Then his hand is covering my mouth, the other pinching my nose for a second. He is waiting for me to squirm, resist, struggle. Instead I stare back at him, will him to lie back down on top of me. He moves so he’s again leaning down on my bottom half, his arms pressing my wrists into the bed, but there is far too much room between us, precious air he is letting separate us. He seems to get my message and mulls it over while we engage in a stare-down. Part of me wants to laugh, not at him, but with him, because this is, in a way, silly. I want to be as close as we can possibly be without melting into each other, and he wants me to surrender to him. I strain upward, pushing with my arms, gritting my teeth. I shut my eyes and summon from deep inside a true desire, or at least, the closest facsimile I can come up with, to escape.
It’s only when I truly try to press back against him, straining muscles that rarely get used, from every recess of my body, that the power truly becomes something we are reckoning with. I’m too busy to think about smiling or laughing, only about winning, because if I fight back enough, Damian will give me what I really want. He’s fair that way. I can’t look at him or my own weaknesses will be my undoing. “Submit,” he tells me, his voice a low, seductive weapon, and I ball my hands into fists, then open them, curl and uncurl my toes, utilize any part of me that’s been spared his touch. I try to rock my hips back and forth, but he’s too heavy.
I bare my lips, going totally feral with a silent snarl as his breath hits my forehead. He is bearing down and I only have so much left in me. His weight is again sinking into me and I just want to rush toward it. This time it’s not the crisp sheets that caress my face, but him. He wraps his arms around my head again and lays his face atop mine and instead of fighting back, I give in, sinking deeper and deeper, realizing yet again how much power I’ve given him. He must hear or feel my minuscule breaths because he again shifts so a hand is covering my mouth and I savor the warmth of his skin there, of him holding my breath, literally, in his hands. The pressure of his weight sinks me deeper into the bed; I’m sure there’ll be an indentation in the mattress when we get up.
Now it’s just a matter of how long we can each take it. I can feel his cock but this is more important, more urgent. “You need someone else here, don’t you, someone to make sure you stay in place,” he says. He’s just talking, but I bristle; I’d say recoil, but I have nowhere to go. In my head, I say no, but I don’t try to speak it. It’s true, though; I’d hate to have someone else here intruding on what we are sharing.
One tear, then two, then more start to form. Damian must feel them, but he doesn’t comment. Instead he shifts just enough to roll me over then coil his hand in my hair. “I know, Billie, I know,” he says so softly I almost don’t hear him. I let the rest of the tears start to fall and somehow he seems to get heavier, or I get lighter. He settles himself on top of me and I let the energy pass between us, let his body transform mine with all the places where we touch. Maybe my tears are here because I wish we truly could become intertwined, wish I could chisel out parts of me so he could sink into them. Instead we have this, and I lie there with my eyes closed, compressed between what I wish for and what is possible.
When he finally rolls to his side, I am hot from his skin. I still feel him all over me. I do smile then, and that’s followed by a laugh, as I run my hands over my arms, feel my lungs fill back up. His now-soft eyes watch me, calculating, deciphering. I’m his puzzle piece to figure out, I sometimes think. I don’t tell him what I’m thinking, because even we have to treasure our secrets, as minor as they are. But as I snuggle up against him, I’m aware of all the parts of me that burn with his heat, that are marked, branded, his. I don’t need to see them to know they’re there, and that with one swivel of his hips, one turn of his body, he could bring me right back there. I’m bound to him in ways that transcend our physical limitations. I move closer and closer until my face is buried in his sweaty, salty chest. He puts his hand on my ass and drags me closer, tightening his grip into a squeeze, holding me right where he wants me. I wouldn’t dream of trying to get away.
ABOUT THE AUTHORS
VALERIE ALEXANDER lives in Arizona. Her work has been previously published in Best Lesbian Erotica, Best of Best Women’s Erotica and other anthologies.
TENILLE BROWN is a Southern, shoe-shopping, wine-drinking writer whose erotica has been published online and in over thirty print anthologies including Fast Girls, Making the Hook Up, Iridescence, F Is for Fetish and Best Bondage Erotica 2011. She blogs at thesteppingstone.blogspot.com and tweets @ ladywritesexy.
ELIZABETH COLDWELL lives and writes in London. Her BDSM-themed stories have appeared in numerous anthologies including Yes, Ma’am; Spanked and Best Bondage Erotica 2011. She can be found at The (Really) Naughty Corner, elizabeth-coldwell. wordpress.com when she’s not working on her appreciation of opera.
On her own and with coauthors, ANDREA DALE (cyvarwydd. com) has sold two novels to Virgin Books UK and approximately one hundred stories to Harlequin Spice, Avon Red and Cleis Press, among others. She freely confesses that she has a thing for rock stars—see her novel (written as Sarah Dale) A Little Night Music.
SHOSHANNA EVERS (ShoshannaEvers.com) writes erotic romance for Ellora’s Cave and Berkley Heat. In addition to writing, Shoshanna is a registered nurse, advice columnist, wife and mother.
LUCY FELTHOUSE studied creative writing at university. Whilst there, she was dared to write an erotic story—so she did. It went down a storm and she’s never looked back. Lucy has had stories published by Cleis Press, Noble Romance, Ravenous Romance and Xcite Books. Find out more at lucyfelthouse. co.uk.
LANA FOX’s stories can be found in collections from Cleis, Harlequin and Xcite, including Best Women’s Erotica 2011, Dream Lover, Passion, Orgasmic and With This Ring, I Thee Bed. Find information about her erotica and sex columns at lanafox.com.
NEIL GAVRIEL lives in the Pacific Northwest where he writes short stories of many different stripes, cooks amazing meals for his friends (who wonder why he isn’t making his living as a chef) and imagines very naughty uses for superpowers.
ELISE HEPNER lives with her husband, two ferrets and an eccentric cat in Maryland. She’s previously been published in Gotta Have It: 69 Stories of Sudden Sex and writes for Ellora’s Cave and Excessica. Visit her blog for more information and view her e-book backlist at celise91writer.blogspot.com.
KAY JAYBEE wrote The Perfect Submissive, Quick Kink One and Quick Kink Two, and The Collector. A contributor to oystersandchocolate.com, Kay also has stories published by Cleis Press, Black Lace, Mammoth, Xcite and Penguin. Details of her work can be found at kayjaybee.me.uk.
LOLITA LOPEZ writes deliciously naughty romantic and erotic tales for various publishers. When not writing, she’s hanging out with her kiddo, loving on her husband or chasing after their big, blubbering Great Dane, Bosley. You can find Lo’s latest news and releases at lolitalopez.com.
Originally from Tokyo, MIDORI has made her home in San Francisco. A severe case of the travel bug has her jetting all over the globe to teach hot sex and steaming bondage skills. She’s the founder of Rope Bondage Dojo® as well as the author of Seductive Art of Japanese Bondage and Wild Side Sex: The Book of Kink. Visit her at PlanetMidori.com and RopeDojo.com.
Eroticist GISELLE RENARDE (wix.com/gisellerenarde/erotica) is a queer Canadian, contributor to dozens of short-story anthologies, an avid volunteer, and author of numerous electronic and print books.
TERESA NOELLE ROBERTS writes romantic erotica and erotic romance for lusty people who believe in true love. Her short fiction has appeared in Best Bondage Erotica 2011; Carnal Machines : Steampunk Erotica; Playing with Fire and other anthologies with similarly provocative titles. She writes erotic romance for Samhain and Phaze.
HELEN SEDGWICK is the author of two novels, Our Little Joke (2009) and Burning Rates (2011). Her short fiction has been published in Litro, Gutter and Let’s Pretend, and she is coeditor of Fractured West. Her website is helensedgwick.com.
“Persistence”) and Thrillers, Killers ’n’ Chillers (“Head Banger”). Her zombie blog can be found at www.afteroldjoe.wordpress.com.
ELIZABETH SILVER is an erotic romance author, a self-proclaimed Internet junkie, and an international woman of mystery. She can be found writing in diners, libraries and coffee shops, either working on fiction or blogging polyamorously at various places, including her website at UrbanSilver.net.
CRAIG J. SORENSEN’s erotic stories have appeared in collections and periodicals worldwide. He currently resides in Pennsylvania where he writes computer code by day, and stories by night and early morning. Visit him at just-craig.blogspot.com
“Pawns” began as a birthday gift for a lover. Now BILLEY THORUNN is all kinds of excited to explore the written world of erotica. Currently living in Canada, future homes will include Iceland and a ship.
KATHLEEN TUDOR is a writer from the Bay Area in California. She writes nonfiction for her day job, steamy fiction at night, and blogs about polyamory at Polyspace.wordpress. com. She works to bring a greater awareness of polyamory to the masses. Her work has been published by Circlet Press and TheEroticWoman.com.
SALOME WILDE’s fiction has been published in collections including Rachel Kramer Bussel’s Sex and Candy, Please Sir and Gotta Have It; in Susie Bright’s Best American Erotica 2006 and X: The Erotic Treasury; and in the Mammoth Book of Best New Erotica, Volume 10.
ABOUT THE EDITOR
RACHEL KRAMER BUSSEL (rachelkramerbussel.com) is a New York–based author, editor and blogger. She has edited over thirty books of erotica, including Best Bondage Erotica 2011; Gotta Have It; Obsessed; Women in Lust; Her Surrender; Orgasmic; Bottoms Up: Spanking Good Stories; Spanked; Naughty Spanking Stories from A to Z 1 and 2; Fast Girls; Smooth; Passion; The Mile High Club; Do Not Disturb; Tasting Him; Tasting Her; Please, Sir; Please, Ma’am; He’s on Top; She’s on Top; Caught Looking; Hide and Seek; Crossdressing and Rubber Sex. She is Best Sex Writing series editor, and winner of 6 IPPY (Independent Publisher) Awards. Her work has been published in over one hundred anthologies.
She serves as senior editor at Penthouse Variation, wrote the popular “Lusty Lady” column for The Village Voice and is a sex columnist for SexisMagazine.com. Rachel has written for AVN, Bust, Cleansheets.com, Cosmopolitan, Curve, The Daily Beast, Fresh Yarn, TheFrisky.com, Gothamist, Huffington Post, Mediabistro, Newsday, New York Post, Penthouse, Playgirl, Radar, Salon, San Francisco Chronicle, Time Out New York, xoJane and Zink, among others. She has appeared on “The Martha Stewart Show,” “The Berman and Berman Show,” NY1 and Showtime’s “Family Business.” She hosted the popular In the Flesh Erotic Reading Series (inthefleshreadingseries.com), and speaks at conferences, does readings and teaches erotic writing workshops across the country. She blogs at lustylady. blogspot.com.
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