by Riley Moreno
“I remember you had quite a crush on him for some time too.” Ivana laughed.
Trina laughed as well. “Did I really ask you to describe him to me every night?” She asked.
“Yes you did, every night for almost 6 months straight.” Ivana stated. If Trina could have seen the look on her face, she would have laughed even harder.
“I’m so sorry.” Trina apologized.
They laughed for a few minutes. Ivana had a feeling that Trina was developing quite the crush on Tommy right this moment. She could see her face as it remembered every bump and scar on Tommy’s face.
Ivana had been a lot older than Trina when they had met the new teacher. She already found she liked boys, well to look at, but that was about it. It was simply too difficult to find many boys around her town. So she remembered what the face looked like as Trina’s crush had developed back then. She watched as the same reactions cascaded over Trina’s face.
‘This move will be a lot easier now.’ Ivana thought. Then she had a flash of guilt at remembering the rest of the story with the new teacher. Trina had developed this horrible all-consuming crush on him. When she would find out a little over 6 months later that he was married, she had cried for days. Maybe it had even been weeks, she wasn’t sure anymore. But she didn’t want her to go through that pain again.
‘I shouldn’t be so happy about his. When she comes crashing down it will be me who is picking up the pieces off the floor.’ She thought.
Ivana patted the girl. “Be careful with your feelings okay. Don’t let your head think you love him.” She said to Trina.
Chapter 19
Fred had talked to Tommy for a few minutes earlier in the day. Tommy had made it to Russia and was on his way to see Ivana and Trina. He couldn’t wait to talk to Ivana; she always made his days so much better.
It had been a long day for him today, with meetings all day long. Sure he had plenty of money, and didn’t always have to work this hard. The fact was if he wanted he could leave the work to other people. But he was a workaholic. He loved to be busy, it made him feel alive!
‘What if that’s a problem for her?’ He thought. Then he followed with, ‘when I think of her I forget about work.’ The realization was shocking to him. It had been true, the day before he had been wrapped up in the wedding stuff. So much so that he hadn’t done a thing at work. That was really why he had meetings all day long. He had missed half of them the day before.
“At least I’m the boss and owner both! Imagine if I had been working for someone else? I’d be fired right now.” Fred laughed out loud.
Ivana was good for him, he just knew it. He could sense a change in his whole behavior. Even other people had noticed it as well. Just the other day one of his manager’s had asked him if he was feeling okay.
Fred had asked him why. “Because usually when you hear about this type of thing you throw a fit. But you didn’t this time. In fact, you don’t even seem upset. Are you still my boss? Or have aliens exchanged his body for one of their own?” His manager had said.
Fred had laughed quite hard. But when his manager gave him another shocked look and excused himself. Fred had really lost his composure. He was almost positive at that point he guy had been serious about the alien crack.
“Might have to check out the people I’ve hired, don’t know if I want a crack pot on my staff.” Fred said thinking about it more. “No it was funny, maybe he’ll do it again and I’ll have another good laugh.”
He looked at the clock and saw it was time to call. “Hey sweetie, how are you?” Fred said as he saw Ivana appear on the screen.
“I’m good, how are you?” Ivana asked him.
“I’m very tired. But I was in meetings all day long, and I’m just so happy to see you.” Fred commented.
“If you’re tired we can make it short and you can sleep.” She offered.
“No I’m good now. You give me energy.” Fred laughed.
Ivana didn’t know what to say. So she just smiled and looked at him through the computer. He was really a sweet guy. She thought and sighed.
Chapter 20
Ivana looked at him and thought how sweet of a guy he was and she sighed. “You might love him.” A voice said in her head. She sat up a bit straighter and realized a few things.
Every time she thought about him she smiled. When she was sad, how did she make herself happy? That was a simple answer; she did it by thinking of Fred.
‘Wow I can’t believe it.’ She thought.
Looking at him she saw how tired he was. “Are you sure you’re okay? You look so tired.” Ivana asked.
Fred smiled. It was a tired smile, she could tell.
“No I would rather talk to you then sleep. This was I can look at you when I hear your voice. When I dream about you, I can’t always see you. Sometimes I just hear your voice. So this is nice.” Fred answered.
Ivana blushed red as he complimented her. The heat igniting in her ears, she knew they were turning red.
“I love when you blush!” Fred said, letting her know she had been right.
“You make me blush; you are just so sweet to me!” Ivana commented.
“I don’t mean to make you blush. I’m just telling you the truth. I believe that honesty is a must in a relationship.” Fred commented.
‘I know you do.” Ivana said. She felt a flash of guilt about her scars. She hadn’t told him anything about them. Ivana decided if need be she would just say he had never asked her much about the fire. It was true he hadn’t asked her for details. Of that she was thankful. Then she thought about it and knew why he never asked her.
“If I compliment you there is only one reason why I would do it. Do you know what that reason is?” Fred asked her.
“I think I do, but I’m not really sure. If I’m wrong I don’t want to say it.” Ivana answered.
“That’s fine you don’t have to say it I will. It’s because I love you Ivana.” Fred said.
“I love you too.” She admitted. Her face and ears burning as she knew she was turning red again.
“You are so beautiful.” Fred stated.
Ivana didn’t say anything just felt the heat get hotter.
Finally she said. “You are such a sweetheart Fred. I’m so glad I met you!”
Chapter 21
Fred had never said he loved her during the main conversation. He had always waited until the end of the call. Saying it and then hanging up quickly. Just in case she would say something that he didn’t want to hear. Something like ‘it’s too early, how could you know’.
Of course after the last time he had proposed to her, she had to know how he felt. The fact she had said yes should have been a good indicator of how she felt. But he had not been a hundred percent sure if that would be true or not. He had thought.
When she had said she loved him too, he had gone from tired to excited. Fred had so much energy he wanted to run a marathon, and he hated to run. But Ivana gave him that extra energy all the time. With those three words from her, he had been recharged for life.
Fred had asked about Tommy and she had told him. “He had some sort of moment here; he’s laying down right now.” Ivana had answered.
“A moment, what do you mean?” Fred had asked confused and worried at the same time.
“Well at first I could have sworn it was that he had been interested in Trina.” Ivana commented.
“Well I don’t know it’s possible from what you described her like to me. At least for Tommy, now for me, I am more attracted to one woman now. That isn’t anyone but you Ivana Power.” Fred said using his name in place of hers.
He saw the telltale flush of red go across her ears. Fred smiled. “I really love that look you get. I can’t wait to see it in person.” Fred commented. His body filled with sexual tension. It had been quite some time since he had sex.
“Thanks, but you really are too kind.” Ivana said. “I do like the sound of my name though when you say it like that!” Ivana admitted.
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Fred smiled, he felt like nothing could go wrong in his life. “I hope Tommy fills out the papers quick! I have quite the surprise for you when you get here!” Fred laughed.
“What kind of surprise?” She asked.
“You won’t get it out of me that easily!” Fred laughed again.
“Please at least give me a hint.” Ivana gave him a sexy look.
Fred about gave in that second. But his body went into immediate attention mode. The blood was out of his head just like that. Well at least the head that was supposed to think for him!
“So tell me you about this reaction you thought you saw?” Fred said redirecting the conversation to get his mind out of the gutter right now.
He wanted to reach down under his desk and give himself room. But he also thought it would be cheap to the woman who was his future wife to have cybersex.
Chapter 22
Ivana was telling Fred about Tommy and the reaction she thought she had seen. When suddenly the conversation had taken a turn to more serious matters she had to attend with. She could tell the tone was more sexual, she felt the tension in the air.
Having seen that look on enough television shows, she knew he was not thinking of anything but sex. But that sent a flash of fear throughout her body. ‘No he’ll hate me after he sees the scars.’ She thought. Ivana had a problem catching her breathe right away. She felt like it had all been sucked out of her. It had been the same feeling she remembered as a little girl when the fire had been burning around her.
The tears threatened to crash onto her face. Ivana could picture it now in her mind. The first time he would see her naked. She could hear the words in her mind as if it was happening now. “Why didn’t you tell me about these? They make you ugly. How could you lie to me?” Ivana could hear those words too clearly.
“What did you say?” She asked. Hoping she didn’t hear those words ever again.
“Tell me about this moment again?” Fred asked.
“Oh Tommy, I remember now.” Ivana came back to the present. Her fears calming now, at least if she could keep her mind here in the present.”
“What do you mean? You said something about him liking Trina. What did you see him do?” Fred asked.
“It was just the way I look at you, or that you look at me.” Ivana tried to explain. She was getting confused in her conversation and the flashes of her thoughts a few minutes back.
Ivana had seen this disgusted look on his face when he’d seen the scars. At least in her mind when she pictured him seeing her body and the look had been one that would break her heart.
That was the other thing, the fact she had admitted she loved him. It made her more vulnerable then she wanted to be. Never in the past could she remember anyone making her feel this way. To lose that feeling it would kill her.
“When he saw her the smile he got was like he was in a dream.” Ivana stated.
“Yes I know what you’re talking about. I know the way it is to be in that dream.” Fred admitted.
Ivana blushed again. “I feel bad though Fred.” Ivana admitted.
“Why?” Fred asked her.
“Because I also saw the look on her face as she touched his face. Fred I’ve seen it one other time when she had a crush as a young girl on one of our teachers. I know how hurt she was when she found out there was no way for her and the teacher to be together. Not only do you consider the age difference, she was only 10. But when you think she had no clue, in her mind they could be together. A little after six months, his wife had brought him lunch. He was only being kind when he introduced her to the class. He had no clue he had just crushed a little girls heart in his words. But I had to help her through that. All of that and I was still happy that she felt that way; it means she won’t be upset about moving. Is that a bad thing Fred?”
Fred sighed he wasn’t sure how to answer it truthfully. But finally it came to him. “You know I felt the same way when you told me about the story. I mean not the heartbreak part since I’ve never seen her go through it. But the part where it would make it a smooth move, I felt that too.”
Chapter 23
“I don’t mean to sound bad either. But maybe it is more that you could be happy for your friend? I mean that’s how I feel about Tommy. I would love for him to find a good woman and settle down.” Fred stated.
He watched her shake her head. “Yeah maybe that’s it.”
He had only learned about the other story, so that wouldn’t have been it at all. “Yeah, no I can’t see it. I was honestly happy about the move being smoother. You had just said something about her feeling like she would always be a third wheel. I figured if she had a crush on Tommy, well that would keep her happy. So if I want to take my wife off to the bedroom for some fun, I can do it!” Fred’s body reacted as he pictured her naked.
Ivana didn’t say a word and Fred knew he had made it entirely too clear that he was feeling horny. He turned red. “You know what I am really tired. I think I need to go to bed now. I’m sorry honey.” He said.
‘Please let me off the hook?’ he was pleading with his mind, hoping she would hear him somehow.
“Okay, that’s fine. You look really tired.” Fred didn’t notice how quickly she had agreed to let him go.
“Good night, I’ll talk to you tomorrow!” Fred said.
Getting off the computer he looked down and noticed that he was still at full attention. “Oh fuck what am I going to do with this thing?” Fred pointed down at his clear erection straining at his pants.
He knew the only thing he could do was masturbate. If he didn’t release any of this tension before trying to sleep he wouldn’t sleep a wink. He would simply toss and turn and have erotic dreams of her.
For a second that didn’t seem like a bad idea. Sleeping and getting his rest. He could avoid the whole problem of getting undressed and thinking of her.
He moved to the bed, knowing that he was fighting a losing battle. This was happening tonight, and it seemed like his lower mind had control of his full body. Taking his clothes off he got naked and grabbed the lotion.
As he put his head on the pillow he closed his eyes and began to picture her undressing in front of him. He licked his lips as she began to take off her dress. Fred moved his hand up and down, changing the amount of pressure he put on it. He tried to picture her mouth around it for a bit. There was something erotic to him about looking down on a woman who is blowing him.
Fred sped up his hand as he became more excited. But he didn’t want to end this too quickly. This felt too good. He loved the fantasy he was having.
“Get on top of me.” He said aloud as he masturbated.
He pictured her lowering herself on his hard prick. Fred moaned, wishing he could feel it right now. The real thing, he wanted to have her right now. Soon he was coming to the point where he couldn’t hold it back. He pictured her on top of him. He saw her body as it sat naked on him. He applied pressure on his cock to simulate the feeling of her having an orgasm.
Fred moaned out as his orgasm hit. “Oh I can’t even imagine what it will feel like in person.”
Chapter 24
Ivana saw his face flash red when he had made his comment. She could tell he was more than ready to undress her and make love. The thought made her both excited and scared.
When he had said he was tired. She gladly agreed to get off the computer. Ivana had something she wanted to do in the other room. She had never been with a man in her life. But she had pleased herself in the past.
Ivana knew what an orgasm felt like, and right now she wanted one. He had been excited, but so had she. The thought of seeing him naked and on top of her made her want to experience it. As long as she could keep her fears at bay she would be able to orgasm.
As she thought about what she had never felt it was hard for her to know what to expect. The only thing she had known was her own hand. So all she could do was close her eyes and picture him. Hoping she didn’t allow the fear to come into her mind.
But it was insistent. Yelling at her, keeping her distracted, ‘It will never happen, he’ll think your ugly.’ She could hear the words clearly, but she tried desperately to keep it away.
She didn’t want to just look at the ceiling when she did this now. But she didn’t want to picture his face either. She knew the look was coming soon. In her fantasy she was getting ready to take off her nightgown.
“No please don’t stop me.” She cried out, trying to not let it come up. She hoped beyond all hope that her sexual distraction would be enough to carry her over.
Feeling the first waves of pleasure hit her; she knew the fear had lost tonight. Tonight her pleasure had won, and she cried out as the orgasm hit her.
“I wonder what it would be like with him.” Ivana muttered.
She could only imagine he would know how to make love. Since she didn’t know whatever he did would feel good. At least it made sense in her mind at that time. She wanted to enjoy these few moments before the fears came back into her mind. They would be rushing in at any time now.
Ivana sighed; it felt good to have some sort of release. She was happy she could go to her new husband as a virgin. It had been something she always thought was the right thing to do.
Then the fears came rushing back to her. She had let herself fall in love now, so it was going to be worse. If she had not felt the way she did about Fred, she wouldn’t care. When he saw her scars he would simply say she disgusted him.
“I don’t want that. I don’t think I could take it. I would feel betrayed. But do I even have a right to feel betrayed? I wasn’t honest with him. I could have told him this right away?” She stated.
Ivana felt her stomach getting sick thinking about what he would do when he saw her scars. At least she had been able to experience a few moments of pleasure and a fantasy like a normal person.