Needing You

by T. Renee Fike

  “Okay, so how about we meet up for lunch every day this week, and we hang out Saturday before you go to work?” he asks hopeful.

  “Sounds like a plan!” I tell him happily.

  “Good!” he says with his sexy smile. Damn I want to kiss this boy again.

  After lunch he walks me to class and heads to his own.

  Today is a good day. It sucks I won’t see Tucker all week except for lunch, but I guess it’s probably a good thing.

  Chapter 21

  I haven’t seen Tuck much at all during the week because our schedules don’t work out together and things came up, so we end up only meeting one time for lunch. Friday night at PowerTrips is nice and busy and I still found time to talk to Natalie a little more, it’s nice to see we are friends. She’s opening up to me and telling me a little about her situation, but nothing in too much detail. I can tell she has a lot going on, but I didn’t want to pry, so I don’t.

  I’m looking forward to seeing Tucker tomorrow, but we never discussed a time. I’m thinking maybe I should purchase a phone, that way I can at least text or call a few people if I need to.

  After work Natalie gives me a ride home and I head into my apartment for a quiet night. I am pretty wide-awake, but tired at the same time. Too bad for me, I know sleep won’t be coming easy. So I shower and decide to watch some TV to pass some time until I can succumb to sleep.

  At around 3 a.m. there’s a knock at my door which surprises me because I’m not expecting anyone. I look out the peep-hole and see Tuck standing there, so obviously I open the door.

  “Hey,” I say looking curiously up at him. Damn this man is fine.

  “Hey Harp,” he says softly looking down into my lust filled eyes.

  “What are you doing here this late?” I ask.

  “I couldn’t sleep and knew you were working so I thought I could come and see you now,” he says with a sexy smile on his face.

  “Oh okay,” clearly I’m happy and my stomach starts doing these crazy somersaults again.

  “I thought maybe I could stay the night unless you don’t want me to,” he says rather quickly.

  “Sure!” I say a little too excitedly. The smile on his face says he’s happy as well.

  “Good. We haven’t been able to see each other much this week and I miss seeing you, so here I am,” he says in all sexy Tuck fashion.

  “I’m glad you came. I missed you too,” I say with a cute smile on my face.

  He laughs and says, “Let’s get some sleep.” We head into my room and get ready for bed. I am more than comfortable to sleep in Tucker’s arms.

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  “Morning beautiful,” Tuck says softly into my ear.

  “Good morning,” I say while stretching a bit.

  “So, I was thinking that we could just hang out inside all day today until you have to go into work,” Tuck states looking hopeful.

  “Sure, we can do that, anything in particular you have in mind?” I ask curiously.

  “Hmm…well,” he looks like he’s thinking.

  “Like stay in bed and make out all day?” I ask trying to be all sexy and seductive, clearly not working in my favor. Once I say the words I regret it because his eyes get a dark look in them, which is a little scary. And because it seems like I’m talking about us maybe having sex…which I’m not ready for.

  Tuck starts laughing, “Well as great as that sound, I’m not sure I would be able to stop from wanting to go further if we’re lying in bed. “ Obviously Tuck reads my face because before I can continue he says, “Harp don’t worry, we can make out, just not in bed all day.” The smile on his face is so sexy, damn him for making me all hot and bothered.

  “Good,” is my only reply.

  I hop out of bed to go and brush my teeth because morning breath is gross; Tuck follows me in probably thinking the same thing. Once our brushing is done I reach over and grab him, pulling his head down to meet mine. If I’m getting a chance to make out with Tuck today, I am damn well going to get my fill of him.

  Tuck makes me feels things I’ve never felt before and damn if I don’t want more to happen. Our passionate kissing is getting heated and he starts walking backwards out of the bathroom while kissing me, leading us towards my bed. Tuck slowly sits on the edge of the bed and I am positioned in between his legs frantically kissing and tasting every bit of his mouth. He lets me and in seconds I have him lying on the bed and I am straddling him, kissing him and myself senseless. I can feel his erection growing and wonder what it would feel like for him to hit my most sensitive spot.

  My body, having a mind of its own, starts moving against his hard erection and I hear a soft moan come from Tuck’s throat. Hell I’m making my own noises, not sure where they’re coming from.

  Tuck slowly flips us to where he is on top of me kissing my lips, my face, and down my neck, across my collarbone. The noises that are coming from me are so foreign that I feel slightly embarrassed. My God, I want him to go further down, to touch me; my body feels on fire by his touch. As if he can read my mind he says, “Harp, can I kiss you everywhere? I need your permission first,” he asks in such a sexy seductive manner. I can’t seem to get close enough.

  I nod my head and Tuck pulls my tank top straps down to release my breasts. He starts slowly licking and kissing all while kneading them. Once they are rock hard peaks, Tuck finally takes one into his mouth and oh gosh, the moans from me are animalistic. Tuck makes sure to spend equal time on both of my mounds and oh my I don’t want him to stop. My body is reacting to everything he is doing.

  “So responsive,” he says with lust filled eyes.

  “Mmmhmm,” is my only response. The way he is kissing and sucking is making me go crazy.

  “Harp can I go further?” he asks hopeful.

  “Mmmhmm, please don’t stop,” I beg.

  He slowly lowers my shorts and underwear. I should feel embarrassed because here Tuck is seeing me naked, but my mind is elsewhere and only concentrating on the way he is making my body feel.

  “You are beautiful Harp,” he says as he slowly places kisses on my stomach and from hip to hip. He continues his kissing torture to my body and slowly so slowly I feel his fingers move through my slick folds. “Are you okay?” he asks as he slides up my body so his lips can meet mine while his fingers work their magic down there.

  “Oh yeah, I’m good,” I say a little breathlessly. Then I feel a finger enter me and a part of me jumps, not ready for the sensation. The other part is excited because of this sexy man beside me. The moment I jump though Tuck stops, “Baby are you okay?” he asks in a panicked tone looking into my eyes.

  “I’m good Tuck please don’t stop,” I practically beg and he continues. He moves his finger inside of me then adds another. The way he is moving them inside of me is driving me crazy, but the palm of his hand is what is making me go nuts. He is rubbing my nub and shit, all at once my mind is going wild. Then add the kissing to my lips and body and this man is making me explode, seeing nothing but stars. Tuck continues to kiss me until my body calms down.

  “Wow,” is all I can say.

  “Harp, that was the sexiest thing ever,” he says with a huge smile then kisses me again.

  As much as I want to please Tuck, I have no idea of where to start. I mean I’ve read plenty in books, but that’s not the same thing. As if Tuck can read my mind, he stops kissing me and looks me in the eyes. “Harp, have you ever had sex before?” he asks with sincerity in his eyes.

  Damn him, why did he have to ask me this now? I can’t talk about this, not right now.

  “Yes, but I’m not ready for that,” I say softly hoping not to ruin the mood.

  “We aren’t ready for sex. I’m sorry, I just had to ask,” he says sweetly still staring at me. I feel like he can see into my soul and see the shattered mess that’s there.

  “It’s fine,” I say and suddenly Tuck takes my face into his hands and kisses me so deeply, damn I turn to a puddle of mush
when it comes to this man.

  “I could kiss you all damn day,” he says, staring at me with hungry dark brown eyes.

  “Sounds like a plan to me!” I tell him with a big smile on my face.

  “As great as that sounds we need to eat, we will continue this later beautiful,” he says while standing up. He still has a tent in his shorts and damn if I don’t want to help him out of that situation.

  “Umm Tuck…what about,”…I nod at his erection in his shorts.

  “It’s fine Harp, I just need a few minutes,” he says like it’s no big deal.

  The rest of the day is great. We make out more and hang out and laugh at stupid reality television shows. The day turns out to be a lot of fun, but soon it’s time for work.

  “So Tuck, do you want to spend the night tonight?” I ask him with a hopeful look.

  “Why Harp, can you not get enough of my sexiness?” he says with a sexy smirk on his lips.

  “Oh shut it, I can do fine without...that!” I say while pointing to his body.

  He starts laughing, “I would like nothing better than to spend the night with you in my arms. The guys are planning to come into the bar tonight anyway so I’ll grab extra clothes and then swing by and wait for you to get off work tonight,” he says looking at me and smiling.

  “Good, can’t wait!” I say. My stomach starts doing those damn flips again.

  Tuck drops me off at work before heading back to his frat house. I can’t help how excited I am. I’m in a great mood to work all evening. Tuck and his friends aren’t here yet, but I hope he will be here soon. Damn him for making me a giggly high school girl.

  Around midnight, Tuck comes into the bar with his fraternity buddies. Most of them look drunk already. They make their way to the tables in the corner and one of the waitresses takes their drink orders. The bar tonight is busy, but it’s not out of control. Parker is talking to Natalie and they keep looking at me so I know something’s up, I just don’t know what. I’ll find out soon enough though I’m sure.

  After I finish serving the last customer at the bar, I make my way down to them and ask, “What’s up?”

  “So you and Tuck are an item now?” Parker asks angrily.

  “I don’t know what we are guys,” I state truthfully, because honestly I have no idea.

  “Seriously Harp, you need to be careful, Tuck’s not the guy you think he is,” Parker says looking at me in all seriousness.

  “Look Parker, I appreciate your advice, I swear I do, but Tuck and I talk and we’re good. I promise I’m not in over my head,” I say smiling to them both, hoping to reassure them that I know what I’m doing.”

  “Harper…there’s thing’s you don’t know about Tuck that maybe if you did,” before he could continue Tuck interrupts, “Parker she’s well aware of the shit in my life. I don’t keep shit from her, so she knows what happened in regards to my family situation,” Tuck all but spits out.

  “You told her?” Parker asks questioningly.

  “Yes, I told her,” Tuck says shocking Parker.

  “Holy shit…Natalie I need a shot. Tuck, just because you told her doesn’t mean you’re a changed man. You’re still an asshole,” Parker takes his shot and then leaves without saying another word.

  “Maybe we can work on that situation later,” I say to Tuck.

  “No, that’s never gonna happen, he’ll never forgive me,” Tuck says with a touch of sadness.

  “Why not?” I ask curiously.

  “That’s for another conversation, one I don’t want to have here,” he says with a small smile.

  I can tell that he misses Parker’s friendship. From what Tuck’s told me, they were best friends growing up, but I have no idea what happened. Definitely something I need to bring up soon to find out what went wrong between them.

  “Okay, are you having fun?” I ask Tuck trying to change topics.

  “I am now that I see your beautiful face,” he says sweetly while staring down into my crazy lusty eyes.

  “Oh you’re good mister. I gotta get back to work, so I will see you in a bit!” I state with the biggest damn smile.

  “You can bet on it,” he says with a sexy smile, before walking back to his table of friends

  I get back to work and can’t help but watch Natalie’s looks toward me. I know she has questions; I’m just not sure I have answers. I see Tuck a few times throughout the night, but never long enough to have a conversation. I also see Parker getting pretty drunk, which is unusual for him.

  The night is getting busier and busier by the minute and before I know it, the bar is packed. Natalie and I are running around serving drinks and trying to keep the customers happy. Finally, after nonstop customers, we announce last call. I cannot wait to get out of here. I spot Tuck and smile sexily at him, well at least I try.

  Tuck tells me he will wait outside until I finish up because all customers have to leave. Nat and I restock all the coolers and help clean up before heading outside ourselves.

  Walking outside was a mistake. I hear yelling and slurs and a bunch of people standing around. I make my way over to see Parker, drunk as hell, bitching at Tuck. Great, just how I wanted my evening to end up.

  “Tuck, what’s going on?” I ask.

  “Stay back Harp, Park’s drunk and a bit irritated,” he says in a warning tone.

  “A bit irritated, no Tuck I’m not irritated, Harper is too good for you and you need to let her the hell alone. She doesn’t need for you to fuck shit up for her or mess with her head,” Park yells.

  I step in not allowing for this nonsense to continue any longer. “Parker, I told you I’m fine, everything is good. You’re drunk, you need to go home and sleep it off,” I try to reason with Parker. He looks at me and then back to Tuck.

  “Tuck, does Harper know the whole story or only your edited version of it? Does she know what the fuck you did to me and my family? Did you tell her that shit?” Park yells, but his look is focused on me.

  Oh shit, this cannot be good and by the look on Tuck’s face, he has a story to tell there.

  “No Park, I haven’t told her about the situation with you and me. I plan on doing it, but obviously you seem to think it will be better coming from you,” Tuck yells back at Parker

  “At least she would get the whole truth and not your edited bullshit,” Park slurs back.

  “I haven’t fucking edited anything. I told her the damn truth and I will tell her the damn truth about how I fucked up and ruined our friendship too,” Tuck yells, and I see sadness in his eyes. Whatever happened between them is bad.

  “Well then tell her, I’m waiting. Let see if she still wants your dumb ass once she sees the real kind of man you are Tuck,” Park yells at Tuck.

  I step in and yell at both of them, “Look you two, we are NOT discussing this shit here. Parker, I will talk to Tuck and he will tell me the truth, but it will not be here in public. We are leaving, Parker I suggest you do the same.”

  Then I grab Tuck’s arm and pull him out of the crowd that has appeared around us.

  Once we get into the car I turn to Tuck, “Look we are not going to discuss this tonight. I want to enjoy the rest of my night with you. We can discuss this shit another time,” I say, finally taking a breath.

  “Okay. Thanks Harp,” Tuck says as he grabs a hold of my hand and holds it the entire drive back to my dorm. We get back to my dorm and I hop into the shower and get ready for bed. I crawl in beside Tuck and get comfortable.

  “Have I told you how amazing you are?” Tuck asks me surprising me.

  “Umm definitely not, go ahead and fill me in!” I say laughing.

  Before I know it Tucker starts tickling me and I’m laughing and struggling to get away and then he stops and looks into my eyes, “You are so special and you’re all mine!” Then he kisses me senseless. Eventually we fall asleep in each other’s arms.

  Chapter 22

  For the next few weeks Tuck and I fall into a routine. We see each other as much as possib
le and he spends the night a few times a week. We make sure to see each other around our work schedules and things are looking good. Every time one of us starts to bring up the past the other says, not today. It’s like we both know the inevitable, which is that once the past comes out the other one will run, so we avoid it like the plague.

  I want to tell Tuck the truth about my past, but I’m scared shitless. Not just for telling him about what I’ve been through, but for having to relive it as well. I’m still in therapy and my shrink thinks I need to let him know and soon. Avoiding it can only make things harder and possibly worse.

  When it’s the right time, I will open up and tell my darkest secrets. I just hope like hell that Tucker will still look at me the same way.

  Tuck and I make out like teenagers and yes I’m itching to do more, but my good ol’ shrink says I need to tell Tucker my past before I allow us to take that step in our relationship, all in good time.

  Another week goes by and things are great, but unfortunately the time is coming for Tuck and I to talk. We decide since we have a three-day weekend coming up, we will talk about our pasts, starting Friday.

  To say I’m nervous would be an understatement, so I’ve scheduled an extra session with my therapist to help me cope with what I am going to discuss with Tuck.

  I want the week to drag, but obviously it’s not going the way I want. Before I know it the week is already ending and tomorrow is the big day.

  To say the extra therapy session went well would be an understatement. I gave myself a freaking panic attack. God, I hate this and I hate not knowing what Tuck is going to think or do.

  “Hey beautiful,” Tuck says as he kisses my forehead interrupting my train of thought.

  “Hey Tuck, how was class?” I ask out of habit.

  “Good, but thankfully it’s over. Want to hang out?” he asks with a cute smile on his face.

  “Sure, but I thought you had to work tonight,” I ask surprised.

  “I was supposed to but something came up, so I’m not needed. Plus I think we need a night to hang out without the fear of tomorrow haunting us. Harp, I can tell that you’re freaked out and so am I a little bit, but I want you to know that everything is going to be just fine,” he says assuring me.