by Emily Bishop
“You’re right. I married her to protect her, not to hide her or smother her. She deserves to be famous, Gil. She deserves to make her dream come true. I can’t stop her. I don’t want to. I’ll just have to keep her safe while she’s doing it.”
“He owns a music label, though, right? That means Sabrina will be within Vince’s reach.”
“I know. She signed a contract with him, too, so he might come out with that.”
Gil makes a disapproving sound with his tongue.
“But if he does, I’m prepared to sue him. He won’t get Sabrina back. Just let him try.” I clench my fists. “I won’t even let him get near her.”
“Scary.” Gil drinks some more water.
I don’t care. I will crush anyone who tries to hurt her.
“On another topic, are you going to the party this evening?” Gil asks.
I pause. There’s a party this evening?
“You know, the one NASA executives are throwing to raise funds for their latest project.”
“Oh.”
Tess did mention something like that.
“You going?”
I shrug.
“Why don’t you go and bring Sabrina?”
Come to think of it, that’s a good idea. If I’m with Sabrina, I might actually enjoy the evening. And she might, too. She’ll get more exposure. Plus, I’m sure security will be top-notch at the party so she won’t be in any danger.
“Well?” Gil asks.
I stand up, stretching my arms. “You know what? I think I’ll ask her.”
***
“You want me to go to a party with you?” Sabrina looks at me with wide eyes, her hands still on the game controller, the game she and David are playing paused on the screen.
I nod. “I know you don’t like parties but neither do I, so maybe, together, we can actually have fun at this one?”
She falls silent as she touches her chin, thinking.
“Can I come, too?” David asks.
“Sorry, David, but no kids allowed at this party. Besides, you have school tomorrow.”
David frowns.
“Isn’t this one of the parties full of rich people, though?” Sabrina asks. “I’m not sure I’ll fit in.”
“Well, you better start getting used to it because when you become a star, you’ll have to attend a few parties,” I tell her.
“But what if Vince is there?”
I haven’t thought of that.
“Who’s Vince?” David asks.
“No one,” I tell him.
I go to Sabrina, placing a hand on her shoulder. “I don’t think he’ll be there, but if he is, he’ll regret it.”
Sabrina frowns. “I don’t want you causing a scandal.”
“All right, I won’t touch him unless he touches you. I’m sure he won’t want to cause a scandal either.”
Sabrina shakes her head. “I don’t like the sound of it.”
“Hey.” I grab her hand. “You said you didn’t want to live in fear anymore, right? If you become famous, and you will, you have to go to parties. Vince could be at any of them. Does that mean you won’t go just because you might run into him? If he isn’t there, good. If he is, you don’t have to be afraid. I’ll be with you. And if you can’t face him now, you never will.”
For a moment, she’s silent. Then she nods.
“All right, I’ll go.”
I smile.
“But what will I wear?”
Party
Sabrina
I hold my breath as I enter the Space Center, gripping Randall’s hand tightly with one hand and the other holding the skirt of my glittering pink gown so I don’t step on it. I would have sewn the hem but I didn’t have the time. I barely had time to pick a gown as it was, not to mention time to bring my hair back to the golden shade it used to be and to have it styled.
I wanted to make a good first impression at my first high-end party, after all.
I can’t tell if I’m succeeding. I can see heads turning. I can feel gazes on me, from men and women. I can’t tell what they’re thinking, though.
Why are they staring? Don’t they know it’s rude to stare? Is it because they’ve never seen me before? Is it because, on the contrary, they’ve seen my YouTube video, which I still can’t believe exists? Is it because of my gown? Did I pick the wrong one? It is quite simple, plain pink with a fairly modest Queen Anne neckline. Or is it because I’m with Randall?
Strange. Randall said he didn’t like these parties but he seems comfortable. He’s even smiling at some of the guests.
“Liar,” I whisper to him. “You seem to be loving the party.”
“That’s because I’m with you,” he says, turning his head to look at me. “I’m with the most beautiful, talented woman in the room.”
I snort but blush. “You just brought me to show me off, didn’t you?”
“Of course,” Randall confesses. “Consider it a marketing strategy. Soon, you’ll have your own album and these people may remember seeing you here, and they might just become curious enough to buy a copy.”
“These people? Buy my album?” I raise an eyebrow. “I’m sure they only listen to live music played by orchestras like this one.”
“You’d be surprised,” he tells me. “Some of these people might even listen to Justin Bieber and Carly Rae Jepsen in their limousines.”
I chuckle. Really? These people who look like they only eat food prepared by Michelin-starred chefs and don’t wear the same outfit twice?
As I look around, I keep an eye out for Vince. What Randall said was right. I mustn’t skip these parties just because I might meet him. If I do, I might as well hide under a rock.
No. I won’t do that. If he’s here, then I’ll just have to face him with my chin held high and my shoulders straight.
That doesn’t mean I’m not afraid, though.
“It will be all right,” Randall tells me as if he’s just read my mind, touching my hand. “I’m here and I’m never going to leave your side.”
I nod, trusting him.
“Well, well, look who showed up tonight,” a familiar voice calls my attention.
Turning my head, I smile at Gil. “I didn’t know you’d be here, too.”
“Randall didn’t tell you?” Gil narrows his eyes at Randall. “I was the one who actually suggested that he bring you along.”
“Really?” I look at Randall for confirmation but he gives none.
“Maybe he wants you all for himself, and I don’t blame him,” Gil says, smiling at me. “You look stunning.”
I blush. “Thank you.”
“And sparkling, too, just like the star Randall says you will be.”
I look down. “Oh, I don’t know about that. I don’t want to be a star, really. I just want to sing.”
“As you should. I watched your video, and I fell in love with you.”
Randall clears his throat.
“I mean your voice, as I’m sure many have. When your album comes out, I’ll buy a thousand copies.”
“A thousand?” I give him a look of surprise.
“I told you the guests here would buy copies,” Randall whispers to me.
Yes, he did. But a thousand?
“Come.” Randall holds my hand. “Let me introduce you to some of the other guests.”
***
An hour later, I’ve lost track of all the guests I’ve met. I know someone was the head of something at NASA, one was an astronaut, one was a Senator’s brother. One woman, who was the wife of some CEO, said she had seen my video. I can’t remember all their names, much less match the name to the face to the title.
There are just too many of them.
“How do you remember who’s who?” I ask Randall as I take a sip from my second glass of champagne.
“I don’t,” Randall confesses, drinking from his own glass. “If you noticed, I only introduced you to someone and that person introduced you to someone else and… well, you get the idea.”
“So, you just need to know one person?”
“You need to know the right person,” Randall answers.
“Mr. and Mrs. Brewster, am I correct?” a voice interrupts us.
I tense. It’s a familiar voice, too, but it isn’t Gil’s.
It’s the voice of the person I’ve been dreading to see.
Vince. I had a feeling he was going to appear tonight.
I take a deep breath, straightening my shoulders before turning around to face him.
“Yes, you’re correct,” I say, gripping Randall’s arm as I stick out my chin.
“And you are?” Randall asks.
“Vincent Lestair.”
I feel Randall’s body tense, too. He’s angry. I can feel it.
He reminds me of a wolf who has just seen his prey, ready to pounce, fangs bared and hocks raised.
I squeeze his arm.
Easy, boy.
“Never heard of the name,” Randall says, calming down a little but with his jaw still clenched.
“Really?” Vince’s brows furrow. “Surely, Mrs. Brewster has mentioned it.” He looks at me. “It is Mrs. Brewster, isn’t it?”
“She already said it was,” Randall says.
“Sorry,” Vince says. “It’s just that I find her very familiar, almost like someone who was very dear to me.”
My heart pounds.
“I’m sure you’re mistaken,” I tell him, hanging on to my composure.
Like Randall said, if I can’t face him here, I won’t be able to face him anywhere.
“Funny.” Vince’s gaze goes down my dress, and I suppress a shudder. “You look exactly like her. Same eyes. Same—”
“She said you were mistaken,” Randall cuts him off.
“Of course,” Vince says. “My mistake. Everyone makes mistakes, you know. Even me.”
What is he trying to say?
“Careful,” Randall warns as he swirls the golden liquid around in his glass. “Some mistakes have a price. A very steep price.”
“Yes.” Vince doesn’t flinch. “I’m sure now that it isn’t her. After all, the woman I knew could speak for herself and stand up for herself.” He glances at me. “She wouldn’t hide behind her husband.”
Is that a challenge?
“I don’t appreciate you insulting my wife, Mr. Lestair,” Randall tells him.
“Oh, no insult meant.” Vince laughs it off. “Maybe she just looks familiar because she looks like someone I’ve seen on the Internet recently.”
He saw the video?
“Or was that you?”
“Yes, it’s me,” I answer. “I’ve always wanted to be a singer, you see. Someone tried to take that dream away from me but he didn’t succeed. And now, I’m going to make it come true no matter what.”
Vince grins. “How admirable.”
“If I ever see that bastard again, I swear I’ll crush him to bits,” Randall threatens. “And I’ll do the same to anyone who dares stand in the way of her dream again.”
“You do seem like you could crush a boulder.”
“Yes,” Randall agrees. “A person—no, a monster—especially someone who takes advantage of innocent, young women and hurts them, would be relatively easy.”
Vince still projects an image of composure. “Careful, Mr. Brewster. Force doesn’t always get you what you want.”
“I always get what I want,” Randall says. “And I don’t have to resort to locking people up and beating them. Only cowards and sniveling little boys who haven’t grown balls yet do that.”
Vince’s jaw clenches. Ah, it seems he’s at the end of his patience.
“I will get back what is rightfully mine, Mr. Brewster,” he warns.
The words send a chill up my spine.
“Rightfully?” Randall arches an eyebrow. “Forgive me, Mr. Lestair, but I don’t see anything here that is rightfully yours, ever was or ever will be.”
Vince’s nostrils flare. “We’ll see about that.” He glares at me and then turns on his heel and leaves, heading toward the exit.
I wait until he’s out of sight, then let go of the breath I’ve been holding as well as Randall’s arm.
“Sabrina?” Randall stands in front of me. “Are you all right?”
I nod, finishing the rest of my champagne in one gulp and then setting the empty glass down on a passing waiter’s tray.
“I just…” I place a hand over my chest in an effort to slow down my still pounding heart. “I think I need to go to the restroom for a bit.”
“Go, then. I’ll go and make sure that bastard leaves.”
I go to the restroom, heading straight into an empty cubicle. After locking the door, I sit on the toilet, sucking air into my lungs as I calm myself down.
Breathe, Sabrina. It’s over.
Right. Vince is gone. Randall scared him away.
If not for Randall, I don’t know what I would have done. I probably would have bolted or collapsed.
I wasn’t sure if I was really able to face him but at least I didn’t break down and cry in front of him. I was even able to resist the urge to slap his face. I should be proud of myself.
So be proud, Sabrina.
Eventually, I feel my heart slow down, my breathing even out. I take one more deep breath and then get out of the cubicle, going over to the sink so I can check how I look in the mirror.
“You look like you’ve seen a ghost.”
I jump, startled by the voice.
“What? It’s just me.” Helena stands beside me, putting her purse down near the sink and fixing her hair as she stares at her reflection in the mirror.
Another person I don’t want to see. I almost ask what she’s doing here but I realize she was probably invited, too. Or maybe her husband was. At any rate, she has more reason to be at parties like this than I do.
I should never have come. It was great at first, but now, there are just too many people.
“I have to go.” I turn to leave but she grabs my arm.
Now, what? What does she want from me?
“Randall is waiting,” I tell her.
“My brother can wait. You can always tell him that you combed your hair or retouched your makeup.” She hands me a tube of mascara from her purse. “Men won’t mind. They like their women always pretty, and they understand how long that takes.”
I look at the black tube. “No, thanks.”
“Your lashes would look better,” she says, applying a fresh layer of lipstick and smacking her lips. “And you’ll have a reason not to cry.”
I narrow my eyes suspiciously. “Why would I cry?”
“Because you’re stupid enough to fall in love with my brother. You know he doesn’t love you back, right?”
“Excuse me?” I face her squarely.
I was able to stand my ground against Vince. I can do the same with Randall’s sister.
Helena ignores me, applying her lip gloss. “He hasn’t told you he loves you, has he?”
I place a hand on my hip. “How would you know?”
She chuckles. “I know my own brother, I think.”
“No, you don’t.”
She puts her lip gloss back in her purse and picks up the mascara that I refused, applying it. “You know, when I first met you, I couldn’t understand what Randall saw in you. Then I saw your abusive ex just now and I understood.”
“My what?”
“Your abusive ex.” She turns to me. “I saw you and Randall talking to him. I saw how scared you were and how angry he was. I saw how that man looked at you. I just knew right away that he’s your abusive ex. Am I wrong?”
Unfortunately, she’s right. Even so…
“You don’t know anything, Helena, so stay out of it.”
“Ooh. Is that a warning?” She goes back to applying her mascara. “Are you feeling brave now?”
I suddenly wish I had Zombie with me.
“I know more than you do, darling.” She bends over the sink as she examines her eyelas
hes. “I know that Randall is just protecting you and you’re just using him.”
“I’m not using him,” I argue.
“Not anymore, but it started out that way. Sadly, you fell in love with him, mistaking his protective instinct for love.”
“It’s only normal for a person to want to protect the person he loves,” I point out.
“Yes, that’s true.” She puts her tube of mascara back in her purse. “But tell me, Sabrina, what came first? The love or the protective instinct?”
I don’t answer.
“If it’s the latter, how can you be sure that there is love and not just that instinct?”
I sigh. “You know, Helena, I’m tired. I’m leaving.”
I start walking away.
“Do you know that he didn’t love his first wife, either?”
I stop. “What?”
“Don’t you find it strange that he doesn’t talk much about her?”
I face Helena. “It’s not strange. Randall loved his wife so it hurts to talk about her. How can you say he didn’t love her when she was the mother of his child?”
She combs her hair. “Are you saying all husbands love the mother of their children?”
“No, but—”
“Did Randall tell you how he met her? How she died?”
“No, but I’m pretty sure he’ll tell me when—”
“Dinah was a chambermaid at a hotel,” Helena narrates as she continues to comb her hair. “One of the guests was trying to force himself on her and Randall rescued her. The guest was a rich man. He complained. Dinah got fired. Randall took her in. He took care of her and then he got her pregnant.”
I want to leave but my feet won’t move, my ears eager to hear the rest of the story. He told me that the story of how they met wasn’t special, I think.
“Of course, Randall married her after.”
Now I know why Helena asked me if I was pregnant.
“And they were happy for a while but, like all married couples, they started fighting. I don’t know exactly what they fought about but, when Dinah was in her final trimester, they had a really big fight. She left the house and she ended up getting hit by a car. Her baby survived but she didn’t. Randall blamed himself for her death. I think he still does.”