by Nora Roberts
“I felt steadier after I’d spoken to Fox, and he wasn’t dead.” She managed a small smile. “Plus, I don’t need to be shrink-wrapped to figure out that part of the dream was rooted in what we talked about last night. My fear of hurting one of you.”
“Especially Fox.”
“Maybe especially. I’m working for him, for now. And I need to work with him. You and I and Quinn, we’re, well, fish in the same pool. I’m not as worried about the two of you. You’ll tell Quinn about the dream.”
“As soon as she’s back from her workout. Since I assume she dragged Cal to the gym with her, she’ll probably talk him into coming back here for coffee. I can tell them both, and someone will fill Gage in. Gage was a little rough on you last night.”
“He was.”
“You needed it.”
“Maybe I did.” No point in whining about it, Layla thought. “Let me ask you something. You and Gage are going to have to work together, too, at some point. How’s that going to work?”
“I’ll cross that bridge when. And I think we’ll figure out a way to handle it without shedding each other’s blood.”
“If you say so. I’m going to go up and get dressed, get to work.”
“Do you want a ride in?”
“No, thanks. The walk’ll do me good.”
Layla took her time. Alice Hawbaker would be manning the office, and there would be little to do. With Alice there, Layla didn’t think it would be wise to huddle with Fox over a shared dream. Nor would it be the best time to have a lesson on honing and, more important to her, controlling her ability.
She’d handle busywork for a couple of hours, run whatever errands Alice might have on tap. It had taken her only a few days to understand the rhythm of the office. If she had any interest or aspirations toward managing a law office, Fox’s practice would have been just fine.
As it was, it would bore her senseless within weeks.
Which wasn’t the point, Layla reminded herself as she deliberately headed to the Square. The point was to help Fox, to earn a paycheck, and to keep busy.
She stopped at the Square. And that was another point. She could stand here, she thought, she could look at the broken or boarded windows straight-on. She could tell herself to face what had happened to her the evening before, promise herself she would do all she could to stop it.
She turned, started down Main Street to cover the few blocks to Fox’s office.
It was a nice town if you just overlooked what happened to it, in it, every seven years. There were lovely old houses along Main, pretty little shops. It was busy in the way small towns were busy. Steady, with familiar faces running the errands and making the change at the cash registers. There was a comfort in that, she supposed.
She liked the wide porches, the awnings, the tidy front yards and bricked sidewalks. It was a pleasant, quaint place, at least on the surface, and not quite postcardy enough to make it annoying.
The town’s rhythm was another she’d tuned to quickly. People walked here, stopped to have a word with a neighbor or a friend. If she crossed the street to Ma’s Pantry, she’d be greeted by name, asked how she was doing.
Halfway down the block she stopped in front of the little gift shop where she’d picked up some odds and ends for the house. The owner stood out front, staring up at her broken windows. When she turned, Layla saw the tears.
“I’m sorry.” Layla walked to her. “Is there something—”
The woman shook her head. “It’s just glass, isn’t it? Just glass and things. A lot of broken things. A couple of those damn birds got through, wrecked half my stock. It was like they wanted to, like they were drunks at a party. I don’t know.”
“I’m so sorry.”
“I tell myself, well, you’ve got insurance. And Mr. Hawkins’ll fix the windows. He’s a good landlord, and those windows will be fixed right away. But it doesn’t seem to matter.”
“I’d be heartbroken, too,” Layla told her, and laid a hand on her arm for comfort. “You had really pretty things.”
“Broken now. Seven years back a bunch of kids—we think—busted in and tore the place up. Broke everything they could, wrote obscenities on the walls. It was hard coming back from that, but we did it. I don’t know if I’ve got the heart to do it again. I don’t know if I have the heart.” The woman walked back to her shop, went inside behind the broken glass.
Not just broken glass and broken things, Layla thought as she walked on. Broken dreams, too. One vicious act could shatter so much.
Her own heart was heavy when she walked into the reception area. Mrs. Hawbaker sat at the desk, fingers clicking away at the keyboard. “Morning!” She stopped and gave Layla a smile. “Don’t you look nice.”
“Thanks.” Layla slipped off her jacket, hung it in the foyer closet. “A friend of mine in New York packed up my clothes, shipped them down for me. Can I get you some coffee, or is there anything you want me to get started on?”
“Fox said to ask you to go on back when you got in. He’s got about thirty minutes before an appointment, so you go ahead.”
“All right.”
“I’ll be leaving at one today. Be sure to remind Fox he’s in court in the morning. It’s on his calendar, and I sent him a memo, but it’s best to remind him at the end of the day, too.”
“No problem.”
From her observations, Layla thought as she walked down the hall, Fox wasn’t nearly as forgetful or absent-minded as he and Alice liked to think. Since the pocket doors to his office were open, she started to knock on the edge as she entered. Then she just stopped and stared.
He stood in back of his desk in front of the window in his no-court-today jeans and untucked shirt, juggling three red balls. His legs were spread, his face absolutely relaxed, and those tiger eyes of his following the circle as his hands caught and tossed, caught and tossed.
“You can juggle.”
She broke his rhythm, but he managed to catch two balls in one hand, one in the other before they went flying around the room. “Yeah. It helps me think.”
“You can juggle,” she repeated, dazed and delighted.
Because it was rare to see her smile just that way, he sent the balls circling again. “It’s all timing.” When she laughed, he shot them high, began to walk and turn as he tossed the balls. “Three objects, even four, same size and weight, not really a challenge. If I’m looking for a challenge I mix it up. This is just think juggling.”
“Think juggling,” she repeated as he caught the balls again.
“Yeah.” He opened his desk drawer, dropped them in. “Helps clear my head when I’m . . .” He got a good look at her. “Wow. You look . . . good.”
“Thanks.” She’d worn a skirt and a short, cinched jacket and now wondered if it was too upscale for her current position. “I got the rest of my clothes, and I thought since I had them . . . Anyway, you wanted to see me.”
“I did? I did,” he remembered. “Wait.” He crossed to the doors, slid them closed. “Do you want anything?”
“No.”
“Okay.” His juggling-clear head was fogged up again thanks to her legs, so he went to his minifridge and took out a Coke. “I thought, since there’s some time this morning, we should compare notes about the dream. Let’s sit down.”
She took one of the visitors’ chairs, and Fox took the other. “You go first,” she told him.
When he’d finished, he got up, opened his little fridge, and took out a bottle of Diet Pepsi. When he put it into her hand and she just stared at it, he sat again. “That’s what you drink, right? That’s what’s stocked in the fridge at your place.”
“Yes. Thanks.”
“Do you want a glass?”
She shook her head. The simple consideration shouldn’t have surprised her, and yet it did. “Do you keep Diet Sprite in there for Alice?”
“Sure. Why not?”
“Why not,” she murmured, then drank. “I was in the woods, too,” Layla began. “But
it wasn’t just me. She was in my head, or I was in hers. It’s hard to tell. I felt her despair, her fear, like they were mine. I . . . I’ve never been pregnant, never had a child, but my body felt different.” She hesitated, then told herself she’d been able to give Cybil the details. She could give them to Fox. “My breasts were heavy, and I understood, I knew, I’d nursed. In the same way I’d experienced her rape. It was that same kind of awareness. I knew where I was going.”
She paused again, shifted so she could look at his face. He had a way of listening, she thought, so that she knew he not only heard every word, but also understood what came behind them. “I don’t know those woods, have only been in them that one time, but I knew where I was, and I knew I was going to the pond. I knew why. I didn’t want to go. I didn’t want to go there, but I couldn’t stop myself. I couldn’t stop her. I was screaming inside because I didn’t want to die, but she did. She couldn’t stand it anymore.”
“Couldn’t stand what?”
“She remembered. She remembered the rape, how it felt, what was in her. She remembered, Fox, the night in the clearing. He—it—controlled her so that she accused Giles Dent of her rape, denounced him and Ann Hawkins as witches, and she assumed they were dead. She couldn’t live with the guilt. He told her to run.”
“Who?”
“Dent. In the clearing, just before the fire, he looked at her—he pitied her, he forgave her. He told her to run. She ran. She was only sixteen. Everyone thought the child was Dent’s, and pitied her for that. She knew, but was afraid to recant. Afraid to speak.”
It pierced her as she spoke of it. That fear, that horror and despair. “She was afraid all the time, Fox, and mad with that fear, that guilt, those memories by the time she delivered the child. I felt it all, it was all swimming inside her—and me. She wanted to end it. She wanted to take the child with her, and end that, too, but she couldn’t bring herself to do it.”
Those alert and compassionate eyes narrowed on Layla’s face. “She thought about killing the baby?”
As she nodded, Layla drew air in slowly. “She feared it, and hated it, and still she loved it. It, not she. I mean—”
“Hester thought of the baby as ‘it.’ ”
“Yes. Yes. But still, she couldn’t kill the baby. If she had—I thought, when I understood that, if she had, I wouldn’t be here. She gave me life by sparing the child, and now she was going to kill me because I was trapped with her. We walked, and if she heard me she must’ve thought I was one of the voices driving her mad. I couldn’t make her listen, couldn’t make her understand. Then I saw you.”
She paused to drink again, to steady herself. “I saw you, and I thought, Thank God. Thank God, he’s here. I could feel the stones in my hand when she picked them up, feel the weight of them dragging down the pockets of the dress we wore. There was nothing I could do, but I thought—”
“You thought I’d stop her.” So had he, Fox mused. Save the girl.
“You were calling out, telling her it wasn’t her fault. You ran to her—to me. And for an instant, I think she heard you. I think, I felt, she wanted to believe you. Then we were in the water, going down. I couldn’t tell if she fell or jumped, but we were under the water. I told myself not to panic. Don’t panic. I’m a good swimmer.”
“Captain of the swim team.”
“I told you that?” She managed a small laugh, wet her throat again. “I told myself I could get to the surface, even with the weight, I’m a strong swimmer. But I couldn’t. Worse, I couldn’t even try. It wasn’t just the stones weighing me down.”
“It was Hester.”
“Yes. I saw you in the water, diving down, and then . . .” She closed her eyes, pressed her lips hard together.
“It’s okay.” Reaching over, he closed a hand over hers. “We’re okay.”
“Fox, I don’t know if it was her, or if I . . . I don’t know. We grabbed on to you.”
“You kissed me.”
“We killed you.”
“We all came to a bad end, but it didn’t actually happen. However vivid and sensory, it wasn’t real. It was a hard way for you to get inside Hester Deale’s head, but now we know more about her.”
“Why were you there?”
“Best guess? We’ve got this link, you and me. I’ve shared dreams with Cal and Gage before. Same thing. But there was more this time, another level of connection. In the dream, I saw you, Layla. Not Hester. I heard you. That’s interesting. Something to think about.”
“When you juggle.”
He grinned. “Couldn’t hurt. We need to—”
His intercom buzzed. “Mr. Edwards is here.”
Fox rose, flipped the switch on his desk. “Okay, give me a minute.” He turned back to Layla as she rose. “We need some more time on this. My last appointment today’s at—”
“Four. Mrs. Halliday.”
“Right. You’re good. If you’re not booked, we could go upstairs after my last appointment, do some work on this.”
It was time, Layla thought, to suit up. “All right.”
He walked to the doors with her, slid them open. “We could have some dinner,” he began.
“I don’t want you to go to any trouble.”
“I have every delivery place within a five-mile radius on speed dial.”
She smiled a little. “Good plan.”
He walked out with her to where two hundred and twenty pounds of Edwards filled a chair in reception. His belly, covered in a white T-shirt, pillowed over the waistband of his jeans. His scrubby gray hair was topped by a John Deere gimme cap. He pushed to his feet, held out a hand to clasp the one Fox offered.
“How you doing?” Fox asked.
“You tell me.”
“Come on back, Mr. Edwards. We’ll talk about it.”
Works outside, Layla decided as Fox led his client back. A farmer maybe, or a builder, a landscaper. A couple clicks over sixty, and discouraged.
“What’s his story, Alice? Can you tell me?”
“Property dispute,” Alice said as she gathered up envelopes. “Tim Edwards has a farm a few miles south of town. Developers bought some of the land that runs with it. Survey puts some eight acres of Tim’s land over the line. Developer wants it, so does Tim. I’m going to run to the post office.”
“I can do that.”
Alice wagged a finger. “Then I wouldn’t get the walk or the gossip. I’ve got notes here on a trust Fox is putting together. Why don’t you draft that out while I’m gone?”
Alone, Layla sat, got to work. Within ten minutes, she wondered why people needed such complicated, convoluted language to say the straightforward. She picked her way through it, answered the phone, made appointments. When Alice came back, she had questions. She noted that Edwards walked out looking considerably less discouraged.
By one o’clock, she was on her own and pleased to print out the trust Alice had proofed for her. By page two, the printer signaled its cartridge was out of ink. She went to the supply closet across from the pretty little law library hoping Fox stocked backups. She spotted the box on the top shelf.
Why was it always the top shelf? she wondered. Why were there top shelves anyway when not everyone in the world was six feet tall? She rose to her toes, stretched up and managed to nudge a corner of the carton over the edge of the shelf. With one hand braced on a lower shelf, she wiggled it out another inch.
“I’m going out to grab some lunch,” Fox said from behind her. “If you want anything— Here, let me get that.”
“I’ve almost got the damn thing now.”
“Yeah, and it’s going to fall on your head.”
He leaned in, reached up, just as she turned.
Their bodies brushed, bumped. Her face tipped up, filled his vision as her scent slid around him like satin ribbons. Those sea-siren eyes made him feel a little drunk and a lot needy. He thought: Step back, O’Dell. Then he made the mistake of letting his gaze drop down to her mouth. And he was done.
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sp; He angled down, another inch, heard her breath draw in. Her lips parted, and he closed that last whisper of distance. A small, soft taste, then another, both feather light. Then her lashes swept down over those seductive eyes; her mouth brushed his.
The kiss went deeper, a slow slide into heat that tangled his senses, that filled them with her until all he wanted was to sink and sink and sink. And drown.
She made some sound, pleasure, distress, he couldn’t tell with the blood roaring in his ears. But it reminded him where they were. How they were. He broke the kiss, realized he was essentially shoving her into the storage closet.
“Sorry. I’m sorry.” She was working for him, for God’s sake. “I shouldn’t have. That was inappropriate. It was—” Amazing. “It was . . .”
“Fox?”
He jerked back an entire foot at the voice behind him. When he whirled around, he could feel his stomach drop straight to his knees. “Mom.”
“Sorry to interrupt.” She gave Fox a sunny smile, then turned it on Layla. “Hi. I’m Joanne Barry. Fox’s mother.”
Why was there never a handy hole in the floor when you needed one? Layla thought. “It’s nice to meet you, Ms. Barry. I’m Layla Darnell.”
“I told you Layla’s helping me out in the office. We were just . . .”
“Yes, you were.”
Still smiling, she left it at that.
She was the kind of woman you’d probably stare at even if you weren’t stunned stupid, Layla thought. There was all that rich brown hair waving wild around a strong-boned face with its full, unpainted mouth, and long hazel eyes that managed to look amused, curious, and patient all at once. Joanne had the tall, willowy build that carried the low-slung jeans, boots, and skinny sweater look perfectly.
Since it appeared Fox had been struck dumb, Layla managed to clear her throat. “I, ah, needed a new cartridge. For the printer? It’s on the top shelf.”
“Right. Right. I was getting that.” Fox turned, managed to collide with Layla again. “Sorry.” Jesus Christ. He’d no more than pulled the box down when Layla snatched it away, and fled.
“Thanks!”
“Do you have a minute for me?” Jo asked sweetly. “Or do you need to get back to what you were doing when I came in?”