Defying Asher (Knight Security 1)

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by Carole Mortimer


  He also knew she hadn’t been completely wrong about him. Okay, so there hadn’t been another woman in his life he was cheating on, but up to then, he had definitely been a player, a love ’em and leave ’em type. A man who walked away in the morning and never gave the woman he had spent the previous night with another thought.

  Would he and Lissa have seen each other again after that one night together?

  Ash had no answer to that question.

  The man he was now wasn’t the man he had been a year ago.

  Maybe it was because Lissa had been the one to walk away from him that he had never been able to forget her. To stop wanting her. To want to be with her. To need to make love with and to her again.

  That night with Lissa, and having her walk away from him afterwards, had been the start of the changes in him. For the better. He hoped Lissa would think so too.

  Now it was his turn to choose his words carefully. “You were right to walk away from me a year ago, Lissa. I wasn’t…I wouldn’t have been good for you. Would only have hurt you if we had tried to stay together.”

  Lissa felt as if a knife had pierced her chest and ripped into her heart. Shattering it. Leaving her broken. Totally exposed.

  “I still shouldn’t have misjudged you. I’m so sorry I did.”

  “You didn’t misjudge me. I was a selfish bastard a year ago,” he added in answer to her questioning glance. “Totally incapable of appreciating you. Of caring for you in the way you deserve.” He gave a self-derisive shake of his head. “You were a first for me. The first woman ever to walk away from me rather than me walking away from them.”

  Lissa drew in a shaky breath. “Maybe I should go—”

  “I said I was a selfish bastard.” One of his hands moved to grasp both of hers. “Past tense,” he added gently as she looked at him. “There’s been no one else for me this past year, Lissa—well, apart from a woman in Puerto Rico, but that doesn’t count because I didn’t— Oh, shut the fuck up, Ash,” he admonished himself impatiently. “There’s been no one else, Lissa,” he repeated firmly.

  She moistened her lips with the tip of her tongue. “No one?”

  “No. Funny thing is, I didn’t even realize it until I saw you again a few days ago,” he added ruefully. “One conversation with you and my frozen libido surged back into painful life. I’ve been in a state of arousal ever since.”

  “Must be uncomfortable,” she attempted to tease, still not sure what Asher was telling her.

  He gave a grin. “Feels fucking great, actually.” He stretched that magnificent body unashamedly revealing the bulge in his jeans. “This is because of you, Lissa.” He placed her hand on his swollen erection. “Only for you,” he added seriously. “Somewhere, somehow, in the past year, I’ve become a one-woman man.”

  Her eyes widened. “Me?”

  “You.” Asher held her gaze unblinkingly as he now held both her hands in his much larger ones.

  “I’ve made so many mistakes.” More hot tears fell down her cheeks. “It was easier for me to believe those things about you last year. It meant I had an excuse not to care. Not to become involved. Allowed me to walk away. To tell myself you were another womanizer, like my ex-fiancé.”

  “I wish you’d told me about him.”

  Lissa grimaced. “There has never really been a lot of time for conversation between us.”

  “True.”

  She chewed on her bottom lip. “You asked me if anyone else had ever mattered to me. Any of the other men I’ve had in my life.” She looked down at her hands. “There haven’t been any other men. Just Adam—my fiancé. And you.”

  Asher placed his fingers beneath her chin and turned her face up toward his. “No other men?”

  “Cheating fiancé. One one-night stand.” She shrugged. “Not much of a résumé.”

  “Let’s not forget your fucked-up family,” Asher reminded her. “Or mine.” He grimaced. “According to Caleb’s shrink—long story I’d rather not go into right now,” he dismissed at her concerned expression. “According to her, the Knight brothers losing their mother at a crucial time in their lives rendered us all incapable of love and commitment until much later in life than most other men. Apparently, it’s usual for men to reach that point in their lives in their mid to late twenties.”

  “That seems rather a sweeping statement…”

  “Well, she was only talking about Caleb at the time, but he passed it on to me earlier, said it applied to all of us. It made a lot of sense.”

  “It did?”

  “Mm. Remember how I reacted when you said you hadn’t realized I was domesticated?”

  “Oh yes,” she confirmed with feeling.

  “You were witnessing the last death throes of a man who wasn’t yet ready to admit when he was beaten, let alone loving every moment of it. Loving you,” he added gruffly as he raised one of her hands to his lips and kissed her knuckles.

  Lissa’s eyes widened. “You love me…?” Asher couldn’t really be saying these words to her. Could he?

  “Oh yeah.” He smiled. “You’re prickly as hell, never listen to reason, and have a stubborn streak a mile wide. But you’re also warm and funny, kind and caring, and you happen to be the woman I love to distraction. Oh hell, please don’t cry again.” He put his glass down next to hers to take her in his arms. “I love you, Lissa. I love you so damned much.”

  “I love you too.” She clung to him, her face buried against his chest. “I think I fell in love with you that first night. Half of me was glad to have a reason to walk out on you, to shut those feelings down and tell myself you were a selfish two-timing bastard. I wanted it to be true. As soon as I saw you again last Friday, all those barriers I had built up around my heart came crashing down. I felt raw, exposed, and hit out in the only way I knew how. By being insulting to you every chance I had.”

  “I noticed.”

  “But you stuck around anyway.”

  “Couldn’t stay away,” he murmured against her hair. “You are so lovely, Lissa. Fiery. Passionate.” He moved back slightly to look at her. “I want that, Lissa. I want all of it. To possess all of you. Just for me.”

  She gave a teary smile. “I’ve been yours since the moment we met in that restaurant a year ago.”

  “Still think I’m an asshole?”

  “Yes. But now you’re my asshole. Aren’t you?” She gazed at him uncertainly.

  “Completely and utterly,” he assured unreservedly. “Till death do us part. If you’ll have me?”

  She swallowed, her mouth suddenly dry. “You want to marry me?”

  He nodded. “And I want you to want to marry me. Will you?” He looked anxious. “I’m going to fuck up again, we both know that. I’ll make mistakes—” He broke off as Lissa placed her fingertips against his lips.

  “We’ll both make mistakes,” she assured him huskily. “It’s who we both are.”

  “But as long as we keep loving each other, trusting each other, in each other, those mistakes will get less and less,” he promised as he gazed into her eyes. “Marry me. Please.”

  “God, yes…” Lissa threw herself into Asher’s arms, knowing it was where she wanted to be for the rest of her life.

  No longer defying Asher but loving and being loved by him.

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  About The Author

  Carole Mortimer is the author of over 210 novels, contemporary and Regency romance. She is a USA Today Bestselling Author. Recipient of the 2015 RWA Lifetime Achievement Award. Received the 2014 Pioneer for Romance Romantic Times Award. Entertainment
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  She is happily married to Peter. They have 6 sons, and live on the beautiful Isle of Man. She also loves to hear from Readers!

  Other books by Carole Mortimer

  Knight Security Series:

  Alexandre (Knight Security 0.5) anthology Royals & Rogues

  Defying Asher (Knight Security 1)

  Challenging Gabriel (Knight Security 2) – September 2016

  More to come in this series.

  ALPHA series:

  Christmas Alpha (Alpha 1)

  Dark Alpha (Alpha 2)

  Shadow Alpha (Alpha 3)

  Midnight Alpha (Alpha 4)

  Renegade Alpha (Alpha 5)

  Warrior Alpha (Alpha 6)

  Rogue Alpha (Alpha 7)

  Savage Alpha (Alpha 8)

  Series now complete.

  Regency Unlaced Series:

  The Duke’s Mistress (Regency Unlaced 1)

  Claimed by the Marquis (Regency Unlaced 2)

  Taken by the Earl (Regency Unlaced 3)

  Pursued by the Marquis (Regency Unlaced 4)

  Desired by a Lord (Regency Unlaced 5) – July 2016

  Captured by a Gentleman (Regency Unlaced 6) – August 2016

  More to come in this series.

  Table of Contents

  Title Page

  Copyright

  Dedications

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

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  About The Author

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