“Mmmmhmmm,” is all I can mutter with his vicious attack on my breasts.
Then I feel his hand move south and I am itching for him to touch me in my sacred spot. I need him more than I need air right now. “Damn baby you’re soaking wet,” he says with a sexy smirk. Now I’m embarrassed and I can feel myself tense up and my face redden. Obviously Tucker realizes it too. “Baby I am so excited that I make you feel this way, I want to make you feel amazing.” I start to relax and just enjoy Tuck touching my body. He slowly pulls down my sleep shorts and panties so that now I am naked in front of him. I know I should care, but right now I don’t.
“Baby you are so beautiful. I will never get enough of you,” Tuck states.
Then I feel it. OH MY GOD. His tongue licks my core up and down and I can feel my hips start to jerk, but Tuck holds me down in place as he tortures me with his tongue. He licks up and down from my front to my back. Wow, this feels amazing. When he starts sucking on my nub, I start to lose it. I try to hold back not wanting to lose this feeling yet.
Then I feel Tuck’s finger enter me and then another and they are moving in and out of me as he continues to lick my core. My body is building and building and I know I’m going to explode, but I’m not sure how much more I can take. All of a sudden my nipple is pinched and with everything all at once, I’m screaming out Tuck’s name in ecstasy. My body convulses around his fingers and he doesn’t stop his tongue torture until way after my body stops shuddering. He removes his fingers from me and I watch as he licks my juices off his fingers. It’s the most erotic thing I’ve ever seen and I can feel myself get wetter, not sure how that’s freaking possible. Then he moves his head down to my core and starts licking again.
“Oh God, I can’t take anymore, please Tuck.” I’m not sure if I’m asking him to stop or to continue. But he doesn’t stop. He continues to lick and suck all the juices from my body while both of his hands are on my breasts twisting and pulling on my taut nipples.
Both of my hands are now in Tuck’s hair pulling and pushing him into my core. I can’t get enough of his tongue. It’s doing crazy things to my body and I never want him to stop. “Oh my gosh, I can’t t-take anymore,” I plead, though I’m not sure for what.
“Baby, I’m far from done, I want to taste more of you” he says with hooded eyes, and then continues his torturous tongue on me.
I feel his tongue enter me and holy hell it’s amazing. “Ahhhh, ahhhh oh my…..” I can feel myself building up again. Is this even possible?
When Tuck removes one of his hands from my breasts, I whimper. I want his hands all over me. I feel him remove one of my hands from his hair and he guides it up to my breast.
“Harp, I want you to touch yourself,” he says and then continues to lick my core and I look at him watching me. I am so freaking turned on, I instantly do what he says. I start to play with my nipple. I pull on it and twist it so there’s a little bit of pain but a good pain. His eyes tell me all I need to know. He’s enjoying the small show of me touching my breasts and I’m enjoying everything he is doing to my body. Watching him watch me is so hot. I feel myself building and before I know it, I’m screaming out his name again and again.
He continues to lick and suck at my juices, I pull on him so he can come up to me and finally he does. I smash my lips on his and kiss the hell out of his man. I taste myself on him and hell even that’s turning me on. I never thought that would be sexy but it is and I want him unlike anything I’ve ever wanted before.
Finally we pull apart, both breathing hard. Tuck lies beside me and pulls me into him.
“You are amazing beautiful girl,” he says as he kisses the top of my head.
“You’re pretty amazing too.”
I fall blissfully asleep naked in Tucker’s arms.
Chapter 24
The next week goes by uneventful. I go to work, school, and hang out with Tuck. I haven’t seen my parents, so I hope they took the hint and left. I can only pray that’s what they did. I’m 18 and can make my own choices and they can’t force me to go anywhere with them. They’re no longer my home.
Tuck and I spend practically every night together. Which is great, I love falling asleep in his arms. He makes me feel warm and safe. Things are great between us. I know I need to talk to him about my parents and fill him in, especially if they haven’t left town. I’m starting to feel confident that Tuck may not leave me after he knows my secrets. I hope anyway. I know he still needs to tell me what happened between him and Parker too. I hope it’s not too bad because at times I can tell that Tuck misses his friendship with Parker. I’ve caught him staring at Parker several times at PowerTrip’s and I can just tell. Whatever Tuck did was bad, but I hope they can overcome their issues. I plan to try to help that along when the time is right.
It’s Friday afternoon and I decide tonight is as good as any to tell Tuck the truth about my past. As much as I’m dreading it, he needs to know. I talk with my therapist and she agrees, especially because my parents showed up. She believes if we are going to take the next step in our relationship with sex, then Tuck needs to know and understand what’s going on. I agree because we are slowly but surely building up to have sex. I’m anxious and nervous as hell. So tonight’s the night I’ll tell Tuck the truth.
I head to my last class of the day and can’t wait because I get to hang out with Tuck after class. He gets out earlier than me, and I find myself staring at the clock counting down the hours till I’m done. After what feels like forever, class is over and I head out the door and see my sexy brown-eyed man waiting for me. There are a couple guys talking to him and two girls I’ve never seen, hanging on his arm. He looks a bit uncomfortable, but does nothing about it. He must sense me looking because he turns and sees me and the smile on his face brightens my day even more. He excuses himself from the guys and walks straight toward me.
“Hey beautiful,” he says.
“Hey you,” I say, as he leans down and kisses me on the lips. Yum! I can’t get enough of this man.
We make our way out of the building and start walking towards my dorm. Unfortunately, the closer we get to my dorm I see unwanted guests, known as my parents. They’re standing on the sidewalk by their car and they both look angry. I tense and Tuck looks at me and then forward and realizes why I’m tensing.
“Babe, it’s going to be okay. Do you want to go somewhere else and just ignore them? Tell me what you want to do and we’ll do it,” he states worriedly.
“No, I need to deal with this. The sooner I do the sooner they can leave.”
“Harp, you have no idea how much I want to kill your dad for what he did to your sister. It took all I could not punch him last time I saw him,” he states all serious.
Crap, I forgot Tuck knows what my father’s done. He can see the monster that this man is. Unfortunately my mother’s no better, she did nothing, though I’m not sure if she knew all the details but then again, everything is about presentation with her. You can’t make her or our family look bad or heaven forbid.
“I know; trust me I want to kill him myself,” I whisper to him.
We walk towards my parents, “I thought I told you to leave, you’re not wanted here. Go home,” I spit out to them.
“Do not disrespect us like that Laney, we’re your parents. We are not leaving here without you,” my mother states.
“Mom, you can’t make me go anywhere with you. I’m an adult and capable of making my own choices,” I state.
“Yeah, I can see your choices,” my father states shooting daggers at Tuck, “and clearly you aren’t thinking at all.”
“I’m thinking just fine and moving on with my life, I suggest you both do the same.” I state in a harsher tone.
“Laney Harper, what the hell has gotten into you? Why are you so disrespectful? I didn’t raise you that way,” my mother shouts.
“I didn’t ask you to come here, I don’t want you here. I want you to leave and never come back. What don’t you understand abou
t that?” I yell.
“You ungrateful little bitch,” my dad says as he walks towards me. I flinch and tense and I see Tuck grip his hands in fists.
“You will not speak to her like that,” Tuck yells at my father.
“You’re nobody, I will speak to my ungrateful daughter anyway I please. Now leave us with our daughter, this is a family matter,” my father says.
“I’m not going anywhere without her, so guess again,” Tuck states matter of fact.
“Laney, talk to me, I’m your mother. Why are you doing this?” she cries.
“You know damn well why I’m doing this mom,” I yell to her.
“No I don’t, tell me,” she says sadly. Crap, I can’t have this conversation, not here, not now, not before I fill Tuck in on what happened. He can’t hear it this way. Shit Shit Shit.
“Why don’t you ask your husband? He can fill you in on the drive home mom,” I state ignorantly.
“I’m not asking your father, I’m asking you Laney. Now tell me right now,” she states angrily.
Crap, crap, crap. I don’t want this happening here, not in the open, but I don’t want them in my dorm either. Crap. What to do, what to do.
“Look I will talk to you about this tomorrow, okay mom?” I ask hoping she will agree.
“No Laney, we need to get home, we’re going to figure this out right now and then we are going to pack you up and take you home with us,” she practically yells at me.
“I’m not going anywhere,” I yell back at her.
The tears are starting to fill my eyes, I can see this playing out in my mind and it’s not how its’ supposed to happen, it’s not supposed to be like this. It’s about to get ugly real fast. Tuck’s now holding my hand and I squeeze his hand, holding it tight because he’s about to find out the ugly truth in the worst way.
“Fine, let’s go inside talk this through and then we’ll figure things out from there. How about that?” she asks.
“Fine, let’s go,” I say and lead them to my dorm.
I want to ask Tuck to leave because I don’t want him to find out this way, but I need him here for support because I’m not sure what my parents would do if he’s not here to protect me. Crap, double crap.
We go into my dorm and I see my parents looking all around, not that it’s any of their business but my mom’s nosey, she always has been. After a few minutes of complete silence, my parents sit down on the couch and I sit in the chair as far away as possible from them. Tuck’s on the arm of the chair beside me still holding my hand. He occasionally squeezes my hand so I know he’s there and he’s going to protect me, but what I’m about to say may crush him.
“Okay Laney, let’s have it. Why did you run away without so much as a good-bye? Why did we have to track you down and come across the damn country to see our daughter?” my mother spits out angrily.
“Mom you know why I left, don’t play dumb with me. I’m not that stupid naïve little girl you think I am. You want the truth; you already know the damn truth,” I yell. The tears are there ready to fall, but I do my best to hold them back. I rock back and forth nervously and I can see Tuck get a little tense not knowing exactly what’s going on.
“You will not speak to your mother that way young lady,” my father yells. I just stare at him. I want to punch him and punch him until he can’t take it anymore. I want him to feel the pain. The pain he caused this family.
“I have no idea what you’re talking about Laney, what truth? What do I already know?” my mom asks confused.
“Why I left mom, you know why. Hell why do you think Allie killed herself? It’s because of that asshole right there,” I yell at her.
“Don’t you dare speak about me in such a manner. I ought to beat the shit out of you for saying such a thing,” my father argues.
I can feel Tuck tense and I see he’s angry and probably only see’s red, I squeeze his hand and he looks at me with sympathy in his eyes. He holds back saying anything and I appreciate it.
“I hate you and you know exactly why I hate you. I hate you for the pain you caused Allie, for the pain you caused this family and for the pain you caused me. I hate you and I wish it was you that was dead. Allie deserves to be here not you,” I yell at him.
“You ungrateful little shit,” my dad stands and starts to walk towards me and I stand but Tuck stands in front of me. “You speak to her like that again and I will not be respectful to you being here. You do not and will not speak to her that way,” Tuck tells my father.
My mother starts to slowly sob but it’s just to get a reaction, she’s always been this way. She has no heart; I learned that a long time ago. It’s always about her and that we make sure to show a happy family to everyone around us, well not anymore.
“I can’t believe you’re doing this to our family Laney, what’s wrong with you? How can you say such hurtful things to your father? Allie made her choice; your father didn’t make her do anything,” my mom states through her fake tears.
“Are you fucking kidding me, he’s the sole reason she’s dead mom.” I am now standing in front of Tucker and he has his arms on my shoulders holding me in place. I’m shaking so badly and the tears are about to flood out of my eyes. I hate this so much. I just wish they would go away.
“You are way out of line young lady. Your father didn’t make Allie kill herself,” my mom states again.
“Yes he did, I read it all in her journal. After he…he...he raped her over and over again. She did the only thing she could to get out of the hell he put her through,” I yell and now the tears are rolling down my cheeks.
“Your father did no such thing. How dare you say such a horrid thing about your father. He loved Allie, he never hurt her,” my mom yells.
“Yes he did mom and you damn well knew about it. Allie wrote in her journal that she told you and you…you did nothing to stop it. NOTHING. What the hell is wrong with you? You’re our mother, you’re supposed to protect us,” I yell through the tears.
“I knew of no such thing. Allie never told me anything Laney, don’t believe everything you read. Your sister was full of stories. She tried to make up all sorts of things all the time. You never knew what the truth was and what lies that spewed out of her mouth were,” my mother shouts.
“Yes you do, she was your daughter, you knew she didn’t lie about that and you let him, that monster continue to do that…how could you mom?” I can’t stop the tears; they’re like a flood coming out of my eyes.
My father is standing there not saying a word. I can tell he’s angry because his face is red and it looks like he wants to beat the shit out of me, but not this time. I won’t give in I won’t back down from him anymore.
“Laney, what happened to Allie was horrible. I should have done more, had her see more counselors or something but your sister was ill. She wasn’t in her right mind. That had nothing to do with your father sweetie,” she says calmly now.
“Stop with all the lies. That’s all they are LIES. You know the truth because I know the damn truth. Allie never lied. She asked for help more times than a person ever should have to and no one stepped in, no one did the right thing. Don’t sit there and act like she made him touch her, she didn’t make him do anything, he chose to be the disgusting pig who took advantage of his own daughter,” I holler. I feel Tuck squeeze me on the shoulders reminding me he’s still here with me.
“You will not speak about your father that way. He loved you girls and would have done anything for you. You apologize to him this instant Laney,” my mom yells. “NOW,” she says.
“I will never apologize to him; he’s a monster and deserves to be locked up for what he’s done,” I yell to the both of them.
“YOU BITCH,” my father yells. Before I know what happens my father is lying on the floor holding his face.
“I told you NEVER to speak to her like that again,” Tucker yells. I pull Tuck back by my side. My mother runs to my father’s side to console him.
“This…this
is the type of people you hang out with Laney. He hit your father. You need to get away from people like him. This is why you’re coming home with us. Now get your things and let’s go,” my mom stammers.
“I’m not going anywhere with you.”
“Yes you are, damn it now let’s go,” she yells.
“NO!” I scream
“Laney, for the last time, your father did nothing wrong. You need to get your shit and we are taking you back home where you’re safe. Do you hear me?” she says angrily.
“Safe, are you kidding me.” I say with a laugh. “That house is hell; I’ve been living in hell for two years because of him. I will NEVER go back there. I will die before I step foot back into that house,” I yell at her. I feel Tuck tense over my choice of words.
“What are you talking about Laney? You had everything you could ever ask for. You never went without anything. I’m sorry your sister took her life, but again that had nothing to do with your father. Now stop trying to blame him for the things that went wrong with Allie. She made her choice,” my mom states.
“Wrong again mom, he made that choice for her. He took her choices away. He did that,” I state angrily to her.
“You are so far off base Laney; you have no idea what you’re talking about. Your father’s a great man. He was a great father to both you and Allie and you two never went without anything. Do not try to make him seem like he’s done wrong by you,” she shouts.
“Are you serious right now? You are going to stand behind a rapist, a child pedophile? Seriously mom?” I yell.
“Do not ever say such a thing again. He is not a rapist or a pedophile. How dare you speak that way about YOUR father.” she yells.
“Laney, get your shit NOW,” my father finally speaks.
“Get the hell out, both of you,” I yell.
“We are not leaving here until you get your things and you apologize to your father for your wrongful accusations,” mom states.
“I will never apologize to him, NEVER. He is a rapist, that’s what he is,” I yell.
“LANEY, stop now. You apologize to him this instant,” she yells.
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