664. Certain that my days of making mistakes were over
Epilogue
F*ck-Ups Six-Sixty-Five through Six-Sixty-Seven—
A Happy Ending Leadeth to a Yacht
Eight months later
“So when can we expect the next installment of Dagmar Kostopoulos’ fuck-ups?”
Marlene asked me that question as we stood at one end of the book release party for Six-Hundred-Sixty-Six. Her hair shone bright red for the occasion, and our agent Lillian stood on the other side of her, a cherub of happiness. Right next to me bobbed my Mel, too happy to stand still.
A little spotlight shone on us and the overcrowded room waited with bated breath for my answer. My fabulous boss had bought out this entire wine bar for the night just to celebrate our book, and I couldn’t believe all this was for me and Mel. Yash stood just off to the side, champagne in hand, grinning like a Looney Tune. A handsome Looney Tune whose clothes I wanted to rip off with my teeth.
I held our book in my hand. Our very own book. With my photo on the front. The bird shit photo. It seemed much too fitting not to be used, and hell, it was funnier than bird shit, and it enticed people to buy. A sexy, fabulous pic of me and Mel looking like Sex and the City actresses graced the back flap, and that was good enough for me. And I’d finally dyed my hair a fun color—my long, dark tresses transitioned to deep blue at the ends now.
My stomach fluttered at all the people expecting me to say the perfect thing in the perfect moment. I set the book aside on a catering table to my right. In seeming slow motion, I saw the book fall. I saw the folder I had mistaken for the table edge flip upward. I saw the drink on the other end of that folder slide, slide, I ducked, too late! Whoops, noooooooooo!
665. Champagne splashed all over my silk-clad crotch
The entire room burst into applause and Yash almost had to take a knee from laughing. Mel rushed to help, hysterical tears in her eyes, and started to dry off my lady bits with a napkin.
666. And that’s the photo the New York Post took. Mel rubbing my crotch while I peed champagne
“Well,” I said to the crowd. “That depends on what kind of fuck-ups you mean, Marlene.” The crowd laughed. I laughed. “Uh… Obviously, I’ll continue being a total mess, no effort required.”
“Hear, hear!” Latisha called out.
I grinned. “I think, though, that I only have one more formal mistake to make:
667. “I hereby cease being a fuck-up”
The assemblage started saying “Nooooo,” and “Boooo,” and I hushed them. “Hear me out. My days of trying to sleep with the boss are over—”
“Hear, hear,” muttered Marlene.
“As well as lying to wonderful men about being anything or anyone other than who I am. But, as I’ve said in the book, learning to stand up for myself, what I believe in, what I want… Those things aren’t fuck-ups. They’re not. They’re being brave, even if the result is not great. It’s the intent, sometimes, that can make a fuck-up an act of bravery, not the result. You can be amazing and brave and talented and still fail. But that doesn’t make you a failure—it happens to everyone. You’ll notice that none of my family are here. That’s because they don’t believe in the person I am—they want me to be someone else. I love them, but I will stay true to me. Even if that ‘me’ changes over time. I think that’s the best any of us can do. So”—I raised my glass—“don’t toast being a fuck-up—toast being brave. And toast my soaked hoo-ha and ruined dress.”
“Hear, hear!” yelled Yash. He ran to me and lifted me into his arms. His kiss lasted so long that everyone had dissipated by the time he released me, breathless, buoyant. “I love you, D,” he said.
“I love you, Y.” His beautiful, proud face was the thing I needed in this world to make it past the mistakes and the hurts. The last few months had been the best of my entire life—dream job, dream boyfriend, too many dream cats, amazing friends. I thought him everything that was worthy and amiable—yup, he still sent me Full Austen. My very soul soared above the crowd, scarcely believing what it saw. Nothing could go wrong now!
“Dagmar, wow—you look great, babe.”
I gasped and turned. Blade. Blade. “How the hell did you get in here, Blade?”
He gave Yash an unfriendly once-over while chewing on a baby carrot. “Is this the guy?”
Yash’s face took on a cast I’d never seen before. Dark, nostrils flaring—and sexy as hell. “This guy is with her, and you’re not welcome here.”
Blade rolled his eyes. “So you’re all hot shit now, Dag? I have to admit, I can’t believe how you look. I called up your dad and was asking about you, and he told me they were throwing you a party for your book tonight.”
That’s what I got for inviting Dad…
“He didn’t seem to think too much of the book.” Blade started laughing.
Yup—that’s what I got.
My wonderful ex just kept talking. “So anyway, what say you and me find a nice quiet corner, huh? You seem a lot better now, sexy.” He leaned down to me, liquor on his breath. “You might be a L.A. kind of girl now.”
“An L.A. kind of girl,” I corrected, just because I could.
Yash bristled, his muscles rumbling in his tight button-down. Rawr! “I feel a fuck-up coming over me,” he growled.
I put a hand on his arm. “No, my love. Let me. And it’s not a fuck-up when they deserve it.”
I cocked my high-heeled foot, looked Blade in the eyes, and kneed him right in the balls. He screamed and imploded faster than my old life.
Not. A. Mistake.
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Samantha Lytton: The Dimple of Doom
Lucy Woodhull
Excerpt
Chapter One
Accountants should not be so sexy.
It all started at the office Christmas party, as many terrible hangovers do.
My palms began to sweat at the sight of The Accountant walking in my direction. His shining eyes said, I wanna spread your sheet, his masterful gait said, Damn, I’m masterful, and his tantalising smirk said, I’ve read the Kama Sutra—all the way through.
I swallowed the lump of lust in my throat and twiddled with the tablecloth of the catered buffet table. My usual party plan involved making winsome eyes at the food, but tonight I salivated over more than just the pigs in a blanket.
“Potato ball?” he asked. Sam Turner, aka The Accountant, held the fried offering palm up on a festive red and green paper plate.
I had the hots for a dude named Sam. My name is Samantha. Samantha ‘n’ Sam. It was the stuff of obnoxious wedding invitations.
What colour were his hazel eyes today? Glancing up, I slid into hormone heaven. He stood, eyes mossy green pools of sensual seductiveness, and offered me the Garden of Eden apple. Except it was a potato ball.
Cocking my head, I posed in an alluring manner that I hoped brought Marilyn Monroe to mind. I should say something. Something not stupid.
“I love balls.” Oh, damn. “And potatoes!” Did I just tell him I loved to eat balls? “I mean I love to eat food! In ball form. You know. Because it’s easy. To eat. Except when it rolls. Then it can be hard to catch.”
Stop.
Talking.
“Okay.” Sam’s lips turned upward in mockery on his almost handsome, totally charming face, topped in curling, floppy, please-run-your-hands-through-me brown hair.
Yes, I absolutely had told him I loved to eat balls. I decided I should smile through this faux pas. Everyone knew a bright grin made unpleasant things go away. Ask Judy Garland.
“I like food in stick or chip form myself,” he said, munching a piece of celery in stick form.
I couldn’t come up with anything to say about sticks that wasn’t dirty. “Chips are good.” Really, I impressed even myself with the brilliance of my witty banter. At any moment my clothes would be ripped off my quivering body by Sam, my same-named accounting crush.
I hated the office Chris
tmas party.
Sam blinked and appraised me in what I chose to interpret as a captivated manner. A girl could dream. Instead he said, “So, Scott told me you entertained the employees at last year’s party.”
“Yes. I fell down the steps.” My cheeks burned like the carpet at the end of two flights of stairs. I wasn’t clumsy too often, but when I made the effort, I really won at it. “You can still see the splotch on the floor from the blood. I lost a tooth, but gained a reputation.”
“That’s gross.” He grinned. One wouldn’t call him drop-dead gorgeous or anything. At first, you might consider him kinda ordinary-looking. Then the naughty glimmer in his eye caught your breath. The smile appeared, emphasising the lickable curve of his bottom lip. Charm emanated from his very pores.
And, of course, he possessed the nuclear weapon of facial features. The dimple. Only one—on the left side of his face—deep enough to bury yourself in. One flicker and panties fell at thirty paces.
My body temperature had suddenly shot upward to somewhere near surface of the sun levels. I’d disconnected completely from the conversation and reverted to teenage-girl-like gawking.
I took a steadying breath and jumped back into the fray. “So, accounting? Is that as glamorous as it sounds?” I had, apparently, decided that deriding his profession was the way to go, flirt-wise. Plays like this were risky, but desperation had sunk in. His temp job in the finance department ended today—I would have no more chances to bend and snap at the water cooler for his benefit.
The corners of his sometimes green, sometimes brown, always dreamy eyes crinkled. “Of course. Usually I have eight models in my accounting entourage, but I gave them the night off.”
Uh-oh. He was funny, too. It just wasn’t fair. “How kind of you. You could say you’re a model boss! Ha ha!” Yes, I laughed at my own joke, which was a behaviour shared by the most sophisticated of ladies. Then I remembered I turned a horrid shade of blotchy red when I got too excited. I choked off my laughter and forced down some potato.
“I could say that, but I won’t.”
“No, you really shouldn’t.”
The dimple chose that moment to come out and play. Oh, Sam—let’s retire to the supply room and hump. It had been so long since I had humped anyone. Or anywhere. I shoved more mmmmm-yummy potato ball into my mouth and almost didn’t get it on my festive sweater, the beautiful red one I’d spent way too much money on in the hopes of getting Sam to notice me.
He noticed now. “You have a blob of—”
Then he grabbed my boob.
“Jesus, I’m sorry!” His eyes became saucers, and he jerked his hand back, leaving my skin scorched and feverish. “There’s a bunch of potato on your…sweater. Let’s, um, let’s go to the kitchen. There’s a sink.”
My stomach dropped three storeys—I’d just accidentally got to second base in public. He grabbed my arm, and we hurried past a maze of monochrome cubes draped in twinkle lights to the break room. This was the most exciting event in the office since they had switched the carpeting from taupe to tan.
Sam stood there while I applied a paper towel to my tit. Actually, he didn’t merely stand there—he stared, turned away, blinked and stared again. I couldn’t blame the guy. The girls were rather ravishing—perky from the cold water, encased in a formidable push-up bra, eager for more inappropriate fondling.
“I’m sorry about…that.” He slumped and shoved his hands in his pockets.
“It’s okay. It happens.” I smiled, brimming with reassurance.
The tension finally broke when he snickered. “It does? How often does it happen? You should avoid potato balls.”
“And accountants.”
We laughed at each other. For once I wasn’t laughing by myself.
My ears pricked at the silence surrounding us. The back office echoed, and we were alone. The whirring hum of the old refrigerator sounded like a Lionel Ritchie love song to me in my hyper-aroused state. Hello? Is it me you want to do on the floor?
I stared at him, knowing I resembled an enraptured puppy, but unable to help it. Unbelievably, he gazed right back. Soft green eyes mesmerised me. After what felt like ten minutes, I found my voice again. “I think I’ll wait here until my boo—sweater dries.”
“I understand.” His focus never left my face. “We don’t want to start any lactating rumours.”
“No. It takes a long time for those to go away—I know from experience.”
Sam chuckled, flashing the dimple again.
What happened next was one hundred per cent the dimple’s fault—the evil dent winked in his cheek like a boozy lounge singer, urging me to bad behaviour.
I reached up his five-nine or so height and pulled the collar of his green shirt down to my five-foot lip level to kiss him.
He smelt divine—shaving cream and man skin. An enticing combination. His lips were soft and surprised at first, but soon parted to allow my exploration. Sweet. He tasted sweet, warm, delicious. Oh, God.
My fantasies about kissing him were pale, pathetic compared to the real thing. Sparks flew from my lips through my veins to my toes, singeing various important parts in between. The sudden heat emanating from his talented mouth made me dizzy. Blood pounding, I clutched him harder to remain upright. This was not an ordinary kiss. This was a masterpiece painted by the two of us.
I let his shirt go before his lips.
His hazy gaze melted into mine. “I should be inappropriate more often.”
“I wrinkled your nice green shirt.” I smoothed the cloth over his chest—his solid, inviting, muscled, taut… What on earth is going on? Oh, yes, I’ve messed up his shirt.
“I don’t care. Do you like it?” His eyebrows hovered upward, as if he really cared about me liking his clothes.
I dared a glance into his eyes again. I should learn not to do that. Warmth pooled in my stomach when he leaned in, desire writ large in the purse of his lips, the falling of his eyelashes. I gripped his shirt. I didn’t have to pull very hard—this time his arms locked around my waist and lifted me until I stood on his feet. On my tiptoes, I flicked my tongue across his bottom lip. Marvellous. With an approving grunt, he sucked on mine, and I heard myself moan into his open mouth. Accountants shouldn’t have such nice bodies, but I felt firm, delicious muscle when my belly pressed against his.
“Ahem.” We froze.
In slow motion, I turned around to find Scott, the company scumbag, leering. Scott made office irritation an art form by eavesdropping, rumour-mongering, licking his fingers and leaving messes in the communal microwave. He gave his best smarmy laugh before leaving.
Sam closed his eyes. “Crap.”
“Crap,” I agreed. “I should have taken you home, and then kissed you.”
Grinning, he said, “Samantha, I like you.”
He did? I held my breath. There was no candid camera. No pointing and/or laughing. A hot, normal guy liked me.
I did not believe that women should derive their self-worth from the approval of male persons. However, the dating scene in Los Angeles was…unique. It was riddled with loser actors, and loser producers, and loser losers and more tall, tanned silicone than you could shake a jiggling arm at. Let’s just say that pale, short girls who don’t speak Dipshit did not enjoy as robust a dating life as they might have desired. In other words, there were slim fucking pickings. Therefore, it was cause for real celebration when he continued—
“I have to ask you out now. For the office’s sake. To ensure a legacy of rakishness.”
“There aren’t enough old-fashioned rakes nowadays.”
His response was a leer Casanova would have envied.
This man caused my brain to revert to Primal Mode, where the animalistic priorities were food and sex. Usually food was my number one passion, but this man was locked in a dead heat with fried chicken. “I’m not really easy, you know.”
“Too bad. I am.”
Quite breathless, I smiled and stepped off his feet. Everyone knew what they
said about large feet. That they were easy to stand on when you kissed the guy attached.
He tucked a tendril of hair behind my ear. I felt that shivery little touch like it was an earthquake. “Do you have the keys to Oliver’s office?” he asked.
“Oliver the CEO?”
“Yeah, I saw him leave.” He twirled a strand of my hair—it shimmered like gold against his skin, making me suddenly feel beautiful. It had been a while since that had happened. Leaning closer, he whispered, “His empty office might be a better place to…let your sweater dry. Besides, if we go back out to the buffet table everyone will stare.”
We wouldn’t want staring. Staring might impede the clandestine nakedness we planned to perpetrate. “I have the keys. I’ll meet you up there.”
Warning bells permeated the din of lust in my head. I knew I should not do this, but that damn dimple was a con man of the highest order. Later I would send a thousand dollars to a Nigerian prince because it asked me to.
I put my hand over my chest in a probably futile attempt to cover up the boob disaster and hurried to find my best friend, fellow office drone and love consultant Ellen. As I suspected, she occupied my old spot by the buffet tables. Great minds and all that. I hoped the food wouldn’t forget me now.
“Ellen!”
She paused mid-potato ball. She’d thank me later.
I pulled her into a nearby cube and shoved aside someone’s work papers to sit on the white, plastic counter. The files probably weren’t important. This was the Steak on a Stick corporation—the United Nations it was not. “Should I go make out with The Accountant?” I asked.
Her brown eyes narrowed. “You pulled me away from hot hors d’oeuvres to ask me that?”
“I fully deserve that reprimand, but this is important, too. Kissing or no kissing?” I didn’t mention that there had already been kissing. No need to complicate the matter.
She set her martini down and took on a more properly ponderous attitude. The politics of inter-office romance were tricky. “Kissing.”
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