by John Norman
I was astonished and delighted to hear this, that so mighty a man as this Gorean master, second in this house to Hendow, my master, might have found me attractive, and from so long ago. But this did not, of course, relieve in the least the desperate needs I felt. It did not reduce my tensions. It did not diminish or assuage my sufferings. I still knelt helpless before him. "It is interesting," he said, "what can be done with a woman."
"Please, Master!" I wept. I who had once been Doreen Williamson, a shy, lovely librarian on Earth, had now begun to feel slave needs. To be sure, at that time, kneeling before Mirus, I had no idea how acute such things could become. He looked down at me, amused.
"Mock me as a needful slave," I said, "but I beg of you, touch me!" He was silent.
"I am a naked slave," I said. "I kneel before you! I beg use!"
he savored my desperation. I wished for a foolish moment that I might be again like a woman of Earth, one without needs, or with such low need levels as to be for most practical purposes inert, or with need so rigidly and effectively suppressed as to provide a functional surrogate for such inertness, or, perhaps, even one who might, with some convincingness, pretend to such things. To have no needs, if, indeed, there were women truly without them, would be a tragedy, and if one had any need at all, then it would be only a matter of time until under Gorean tutelage they were revealed, deepened and enlarged; until they were imperiously summoned forth into the open for inspection and encouragement; they would then be cultivated; they would be forced to grow, in both size and intensity; they would soon become such that they would begin to surface periodically and irresistibly within her, like forces of nature, she is powerless to alter or effect them as she would be to alter or effect the tides, the rotation of the earth, the risings and settings of the sun. Too, they would always be with her, ready and meaningful, never far beneath the surface. This would constitute a condition of her existence. She would come to realize hat, as the Goreans say, "slave fires had been lit in her belly." She would learn, too, that these fires, even when they seemed most inert, could be suddenly fanned into raging, consuming flames by as little as a command, a glance or touch. Such things the girl must learn to cope with. It does not matter, of course, for she is only a slave. I myself, of course, do not object to such things. I have learned on this world that the insensitivity of tissue is not an indication of virtue but of physiological inferiority.
I looked up at Mirus, tears in my eyes. I was now without pride. I was now only a naked, needful slave. I squirmed before him. I could not attempt to relieve my own tensions, as my hands, by his will, had been bound behind me. Yet for all my anguish I would not have wanted to be other than I was. I had not known such needs, such feelings, such emotions could exist. I was a thousand times more alive than I had ever been on Earth. And complementary, of course, to the pain of such deep needs, the other side of the coin, so to speak, are the incredible fulfillments of having them satisfied, fulfillments in the light of which the anguish of the needs, terrible though it was, then seems negligible. We may be totally at the mercy of masters, and as mere animals, and even to our lives, but just as it is within the power of these uncompromising brutes who own us to do as they wish with us, so, too, it is within their power, when it pleases them, to grant us transport to ineffable raptures, to fling us ecstasies of which the free woman can not begin to conceive.
"The woman of Earth begs use?" he said.
"Yes!" I said. "She begs use!"
"That is not typical for a woman of Earth, is it?" he asked.
"I do not know!" I could certainly imagine myself kneeling before a Greek or Roman master, or a harnessmaker in Damascus, his Christian slave, in the 14th Century, or a Barbary prince, a captured, harem-silked English lady who had not had time to learn something of the touch of men, in the 19th, and doing so. Indeed, I had wondered sometime if, in a former life, or lives, I might not have done so. The thought of this sort of thing, oddly enough, did not seem unfamiliar to me. To be sure, I have deep and urgent female needs, and had had them, even on Earth. To be sure, they had not been ignited on Earth as they were ignited now, and, too, at this time, of course, I did not have any idea as to how deep and urgent and progressively overwhelming, they could become later. I was still only, in effect, a new slave, and new to the rigors of my condition. I had not yet begun to learn my collar.
He looked at me.
"Surely I am not the first woman from Earth whom you have had at your feet, begging," I said.
"No," he admitted.
"What?" I asked.
"No," he repeated.
"More than one?" I asked.
"Of course," he said.
"Oh," I said. Immediately I felt a wave of jealousy for those other girls. "We learn quickly enough to beg on Gor, do we not?" I asked. "Yes," he said.
"I am here," I said. "I am at your feet. I am naked, collared and owned. I beg use. I can do nothing more." I looked up at him. I must now wait. He would do with me as he saw fit.
"Perhaps I should send you out on the floor," he said.
"Not tonight," I begged. "Use me yourself!"
"The schedules could be rearranged," he mused.
"As Master wills," I said, bitterly. I was, of course, at the mercy of his schedules.
"Perhaps I could warm you for Hendow" s customers," he speculated. "Warm me?" I laughed, bitterly. "I am already flaming!"
"If I sent you forth on the floor in your present condition," he said, "you would probably belly to the first male whose sandals you saw."
"Perhaps, Master," I said, bitterly. If he was so cruel as to deny me his touch, of course, I would, driven by my needs, have to made do elsewhere. It was Mirus, of course, who had not lit these flames in my belly. It was for him that they burned. The particular man is terribly important to the woman. He is a part of the whole that enflames her. To be sure, the slave is so needful and alive that it is not hard for her to see the beauty in any man. If I were sent forth upon the floor, however, in my condition, as it was, I do not think I would have bellied to the first man I saw. I would still have been able to look about, and select one out, one suitable incendiary to the wholeness of my need, and then prostrate myself before him. no, I was not so desperate that I would have bellied to the first man I saw. At that time, I did not even realize I could ever be so desperate as to do that. I would learn later, however, that I was wrong.
"But if you were to do that," he said, "it might not fit in as well as one might wish with the new image of the tavern, as we have now upgraded our dA©cor, slave silk for the girls, and such, and service."
"Oh?" I asked.
"We would not want them thinking the paga slaves of the tavern of Hendow were too easy," he said.
"Of course not," I said, puzzled.
"They must play hard to get," he said.
"A slave?" I asked. I could imagine being punished terribly for such a thing. We must run to a man eagerly, at his least summons. We could be «gotten» as easily as by a snapping of the fingers.
"Some fellows would like to think that the girls had at least taken a look at him before they flung themselves to their belly at his feet."
"I understand," I said.
"Of course he may simply pick out one that pleases his fancy, and summon her to his table, and command her.
"Of course, Master," I said.
"You seem puzzled," he said.
"How, really," I asked, "are we to play hard to get?"
"You must make certain he has paid for his drink first," he said.
"Ah, I see," I smiled. "Master sports with the slave." I had thought that perhaps he had been referring to something I had heard about in training, the dangerous, "pretended disinterest" sometimes commanded by masters of their girls, usually with respect to supper guests to whom he intends to lend her for the night. She must then, even if her belly is raging for the touch of the guest, attempt to pretend to disinterest in him, and even loathing, if the master wishes, though she must, of course, serve
him with perfection. She then, gradually, permits herself to let her true feelings appear, thus attempting to give the impression of having been seduced by him, and then, later, after a suitable time, she is honestly piteous, kneeling beside him, licking and kissing. He then sends her to his room, that she may prepare it, and herself, for him. most masters, however, do not do this sort of thing for it is meretricious, and, at best, a joke. Too, it can be dangerous to the girl, as she is usually under the obligation, at least by the seventh Ahn, if he has not penetrated to the heart of the matter by then, which is usually the case to inform the use master of her master" s jest, which intelligence he might or might not appreciate. Many girls have been whipped for such things, which are not really their fault. They are only obeying, as they must. But then a girl must sometimes expect the whip, I suppose. She is, after all, a slave. On the other hand, few men will whip a girl for having pretended not to be attracted to him, if she is actually attracted to him, particularly if she has done so under her master" s orders. Such devices, of course, but without the authenticity and ultimate surrender, are often resorted to by "lure girls," slaves who serve as bait for captains who need crewmen, masters of work gangs, and such. Such work can be very dangerous, given the astuteness of many Gorean masters. Such a pretense, however, can be maintained with many men for at least a few minutes, and with some men for an hour or so, which is generally more than enough time for the purposes of the master, and the master" s men, unobtrusively, are usually near at hand. It is not unknown, of course, for a girl who serves at such a supper, and is genuinely disinterested, or repulsed, by a given guest, to be given to him for the night. Such things can amuse the master and the guest. Too, they tend to be good for the girl" s discipline.
I looked up at him.
"Yes" he said.
"We are to remain, then, full paga slaves," I said.
"Yes, though now, at least occasionally, silked," he said.
"I understand, Master," I said.
"The only difference," he said, "is that such silk may now be pulled away by the master, or discarded instantly, upon command, by the slave."
"Yes, Master," I smiled. We were still to be hot, and ready, paga slaves, eager to serve, and fully, the silk no more than an invitation to its removal. This was not much different, incidentally, than what was the case in even the most prestigious paga taverns. In such places free women were generally not permitted. In them, usually, the only women to be found would be collared slaves, generally belonging either to the tavern keeper or the guests, who may have brought them in, to avail themselves of the facilities of the alcoves. In such places, the mastery was practiced. Such places, regardless of their cost, their location, their appointments, the excellence of their food and drink, the beauty of their slaves, the quality of their music, existed, as did the tavern of Hendow, for the pleasures of men. That was the purpose of such places, whether they were within lofty towers, reached by graceful bridges, or near the wharves, close enough to hear the tide lapping at the pilings, whether they had a dozen musicians or only a single, dissolute czehar player, alone with his music, whether the girls were richly silked or stark naked, save for brands and collars, whether there were chains of gold and luxurious furs in the alcoves or only wire and straw mats. They were paga slaves.
"But perhaps we should make an exception in your case," he said.
"Master?" I asked.
"Perhaps it is better if we do not let them know that Doreen, the dancer, is such a hot slave."
I looked at him, frightened.
"If she seems more prideful, colder, more haughty and aloof, perhaps it will be better for the tavern, as the fellows may look forward them to commanding her in an alcove, melting her defenses, and then, she now abjectly tamed, turning her into only another squeaking, writhing paga slut."
"It will be done with me as Masters please," I said. "But am I commanded to attempt to conceal my passion?"
"No," he said. "You are not that kind of dancer. You are too beautiful, and needful. You must be as you are, vulnerable, hot and marvelous."
"Thank you, Master," I said. "Once more you sport with a slave." "Do you mind?" he asked.
"No, Master," I said. As if it mattered what a slave might mind!
He smiled.
"It is only another way in which you toy with me," I said.
"Are you still hot?" he inquired.
"Yes!" I said.
"Do you still beg?" he inquired.
"Yes, yes yes!" I said.
"Then," said he, "I think we may now send you to your kennel, in a belly chain, its lock at your navel, your hands braceleted closely behind you, to the chain." "Please, no, Master!" I wept.
But he was then crouching before me, and had swept me into his arms. My head was back, my eyes closed. His strength was overwhelming. I felt my softness lost somehow within that embrace. "Unbind me," I begged. "Let me hold you!" "No," he muttered, his voice thick with the wanting of me.
I must try to keep my hands together behind my back!
Then he put me to my back, and not gently, on the tiles in the passageway, near the beaded curtain. My body leapt to him and closed gratefully about him. I was joyful, held. I was collared. Tomorrow my back would be bruised from the tiles. I cried out, knowing the bliss of bondage.
"It is time you were taught submission," he said.
"I submit!" I said. "I submit!"
"You are unbound," he said.
Swiftly I pulled my hands free and grasped him.
"You are an incredible pleasure slave," he said.
"Master!" I wept.
"You need only this world, and the collar to bring it out," he said. "Yes," I whispered to him. "Please, please."
I was enraptured, as a female, and a slave.
"Master!" I cried, softly.
"So the female of Earth now calls men Master," he said.
"Yes, Master! Yes, Master!" I said.
Of course I would call me "Master!" They were my masters, and not only in the order of nature, but here, too, in the order of law.
I felt overwhelmed in his arms, and could not believe the feelings I felt. I uttered a tiny, plaintive cry, asking for a little respite, for a moment of mercy.
It was granted to me.
I looked at Mirus. I had always wanted, even on Earth, thought I had feared it, too, to be at the mercy of men so powerful, so magnificent and commanding, that in relation to them I could, in all right, justice and propriety, be only a slave. Then I had been brought to Gor, where I had found such me, and, too, had found myself in a collar, theirs.
I moaned softly. Then I said, "Oh," startled.
"Perhaps you are ready, Earth woman," he said, "for a slave orgasm." "Master?" I asked.
"You have a responsive body," he said. "Thus, even thought you have not been a slave long, it is possible you are ready for such an orgasm."
"Yes, Master," I said.
I was trying, wildly, to recollect that feeling, that hint of feeling, which I had just felt.
How could he have done that to me? How could anyone have done that to me? "Are you listening?" he asked.
"Yes, Master," I said. I tried to pry myself loose from my sensations, but it was not easy, locked as I was in his arms.
"I think you might be ready for your first slave orgasm," he said.
"I do not understand, Master," I said.
"It is time, I think, that you made a beginning in such things."
"Yes, Master," I whimpered. "Ai!" I suddenly said. "Oh!"
It had been done again to me.
I looked at him, wildly.
"No," he said. "You will not be shown mercy."
I moaned.
"It is pleasant to hold you in my arms," he said.
(pg 248) "Find me pleasing," I begged. "Please, find me pleasing!" I did not want him to stop, for anything.
"You are not without interest," he said.
I cried out, softly. I began to whimper.
"Is anything wrong?" h
e asked.
"No, no!" I said.
"Do you want me to stop?" he asked.
"No!" I said.
"No, what?" he inquired, politely.
"No, Master, Master, Master!" I sobbed. "Forgive me, Master!"
I cried out, startled. I began to make soft, helpless noises.
As I had noted before, as early as the house of my training, women of diverse backgrounds, for example, those of Earth and Gor, make much the same noises while being ravished. These noises are to be distinguished from conventional exclamations, which do tend to be culture bound. I had discovered, too, that I made such noises.
"Oh!" I said, softly.
Suddenly I clutched him. I had again felt the sensation. Then I was afraid. "Master!" I said.
"Do not be afraid," he said. "Your body is being honed, and trained." I clutched him again, and gasped.
"Yes," he said, "you will give masters much pleasure."
Masters, I thought? Does he not know what he is doing to me! Can he be ignorant of the thinks I myself was feeling?
"You will do well," he said. "You are a deliciously servile little beast." "It is my hope that I will be pleasing to masters," I said. Did he not know what he was making me feel?
"I think you are now ready for the first of your slave orgasms," he said. "Master?" I asked.
"Inducing them in a slave is one of the pleasures of the mastery," he said. "Forgive me, Master," I said. "You are giving me great pleasure. But I do not even know what you are talking about."
"At first," he said, "you will be capable of only small ones, but do not fear, you will grow in such things."
"I do not understand," I said.
"You are very beautiful, and soft, and are in my arms," he said.
"Yes, Master," I said. I was grateful that he should speak in so kindly a fashion to me.
"And you are naked, and collared, and owned," he said.
"Yes, Master," I whispered.
"What are you?" he asked.