Deception

by A. S. Fenichel

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  Chapter 1

  Lady Belinda Clayton grappled with the creaking iron gate, which led to the back garden of her family’s London townhouse. It was not the first time she had used the unconventional route to make her way back home in the predawn hours. Nor was it the first time her dress had been ruined or her hair tousled in her rush to make her way through the streets without becoming a number on the death toll in the city’s records.

  Pushing the gate closed, the rough, cold metal scratched her gloved palm. Once the latch was secured she ran her finger along the jagged tear in her left glove. “Too bad,” she said. She shook her head at the ruined garment. “I really did like this pair.”

  “What pair is that, Lady Belinda?” Gabriel’s deep, seductive voice cut through the still night.

  His blue eyes were the color of the sea just before a storm and their depths burned into her.

  Her stomach did a flip before she had time to control herself. She was sure she looked flustered and she could have kicked herself for not steeling her nerves before facing Lord Gabriel Thurston, the Earl of Tullering.

  She was pleased with the sound of cold detachment in her voice. “Tullering, what on earth are you doing in my garden in the middle of the night?”

  “One might ask you the same question, Lady Belinda.” He ran his hand through his dark hair, loosening it from the ribbon. His cravat had come loose and his evening clothes were crushed. There was something dangerous about an unkempt Gabriel. The gesture was a sign of frustration from the earl. She’d seen it many times.

  Her heart raced and she swallowed the panic welling in her gut. “This is my home, my lord. You do not live here. If I am not mistaken you have a home in London where you should be at this late hour.”

  “You are my fiancée.” Even in the moonlight, his face and neck burned red.

  “There is no need to remind me.”

  He stepped from the terrace onto the cobbled path where she stood. He loomed over her and filled the air with a mixture of soap, spice and something else male and formidable. The scent was intrinsically Gabriel and entirely delicious.

  She was tempted to back away, but forced herself to hold her ground. Her stubbornness did not stop her heart from racing or her skin from tingling at his nearness.

  “Oh, but I think there is a need.” He circled behind her, his mouth inches from her ear.

  She set her teeth. “I am well aware of the contract signed between you and my father four years ago, my lord. I was there when it was signed and I was also there when you left for the continent.” The day he left for the war came flooding back, and so did the memories of her unanswered letters, and the tears she had cried over him. Well, there would be no tears tonight.

  “You are angry with me for fighting for our country?” He took a step back.

  “No.”

  “But you are angry.”

  “You might have written since your concern for our relationship is so evident.” She’d wanted to sound flippant, but she sounded brooding. She’d been hurt by his silence, and had little hope of hiding the fact.

  “I wrote,” he said.

  She was pleased the subject had changed to something more defensible. “Three letters in four years can hardly be considered correspondence, my lord.”

  “You use to call me Gabriel.” He murmured.

  She stepped away in spite of the pleasant shiver his voice produced. “That was a long time ago.” She made to climb the terrace steps away from him.

  “There is still the question of why my fiancée is sneaking through the garden at four in the morning.”

  She turned ready to blast him about having no right to ask her anything. Her words stuck in her throat.

  In the full moonlight, he took her breath away. He was tall and broad and his hair hung loose around his face.

  In spite of her anger, she wanted desperately to touch his hair and see if it was still as soft as it looked. “I come and go as I please.”

  “So I see,” he said. “Perhaps then, you would be willing to explain why your dress is six inches deep with mud, why your hair looks as if you’ve been tossing in the sheets, how you got that smudge of dirt on your lovely face, or the hole in those gloves you were just lamenting?”

  She wiped some dried mud from her cheek. The resulting dull pain told her she had revealed a bruise beneath.

  His eyes widened and he flew up the steps.

  She stepped back. She couldn’t harm Gabriel so she lifted one arm as if to dull a blow.

  He froze, staring down at her.

  It had been instinct. The last few years had taught her that no one is immune to violence. A woman must learn to defend herself. If he had been anyone else, she’d have struck him rather than shield herself against an angry fist. She lowered her arm and looked into his piercing eyes. Her heart pounded. She had made an error.

  “Do you truly think I would strike you?”

  Now that she was thinking clearly again, she hardly knew why she had defended herself. It was foolish. Gabriel would never strike her. Her environment had tainted her. She attempted to remain cold in her explanation. “I hardly know what to think, my lord. We no longer know each other.”

  When he touched the tender bruise, she winced, but did not back away.

  “And this, Bella, would you care to explain this to me?” His voice was soft and his touch feather-like, but his eyes narrowed and his posture remained unyielding.

  She brushed his touch aside. “Do not call me that.”

  “You use to like that name.”

  “That was also a long time ago.”

  “Not so long,” he whispered. He gazed out into the garden as if lost in some distant memory. His attention returned to her. “I am waiting for some kind of response from you, Lady Belinda.”

  In spite of her need to keep him at a distance, her heart ached when he used the formal address. Her first instinct was to tell him to go to hell and leave her alone, but that would only provoke him. She lied instead. “I have been at a ball. There was some problem with the carriage, and I was required to walk part of the way. I fell in the mud and some of it must have splattered my face when my dress was ruined.”

  He frowned. “And the bruise?”

  Deep creases around his full lips drew her in. Desire to tell him everything bubbled in her gut. She shrugged. “I’m sure it is only dirt. The moonlight makes it seem more dire, and you are exaggerating the situation greatly.”

  “I see. Is this all the explanation I can expect?”

  “It is what I am willing to say, my lord.” She turned and walked to the house. The door opened just as she arrived and she slipped inside before her fiancé could say more.

  “I thought he’d never let you go, milady,” her maid said. She took the tattered cape from Belinda’s shoulders.

  “He is angry, Claire.” Belinda sat down heavily on the stool so her maid could remove her muddy boots before she tracked up the entire house. No need for all the servants to begin asking questions.

  “He has a right to know what you’ve been up to.” Claire dropped one boot with a heavy thud.

  “Perhaps, but I cannot tell him, regardless of his rights. He would not understand and probably could not believe me anyway. He’d have me sent to Bedlam. He will have to remain in the dark. Besides, what would I say? That while he was away fighting Napoleon, I was quite busy battling the demons that are taking over England?”

  “It’s a start.” Claire shrugged, but her Irish brogue dripped with reproach.

  “I think not. Just run me a bath, Claire. I’m tired, bruised and I just want a hot bath and a warm bed.

  “What happened tonight, milady? We expected you hours ago. I’ve already sent Tubbs out looking for you.” Claire tucked all the soiled and torn items into a bundle for laundering, and if possible, mending.

  “I hope he does not run into any demons while looking for me.�
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  Claire patted her shoulder. “He’ll be fine. Not to worry. Tubbs can fend for himself.”

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  Belinda woke to a chilled room. The chair in the corner creaked against the floor. “Claire?”

  She rolled over to see who was in the dark room and why the window had been opened.

  He was still as a cat, sitting in a small chair by her writing desk. One leg stretched out in a relaxed pose, but even with only the fire to light him, he looked ready to pounce. Anyone else might have seen a man at his leisure, but she knew him. He gripped the arms of the chair and his eyes narrowed. There was a movement along his jaw where it ticked whenever control of his temper stretched too far. It was rare for her fiancé to lose his temper.

  Her heart pounded and her hands shook. She gripped the covers trying to still her nerves.

  “Gabriel?”

  “I see you’ve remembered my given name, my lady.” His voice was low and dangerous.

  “Are you drunk?” She sat up and leaned against the headboard pushing the mass of unruly hair from her face.

  “Drunk? No.”

  “What are you doing in my bedroom, my lord? How did you get in here?”

  He stood up so suddenly, she gasped and pulled the sheet up around her neck. In two steps, he’d crossed the room and loomed over her bed.

  “Why don’t you scream?” he asked.

  “I…I am not afraid of you, my lord.” She could have kicked herself for showing any sign of fear.

  “You should be.” He touched her cheek so lightly she might have dreamt it.

  The touch sent a bolt of lightning directly between her legs. Belinda shifted uncomfortably. “Gabriel, what do you want?”

  He sat down on the edge of her bed and put his head in his hands. “What do I want?”

  Oh, how she wanted to reach out and comfort him, but she held back waiting to hear him explain.

  “I want what I lost. I want four years of my life back. I want a wife who has kept herself pure while I was away risking my life for our country.” He narrowed his gaze on her.

  She had never seen such pure anger from him before, and for the first time she feared him just a little. She shook her head. This was Gabriel. He would never hurt her. Pushing aside her covers, she moved to sit next to him on the bed. “You cannot regain the past, my lord. Those four years are gone forever.”

  “They are with me still.” His eyes darkened, a crease formed between them, and he looked away.

  His words stirred an ache deep in her chest.

  “I’m sorry.” She touched his arm, truly sad for whatever horror he was reliving.

  He gripped her hand. “And the other, Belinda?”

  “I do not know what you mean.”

  “Do not toy with me.” Low and soft, danger dripped from his words. He released her.

  Had so much time passed that she truly did not know the man with whom she’d grown up? She did not fear for her life, but suddenly he’d become unpredictable.

  Sitting up straight, she looked him directly in the eye. “If you are asking if I have ruined myself, then the answer is that I have not.”

  The surprise in his eyes jabbed painfully in her heart. He actually believed that she would let men use her body.

  She wanted his lack of faith in her not to hurt, but it did, and she had to will her sorrow away before he saw it. She stood up and plucked her robe from the end of the bed. “No need to look so surprised, my lord.”

  “Where were you this evening?” His fist pounded on the mattress.

  “I have already told you.”

  “Yes, but you lied, Bella. I have known you most of my life and I know when you are lying.”

  “I asked you not to call me that.” The view out the window afforded nothing but the dark gardens below.

  She had not heard him move, but his skin radiated so much heat, she became aware of his presence directly behind her. It permeated through his clothes, her robe, and chemise.

  He exuded masculinity. He had not touched her, but she sensed him just the same. “Bella.”

  In spite of her need to keep herself apart from him, her stomach clenched and moisture built between her legs. Her skin hummed with need and she wanted him to touch her. No, you have to get away from him. You have to protect him.

  She turned into him with every intentions of giving him a scolding for calling her Bella again but found herself wrapped in his arms. She kept her fisted hands pressed against her body. Still, the thrashing she intended for him, died on her lips. “Someone will hear you, Gabriel. You must go.”

  When he looked down into her eyes, rage had transformed into desire, but also sorrow. “I do not want to go, Bella. I want you. I spent most of the last four years between hellish battlefields and a French prison, dreaming of the moment that you would be back in my arms.”

  “Prison?”

  “I expected to come home and find you overjoyed to see me, but instead I found you changed. I do not know what has happened, but I intend to have you as my wife. I will not waver on this, Belinda.”

  Moving her hands to his chest, she pressed. He did not give way. Unless she was willing to harm him, she was trapped.

  “I am no longer certain that it is what I want.” She turned her head away from his mesmerizing stare.

  “I must try to change your mind back in my favor then.” He dipped his head and touched his lips to the sensitive skin where her neck met her shoulder.

  She couldn’t stop the moan from escaping.

  He traced his tongue along the side of her neck.

  A pleasant shiver ran down her back and her skin warmed. “Gabriel, someone will hear.”

  “Your father is in Scotland, and your mother is asleep on the other side of the house. Her ladyship has probably drunk herself into a very sound slumber, and we shall not be disturbed by your lady’s maid for several hours at least.”

  She pushed harder against his chest. This time he did give way. “You have thought this through.”

  Her stomach twisted and her heart pounded with either fear or anticipation. She didn’t care for either one replacing good sense.

  He didn’t respond, just watched her, and his gaze was part caress, part invasion. “Did you come here for the sole purpose of ruining me?”

  Finally, he closed those arresting eyes. “In all fairness, I thought you already a woman of less than stellar reputation.”

  “And now?”

  “You have said that you are a virgin, and I believe you. As I said, after all these years, I know when you are lying to me.” He strode toward her.

  She backed away until her knees pressed against the bed. “Yet you still intend to rape me?”

  “Rape? No. I will do nothing that you do not allow, Bella. I want you. I intend to have you either tonight or another night, but I will never hurt you.” He advanced until he pressed up against her, and she had nowhere to run.

  “I want you to leave.” Hollow words, but it was worth a try.

  His mouth curled up. His hand skimmed across the top of her chemise where the robe had fallen open. “Do you?”

  His touch was as light as a feather, but it cascaded down to her toes and caused a mewing sound to escape her lips.

  “Yes, I want you to go, Gabriel.” In her head, she cursed herself for not sounding more assertive. She sounded as if she was begging him to stay rather than demanding he go.

  To her surprise, he took a step back.

  She stood up straighter and met his gaze. A hint of disappointment ebbed through her body, but her mind sighed with relief. “Thank you.”

  “Do not thank me yet, Bella. I’m not leaving. I will make you a deal. I want you to let me touch you for ten full minutes without any protest from you. I promise at the end, you will still be a virgin. After the ten minutes, if you still wish for me to leave, I will go. I will not promise that I will stop my pursuit, but I will leave you for the night.”

  “Do I have a choice?” she asked.
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  “No.” His lips grazed her ear. “But I promise you will not be sorry, my love. Even if you choose to send me home in ten minutes, I will be the only one leaving this night wanting for release.”

  Shivers ran up her spine. Damn him. She cursed her body for desiring him. There was no sense in answering since he would take his ten minutes regardless. Briefly, she considered the pistol nestled in her bedside drawer or the knife tucked into a clever holder behind her headboard. She needed neither, but it didn’t matter. She couldn’t harm Gabriel.

  A slow, sultry smile spread across his handsome face.

  Excitement bloomed in her abdomen.

  He lifted her and eased her onto the bed. Covering her, his heavy chest pressed against hers as if he were a pleasure blanket.

  Though she remained a virgin, the last four years had taught her quite a lot about the mating act. She had seen things in London’s bowels very few young ladies of the ton would ever dream of, so it was no surprise when his hard shaft pressed against her middle.

  He moved forward, rubbed himself against her and pressed his thigh between her legs.

  Her heart raced.

  He moaned and closed his eyes. His strained expression, the crease of his brow and shortened breath, warmed her from the inside.

  Her body ached at the sight of his arousal. She raised her hips, and he moaned again. So much power flowed through her. With every moan from his lips, her skin vibrated wanting more.

  Her breath caught on the jolt of pleasure. I need to stop him, send him home. She clung to his shoulders pulling him closer, lifting her hips higher.

  More.

  His eyes snapped open. He rolled to her side. “Too fast, Bella.”

  Immediately, she missed his weight on top of her. Stay focused. Do not get caught up in his web.

  He untied the ribbon on her robe and pushed both sides apart. His hand, tanned to a honey brown, skimmed over her cotton chemise.

  Everywhere he touched burned and she wanted more.

  He removed her robe and chemise quickly, leaving her completely bared to his watchful eyes.

  She had been raised a lady. Every instinct told her to grab a sheet and cover herself. But she really didn’t want to. Her body ached for more and if she allowed him, he would give her what she yearned for. Aroused and womanly, she grasped for control. But like a petal in a windstorm, it was impossible to find balance.