“He said you killed a Twi’lek girl,” Ross blurted. After a moment he pressed, “Did you?”
The Jedi’s reply was abrupt and forthright. “Yes.” Brandl hesitated as the Corellian snorted reprovingly. “Please Captain, your contempt is small reward for a repentant pilgrim.”
“You call murder a penance?” Ross spat.
“When it has become the least of one’s crimes,” the Jedi paused dramatically, “yes.”
Brandl’s apathy toward the woman’s death was chilling, sending shudders throughout the Corellian’s body. “How? You never touched her.” Ross grasped Brandl’s sleeve and pulled. “How did you do it!”
“I asphyxiated her.”
“She suffocated? In an open room?”
“A sophisticated talent,” Brandl sneered, “not meant for the faint of heart.”
“You sound proud of yourself, Jedi!” Ross spat with contempt. “Makes you feel good to kill an innocent woman?”
“Evil springs from weakness and weakness from ambition; by this grand order every ambitious man is undone!” Deliberately, the Jedi challenged, “Tell me, Captain, you too are an ambitious man. Which of us is truly innocent?”
“Should I applaud now!” Ross taunted.
“If you wish!”
“Well before I hand over your accolades, tell me something. Was that a real line or just something you made up to ease your conscience?”
Petulant with the smuggler’s indignation, Brandl turned on him. “If it’s retribution you wish for me, Captain Ross, then I suggest you stay close at hand.” Scowling furiously, he stared down his long nose. “You may yet have your satisfaction.”
Provoked by the sinister edge in Brandi’s voice. Ross drew his blaster. The Jedi apparently heard him, and spun around to face the blaster. Ross fired a three-round burst at the Jedi. Honed by several seasons as a bounty hunter, he centered the bolts to explode in the square of Brandl’s broad shoulders. Before the deadly energy could land their mark. Brandl deftly snatched a cylindrical object from his belt. Momentarily, a narrow shaft of white brilliance ignited from the base, feinting and parrying with the precise motions of the Jedi’s wrists. Deflected by the lightsaber, the blaster bolts were harmlessly shot off into the field.
Aghast, Ross could only watch as the destructive rounds dissipated into oblivion. Abruptly, he felt the crushing pinch of invisible fingers clenched against his throat, constricting his airway and lungs. Choking, the smuggler dropped to his knees as the serene landscape of Trulalis blurred before him. Gradually, the sensation faded, leaving the Corellian gasping to catch his breath.
“There is one rule of theater that applies to real life, Captain Ross,” Brandi declared. “Only heroes die. Villains and cowards are left to suffer.” Turning his back on the panting pilot, he snarled. “Now come along.”
Ross shook the haze from his vision. “Is that another line?” he slurred lethargically.
Brandl trembled, visibly drained as he disengaged the lightsaber with required effort. “Not just a line, Captain, but an astute warning to the less-than-humble pilgrim.” Securing the lightsaber to his belt, the Jedi momentarily scanned the pale skies. “The settlement is less than a kilometer away. We had best move along. It will be dark soon.”
Swearing off bruises, Ross bitterly wedged his pack against his shoulder and jammed his blaster into the holster. Quickly brushing past Brandil he hissed. “Can’t imagine why you’d be afraid of the dark.”
Nestled within the dominant embrace of a mountain range, Kovit was well-protected from the harsh weather conditions of the northern highlands and the wind-swept plains of the coastal region. Staring down the mound into the modest farming community, Ross could vaguely discern movement in the dusty streets. Drawn by diminutive banthas, wagons creaked through the wide avenues. Dozens of people walked the streets, pausing to chat with a neighbor or to haggle over the local street merchant’s wares. From a side alley, three boys grunted and sweated behind a battered landspeeder, coaxing the vehicle’s engines to briefly ignite. Nearby, above the sporadic choke of the repulsorcraft, laughter betrayed a trio of children playing with an obsolete astromech droid.
Brandl hesitated at the crest of the mound, staring down into the settlement, as if reconsidering his options. Wilted, the Jedi’s shoulders exposed a reluctance to continue. “Where are you from. Captain Ross?”
Startled by the abrupt question, Ross stammered, “Corellia originally.”
“Do you find returning there difficult?”
“Homecomings are always hard.” The Corellian shrugged, pursing his lips doubtfully. “At least for some of us.”
Without further reply, Brandl continued down the trail, deliberately slowing his stride. Vacillating, he stepped through the settlement gates, as if expecting some invisible force field to bar his path. Nostalgically passing through the prudent rows of farm cottages, the Jedi admired the mastery of native architecture, as sculpted from the indigenous lumber. Herb gardens and prized flower beds adorned the private lawns, each tenderly manicured and maintained with fastidious care. As they approached the dry, dusty oval of the settlement common, Brandl covered his eyes, protecting them from the fading sun, as he stared into the rich, agricultural outback of the settlement, which extended far beyond the limits of the community to the base of the mountains themselves.
From the near center of Kovit, a macabre specter of architecture loomed above the rustic rooftops. Flyaway buttresses supported the main construction of the theater, unfurling like stony wings from the base. Packed with chalk-white limestone, the obelisk was unequivocally straight, seeming to elongate into the obscuring skies. Established intentionally in the heart of the settlement, the theater captured the waning rays of the sun, momentarily stealing the glory from the picturesque village. There was a somber sense of belonging that drew Brandl toward the structure, ignoring the startled glares of the settlement denizens.
As they passed through the outskirts of the community. Ross nervously observed a makeshift hangar and the crude snout of a Z-95 jutting from the narrow bay doors. The starfighter appeared operational, though crowded by its diminutive shelter, and eager for a skirmish. Distracted by the presence of strangers, several men gathered just beyond the shadows of the small livery, watching intently.
Thumbing the restraint from his blaster. Ross cautiously whispered, “Your adoring fans?”
“Neighbors, patrons, old friends.” Brandl abruptly paused in the street, as if awakening from an illusion. “But that was another lifetime.”
“Where do they stand in this lifetime?” the smuggler growled.
“Strangers.”
Weaving through the haze of the fragrant gardens surrounding the theater courtyard, a woman and a young boy moved along the grainy, stone paths. The echo of their voices chimed with laughter as a private joke was shared between them. Brandl watched intently as they walked through the haze and into the dusty streets.
Fiery, auburn spirals cascaded from the woman’s head, crowning her oval face. Unusually pale skin flushed in the faded brilliance, betraying an aversion to excessive sunlight. Tall but gangly, the boy was no older than 11 or 12 years. Broad shoulders framed his upper torso, seemingly too heavy for his slender form. Coordinated and rhythmic, his long legs showed nothing less than the promise of sharp, steady growth.
Startled by the dark apparition of Brandl, the woman hesitated and stood motionless in the street, meeting the Jedi’s friendless eyes. The smile parting her full lips was quickly forgotten. Puzzled by her peculiar behavior, the child swept his gaze from her stony face to Brandl. Registering nothing more than a stranger, the boy leaned over his mother’s arm and whispered something in her ear.
Obviously distraught, she pulled the child snugly against her and hurriedly continued their trek across the common. Brandl sighed remorsefully, then without explanation, resumed his walk toward the old theater. Beyond the archaic gate a decade or more of wild flowers had claimed the inner recesses of the theat
er yard, staggering the once straight path to the massive bulkhead doors. Residing over the darkened antechamber, bronze statues and sculpted metalwork lined the interior corridor.
Adalric Brandl moved gracefully into these familiar shadows, intuitively stalking the darkened corridors and spacious hallways beyond. The hollow shell of his memories traced the outlines and silhouettes of each molded tapestry, a display case of tarnished prop swords and shields, and finally the grand hall, where past audiences had come to experience the stage productions.
Ignoring the Corellian behind him, Brandl quickened his steps, moving into the immense auditorium. Deafening, the familiar resonating of applause and encouragement thundered and echoed inside his ears; but this illusion was short-lived. There was no audience to applaud, no actors to bow, no stage settings, nor props as he remembered them. The yawning mouth of the stage was disgracefully bare.
“Who is there?” a voice whispered from the darkness.
Brandl faltered, supporting himself in the elaborately carved doorway.
A thin, frail figure emerged from the darkness of the inner aisle. “Come closer,” he gently commanded.
From the shadows along the back wall, Ross scanned the theater for other signs of movement. Thumbing the restraint from his blaster, he waited quietly in the musty wings of the chamber as Brandi continued into the hall toward the shadowy form.
“Adalric Brandl, is that you?” the old man croaked pleasantly.
“Master Otias,” Brandl whispered, kneeling at his mentor’s feet. “I am ashamed that you care to remember me.”
Otias ignited a glow rod, casting a warm beam of light across his scaling face. He was dressed in a faded gray tunic, stained with lamp oil and sweat. The veins and muscles of his arms were pronounced and defined, built up from a lifetime of toil and lean with age. Clouded gray eyes were nearly Imperceptible against a splash of dark spots and freckles. “Since when did shame ever come between an actor and his task director?” Brushing a trembling hand through his thinning silver mane, Otias whispered, “It’s been 12 long years, Adalric. What brings you back to this stage?”
“Master O —” Brandl fell silent, cutting himself short.
“Come, come lad … there is nothing more obvious than an actor with a need to confess.”
Abruptly, Brandl cowered beneath the glow rod. “I… I live my life … in a whirlwind!”
Dignified, Otias beamed proudly, recognizing the famous line. “Old Soveryn’s final words of the fourth act. How closely you’ve come to rivalling his life.” Resigned, the aging taskmaster sighed, a lifetime of exhaustion evident by his labored breathing. “Actors are granted license to live a thousand lives, Adalric; but you, you chose to live a thousand lies. If you have come to me as your advocate then speak from your heart, not from the void of a tragic character who has never been born.”
Spittle flying from the corners of his mouth, Brandl raged, “I cannot!”
“Every tragic figure is tainted by a flaw, possessed by a need to save the world or himself from some unpardonable crime. No man can set himself before humanity and judge it, not without himself being judged.” Otias gently unwrapped the makeshift bandage swathed about on Brandl’s left hand, wincing at the severity of the burn. The lightsaber’s cauterizing bite was undeniable. “When we pursue shadows, we are destined to find the darkness.” Staring into Brandl’s face, Otias whispered, “And as you well know, the dark side has always had its price.”
“What happened to me?” Brandi implored.
“You stared into the collective pith of all beings and judged it, without first looking into your own heart. Frustrated, you went looking for the tragic flaw without much success. When the Emperor came calling, you couldn’t resist!” Otias whispered, “No one knows darkness better than a Jedi Knight, and no one was more suited to play such a role than you.”
“I killed a woman!” Brandl gasped. “Suffocated her! I could feel her heart in my hand … in my mind! And I squeezed and squeezed —”
“You’ve killed many,” Otias accused. “The Emperor has no blood on his hands; but he keeps an army of others who do.”
“Otias, please, help me find the way.”
“The way of the Force brings balance to the anarchy of life; but you Adalric,” he shook his head reprovingly, “you didn’t want balance. Your pride was so great and despite my warnings, you went in search of the unatoneable crime, which inevitably separates the hero from the indigent masses. And you found it, didn’t you?”
Gasping for breath. Brandl croaked, “Yes! It was within me, within my black heart the whole time.”
“It lies within all of us,” Otias whispered, “if we dare to see.” Exhausted, he sighed bitterly, again brushing a hand through his thinning hair. “I cannot vindicate you of the evil that you have brought upon yourself, an evil that you have wielded in the name of the Emperor for so long. I’ve spent the last decade watching, waiting for your return, rehearsing what I would say to you.” Sadly, he whispered, “What you ask, I cannot give you. There can be no redemption for your crimes. The dead cannot forgive.” Extinguishing the lamp, Otias turned his back on the distraught Jedi and moved away toward the stage.
Brandl slowly turned from the familiar silhouette, stung by the reality of Otias’s words. Pressing the damp bandage against his wounded palm, he stepped into the outer arena, moving into the darkened wings in the rear of the theater. Without comment, he retraced his steps through the spacious corridors, past the archaic displays, and into the courtyard beyond the doors. Steeling himself against the violent images sparking through his mind, the Jedi surrendered to Trulalis’s last waning sunlight, imagining that the impotent rays had the power to burn into his flesh.
Angrily, he fumbled beneath his robes, producing a large cylindrical object. Ross flinched momentarily, traumatized by his encounter with the Jedi’s lightsaber. With recovering confidence, he noted that this object was much larger and was covered with minute control levers and data screens. As if wrenching the neck of an invisible foe, Brandl twisted the object before replacing it within his robes. Lightly, he heard the smuggler’s footsteps behind him. moving with guarded discretion, as if to avoid disturbing his troubled thoughts. “I prefer your contempt, Captain,” he whispered, his eyes flashing with violence. “Your pity disgusts me.” Extending his long stride, he stormed out of the theater yard, unhindered by the thickened dust at his feet.
Framed by the dark cowl of the forest canopy, the Kierra’s ivory hull gleamed, a smooth, round tooth jutting from the heath. Guided by these moonlight reflections, Ross stumbled through the rutted trail, twisting his ankles against unseen rocks. “Kierra, lights!”
Squinting into the brilliant array of search beacons, the smuggler shivered, pulling the collar of his duster across his neck. A potent wind was descending from the high country, bringing with it the promise of rain. Inside the ramp corridor, Ross brushed a hand through his hair, reassured by the warmth flooding the freighter’s interior. “Pump up the main boosters,” he ordered with distraction, noting that Brandl had not followed him onto the ship.
Growing accustomed to the Jedi’s erratic mood swings, Ross peered from the protection of the ramp door. Below him, standing at the foot of the ramp, Brandl stood motionless staring into the darkness as pale mists crawled over his shoulders and beneath his feet. “Brandl?” With his smuggler’s sense aroused. Ross ordered. “Kierra, kill the exterior lamps.”
“You can come out now,” Brandl whispered, as the austere beacons were extinguished. “No one will harm you.”
Ross pressed himself against the interior hull wall, propping his blaster and steadying his arm and shoulder to draw a clear shot. Hearing him, Brandl stared up into the darkened passage, disarming the Corellian with his sharp gaze. As the lanky figure of a boy emerged from the heath, Ross could feel the tension fade and stepped off the ramp, recognizing the child from their brief encounter in the settlement. Dressed in dark green clothes to match the forest at night
, the child’s face was flushed and sweated. Cautiously, he approached the two men and the freighter.
Awed by the sight of Brandl, enshrouded by darkness, yet haloed by the moon, the child moved gingerly toward the ship, compelled by an insatiable curiosity. He made no effort to shield his wonder, noting every measure of the figure before his eyes, as if committing his mere presence to memory. “It’s true,” the boy whispered. “You are a Jedi Knight.”
“Who are you?” Brandl demanded, but there was no strength in words. Even Ross could detect the half lie of denial trembling in his voice.
Handsome, the child grinned, turning his face up to meet his father’s eyes. “Don’t you know me?” he asked. Staring intently at the lightsaber swinging from the Jedi’s belt, the boy angrily cried, “You named me! Jaalib, remember?” Recovering his manners, he rubbed the toe of his shoe into the yielding earth. “My last name is Brandl too.”
Gently, Brandl caressed the boy’s hair and cheeks, feeling the smooth skin beneath his fingertips. It was a peculiar sensation, which fired every nerve across his body. Despite the tenderness of that caress, Ross felt a sense of unease crawling into his belly.
“Is that a real lightsaber? I’ve never seen one.” Chatty, the youngster added. “I’ve seen props for the stage, but …” His soft, tenor voice fluttered, prey to the silence as Brandl handed the weapon to him. Staring at it, Jaalib reached hesitantly for the lightsaber, then dropped his hand.
“Don’t be afraid,” Brandi urged.
“I’m not afraid,” Jaalib said with confidence, taking his father’s hand, rather than the lightsaber. A thin film of tears glistened in the corner of his eyes. Swallowing the emotion, Jaalib whispered, “I’ve come to warn you. I heard Menges and the others talking. They’re angry that you came back to the settlement. Mother doesn’t think they’ll do anything; but I know that Menges has a ship.”
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