TALE OF A TOOTH
ALLIE ROGERS
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Allie Rogers was born and raised in Brighton. After studying sociology at Leeds University, she completed a Master’s in Information Management to qualify as a librarian and has worked in university libraries for the last twenty years. Her short fiction has been published in several magazines and anthologies, including Bare Fiction, the Salt Anthology of New Writing and the ground-breaking Queer in Brighton. Her first novel, Little Gold, was published by Legend Press in May 2017.
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For all the Meemaws in the hardest times
CHAPTER ONE
Meemaw was yellowy-orange this morning. When I waked up she was sitted by the big window and her dressing gown pulled tight round. Her head in the outside for having a rolly.
Morning, sleepyhead.
Smoke was turns and dances round Meemaw. A smile. Bluey smoke but in it a bright Meemaw of yellowy-orange and a sunshine day.
Last of rolly gone Meemaw squashed it out. Throwed it away. Closed the big window thump.
If everything’s quick this morning then we can go to the library after. Sound good?
I did a nod of yes.
Does Spiney want some Rice Krispies of his own today?
When Meemaw’s yellowy-orange it is good things. I spooned my krispies and Spiney had his in the egg cup.
Meemaw at the end of the Cretaceous era when it was the mass extinction was it a meteor came from space?
Well that’s what it says in some of the books, isn’t it?
I did another nod.
On a Meemaw grey day she closes up her ears and I have to say it over over. Sometimes on a grey day is no answers at all.
Phone Meemaw?
Go on then, just while I do this bit of washing-up and put the bed away. Then we’ve got to get going. The appointment’s half nine.
Today is the twenty second so still lots of data not like on the fifteenth when you’re nearly at the end. Once I saw a sign in a shop in town. On one day a Thursday. Sign said all you can eat data. But Meemaw telled it was very too expensive.
You can’t eat data, can you, Danny? Not when you actually need beans or bread or something.
On YouTube I watched Walking with Dinosaurs. It is from when Meemaw was fourteen. Very old. It was one of two allosaurs come by a river. They devour a Stegosaur. They are the best predator of the Jurassic. I am going to get one when I’m five from the internet I am sure.
I watched in my softy sweatshirt that is a blue cave inside. Inside with Spiney. Inside there is just us glowy phone screen and smell of me and rightness.
Teeth, Dan!
I didn’t hear of Meemaw. The mighty stegosaur fallen.
Danny!
Meemaw’s hand on my shoulder meaned now.
Teeth is minty and Meemaw beside me. Meemaw says do mind counting of a hundred and brush all over. But at sixty two I needed a poo all suddenly. Poo comes when it likes no arguments Danny. I spitted.
Meemaw! Poo!
Today the poo was a hard and painful stool. I heared a lady say of it on a advert. Meemaw telled it was poo that’s hurty and a big push.
A hard and painful stool Meemaw!
I said in a push voice. My feet dingle dangling. Meemaw laughed but it wasn’t a joke it wasn’t a joke.
Oh, sunshine!
The poo was such a angry growl and push. But still not comed. In my mind I maked it gone away.
Gone Meemaw no poo today.
Meemaw went to fast words.
Danny! We’ll end up at the doctors again with this. You need to relax and let it come.
No!
I tried getting down.
Danny, Danny, love, get back on the toilet.
Meemaw catched me up and sitted me back on the toilet.
Noooooo…
A snap of tummy hurting.
Meemaw went softer droopy down. Her hair dangled. Not so yellowy orange. Not so bright like before.
Just relax, poppet, and wait, can you? Can you relax? I’ll read you a story.
I sitted on the toilet and Meemaw readed me a whole story from Magic Hare book. Then poo came sudden and sneaky on me. Mighty poo maked a splash and wetted my bot. Bot was sore and sorry of it when Meemaw wiped.
There we are, all done! Do you feel better?
I didn’t say.
Right, right, come on, wash your hands, under here! Danny! Danny, concentrate! Wash your hands, we need to get going.
Spiney was wanting another story of Magic Hare.
No!
Meemaw pulling and fast I hate. Bad of Meemaw the pulling.
Magic Hare!
We haven’t got time now. We’ll be late for that bloody appointment. Come ON!
That poo had maked us late and then it was all to rush. Rush of coats and shoes and down the steps.
On the bus Meemaw went all the way to brown. Brown as the enemy poo. Then darker darker because all the time was gone away and now we were really very late.
At Asda a old man getted on. He had a bandage on his leg. All dark and blood bits. His leg gone scaly. A reptile of the modern day. He smelled very silverblack and wrong for a person.
I holded my nose. Meemaw pulled my hand down.
Danny!
Meemaw’s teeth closed. Closed of biting. A fierce velociraptor.
I wasn’t talking to Meemaw then. I counted people who getted on at Asda and there was eleven. Smelly man was worst and best a black man who had big red headphones. Shiny as Chupa Chups.
Like your dino, bro!
He meaned it to me even though I’m not bro. That was a nice man and his headphones shiny and like your dino bro. But all the time by Asda Meemaw went whispery.
Christ’s sake! Oh, for Christ’s sake come on…
Looking at her phone because the poo had maked us late maked us really rather late.
But Meemaw had pulled. I didn’t care of it the lateness.
By the roundabout the button already pressed. Light saying wait. The red man on on. I feeled Meemaw’s hand sticky. I didn’t want to hold. I pulled then.
Be patient, Danny! Please, love, just try to be patient and stand still.
Things were wrong. All was wrong the air gone nasty of car exhausting and too glarey splash on the windscreens.
We went across the road. A lady was too close. Her bag was a leopard’s fur. Perfume smell I hate.
Just cool it, love. Come on, Danny. You can do it.
I closed my eyes. Keeped them closed all the way.
I hate it the job centre because
always waiting and there are too much people. People coughing all bubbles and sometimes it comes out. Meemaw telled phlegm. I hate that phlegm. I have never done it I won’t ever do it. It’s not like sick you can’t help it of sick.
Meemaw sitted down but I standed on a edge bit by the window. My feet turned sideways. I could see traffic roundy round the roundabout. I counted red cars fourteen. Spiney counted vans eight.
The last van was Silentnight pyjamas hippo and yellow chick. Very big very small. That is me and Meemaw she said it once. We were by the beds superstore on one day a Friday. She was whole orange very bright and it was summer.
That was the goodest of good days. Meemaw was orange. I had a lolly that was orange I choosed to match Meemaw. I holded it by her face.
This is your colour Meemaw.
You mean my favourite colour?
Your today colour. Of you today.
Am I always a colour?
I didn’t say but did a nod. She kissed on my head the top of it.
I was doing remembering that day. A good day. But Spiney said it didn’t happen not ever and I was telling a lie. I banged him on the window for a punishment very serious.
Danny stop it! Come here! Look, play with Spiney just here by me, okay?
I had done it wrong the banging but that was the fault of Spiney not me.
The lady had green boots. Buttons on of gold. Very nice roundy. Three and three. Magical of a story.
Ms White? Please come this way.
We went by a desk. A chair for Meemaw and I standed beside.
Can you explain why you are twenty minutes late for your appointment today, Ms White?
Tight in her words in her mouth air a smell of metal. She was not nice. A not to be nice lady of no smile. No smile at Meemaw.
I’m so sorry. We were just about to leave but my son needed the toilet. And then the bus was late. We were on our way. I’m sorry to be late.
Meemaw tried hard and hard. Very sorry so sorry. Meemaw did such many of smiles.
We just couldn’t get out of the house. You know how it is sometimes with little ones.
I’m afraid you have an obligation to be on time to appointments, Ms White.
I know. I realise that and I’m sorry I was late but my son had to use the toilet. He’s had some issues with…
You have an obligation to be on time for appointments and if you fail to do so then I’m afraid you will be sanctioned. I’m going to have to sanction you today, do you understand?
I’ve said…
The sanction will be for a period…
Meemaw couldn’t tell stop to the Job Centre lady. It was obligation sanction words. But it was repeating repeating. Sometimes you have to stop that Danny because it drives people mad.
Meemaw went still as still. When Meemaw is such still after words you have said a thing of hurtful. Meemaw is going to cry when she moves. Lady didn’t know my Meemaw was gone to crying inside. And it would come out next. And maybe a shout.
I regret that this is necessary, Ms White. I regret that this is necessary but you have an obligation.
Meemaw standed up sudden. She turned fast of a swift bird in the sky. Her long coat lifted out of a tail. She was gone fast away.
Fast in the corridor flying. She forgetted to hold out her hand behind. Spiney and me ran after.
Outside Meemaw did big long steps to the flowers. She sitted on the edge crying. We sitted down too. We were three in a row.
Spiney sitted very close of my leg. I sitted close of Meemaw’s leg but I didn’t touch in case of worse crying. All her colours were gone swirly.
When Meemaw does crying her colours run a mixture. Water in your paint tray. I had paints in the other flat. In the other flat was hard floor and Meemaw could wipe up spills not lose the bloody deposit.
Meemaw crying. I did watching the man the newspapers trolley man. He gived them to people coming over the crossing mostly they snatched them up. Take take take. Pterosaurs swooping.
I readed the papers but it was hard. Trying trying. Three tries then a man stopped close he was on his phone.
Newspaper by me I holded the words of my eyes. Man stabbed in park.
Meemaw not loud crying because outdoors and people would come. Come and ask what and it is none of their business.
But then a person did come. I had getted up I was making Spiney walk all along the edge close to the trumpetty daffodils. Jump over the bin and back again. Faster faster went Spiney and a person was there sudden and talking to Meemaw.
A person sitted close on the wall and talking. I went back. Standed by Meemaw.
I wasn’t sure of a man or a lady because short short hair trousers no earrings at all. But then I saw boobies. Boobies and close. Gived Meemaw a tissue from her own packet fat and a new one and we didn’t know her.
Please, oh no. Don’t worry. Thank you.
Meemaw said it round round. Lady waiting. She didn’t say that’s enough. She looked at me.
That’s a fierce-looking monster you’ve got there.
It is not a monster it is actually a dinosaur called Spinosaurus that lived in the Cretaceous era more than 65 million years ago.
She laughed. It is not funny or a joke to be said it is the actual truth of Spiney.
Wow! You’re quite the little professor, aren’t you?
I didn’t say. I closed my mouth tight. I looked away by the daffodils. When I looked again her face was pink. Sticky wet.
Meemaw was getted up then and sniffing. The lady putted her hand on Meemaw’s arm.
Let me, let me just see what I can do. I can see how upset you are. I’ve seen you before in there…
She looked at me then. I stared hard.
… and your little ‘un. I don’t like seeing you so upset.
Meemaw’s voice was wobbly of the crying.
I don’t like to ask but I just can’t… I just can’t deal with it now, getting sanctioned, you know?
The lady did nodding nodding hard her head.
There’s discretion. There’s discretion. I’ll have a word. I… I think I can sort it for you. Just give me your number and I’ll let you know, eh?
The lady was close close. Smiled big. She did another touch of Meemaw.
No more crying in her Meemaw settled to grey of a stone. A slow colour. Quiet and not more crying.
I wanted go go go. I pulled on Meemaw’s hand. I thinked of the library the better smell of it and labels of colours. Orange that means dinosaurs and prehistoric.
Hey Professor! You go easy on your mum, eh?
The lady had spikey hair like daggers. Rubbing on my Meemaw’s arm. Too much of touching. I watched her but only in little looks. I did spying on her. I did pulling on Meemaw.
I’ll text you soon as. Don’t worry too much.
She turned around for going away. Good good. Then she stopped.
Whatever, come back tomorrow and have a coffee with me, eh? My treat. It’s bloody grim working in there.
Meemaw tucked her hair by her ear but it came out again and hanged down.
Oh, oh, well, you don’t have to do that.
I’d like to. Come on, it’s just coffee. Cheer me up, eh?
The words were quiet and broken into each one. Softly soft. Meemaw doesn’t like coffee only tea.
Thanks, that’s very kind.
She looked away by the roundabout. There was a huffle of wind. Meemaw’s hair lifted up like reaching out. I pulled harder.
I’ll see you then?
Yeah, sure. Tomorrow.
The lady went away then. I was glad of it. I did three jumps.
Meemaw blew her nose on the lady’s tissue. Lots of snot came out I wanted to see. I like it all gloop.
Danny, don’t!
Meemaw pushed me away. She wiped then throwed the tissue in the bin thonk.
What happened Meemaw? Have you getted a obligation?
Meemaw did a sigh.
Why do we have to come back tomorrow because you don’t like co
ffee.
Meemaw laughed then. A small little tumble laugh.
That nice lady is called Karen and she’s going to try to sort things out so we don’t get sanctioned.
What is it sanctioned?
It’s a punishment, Danny. Because we were late. It means they take away our money.
I knowed it was the poo had maked us late. I hated that big poo for its evil-doing. And now no money for data and ever lollies or something. Then Meemaw shouted.
The bus!
The bus went roary round the corner gone.
Oh God! Love, its ages until the next one.
Meemaw did a sigh looked at her phone.
Danny, love, it’s ages until the next bus and it’s too far to walk from here. I’m really wrung out, sweetheart. I think we’d better go home.
I sitted down. I sitted on the wall pushed my feet down hard hard on the pavement. I holded my hands on my ears to never hear more Meemaw and stupid words.
Yahyahyahyahyahyah…
Louder louder to not hear her.
I cried because of today the worst day. No library and the stupid poo. And Meemaw.
Meemaw sitted beside me close. I feeled beside me her bigness. I heared the tupperware even through my hands. I smelled it. I smelled Marmite sandwich.
I opened my eyes and Meemaw had it on her hand. Pink flat hand a triangle sandwich. Meemaw’s head looked sideways of want it? No words. Just looking.
I taked one hand off my ear. Taked the sandwich bited it.
I promise you, Danny, we’ll get up early tomorrow and go straight to the library. But I really really need to go home now.
On the roundabout past the turn turn of the cars there were yellow daffodils more. I thinked they had come everywhere now the daffodils. I did chewing and the daffodils.
Marmite sandwich was a good taste of home. I thinked of inside my sweatshirt. Home and right smells.
Remember, Danny, we can definitely go to the library tomorrow. We will go tomorrow. I promise.
I looked along the flowers beside. One daffodil was yesterday the next one today the next one tomorrow. They were in a line. The line was a promise.
I unstucked my feet. We went to the bus stop. I yawned a big yawn very stretch of elastic pants wide.
All the way home on the bus my eyes went running in the yellow lines. I hummed a going home noise of quite loud. Not too. Meemaw letted me.
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