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by The Improper Life of Bezellia Grove (v5)


  “No!” she yelled through the branches.

  “Then come on.” And I blindly reached through the willow branches and grabbed Adelaide by the arm. She let out a sudden cry and tugged hard to try to free herself. But I held on tight to my sister’s tiny wrist and pulled her up. Samuel jumped out of the creek as if I had ordered him back to the house too. He had nearly buttoned his shirt by the time we started walking back across the field, and he indicated he was going to escort us home whether I wanted him to or not.

  Adelaide was tripping along next to me, my hand clutched tightly around hers. Samuel quickly fell into place on my other side. We walked toward the house without saying much of anything, except for Adelaide interrupting the awkward silence with whiny comments about the gnats flying around her head or about the grass sticking to her legs. We stopped in a patch of clover so she could make another crown for Baby Stella, since the first one had fallen off somewhere along the way. Samuel made one, too, and then placed it on my head.

  “There,” he said. “You are a princess after all.”

  Adelaide looked at me and giggled. “You do look like a beautiful princess, Bezellia.”

  “Why do you keep calling me that, Samuel? Why do you call me a princess?” I demanded, snatching the clover ring from the top of my head.

  “Okay, you live in a castle for one thing. You have people waiting on you for another. And you sit on that porch and read while everybody else is working to make you happy. Sounds like a princess to me, at least what I know of one.”

  “Well, if everybody’s working to make me so happy, I’d say they’re not doing a very good job.”

  “Then maybe you’re more like that spoiled princess that had to sleep on all those mattresses because of that one tiny pea keeping her up all night,” he said, with that now-annoying smile stretched across his face.

  “I love that story, Samuel. That’s my favorite,” Adelaide shouted. I quickly glanced at them both and with a blunt cutting stare told them to hush.

  No one had ever accused me of being spoiled, or a princess, and he was making me feel like I had done something I should be apologizing for. He did not understand how much sadness could fill a big old house. He had no idea what it meant to be Bezellia Grove. But I guess at the end of the day, I had no idea what it meant to be Samuel Stephenson either. And so we walked the rest of the way in silence, each not really caring to understand what the other one knew to be true. Then every few steps his arm would brush against mine, and a shiver would run straight down to my stomach.

  Adelaide wrenched her hand free and started running ahead of me. “Mother! Mother!” she cried.

  My heart stopped when I spied my mother talking to Nathaniel. He was pointing to the barn, showing her the shingled roof he and Samuel had nailed in place in the few days since she had left. She smiled and nodded, but when her eyes caught mine, the smile swiftly drained from her face. Nathaniel seemed as surprised as my mother to see Samuel by my side. But I stepped steadily toward them both, trying not to interrupt my stride with any expression of fear or concern, desperately attempting to pretend that Samuel was someplace else.

  “Hello, Mother. You’re home,” I said, sounding more like I was asking a question than making an observation. “Maizelle said you wouldn’t be back until tomorrow evening.”

  “Maizelle was wrong, Sister,” she said curtly and then stared at Samuel. “I assume this fine-looking young man is your son.” Mother was obviously speaking to Nathaniel, but her eyes were fixed on Samuel.

  “Yes, ma’am, I am. I’m Samuel Stephenson. Nice to meet you, ma’am,” he said, not waiting for his father’s introduction. He held out his hand to shake my mother’s. But she kept her hand, protected in its white cotton glove, at her side.

  “Sister, you better be getting in the house. Looks as though Adelaide needs a bath. Remember, you have a job to do.”

  “But …”

  “No, no. No buts.”

  I walked up the front steps, passing both Samuel and Nathaniel, none of us willing to speak. Mother refused to exchange a warm hello or a welcoming hug like I had dreamed we might do. And from the top of the porch, I could see Samuel standing stiff by his father’s side. He was staring through my mother as if he was boring a hole right through to her soul. He wasn’t the least bit afraid of this white woman shielded in her cotton gloves and fancy silk suit. But I was. A part of me was afraid, afraid I’d never see Samuel Stephenson again. And a part of me was afraid that I would.

  IRIS BALL IN FULL BLOOM AT HUNT ESTATE

  MOST LAVISH SOCIAL EVENT IN CITY’S HISTORY

  Symphony to Benefit from Gala’s Success

  More than five hundred guests attended the Iris Ball Saturday night at the Hunt family estate in support of the Nashville Symphony Orchestra. Mrs. George Madison Longfellow Hunt V and Mrs. Charles Goodman Grove V hosted the debut fund-raiser. The Women’s Volunteer League of Nashville sponsored the evening’s festivities.

  Guests were serenaded by orchestral music as they made their way down a candlelit path and into an opulently decorated white tent, the interior of which had been transformed into a lavish Paris garden scene.

  Streamers of purple irises and red roses were strewn from the center of the tent. Under a canopy of flowers and twinkling lights, guests dined on an elaborate five-course dinner featuring potage crème de cresson, canard en croûte, escalopes de veau, chocolate soufflé, and French champagne.

  Beautifully appointed tables were draped in a soft lilac-colored French silk and were centered with impressive arrangements of deep purple irises, red roses, and white tulips. Silver and crystal candlesticks were wrapped in ivy and held long cream tapers.

  Mrs. Hunt, who greeted all of her guests in French, wore a red sequined gown with an empire waist and cap sleeves. Her dress was designed and fabricated in Paris. Mrs. Grove chose a purple silk worsted sheath with an elegant back drape and heavy beading around the neck and sleeves. Both women received a standing ovation for their fund-raising efforts.

  Patrons had been treated to a cocktail supper at the Groves’ historic home earlier in the week.

  Guests at the ball included Dr. and Mrs. Thomas Walter Purdy; Dr. and Mrs. Anson Franklin Johnson, Jr., of Memphis; Mr. and Mrs. Richard Ottowell Haase II; Mr. and Mrs. Francis Parsons Watkins, of Chattanooga; and Mr. and Mrs. James Dickson Holder III.

  The Nashville Register

  early edition

  SEPTEMBER 27, 1965

  chapter four

  Mother did not wake up until noon the day after the ball. Father took her a cup of coffee and the morning paper as she intended to spend the afternoon in bed reading the society page and calling friends. He stayed by her side for hours, and I could hear them talking and laughing as they swapped stories, retelling the events of the previous night. I had never known my parents to enjoy each other’s company as much as they seemed to that day. Father was very proud of my mother, and I think she was finally very proud of herself.

  Everyone, including me, agreed that Mother looked absolutely beautiful, much prettier than Mrs. Hunt in her French couture gown. And with photographs of Mother splashed across the society page, we all assured her that she was now certain to be the envy of every woman in Nashville. “Purple is, Sister dear, an unforgettable color,” Mother gushed.

  By Thanksgiving, the Women’s Volunteer League had hosted a lovely luncheon at the country club in honor of my mother and Mrs. Hunt and then very promptly named two new women to chair the next year’s Iris Ball. And just as quickly as the glasses had been raised to toast my mother, the attention she had so desperately craved slipped into the gloved hands of another.

  The president of the hospital’s auxiliary committee asked Mrs. Hunt to chair the gala fund-raiser for the new pediatric ward, another elaborate evening of dinner and dancing. I’m sure Mother expected her dear friend to invite her to cochair the event. After all, they were the talk of the town, and her very own husband was sure to be the hospital’s next chief
of staff. But the phone never rang, and Mother finally read of Mrs. Hunt’s decision in the afternoon paper. Mrs. Holder would be her cochair. Her husband had just been named managing partner of the city’s oldest and most prestigious law firm, a position that apparently impressed my mother’s dear friend even more.

  So by Christmas, Mother found herself feeling very forgotten. She spent most of her days at the club, playing bridge or lunching with a few so-called friends, trying desperately to remind them that she was a very important person. But this was a job that now seemed to overwhelm her, and she began drinking more and more, not only at dinner but sometimes even at breakfast, pouring gin into her orange juice when she thought no one was looking. Most afternoons, the manager at the club would call Nathaniel and politely tell him to come and retrieve Mrs. Grove, as she seemed to have fallen ill, yet again. By Easter, few of Mother’s friends bothered to call, and she rarely left the house, spending most of her days hiding in her bedroom.

  I had grown somewhat accustomed to my mother’s cruel behavior when she drank, but now she didn’t even seem to notice us—and that scared me even more. And although Adelaide and I saw no more of our mother than we had when she was working endless hours with Mrs. Hunt, designing table decorations and engraved invitations, our house now seemed shrouded in a sickening chill that nothing, not even an unexpected thunderstorm, could wash away.

  Then one brilliantly clear spring evening, Nathaniel announced that rain was surely heading our way. He could smell it in the air. He tipped his head back and took another deep breath. “Yes, sir, the rain is coming,” he said and then walked out the back door, probably wanting to check on the horses or put the Cadillac in the garage before leaving for the night. Maizelle was in the kitchen cooking some caramel icing for a yellow layer cake she had made earlier in the afternoon. Adelaide was stirring the pot of thick, sugary syrup as it slowly boiled on the stove. I headed up the stairs to study for an English test.

  I could see Mother sitting in the den, staring blankly at the television set as she often did, the sound of David Brinkley’s steady, commanding voice leading her into a deep, sound sleep. Maybe she got up to change the channel or make herself another drink. I don’t really know for sure. But I do know that when she lifted herself out of the chair, drunk and half-asleep, she tripped and fell to her knees, dropping her Waterford tumbler and grazing her forehead on the corner of the glass-topped coffee table. I heard the muffled thud and quickly ran down the stairs to see what had happened. But when I spotted my mother kneeling on the floor, clutching Baby Stella in her hands, I carefully dropped behind the banister. Adelaide came running out of the kitchen. Maizelle was just a few steps behind her.

  Mother immediately began yelling and cursing, spitting out words I had never heard, words I later had to ask Cornelia to define. And as she steadied herself on her feet, with Adelaide’s doll still dangling from her right hand, Mother spied my little sister. Adelaide slid behind Maizelle, but she couldn’t hide. Without much warning at all, Mother stormed toward her, yelling something about it being time she grew up and quit living in her childish, make-believe world. It was time she quit playing with baby dolls and making those damned mud pies. Adelaide pressed her face into Maizelle’s bottom, desperately trying to disappear.

  “The real world is not very nice, little missy, not fucking nice at all. And you might as well learn that right now,” Mother screamed, looking so red-faced and twisted I thought the devil himself had swallowed her whole. Mother pushed Maizelle aside and yanked my little sister by the arm, her fingernails piercing Adelaide’s pale, tender skin.

  Adelaide started crying and shaking uncontrollably, which only seemed to further fuel Mother’s rage, like a match thrown into a bucket of kerosene.

  “Shut up! Do you hear me! Shut up! I don’t want to hear any more of your damn screaming.”

  But Adelaide couldn’t stop. Her heart was broken into too many tiny pieces. And Mother didn’t care. She slapped her across the face and then grabbed her small frail-looking arms and shook her back and forth, back and forth, my sister’s curly-haired head looking like it might snap right off. Maizelle tried to squeeze her body between Mother and Adelaide. But Mother slapped her too, fortunately only sweeping the top of Maizelle’s shoulder. I saw Maizelle’s right hand go up as if she was intending to hit my mother back. Then, just as quickly as she had raised it, her hand fell behind her back.

  “Get your nigger ass out of my house!” Mother screamed. But Maizelle didn’t move. I thought for a minute she really might strike my mother, just punch her square and hard in the mouth. And I hoped for a minute that she would. Then the back door slammed shut. Maizelle relaxed her stance a little bit and took a full step back, carefully pulling Adelaide along with her. Nathaniel walked into the front hall. I guess he was coming for his hat or to tell Maizelle good night. But there he stood, tall and strong, trying to make sense of the confusion that was unfolding right before his eyes.

  He stepped toward my mother, who snatched Adelaide in her arms and charged up the stairs, not even noticing me crouching in the corner of the landing. She threw my sister on her bed and slapped her thigh over and over again. I shook every time I heard the sharp sound of her hand striking Adelaide’s smooth, fair skin. Then she started slamming drawers and doors, one right after the other. It sounded like a tornado was ripping through my sister’s room, and in the midst of it all, Mother just kept shouting at Adelaide, demanding she take one good, last look at her baby dolls as she stuffed yet another one into her arms. Adelaide would never see them again, Mother promised. Never. Then she stomped out of the room, with her arms full of plastic arms and heads and legs, not even bothering to look back at the little girl left crumpled on the bed.

  As soon as Mother slammed the door to her own room, directly across the hall, Nathaniel ordered Maizelle to run and check on Adelaide. She turned and grabbed onto the handrail, pulling herself up the stairs with such strength that I thought she might knock me down. I could feel her feet almost on top of mine and her breath, heavy and labored, against my neck. She was desperate to comfort her baby girl.

  My little sister was lying on her side with her knees tucked against her chest. She wasn’t crying anymore. She was just staring at the wall.

  Maizelle said she had been shocked into silence, said she’d seen it before. She quickly dampened a cloth and washed Adelaide’s face. She gave her a couple of baby aspirin and then opened her top dresser drawer and pulled out Adelaide’s favorite pink pajamas. I sat down next to my little sister and put my arm around her shoulders. She was so thin and small I could feel her bones poking through her skin. I patted her back and told her not to worry about Baby Stella and the others. Nathaniel would find them. And Maizelle promised she would wash their faces and give them some baby aspirin too.

  Adelaide suddenly started crying with such force and conviction that I wasn’t sure she would ever be able to stop. “Baby Stella. Baby Stella,” she moaned, repeating this tearful, tiny plea as she rocked herself back and forth. She finally closed her eyes, and Maizelle and I held our breath, hoping she had fallen asleep. But then her body jerked forward, and she started sobbing again, repeating the same tearful refrain.

  Nathaniel opened the door just enough to push his head into the room. He winked at us and smiled, trying to reassure us that everything was going to be okay. Then he told Maizelle to stay with the children until she heard Dr. Grove come up the stairs. He said he’d be sitting on the front porch. My eyes must have widened with surprise, because he looked right at me and told me not to worry.

  “It’ll be all right, Miss Bezellia. I just need to have a few words with your daddy.” Then he closed the bedroom door, motioning for Maizelle to lock it behind him. Maizelle stood up and whispered something to Nathaniel and then locked the door. I knew right then she hated my mother as much as I did.

  From Adelaide’s bedroom window, I could see Nathaniel sitting perfectly still in the green wicker glider, gazing up at the stars,
patiently waiting for my father to pull in the driveway. He sat there for what seemed like hours, with his hands resting on his thighs and his head slightly tilted toward the sky. I wondered what all he saw when he looked at those stars. Then Adelaide’s room suddenly filled with light as my father’s car eased its way to the house, the headlights boldly announcing his arrival. I ran to the window and hid behind the heavy floral draperies, carefully spying my father as he stepped out of his car.

  Nathaniel stood up and walked to the edge of the porch. “Good evening, Dr. Grove,” he said with a firm, direct voice, not even waiting for my father to make his way to the front steps.

  “Good evening, Nathaniel.” My father answered slowly and carefully, suddenly looking like a buck who had been grazing in the field at dusk. It was as if he could sense some sort of danger, hidden but surely there. He probably wanted to run for cover, but instead of scanning the horizon for a thicket of trees or some heavy brush, he just froze in place. “What are you doing here so late? Everything okay?”

  “No, sir, it’s not. Nothing here is okay. But you already know that,” Nathaniel said and then paused for what seemed like a very long time. I guess he was searching for the right words to say to the man he had once taken fishing down by the creek, steadying his fishing cane so he’d be certain to get a bite. But now, Nathaniel sounded more like a parent chastising a naughty child than an old friend or a colored man careful of his position. And even though my father would have had every right to make him stop, he did not.

  “I have known you for a long time, and maybe ’cause of that I feel I can say what’s in my heart. Or maybe I’m just plain afraid if I don’t, one of your girls is going to end up in that hospital you’re at all the time.

  “You know as well as I do that Mrs. Grove’s taken to drinking every day, pretty much from the time she wakes up in the morning till she falls asleep at night. She sneaks that gin into her orange juice like nobody knows what she’s doing. But you do. You know. And you ought to know by now that she can’t care for herself, let alone those two sweet baby girls of yours. That’s bad enough for sure. But today she hurt Adelaide, could have killed her, I think, judging by the look in her eyes. And I’m afraid, Dr. Grove, if you don’t start paying attention to what’s going on inside that house of yours, well, you may come home one day and find something really tragic has happened right here under your very own roof.”

 

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