PRAISE FOR EARL JAVORSKY’S FIRST NOVEL DOWN SOLO:
“Earl Javorsky’s bold and unusual Down Solo blends the mysterious and the supernatural boldly and successfully. The novel is strong and haunting, a wonderful debut.”
– T. Jefferson Parker, New York Times bestselling author of Full Measure and The Famous and the Dead
“Awesome.”
– James Frey, New York Times bestselling author
“Don’t miss Earl Javorsky’s Down Solo. It’s kick-ass, man. Excellent writing. This guy is the real deal.”
– Dan Fante, author of the memoir Fante and the novel Point Doom
“Javorsky’s dark and gritty prose is leavened with just enough humor to make Down Solo a compelling story that will take readers to the outer limits of noir.”
– San Diego City Beat
“Javorksy’s writing reminded me of the Carl Hiaasen novels I’d read sprawled out on the deck on one sunny Florida vacation. Perfect entertainment, with the right amount of action to keep me alert (and to keep me from snoozing myself into a sunburned state). But there’s also a deeper layer in Down Solo, which left me thinking past the final page.”
– Bibliosmiles
TRUST ME
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EARL JAVORSKY
This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, organizations, or persons living or dead is entirely coincidental and beyond the intent of either the author or the publisher.
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This one’s dedicated to the ones who didn’t survive the ordeal
When he talks like this you don’t know what he’s after . . .
—Leonard Cohen, “The Stranger Song”
PROLOGUE
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How could it have come this far? She had sworn it would never happen again, and yet here she was, climbing the stairs into the open air at the top of the building. It was nighttime, cool, still, and starlit. She followed, hand trapped in his—if she could only find some strength, pull him down and watch him tumble to the landing, she could step over him and go home and forget.
She was here, she told herself, of her own free will. This would be the last time, and it would be easy to say so.
They stepped out onto the roof. He put his arm around her, nuzzled his face in her hair, and then led her toward the wall at the perimeter. He leaned her against it and moved up behind her, close, his face in her neck as she looked out over the blazing lights of Westwood. They were directly up two flights from her apartment, fourteen stories from street level. His arms crossed in front of her and his hands cupped her breasts under her robe.
How did this happen? I despise this person! Yet she shifted her shoulders to accommodate his embrace from behind. She had liked him once. With reservations, yes, but he had been so charming. He had helped her when, without even knowing it, she most needed help.
She felt his left hand slide down past her belly, grazing the soft hair with his fingertips. He placed his right foot between her feet, prompting her to set them farther apart. A finger curved and found its mark—she gasped and realized she was moist, betrayed by her own body as it reacted, as if in pleasure, in spite of her feelings.
Her hair was still wet from a bath. He liked her freshly bathed for these sessions. Our little times together, he called them. As if they were lovers, but without the love.
She concentrated on the rough texture of the stucco wall. He withdrew his hands and turned her around, then lifted her so that she sat on the wall. This is the last time, you son of a bitch.
Absentmindedly, she placed her hands on his shoulders as he parted her robe and bent to brush his lips high against the inside of her thigh.
The wall was narrow and uncomfortable to sit on. Behind her, LA’s affluent Westside stretched all the way to the ocean. It had all seemed so thrilling when he first brought her up here—the danger, the craziness of it—she had convulsed in orgasm before falling into the safety of his arms and weeping in relief.
Now she felt nothing, not even fear. Just an odd detachment, like staring out a window into the rain, or waiting in a long line at the market. Soon she would simulate an orgasm so that it could all be over.
There was a pressure at her stomach and she felt herself tilting backward. It happened so suddenly she lost hold of his shoulders, and now she felt the sharp points of the stucco scrape the backs of her calves.
Falling, she thought of her brother, Jeff, and the time he saved her life. They were teenagers, bodysurfing at Santa Monica Beach, and he plucked her out of the ocean after a wave tumbled her for so long she thought her feet would never find the sandy bottom.
Her last thought before she hit the ground was of the man on the roof. How clear, how perfectly clear, that everything they had done together had always pointed relentlessly toward this.
CHAPTER 1
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Jeffrey Fenner found out about his sister’s death while waiting for a plane to take him home.
By the time he arrived at San Francisco Airport it was almost midnight, and now he had to decide between a nearby hotel and the redeye special. He needed a drink but the airport lounge was closed. He opted for the flight back to LA. He bought his ticket and headed for the men’s room. Locked in a stall, he sat on the toilet seat and put his briefcase on his knees. There was over an hour to wait, plus forty minutes on the plane, then the taxi ride home meant another forty minutes—it all added up to at least a half-gram of coke required for the duration. He opened the briefcase and pulled out a bank deposit bag, inserted the key into the lock, and pulled the zipper. Inside were a variety of neatly labeled vials and plastic bags. He located the bag marked “personal” and the orange vial that said “Valium.” From the bag he pulled a flake of soapy white crystal the size of his thumbnail. Resealing the bag, he took out two Valiums, placing one in his mouth and the other in his pocket. He fished in his left shoe in the hollow of his arch and located a small amber glass vial. Using the vial, he mashed the piece of cocaine into powder and scooped it onto his driver’s license, which he then bent into a curve as he tapped the powder into the mouth of the vial. When the vial was full, he capped it and replaced it in his shoe. He transferred the rest of the coke on his license to the back of his left hand and lifted it to his nostril, inhaling sharply.
Refreshed, he closed up his briefcase, checked his nostrils in the mirror, and went back out to the lobby.
The lighting was grim and everything looked dingy. The people had an equally grim look, as though lost or sentenced to an endless purgatory for travelers. It occurred to him that he hadn’t eaten in a long time.
In the middle of the lounge was a fast food stand. He joined a line of ten or twelve people who stood, zombie-like and silent, waiting for a Middle Eastern-looking guy with a red-and-white striped cap and matching apron to microwave a new batch of chilidogs. The food loo
ked plastic, like the permanent display meals at a cheap chain restaurant.
He stared ahead and listened until the sounds around him merged into an abstract buzz. He looked forward to getting back home, although in fact he wouldn’t be going home; he had to stop by Rich’s place first and make a delivery. At least he could relax, have a drink, while they weighed product and did the math. Then he could finally go home and go to sleep. Sleep—he hadn’t slept in three days. Muscles in his leg twitched with exhaustion and toxins; he felt creaky and brittle, cranky, jumpy, and increasingly sour.
From the background of babble, one particular noise seemed to be demanding attention. It had a red flag on it, like a loud knock in the middle of the night.
“You are wanting something, sir? We have veddy good chilidog. You are wanting how many chilidog?” He found that he was at the counter, oblivious to how he had arrived there. In a moment of panic he realized his hands were empty; he looked down and saw his briefcase on the floor, locked between his ankles.
“Two.” He held up two fingers to verify. The guy handed him a pair of paper boats containing long lumps covered with something that looked like steaming dog food. Jeff paid, scooped up his briefcase, and turned away.
The food was ugly, but he was surprised at how good it smelled. He devoured both dogs, wolf-like, sitting in the row of hard plastic seats farthest from the other waiting passengers. Afterward, he headed back to the men’s room to wash his hands. It was large and very bright, but vacant, so he took a quick blast from the cap of the amber vial.
There was still some time to kill, so he pulled out his cell phone and thumbed Rich’s number.
“Hello?” Rich’s girlfriend answered on the first ring.
“Hey Lilah, it’s Jeff.” His voice echoed weirdly in the bathroom stall.
“Where are you? Rich waited, but he had to go out.”
“I’m at the airport in San Francisco. Things got a little hung up but I’ll be there by two thirty. Think Rich’ll be back?”
“I haven’t been able to reach him. Are you still coming by?” He pictured her, with her high cheekbones and pouty little mouth. Her crazy mess of hair. They had been friends for years, but someone else was always in the way.
He went to a concession stand and bought mints and a paper, then went to sit by the terminal at Gate 5, where Southwest Airline Flight #3714 would be leaving for Los Angeles at 12:10 a.m.
It was in the Metro section of the LA Times:
SUICIDE IN WESTWOOD
Twenty-eight-year-old Marilyn Fenner, a research assistant at UCLA, was found dead Monday morning, apparently after jumping from her twelfth-floor balcony.
Shit, he thought, no way.
CHAPTER 2
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Holly Barnes sat on the edge of her bed and watched Tony as he dressed.
She had come home from an audition—a small production of Speed the Plow, but a great part—and found her apartment meticulously clean. The screen door to the balcony slid properly in its tracks, the spots of mold were gone from the shower ceiling, and fresh gladiolas in a vase accented a beautifully prepared meal on the kitchen table.
They had made love afterward. It had been quick but spectacular, and now, looking at him, she found herself thinking that there was still hope here, that he really was a decent person, that mistakes had been made but perhaps they could both learn from them and move forward together.
“So, you got a meeting tonight?” Tony brushed his hair, long and jet black, his back slightly arched because he was too tall for the mirror. He wore tight, faded jeans with an old silk aloha shirt and scuffed eel skin boots, but his dark and chiseled features made her think of the leading-man type of an earlier era.
“Yeah, over on Franklin. Where are you playing?” Tony played bass in a band. They played the best showcase spots in town, had a good following, and had just finished recording a demo.
“Some weird pub called The Club Foote off Highland somewhere. Used to be a punk-rock dive, Hal’s Bar or something like that. We’ll be done early. Want to see me?”
She didn’t want to see him again that night. Seeing Tony after a gig meant staying up until nearly dawn while he paced and talked off the manic energy that always came with an hour in the spotlight. They would finally make love, but she would be angry, knowing that she would be underslept and off balance the next day.
“Call me. If you get the machine it means I’m sleeping.” She smiled and kissed him, realizing that she was stepping on thin ice.
“Oh well, yeah, who knows what’ll come up,” he said. “You better get your beauty sleep.” What he meant was that if she didn’t invite him over he was free game for any bimbo at the club that met his criteria—a sliding scale of standards that dropped a notch each hour after midnight and two notches per shot of Wild Turkey. The thought sickened her, but she would deal with that at the meeting tonight.
“Maybe tomorrow night. Anyway, knock ’em dead,” she told him, and kissed him lightly on the lips, while with her right palm at his chest she held him at a distance. Just like that, she thought, in the space of two minutes, and I hate him again.
She watched him go out the door and waited until he was halfway to the drive before closing it, as though she wasn’t quite safe until he had gone some minimum distance. Now she felt like she owned her own space again, not having to walk on eggshells for fear of offending Tony.
She turned on some music and, whistling along to the first song, shed the oversize tee shirt she had been wearing and headed for the shower, thinking about how they didn’t even share a taste in music.
CHAPTER 3
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Once the plane took off, Jeff tilted his seat back and closed his eyes. The cabin was dark, lit only by the scattered reading lights of a few of the passengers. He was grateful to have a row to himself. At liftoff he had pulled out the amber vial, felt the powder hit high in his sinuses, helping him breath and think clearly again.
Okay—so, it didn’t make any sense, his straight-arrow sister taking a dive from her balcony. He knew he was a fuck-up; his life was certainly swirling in the bowl at the moment, but Marilyn had it all going for her. He glanced back at the paper. They had her name right, her age, her job, and yes, she lived on the goddamned twelfth floor, but something was wrong somewhere; he just couldn’t find it yet. He was too burnt out to even think about it.
There was a time when he was the protective big brother, three years Marilyn’s senior and always there to comfort her when their parents flipped out, a job fell through, or a boyfriend left. Then Marilyn stabilized, made it through college, and found work she loved, while he floundered as a photographer at the edge of the entertainment industry and drifted more and more into the drug world.
Years before, he had made a bundle in the LSD trade. He took Marilyn to Hawaii once and his parents to San Francisco for a weekend, making up a convenient story about his affluence. He had lost it all since then; the ride had gotten dark and rocky as he floundered in the cocaine business. Now he had a chance to start over. He had located his long lost San Francisco connection, contacted his old distributors, and borrowed money from Rich to invest in a batch of the best LSD available. There was a resurgence of psychedelic drug use throughout the country. On a wing and a prayer, this could launch him back to the way things used to be, erasing a thousand mistakes as he rebuilt his little world. He put the newspaper on the empty seat next to him and willed his sister out of his mind.
He thought about Lilah as he endured the cab ride to Rich’s Brentwood apartment. She was the kind of girl every man wanted to have but no one wanted to have around. She flirted openly with Jeff, but it seemed to him she was like that with every male.
Before going up to the apartment he went to the underground parking and located his car. He opened it and groped under the passenger seat, grabbed a paper sack, and locked up again. He carried, besides
his briefcase, another half-pound of coke, twenty-six-and-a-half thousand dollars, and a Walther 9mm. It was spooky in the garage; he didn’t see anyone but it felt like there were people there. Things were on the verge, he thought, of flying apart. He needed a drink and some sleep badly.
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The door opened just as he was about to knock. Lilah stood in the doorway dressed in a silk robe that hung loosely open, exposing most of her breasts. He stared, standing in the hallway at two forty-five in the morning with his briefcase and his gun, at this beautiful girl and had the insane wish that Rich was far away.
Lilah presented her cheek for him to kiss. She turned at the last moment so that their lips brushed and then stepped back to let him in the apartment.
He took the briefcase and the bag into the first of the two bedrooms down the hallway. This room had just been vacated by Rich’s roommate Doug, a drunk who couldn’t make the rent. It was now empty except for a single bed and a Dial-O-Gram scientific scale on a shelf in the closet. The air was thick with the humidity of an August heat wave. He set the briefcase and the bag next to the scale. He would deal with it all later.
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Lilah poured him a big glass of Chivas on some ice, and now they were settled on the living room couch. She lounged across from him, smoking a cigarette.
“Rich called. He says he’s on a boat somewhere out of Marina Del Rey, doing business. He’ll be back tomorrow or something.”
He poured a little pile from the amber vial onto the glass table and divided it into neat lines with a credit card. They used a short piece of a straw and Lilah put the residue on her finger and stuck it in her mouth. She pooched her lips and sucked in her cheeks. He pictured her on the cover of Cosmopolitan magazine.
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