by Harlan Coben
"I'm just trying to get a feel here."
"A feel for what? Have you found something or not?"
"Please." Perlmutter tried on what he must have believed was a disarming smile. "I just need to get some stuff down. For background, okay? Where did you and Jack Lawson meet?"
"In France."
He wrote it down. "You're an artist, aren't you, Mrs. Lawson?"
"Yes."
"So you were overseas studying your art?"
"Captain Perlmutter?"
"Yes."
"No offense, but this line of questioning is bizarre."
Perlmutter glanced at Daley. He shrugged to signal that he meant no harm. "Maybe you're right."
"Have you learned something or not?"
"I believe Officer Daley explained to you that your husband is of age, that we really aren't obligated to tell you anything?"
"He did."
"Right, well, we don't think he's met up with foul play, if that's your concern."
"What makes you say that?"
"No evidence of such."
"Meaning," she said, "that you haven't found bloodstains or anything like that?"
"That's correct. But more than that"--Perlmutter looked over at Daley again--"we did find something that, well, we probably shouldn't share with you."
Grace adjusted herself in the seat. She tried very hard to meet his eye, but he wouldn't face her. "I'd very much appreciate knowing what you found."
"It's not much," Perlmutter said.
She waited.
"Officer Daley called your husband's office. He's not there, of course. I'm sure you know that already. He also didn't call in sick. So we decided to investigate a little more. Unofficially, you understand."
"Right."
"You were helpful enough to give us your car's E-ZPass number. We ran it through the computer. What time did you say your husband went out last night?"
"Around ten o'clock."
"And you thought that maybe he went to the grocery store?"
"I didn't know. He didn't tell me."
"He just upped and left?"
"Right."
"And you never asked him where he was going?"
"I was upstairs. I heard the car start up."
"Okay, here's what I need to know." Perlmutter let go of the paunch. His chair creaked as he leaned forward. "You called him on the cell phone. Pretty much right away. Is that correct?"
"Yes."
"Well, see, that's the problem. Why didn't he answer you? I mean, if he wanted to talk to you?"
Grace saw where he was going with this.
"Do you think your husband--what?--got in an accident right away? Or maybe someone grabbed him within minutes of leaving your house?"
Grace hadn't really thought about that. "I don't know."
"Do you ever drive up the New York Thruway?"
The change of subject threw her. "Not often, but sure, I've taken it."
"Ever go to Woodbury Commons?"
"The outlet mall?"
"Yes."
"I've been, yes."
"How long do you figure it takes to get there?"
"Half an hour. Is that where he went?"
"I doubt it, not at that hour. The stores are all closed. But he used his E-ZPass at the tollbooth on that exit at precisely 10:26 P.M. It leads to Route 17, and heck, that's how I go to the Poconos. Give or take ten minutes either way, that would fit a scenario where your husband left your house and drove straight in that direction. From there, well, who knows where he went? It's fifteen miles to Interstate 80. From there you can go straight to California if you'd like."
She sat there.
"So add it up, Mrs. Lawson. Your husband leaves the house. You call him immediately. He doesn't answer. Within a half hour or so, we know he's driving in New York. If someone had attacked him or if he got in an accident, well, there's no way he could have been snatched and then his E-ZPass used up there in that short a time frame. Do you understand what I'm telling you?"
Grace met his eye. "That I'm a hysterical bimbo whose husband ran out on her."
"That's not what I'm saying at all. It's just . . . Well, we really can't investigate any further at this point. Unless . . ." He leaned a little closer. "Mrs. Lawson, is there anything else you can think of that could help us here?"
Grace tried not to squirm. She glanced behind her. Officer Daley had not moved. She had a copy of the strange photograph in her purse. She thought about Fuzz Pellet Josh and the store not opening. It was time to tell them. In hindsight she should have told Daley about it when it first showed up.
"I'm not sure it's relevant," she began, reaching into her purse. She pulled out a copy of the photograph and passed it to Perlmutter. Perlmutter took out a pair of reading glasses, cleaned them with his shirttail, and pushed them into place. Daley walked around and bent down over the captain's shoulder. She told them about finding the photograph mixed in with her others. The two officers stared at her as if she'd taken out a razor and started shaving her head.
When Grace was done, Captain Perlmutter pointed to the picture and said, "And you're sure that's your husband?"
"I think so."
"But you're not sure?"
"I'm pretty sure."
He nodded in that way people do when they think you're a lunatic. "And the other people in the photo? The young lady somebody crossed out?"
"I don't know them."
"But your husband. He said it wasn't him, right?"
"Right."
"So if it isn't him, well, this is irrelevant. And if it is him"--Perlmutter took off the glasses--"he lied to you. Isn't that correct, Mrs. Lawson?"
Her cell phone rang. Grace grabbed it fast and checked the number.
It was Jack.
For a moment she went very still. Grace wanted to excuse herself, but Perlmutter and Daley were both looking at her. Asking for privacy was not really an option here. She hit the answer button and brought the phone to her ear.
"Jack?"
"Hey."
The sound of his voice should have filled her with relief. It didn't.
Jack said, "I tried you at home. Where are you?"
"Where am I?"
"Listen, I can't talk long. I'm sorry about running out on you like that."
His tone was aiming for casual, but it wasn't hitting the mark.
"I need a few days," he said.
"What are you talking about?"
"Where are you, Grace?"
"I'm at the police station."
"You called the police?"
Her eyes met Perlmutter's. He wiggled his fingers, as if to say, Give me the phone, little lady. I'll handle it.
"Look, Grace, just give me a few days. I . . ." Jack stopped. And then he said something that made the dread grow tenfold. "I need some space."
"Space," she repeated.
"Yes. A little space. That's all. Please tell the police that I apologize. I have to go now. Okay? I'll be back soon."
"Jack?"
He didn't reply.
"I love you," Grace said.
But the phone was dead.
Chapter 8
Space. Jack said he needed space. And that was all wrong. Never mind that "needing space" was one of those lame, cloying, namby-pamby, New Age we-are-the-world terms that was worse than meaningless--"needing space"--a terrible euphemism for "I'm soooo outta here." That would have been a clue perhaps, but this went much deeper.
Grace was home now. She had mumbled an apology to Perlmutter and Daley. Both men looked at her with pity and told her that it was all part of the job. They said that they were sorry. Grace offered up a solemn nod and headed for the door.
She had learned something crucial from the phone call.
Jack was in trouble.
She had not been overreacting. His disappearance had nothing to do with running away from her or fear of commitment. It was no accident. It had not been expected or planned. She had picked up the photograph from the sto
re. Jack had seen it and run out.
And now he was in serious danger.
She could never explain this to the police. First off, they wouldn't believe her. They would claim that she was either delusional or nadve to the point of a learning disability. Maybe not to her face. Maybe they would humor her, which would be both a tremendous irritant and waste of time. They'd been convinced that Jack was on the run before the call. Her explanation would not change their minds.
And maybe that was best.
Grace was trying to read between the lines here. Jack had been concerned about police involvement. That was obvious. When she said that she was at the police station, the regret in his voice was real. That was no act.
Space.
That was the main clue. If he had just told her that he was leaving for a few days, blowing off steam, running off with a stripper he'd met at the Satin Dolls, okay, she might not believe him, but it would be in the realm of possibility. But Jack hadn't done that. He had been specific about his reasons for disappearing. He even repeated himself.
Jack needed space.
Marital codes. All couples have them. Most were pretty stupid. For example, there was a scene in the Billy Crystal movie Mr. Saturday Night when the comic Crystal played--Grace couldn't remember the name, barely remembered the movie--pointed at an old man with a terrible toupee and said, "Is that a toupee? I, for one, was fooled." So now, whenever she and Jack saw a man with a possible toupee, one would turn to the other and say, "I for one?" and the spouse would either agree or disagree. Grace and Jack started using "I for one" for other vanity enhancements too--nose jobs, breast implants, whatever.
The origin of "Need space" was a bit more risque.
Despite her current predicament, Grace's cheeks couldn't help but flush from the memory. Sex had always been very good with Jack, but in any long-term relationship, there are ebbs and flows. This was two years ago, during a time of, uh, great flow. A stage of more corporeal creativity, if you will. Public creativity, to be more specific.
There had been the quick nooky in the changing room at one of those upscale hair salons. There had been under-the-coat manipulation in a private balcony at a lush Broadway musical. But it was midway through a particularly daring encounter in a British-style red phone booth located, in of all places, a quiet street in Allendale, New Jersey, when Jack suddenly panted, "I need space."
Grace had looked up at him. "Excuse me?"
"I mean, literally. Back up! The phone receiver is pressing into my neck!"
They'd both laughed. Grace closed her eyes now, a faint smile on her lips. "Need space" had thus joined the ranks of their private marital language. Jack would not use that phrase haphazardly. He was sending her a message, warning her, letting her know that he was saying something he didn't mean.
Okay, so what did he mean then?
Jack couldn't speak freely for one thing. Someone was listening. Who? Was someone with him--or was he afraid because she was with the cops? She hoped the latter, that he was alone and simply didn't want police involvement.
But when she considered all the facts, that possibility seemed unlikely.
If Jack had been free to talk, why hadn't he called her back? He'd have to realize that she'd be out of the police station by now. If he were okay, if he was alone, Jack would have called again, just to let her know what was going on. He hadn't done that.
Conclusion: Jack was with somebody and in serious trouble.
Did he want her to react or sit tight? In the same way she knew Jack--in the same way she knew that he'd been sending her a signal--Jack would know that Grace's reaction would not be to go quietly into that good night. That was not her personality. Jack understood that. She would try to find him.
He had probably counted on that.
Of course, this was all no more than conjecture. She knew her husband well--or maybe she didn't?--so her conjectures were more than mere fancy. But how much more? Maybe she was just justifying her decision to take action.
Didn't matter. Either way, she was involved.
Grace thought about what she'd already learned. Jack had taken the Windstar up the New York Thruway. Who did they know up there? Why would he have gone that way so late at night?
She had no idea.
Hold up.
Roll it back to the start: Jack comes home. Jack sees the photograph. That was what set it off. The photograph. He sees it on the kitchen counter. She starts asking him about it. He gets a call from Dan. And then he goes into his study . . .
Stop. His study.
Grace hurried down the hall. Study was a rather ornate word for this converted screened-in porch. The plaster was cracking in spots. There was always a draft in the winter and a stifling lack of anything approaching air in the summer. There were photographs of the kids in cheap frames and two of her paintings in expensive ones. The study felt strangely impersonal to her. Nothing in here told you about the past of the room's main occupant--no mementos, no softball signed by friends, no photo of a golf foursome taking to the links. Other than some pharmaceutical freebies--pens, pads, a paperclip holder--there were no clues as to who Jack really was other than a husband, father, and researcher.
But maybe that was all there was.
Grace felt weird, snooping. There had been strength, she thought, in respecting one another's privacy. They each had a room closed off to the other. Grace had always been okay with that. She'd even convinced herself it was healthy. Now she wondered about looking away. She wondered if it'd derived from a desire to give Jack privacy--needing space?!--or because she feared poking a beehive.
His computer was up and online. Jack's default page was the "official" Grace Lawson Web site. Grace stared at the chair for a moment, the ergonomic gray from the local Staples store, imagining Jack there, turning on the computer every morning, having her face greet him. The site's home page had a glam shot of Grace along with several examples of her work. Farley, her agent, had recently insisted that she include the photograph in all sales material because, as he put it, "You a babe." She reluctantly acquiesced. Looks had always been used by the arts to promote the work. On stage and in movies, well, the importance of looks was obvious. Even writers, with their glossy touched-up portraits, the smoldering dark eyes of the next literati wunderkind, marketed appearances. But Grace's world--painting--had been fairly immune to this pressure, ignoring the creator's physical beauty, perhaps because the form itself was all about the physical.
But not anymore.
An artist appreciates the importance of the aesthetical, of course. Aesthetics do more than alter perception. They altered reality. Prime example: If Grace had been fat or homely, the TV crews would not have been monitoring her vital signs after she'd been pulled from the Boston Massacre. If she'd been physically unappealing, she would have never been adopted as the "people's survivor," the innocent, the "Crushed Angel," as one tabloid headline dubbed her. The media always broadcasted her image while giving medical updates. The press--nay, the country--demanded constant updates on her condition. The families of victims visited her room, spent time with her, searched her face for ghostly wisps of their own lost children.
Would they have done the same had she been unattractive?
Grace didn't want to speculate. But as one too-honest art critic had told her: "We have little interest in a painting that has little aesthetic appeal--why should it be different with a human being?"
Even before the Boston Massacre Grace had wanted to be an artist. But something--something elusive and impossible to explain--had been missing. The whole experience had helped take her artistic sensibilities to the next level. Yes, she knew how pretentious that sounded. She had disdained that art-school clatter: You have to suffer for your art; you need tragedy to give your work texture. It had always rung hollow before, but now she understood that there was indeed something to it.
Without changing her conscious viewpoint, her work developed that vague intangible. There was more emotion, more life, more .
. . swirl. Her work was darker, angrier, more vivid. People often wondered if she'd ever painted any scenes from that horrible day. The simple answer was only one portrait--a young face so full of hope that you knew it would soon be crushed--but the truer answer was that the Boston Massacre shaded and colored everything she touched.
Grace sat down at Jack's desk. The phone was to her right. She reached for it, deciding to try the simplest thing first: Hit redial on Jack's phone.