­led two pew­ter cups. "1 co­uldn't find the Ve­ne­ti­an crystal, so I ho­pe you don't mind lowly pew­ter, ma­dam."

  Ma­ude la­ug­hed. Mi­ran­da's high spi­rits we­re so in­fec­ti­o­us it wasn't pos­sib­le to bro­od for long in her com­pany. In­de­ed, Ma­ude had al­most for­got­ten what it was to be me­lan­c­holy. In fact, on oc­ca­si­on, she even for­got what it was to be pi­o­us. She con­fes­sed the­se lap­ses to Fat­her Da­mi­an, of co­ur­se, but he didn't se­em to re­gard them as any gre­at mat­ter and han­ded down paltry pe­nan­ce.

  It was the so­und of the­ir la­ug­h­ter that, half an ho­ur la­ter, bro­ught Henry of Fran­ce to a halt in the pas­sa­ge out­si­de. "That so­unds li­ke the Lady Ma­ude."

  "I da­re­say it is," Ga­reth sa­id trut­h­ful­ly. He co­uld dis­tin­gu­ish Ma­ude's la­ug­h­ter from Mi­ran­da's and she cer­ta­inly se­emed to be as merry as her twin.

  "She se­ems to be amu­sing her­self. I had not tho­ught she wo­uld be so la­te abed. Do­es she ha­ve a fe­ma­le com­pa­ni­on?"

  "Yes, a dis­tant re­la­ti­ve my sis­ter bro­ught in­to the ho­use­hold to pro­vi­de com­pa­ni­on­s­hip for Ma­ude and to sha­re her edu­ca­ti­on," Ga­reth sa­id ca­re­les­sly. "Yo­ur cham­ber is this way, sir." He ges­tu­red that they sho­uld con­ti­nue down the cor­ri­dor. Henry, with an ac­cep­ting shrug, fol­lo­wed his host.

  Be­hind him, the do­or to Ma­ude's cham­ber ope­ned a frac­ti­on and a pa­ir of bright blue eyes pe­eped aro­und. Fe­eling so­met­hing at his back, Henry tur­ned. The eyes met his and then ab­ruptly we­re wit­h­d­rawn and the do­or clo­sed rat­her­less qu­i­etly than it had ope­ned.

  "I be­li­eve he saw me." Ma­ude le­aned aga­inst the clo­sed do­or, her hand at her thro­at. "He tur­ned aro­und just as I was lo­oking."

  "Well, did you li­ke what you saw?" Mi­ran­da mum­b­led thro­ugh a mo­ut­h­ful of ve­ni­son pasty.

  "I didn't ha­ve long eno­ugh to jud­ge," Ma­ude rep­li­ed. "Anyway, I'm not re­al­ly in­te­res­ted one way or the ot­her."

  "No, of co­ur­se not," Mi­ran­da ag­re­ed equ­ably. "I'm su­re you had so­me ot­her per­fectly go­od re­ason for wan­ting to spy on him."

  Mi­ran­da left the ho­use at dawn, to walk in­to the city, Rob­bi
e's new clot­hes tuc­ked in­to a bun­d­le be­ne­ath her arm. Chip, ex­p­res­sing his ap­pro­val at be­ing out and abo­ut in the wi­de world on such a fresh, sunny mor­ning, dan­ced ahe­ad of her, tip­ping his hat to the­ir fel­low tra­ve­lers, ma­in­ta­ining a non­s­top che­er­ful chat­ter.

  Mi­ran­da was we­aring her old oran­ge dress, a shawl ti­ed over her he­ad, wo­oden pat­tens on her fe­et. She was on­ce mo­re a gypsy va­ga­bond and min­g­led with the crowd of folk go­ing in­to Lon­don for the day's bu­si­ness wit­ho­ut dra­wing so much as a si­de­long glan­ce.

  She had slept badly and it hadn't ta­ken much in­sight to know the re­ason. For a very long ti­me, she'd la­in awa­ke ho­ping for, ex­pec­ting, the so­und of the do­or latch lif­ting. But not­hing had dis­tur­bed her night. The earl had re­ma­ined in his own cham­ber and she had tos­sed and tur­ned at the mercy of un­re­sol­ved lon­gings that left her body ta­ut and stret­c­hed li­ke a vi­olin string, wa­iting for so­me­one to wi­eld the bow.

  She told her­self that with the du­ke sle­eping un­der the sa­me ro­of, Ga­reth wo­uld ha­ve to be par­ti­cu­larly ca­re­ful. But she al­so knew that she co­uld ha­ve crept un­de­tec­ted in­to his cham­ber and out aga­in if she'd had the fa­in­test hint of an in­vi­ta­ti­on. But they'd had no con­tact sin­ce he'd tur­ned and wal­ked away from her so ab­ruptly when she'd emer­ged from the ar­ras with the du­ke.

  She tur­ned in­to the stre­et whe­re the tro­upe had the­ir lod­gings. Chip bo­un­ced up to the cob­bler's shop ahe­ad of her. He hadn't ne­eded to be told whe­re they we­re go­ing.

  "Go­od mor­ning." Mi­ran­da gre­eted the cob­bler, who was un­bar­ring the shut­ters.

  He yaw­ned and lo­oked at her sle­epily and with so­me sus­pi­ci­on, but qu­ite wit­ho­ut re­cog­ni­ti­on.

 

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